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    Just starting to hit me... wow, where does the time go?
    My Guardian Spirit Richard 03/18/57 - 02/18/01
    "Life is hard, it's harder if you're stupid"

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    Wish my heart would heal as quick as the time flies. But 5 years later, I still walk around with a huge hole where my husband should be.

    The bed seems colder tonight. I use to avoid going to bed just so I didn't have to feel it. I guess that's what I'm doing tonight.

    Is that why I push them away? The ones who want to get close? Maybe I really don't want a new person, honestly, what would I do with someone new? Would I even know how to act?

    Seems every year around this time there is a debate that touches into widowhood on the debate board. I don't think it's an accident. Just a friendly reminder, that yes he is still here, that yes he knows I still hurt. I wish he would just hug me tonight, and then he could kiss me. I wish he would do the same for our son, who has missed so much with his dad.

    I cry for my son, I cry for myself. I cry for this hole that I carry around in my heart. Yearly the wounds open as if they never closed, and the tears flow. And while most ppl view their new year as a happy event, at this time of year for me, it is the Saddiversary.

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    ((((HUGS))))

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    I'm sorry T (I know I haven't been on much)

    It seems like it is so hard for 5 months out of the year for me. It starts with Thanksgiving, Christmas, new years, James' b-day, Jordan's b-day, and JD's b-day... then there is Feburary, when we were told he had cancer, July when he was so horrably sick the whole month, August when I lost him, October when we would take our trip every year durring my birthday.... now that I think about it it can pretty much suck 365...

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    Married Best friend James 6/27/92, lost him 8/4/04


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    So far it is not easy. I get upset and want mom even more when I am prego. Or Peter will do somthing cute and I want to call and tell her about it. I miss our nightly calls.

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