Reading the posts that have been put up makes me realize I am not alone in my grief. I am so sorry for the losses that you all have experienced. My little girl is due May 4th and I can't wait for her to come because I am ready to see a new life and not have to see death for a little while. During this pregnancy, my mom died of a long battle with cancer. She died on January 8th. Having her go before ever seeing my baby has been so hard. While she was sick I kept telling her that she just had to hold on long enough to see the baby and my doctor had even said that he would deliver me up to a month early. When I realized that her health was getting worse, I finally had to talk to her and tell her that is was okay if she didn't get to see the baby. That was the hardest thing for me to say because I really wasn't feeling that way. My husband and I did get to pick the baby's name before she died and we did tell her, but we are keeping it a secret until the baby comes because we both feel that it is the last connection that we have with her. I miss her so much I can hardly stand it sometimes. After she died I started having problems with my heart which I really think is due to stress, but my doctor has run a lot of tests just to be sure. They have all come back normal. My mom was just always here for me when there was a problem and it is hard not having her during all of this. On top of my mom's death, I also lost my aunt to cancer 5 months ago and my sister-in-law had a stillborn last month. I don't want to have to go to another funeral for a long time after all of this.