ever heal? This is my second Christmas without my dad and my heart is breaking just as bad as it did when he left us. To make matters worse there are some court issues that my mom is having with my dads brother and sister. I just feel like my whole world has been turned upside down. I feel as if I am loosing every bit of sanity that I had. It really breaks my heart that this is my sons first Christmas and my dad isn't here to come by and watch him open his gifts like he did for Skylers first Christmas. I am so thankful to have that memory, but I wish he could share that with little James. I am sorry to seem so down, but I am just afraid that I am on the verge of loosing it. Thanks for listening.