I feel like I'm tempting fate posting here. I've been thinking about posting since Monday, but couldn't bring myself to do it, for fear of jinxing it.
I know, a pregnancy sticks or doesn't stick regardless of whether we tell or not, but hey, that's LOGICAL thinking. I am HORMONAL thinking -
more than that, I'm just. plain. scared. I've lost four pregnancies since September of 2009, despite seeing the heartbeat with two of them. None made it past 7.5 wks development.
We've done our homework. I've had two genetic mutations identified and they are both being compensated for. We've removed my aged eggs from the equation by using donor egg. We put one gorgeous egg in (IVF) and I knew within 4 days that it had taken, though it took 3 more days to get a positive tests.
The beta more than doubled - it went from 378 to 978. Hooray!
I am living my life being grateful for every boob twinge, every pelvic ache, every afternoon that I'm so tired that I can't stop yawning - and terrified every time those symptoms wane. I'm on top of the world every time I feel like crap. LOL
I'm sorry to be a downer - I am so happy to be here, but I'll be ecstatic to still be here next month!
We have the most awesome due date though - December 24th! What an incredible Christmas I hope we have!!!
It is very strange how so many of the ladies on this board have all had losses.
I myself had a loss at 7w3d after seeing and hearing the heartbeat 2 days before. I also kept telling myself not to join a board or show off the BFP until we passed 8 weeks but my joy at being pregnant again got the better of me. I am trying so hard to not worry about every twinge but I am also so happy to be feeling nauseous and tired and having sore boobs. LOL
So you're in good company here.
I hope that this is your sticky bean!!
Carole - so glad to see you here...... I know it can be so scary...and it's so hard at times not be excitied and celebrate.....if i've learned anything, it's to enjoy every moment while you can....no matter what - so i understand the cautiousness, but also the joy!!
Nov FET- BFP!!
Olivia Evelyn Teodora 7/16/11 9lbs 10oz, 20in
April FET - BFP
My DECEMBER 2013 SNOWBUNNY is a GIRL!
Welcome!! Congrats on the BFP!! I know how scary it is to be pregnant after infertility. It sounds like you have done your homework though. Fingers crossed that you have solved the problems and that you'll get to stick around with us for a very long time!! So thrilled for you!
We are sooo glad to have you here! Welcome to the board We are a bunch of ladies who have lost babies before so you are in a good group. I always pray for everyone on here so you'll be included!
So glad you are here.
Welcome! While I haven't experienced a loss, I have experienced fertility issues, and am also terrified of miscarriage because of that. I simply do not want to go through the emotional ordeal of TTC again! Hopefully being here will be a source of comfort for you in that you can share some of your anxieties. It has already helped me.
Thank you all for responding and understanding! I'm sore and achy today, so generally feeling pretty good about things today. LOL It's amazing how many of the December's have dealt with either infertility or loss or both.
I hate that I'm in such good company, but grateful not to be joining a folder full of nothing but giddy young mommies who have no concept that things can go wrong.
That probably didn't come out quite right, but I can't think of a better way to put it. It's good to have young hopeful folks around, but depressing when you feel like you're the only one who knows that things can go heartbreakingly bad. Conversely, I wish I was still one of them!