I haven't been posting much lately and certainly not like I usually do. I guess I've been having a lot of stress and anxiety and such and haven't been feeling as chatty.
I started PT appts for all my back/si joint pain (found out it wasn't the sciatic nerve) and that has been great, so maybe me feeling a little better physically (while minimal, it's still huge) has put me back into feeling like myself again.
At my appt last week my BP was really high (137/91) so they sent me in for lab work. Luckily no protein in my urine and lab work is good, but I'm supposed to "rest" more and take it easy more, which is hard to do. BP at today's appt was better, so the rest and increase in protein, potassium etc. seems to be helping. But I'm real tired all the time (I have been going to sleep at 8pm) and get headaches now, and my fingers are soooo swollen they turn white when I try to straighten them out.
I had a weird episode last week where i was having issues breathing (felt like there was a brick on my chest) and I was smelling things my DH couldn't smell (like gas or something) and I freaked out and made him go buy a carbon monoxide detector (even though i KNOW you can't smell that stuff). When I explained it to my MW, she informed me I had an anxiety attack. GREEEEAT.
So I'm trying to let go of things more too. But work has been stressful. I have a bunch of PTO time to take (as I was saving it in case I needed it). I offered to take a cash out during my ML, but my boss never got back to me so I started taking time off (which is probably a good thing to help me relax more). But, with all the time I have to take off, if the baby decides to come on or before Nov. 28th (which is my 39th week, I had DS at 38, and I'm already getting cramps, intense BH etc.), then I only have 5 days left in the office!!!!!!!! And I sent her my maternity leave plan over two weeks ago and I'm still waiting to hear from her about it. No wonder I'm having anxiety attacks! I need to start getting my "coverage" lined out before this baby comes and they are just sitting on their asses. I sent her an email today to try to turn the fire on. Jeesh.
On the positive, I'm only measuring 1 week ahead and have been for a couple of weeks now (which puts us again at the 28th), and baby is locked and loaded and everything is going well. BP should be easily managed until the end, and after 3 appts. with the new MW, I like her a lot! I feel a lot more at ease with the idea of whoever will be at my delivery and that is huge.
It just felt like it was forever away and now it is slapping me right across the face! I'm in a weird time warp! Guess we are pretty much ready for the baby whenever, just need to get work figured out and we will be good.
If you read this far, thanks! Just had some stuff to get off my chest and couldn't think of anywhere better. My DH has been so great, suffering through my incessant snoring, freak out moments, crazy hormones etc. He is doing all the shopping, helping WAY more with DS and cleaning. Thank god I am almost done. I know it won't be easy with a newborn, but at least I won't be pregnant anymore haha.