Just can't shake this feeling...

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CaityA83's picture
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Just can't shake this feeling...

...that something is wrong. My first pregnancy was a blighted ovum and from the beginning it wasn't right. With DS his pregnancy was perfect from the very beginning. Even though I had just had a m/c I still felt like everything was fine and didn't really worry. This pregnancy has been very similar to DS's but for some reason I just feel like something isn't right. I don't know if its bc I haven't had the kind of monitoring that I had last time... I did have my progesterone tested and it was 39 which is really good and a good sign.

Sorry to be Debbie downer... I was just wondering if anyone else feels this way? Or if you have in the past and everything turned out fine?

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I had that feeling with my BO over the summer (although it faded when the m/s hit). I also had it with my m/c in December, but I don't know how much of that was just worry.

The progesterone sounds great. I hope your gut feeling is wrong. Have you thought about asking your doctor for an early u/s or anything?

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I haven't even seen my dr yet. I will definitely mention my uneasy feelings when I see her this week. In the past she has been awesome at sneaking u/s's for us so I'm really hoping she will this time also. She was there for our BO and for our last pregnancy also. With corbin, even though we had just had one with the RE, she still did one in her office. And at 14w5d I had an appt on my birthday and she snuck is in for one to see what we were having! Smile I know it's not typical so there is the risk that she might not do one... But I'm hoping that with my concerns she will be willing to do it.

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I hope it's just pregnancy worry and nothing real :goodluck:

My first pg it didn't feel real because I didn't feel any different and that ended in a m/c. This time I've woken up with hunger-nausea every day for about a week so it's very very different for me. But I haven't gone full term yet so I don't know what anything indicates.

Sorry, no help at all, am I?

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I didn't feel like anything was wrong with me until the week I found out about his heart defect. I hope it's just worry. :goodluck: KUP

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Lurker-
I got pregnant with Cam after I miscarried and I always felt like there was something wrong. I think I just didn't want to completely believe that it would go well so that I wouldn't be as devastated if it hadn't. When he was born, I remember feeling like I hadn't been pregnant at all, but I think it was just b/c I was so worried the entire time something would go wrong...and he is a completely fine 2 year old Wink I feel so pregnant this time b/c I've been feeling sick and having other symptoms, but am having low progesterone issues so kind of have the little, nagging, worry in the back of my head too. I think it's completely normal to be worried, even when you have a super healthy pregnancy and baby! I hope everything goes great for you and that you can sneak a peak soon Wink

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I agree with the above post- I think, when you've recently experienced a loss, it is normal to fear the worst. I feel this way as well even though I haven't had a miscarriage, but I think this is because it took us a long time to conceive, and I am terrified of losing this baby and having to go through all of that again. I think it is also the feeling of being totally out of control; there is nothing we can do right now to prevent a loss, if that is what will happen (at least apart from living healthy lifestyles, etc). That is a really scary feeling, especially if you are used to being in control in other aspects of your life. Hugs to you, and I know how you feel, believe me. Thinking positive is really tough for me right now as well, and I am overanalyzing every tiny little thing happening in my body because of it.

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Thanks ladies for the encouragement. I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling this way. DH will mention something about when the baby comes and in my head I think that it's not really going to happen bc something is wrong and I'll end up miscarrying. I guess it's good that I have gotten this far with no spotting or anything. And my progesterone was really good so I am trying to focus on those things. I'm hoping that if I can convince my dr to do the ultrasound then I'll be able to move forward with whatever will happen.

Thanks again ladies!! You guys are the best. Friday can't come soon enough!!

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I hope your doc is able to sneak you an u/s. She sounds like a really awesome doc! I agree with others, I think any time you've had a loss it is easy to let your mind think the worst. I had a blighted ovum once as well, and have had a healthy son since then. I remember feeling the same way though...I couldn't let myself believe everything was fine. I hope you have an amazing appointment on Friday and get some peace of mind!

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I'm with you on feeling like there is something wrong. I was fine for the first two days but last night before bed there was a bit of light brown cm when I wiped. This morning nothing but a little crampy off and on. I've put in my name for a midwife but I won't hear if I got in until next week and I wouldn't be able to get an appointment with my GP much before then and being that I'm not spotting I don't feel that this would merit a visit to the ER.

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Thanks ladies. I hope it is just nerves and that my dr will humor me with the us! I'm dying to see if everything is ok before I actually start planning for a baby!

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I totally get that. A lot of people have been getting the "dating ultrasound" lately.

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Ever since my m/c I'm a worry wreck in the first trimester! I worried until I heard the hesrtbeat and had an ultrasound at 20 weeks with my last baby. I'm worried now too of course, but I feel so much better after going to church this past Sunday. I don't know if you're a Christian or not, but my pastor said last Sunday that we need to leave our anxiety at Christ's door. I felt like he was talking right to me, and I felt so much peace. Of courseI still worry, but I'm better.

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I love leaving a service line that where you feel like the sermon is written for you! Very cool!!

I don't even know that it's so much that I'm worrying... It's more of just this feeling that something isn't right... My husband will say something about the baby and having two kids and I just have this feeling that that's wrong and we won't take this baby home. Maybe it's just denial or something...

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Sorta lurking but I gotta put in my 2 cents worth Caitlin! My first pg ended in a m/c like you and then when I got pg again with Emma (who is 14 now!) I was nervous but it was do different filled w/symptoms that I almost felt like we were connected early on. And things went pretty well we had our bumps along the way but she was born healthy. Then 2.5 yrs later we got pg w/ our 2nd. It was soo different and I didn't feel connected at all! I was seriously afraid that that baby wouldn't be born alive for some unknown reason b/c I always felt something was wrong. I'm happy to report she's a very healthy 10 y.o. Now! And crazily enough I had a friend who was pg during the same time and afterwards when I confessed to her how I felt (she's never had a loss) she said she felt the same way! Then I went on to have another healthy bean no real worries and then I had another m/c. Then it happened again with my 4th baby (6th pg) I wasn't certain he'd be ok till he was born I was worried I was tempting fate buying clothes and diapers for him I was so sure my gut was telling me something was wrong. Well he is a very honery 6 y.o. So Ive learned my gut often freaks out for no reason even though I've had many losses I don't trust it maybe b/c of my losses I don't trust it?? Hears to hoping you have a very healthy bean in December!!!!!

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Tiffany- TFS, I know that made me feel better... and I'm sure that it made a lot of the other girls feel better too Smile

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Thanks Tiffany!! It does help so much to hear your story and know that everything can turn out ok despite this feeling!! Smile

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Caitlyn-- first, SUPER CONGRATS my friend! Smile

Second, I have felt the same through this pg up until a few weeks ago when we had our most recent ultrasound. And sometimes still I wonder. I didn't really want to share the news outside of my immediate circle because I just had that feeling that something would be wrong. I think it's because we tried so hard for our first pregnancies. It just doesn't seem like it should be so easy for us this time. I'm praying this one turns out to be a healthy sticky bean for you.

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"daniellec.parker" wrote:

Caitlyn-- first, SUPER CONGRATS my friend! Smile

Second, I have felt the same through this pg up until a few weeks ago when we had our most recent ultrasound. And sometimes still I wonder. I didn't really want to share the news outside of my immediate circle because I just had that feeling that something would be wrong. I think it's because we tried so hard for our first pregnancies. It just doesn't seem like it should be so easy for us this time. I'm praying this one turns out to be a healthy sticky bean for you.

Thanks friend!!! Smile Great to see you around!! And glad to hear everything is going perfect! I totally agree that I think it has to do with how hard we had to work to get our first ones and now it just happened so easily... almost seems like its too good to be true... I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop... Hopefully I'll be able to start relaxing now that I know baby is nestled in and happy in there.

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