new here and dont know where to begin
hi everyone my name is lynn and i would like to share my story. i have had a few very rough years, begining in may 2002, my father died of cancer, in which i watched him suffer for many months.
my stepfather, that raised me, died in june 2004, and i watched him pass away in the hospital. after my stepfather passed, i then started caring for my mother, who had really become lost after his passing.
my mother passed away in april 2005, and i also stayed with her until she passed in the hospital. i couldnt bare to leave her alone, it was a joint decision among the four of us children to let her pass away comfortably after being very sick and giving it all she could. this was very devastating to me, and taking her off of her machines was not only painful, but i still feel like a part of me is also gone with her. i decided to post my feelings because it seems to be getting worse, with the approaching holiday, and now my sons only living grandparent and a second mother to me, is also very ill. im really looking for support from others who also feel this way, and im looking for somewhere that i can express my feelings. i still live in my mother and stepfathers home, and it feels so empty without them here. this is their home, and it doesnt feel like a home without them. with the holidays approaching, i dont know how i will cook dinner without them. this is also my first holiday season that ill be cooking turkey and ham. my parents used to do it every year. i just feel so lost, and really heartbroken.
God Bless, Lynn