Yesterday was my grandpa's birthday. He died Nov10,2003. We all went up to the cemetary and had a beer with him. we sang happy birthday to him. We have been through most of the "firsts" since his death. I am so fortunate that he was able to see my kids when they were born. I am fortunate that my kids will always remember him. They were able to spend quality time with him for 6 years. I think that I may be at peace with what has happened. I hope you all find peace soon.