It will be the 4th year of his death. And I still grieve. I don't know a day I won't feel like I'm missing out. From Christmas, to March 18th, Richard's birthday. December to March will always be difficult months. I will always grieve either outwardly or inwardly.
I am sorry.
Christmas Eve I looked up at a full moon in a clear sky and wished James a Merry Christmas. I cried after I got the kids in bed. I still have a lump in my throat.
Jennie mom to Jordan 1/01 and JD 3/03
Married Best friend James 6/27/92, lost him 8/4/04