My story~ wanted to share~

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My story~ wanted to share~

My name is Cass and I lost my late husand November of 2003~ Two year anniversary is coming Sad

It is so hard, especially when every time I look at my sweet daughter Amber, I see him. She looks so much like him~ it hurts~

I remarried and am trying to conceive ~ My old life forever haunts me though~

I dream about him still~ He haunts me in my dreams~ He was killed in a bad accident ~dirt bike vs. 18 wheeler~ He was on the dirt bike~ he was unrecongnizable~ It was an awful accident. I will always miss his long red hair, blue eyes and sweet smile, not to mention dimples~ dimples my daughter got from him.

He was only 31, we were married 5 years. I really wanted to die after the accident but had to go on for Amber~

Thanks for "listening"

John Watson Auld

6-18-72 to 11-08-03

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:bighug: welcome to the board so very sorry for the reason. I just want you to know you are not alone. We are here and we will listen. So come back anytime you want to share, vent... whatever. Smile

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Thank you! I will check in time to time Biggrin

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Hi Cass. I'm Jennie. I've been scarce lately.
tomorrow is my 1 year mark sense I lost James to cancer. I'm sorry for your loss, Like T said, come here anytime. It's a great place to share and find support.
Your DD is so sweet looking, that's a great pic of her. Smile

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Hi Jennie~ Thank you for the support, I appreciate it Biggrin

I still think of John often, well everytime I look at Amber. I know that she looks a bit like me, but all I see is John. November 8th will be 2 years.

I am sorry about your loss. I hate Cancer so much! I pray all of the time for God to wipe cancer out!

Take care and may God carry us through day by day.

Here is a new picture of Amber, she really does favor John a lot.

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See, I've thought the same thing about my DH and Ricky. But for most everyone else, I say Ricky looks like me. But here's a picture comparison:

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Hi Biggrin

Your son looks like your late dh to me! Has his eyes and eye brows for sure!

I need a scanner to download John's pictures, someday I will get a scanner and post a comparison picture.

Hope you have a good day!

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I am also a remarried widow TTC my first and my DHs 2nd. Every day is a blessing.

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Augusta, I really hope you get your BFP, and have lots of happiness!

God Speed my friend!

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Thanks, Cass.

The holidays are so hard, bringing me memories athat are sad. This is my 2nd without him, my 2nd with my new love. He has been gone for almosy 22 months. Seems like yesterday and seems like forever ago.

So bittersweet. We were together for over 8 years, sick with cancer for over 5, every adult X-mas spent with him until he died, every X-mas for the last 5 years tainted by possible relapses or treatment. It is hard to get into the holiday spirit, I feel like a Scrooge sometimes, but just want everyone to focus on the reason for the season, not consumerism.

Bless all of you out there who know what I am trying to describe. We had it all, and luckily, I have it all again with my new love. We will always love and remember them...remarrying and starting a new chapter does not make us forget...

Hugs.

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Hi i Cass ! So sorry for death of your husband. You really suffered a lot and this was quie a very critical time to endure. You are really bold and remarried. it is good for you, May God bless you and provide happy life to you.