I think, I am actually dealing with infertility.
Or maybe it's just sinking in now. I saw a second RE, who basically concurred with my first, that IVF is my best chance of conceiving. In fact, he said he thought we'd have only a 10% chance of conceiving with IUI, at best. And then there's the whole risk of ectopic. I asked what are my chances now, trying naturally, and the answer to that was 2-3%, and that's if the tubes are open. It's not ZERO, I guess.
Even my husband was shocked at that number. This doctor wants to get my surgical report before going any further, so his estimates could change. The problem is that my tubes were damaged with endo, and even with surgery to open them, he says the adhesions will come back. It's been a while since surgery so who knows what things are like in there.
Truth is, I don't know if we will do any fertility or IVF. I now want to, but my husband does not agree.
That is most of my story. It's been a rough few days for me since the consultation. I was so hoping we'd do this naturally. But in a weird way, I feel like I can relax a little about wondering half the month, am I pregnant? Probably not! I think I'll be a little more prepared for the disappointment now.
Sorry to all the rest of you who are struggling. I hope you get your miracle too.