missing mom, dad and baby
Hi my name is Robin. I am new to this site, but have posted on the miscarriage site plenty of times. I am having a hard time right now. My mom died in 1987 when I was 12 years old, then my dad died in 1997 when I was 22. In June I had a m/c to a baby girl.
I feel like everyone I love goes away. The death of my daughter has brought back some horrible feelings of the death of my parents. I miss them so much and wonder what life would be like if they did not die.
I feel betrayed that they left me when they did and I am angry at God for taking them. I never had these feelings before. I don't know maybe I never really grieved them and now that I am in the process of grieving my daughter I am remembering them. All I know is that for the past two days all I do is cry. I thought I was past this in my life. I am 32 now, I should not need my mom and dad, but I want them so badly.
As for my baby I miss her to but I know I did everything I could to keep her. I just don't know how to get out of this funk that I am in. I want to be happy but something keeps pulling at me. How do you get passed the disappointment and sadness that life hands you?