I feel like I'm tempting fate posting here. I've been thinking about posting since Monday, but couldn't bring myself to do it, for fear of jinxing it.
I know, a pregnancy sticks or doesn't stick regardless of whether we tell or not, but hey, that's LOGICAL thinking. I am HORMONAL thinking -
more than that, I'm just. plain. scared. I've lost four pregnancies since September of 2009, despite seeing the heartbeat with two of them. None made it past 7.5 wks development.
We've done our homework. I've had two genetic mutations identified and they are both being compensated for. We've removed my aged eggs from the equation by using donor egg. We put one gorgeous egg in (IVF) and I knew within 4 days that it had taken, though it took 3 more days to get a positive tests.
The beta more than doubled - it went from 378 to 978. Hooray!
I am living my life being grateful for every boob twinge, every pelvic ache, every afternoon that I'm so tired that I can't stop yawning - and terrified every time those symptoms wane. I'm on top of the world every time I feel like crap. LOL
I'm sorry to be a downer - I am so happy to be here, but I'll be ecstatic to still be here next month!
We have the most awesome due date though - December 24th! What an incredible Christmas I hope we have!!!