You ladies on Facebook already read about my struggles with this, sorry to repeat! But if there is anyone else out there with some thoughts on this...
So, I think I might be actually getting depressed over my difficult recovery. I plan to talk to my midwife about it at my next appointment. I should have been discharged from here after my 6 week PP appointment (which actually happened just after 7 weeks due to scheduling) but she is keeping me on as a patient because I am not recovered and she would like to see me again at 10 weeks PP. I'm not cleared to exercise or do anything strenuous really. I had significant internal tears, an external third degree tear, and an episiotomy. And a catheter which I think caused additional irritations. Anyway the tears caused me to lose about a litre of blood and they almost gave me a transfusion. I was in hospital for four days after the birth before they let me go home. They don't even keep c-section recoveries in hospital that long here. Then about a week and a half after the birth I overdid it at home one day and hemorrhaged, my midwife just about sent me to the ER but luckily the bleeding stopped on it's own pretty quickly, it was just a lot at once. Finally after about four weeks of extra strength tylenol and ibuprofen taken around the clock (even in my sleep deprivation I would wake at odd hours of the night when my alarm went off to take my meds!) I was able to scale it back a little and just take a few during the day. Then at about 6.5 weeks PP my bleeding finally stopped. I still had a lot of pain but could manage.
But then at 8 weeks PP I was doing a lot of housework and suddenly felt a a sharp increase in pain, and then I was bleeding again for a couple days. I overdid it somehow again...just doing housework!!!! My pain is still enough that sometimes I have to stop and sit down, still have to take my meds, sometimes it hurts enough that I can't sleep. The lt physical exam I had showed everything was healing nicely, I guess there's just a lot to heal. But I never thought it would take this long, I never thought I would still be in this much pain. Has anyone else gone through something similar? Did you eventually feel normal again? I feel like I will never walk or sit comfortably, never be close to my DH again, never be able to exercise!! I guess I just need some hope or something because I am really down about all this. Next appointment my midwife will do an internal exam and maybe I will have more answers then.
Sorry that was really long!!!!