I want normalcy again. I want her back cause at this point.... I wonder if she will EVER come back and I'm not ready for menopause even IF we are done having babies. I've had SO many medical issues over the last few years that I need to know my body is (for the most part) normal for my age.

I'd welcome another pregnancy, and I AM going crazy without AF to prove I am not.. but honestly, the chances are so slim that I try not to dwell on it.