Today is not good..
I am sure you remember my post awhile back about needing help. My dad has been gone 1 year and 5 months now. And well today is his birthday and I just don't want to do anything but sit and cry. I know that I can't at least for the sake of my kids. Most days I am fine, but when holidays or birthdays come around I am a basket case. I swear sometimes I feel like I am having a nervous break down. I just don't know what to do.
I am so sorry about your father. try and relax today. I know it is hard and what you are feeling is normal. my mom lost a baby in 1985 and she still cries on her birthdays and the anniversaries of her death. maybe do something special with your kids today may help ease your mind. I hope you can find some solace today.
I'm sorry about your dad. I hope your day got better and you found some peace. I don't know if this will help or not but I was real close with my grandfather and everytime something like his birthday or a holiday comes up where I really miss him. I go to the cemetary and talk to him for a little while. I always feel a lot better afterwards. HTH. If you need to talk I'm here for you.