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Breastfeeding Success Stories - Post yours here!

Please post your success stories here!

You may also post them on a separate thread so we can comment. (Please do not comment on this thread for the sake of readability).

Keep them coming! You never know who your story might inspire!

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Posted by: Thyninne
Posted: 27 Feb 2004 10:40
Post subject: Wanted to share a success story
Premature Baby
Weak latch
Formula Supplementation
Pumping in the hospital
Sleepy Baby

Well Jonathan is now six weeks old. He was born 4 weeks premature, and BF at first was challenging. He was just too tired to latch on and suck for very long. The first couple days at the hospital, we supplemented my colustrum (sp?) with formula. On day 2, I started expressing using an electric pump. Each time, I would get more and more colustrum. At each feeding, I would put him on the breast for as long as he could take it, usually trying to keep him awake, and then supplement with a bottle of my expressed milk. My milk came in the day we left the hospital, and we continued the routine at home. Feed on breast, bottle of expressed milk, then I would pump to empty the breast (I have a manual pump at home). As time went on, he started spending more and more time at the breast, and once he got rid of his jaundice, he became an eating machine...spending 10 - 30 minutes at each breast! He was getting his fill at each feeding from the breast, and we no longer had to supplement.

He was 6lbs 2oz at birth, and lost about 7% of his birth weight. He had regained his birth weight when he was about 2 1/2 weeks old. Well, I went and had him weighed yesterday, and he was 9lbs 9oz! The nurse said she could tell he was being breastfed because of the pads on his lips. When I told her what his birth weight had been, she said 'Wow! What have you been feeding him?'. When I told her my breast milk only, she said 'Well, it's obviously working!'. I must admit, that made me feel really good Smile Makes it all worthwhile, knowing that I am doing what's best for him.

Well, this has become somewhat long-winded, but my point is to let new moms know that it is all worth it. The first 6 weeks can be a bit of a struggle as you get started, often you get conflicting advice...but the important thing is to stick with it, and find what works for you and your baby. It is so worth it in the end.

This board has been a big help as well, for advice as well as support. I think it is so important to have a support network.

Posted by: Thyninne
Posted: 01 Mar 2004 09:43

Thanks for the encouragement I must admit that the first couple of weeks were quite trying, and I was wondering if it is was worth it, b/c I felt like I really didn't like breastfeeding. But now I know it's all worth it, and I love breastfeeding!


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Posted by: Katy Books
Posted: 03 May 2004 10:57
Post subject: A BF success story - 2nd time lucky!
Flat nipples
Second baby breastfed after pumping for first
Latch issues


Hi Everyone!

Firstly I wanted to say how informative I have found this board - there is such a wealth of information here and it is so helpful.

I wanted to share my story with you all and I hope it gives some incentive to others to keep on trying even when things dont go smoothly. With my first DS, I really wanted to BF. He had a very traumatic birth (induction and forceps) and was very sleepy from the drugs. When I asked a midwife in the hospital t show me how to BF, she took one look at my breasts and proclaimed "you will never feed with those nipples - they are far too flat". I was totally crestfallen. Over the next few days I tried desperately to BF but couldnt get the hang of it. The nurses put loads of pressure on me to use formula and claimed not to have the time to help me BF. Finally I gave up but expressed my milk for DS and gave it to him by bottle. I felt a total failure. Almost 4 years later I have now given birth to my second son. I was adamant that I would BF this time, no matter what. I read several really good books - "Best Feeding" and "What To Expect When You BF & What To Do If You Cant" and made sure I let my midwife know that I had had problems before and really wanted to do it this time. So when Caspar was born we tried straight away and he was interested - licking and nuzzling the nipple but didnt latch. For the first couple of days he had problems latching on but when he did manage it then he fed for 10 minutes or so. 3 weeks on and he is feeding really well! My nipples are drawn out by his sucking (but return to a flatish state inbetween feeds) and we find the best position to ensure a good latch is laying down tummy to tummy (altho we are getting better at sitting up!). So my message is this: ignore the crap about flat nipples being an issue. Read as much as you can about BFing, talk to as many women about it as you can, and when it comes to it relax and take your time. If it isn't working then stop, give baby a hug, calm yourself down too and then try again later.
DH Rogier; DS Harry Oliver (06/17/00)

Angel babies Alice Rose (02/01/03) & Sebastiaan 04/22/03

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Poster: sploosh
Posted: 06 May 2004 20:30
Post subject: I guess I am a success at something! (VERY LONG WINDED)
Pumping in the hospital
FF first child due to problems
BF after sexual abuse
Lack of family support


I didn't breastfeed my first child. I wanted to... I read every book the library had available, but it doesn't make sense until you are "in the trenches". I was determined to have a baby with no pain meds and breastfeed for one year. Well, I got the first, but only because the nurses wouldn't give the meds to me until it was too late. At the hospital, I couldn't get Nick to latch on. I asked the nurses for help, but the most help I got was that my nipples weren't hard, therefore I couldn't nurse him. We tried to make them hard, but that didn't work either. After five days, he had lost over a pound and a half... The dr said we needed to at least suppliment... I was so scared because he had lost so much, that I figured I wasn't doing the kid any good and just gave him formula. The LC tried to convince me to keep going, and maybe I would have if I hadn't left the office to eat lunch and talk it over with family and then went back. My MIL didn't bf, my SIL didn't bf, my mom only bf me for four months and my youngest brother while he was in the hospital (if she did it more, I never saw it). So, with all the cards against me, I gave up.

When I found out I was pregnant again, I thought I should at least try to bf. It was a hard decision, and I started working it out in my head and on my birth month board (them poor woman reading me babble all the time) and figured out part of my problem with bfing is because I was molested as a child and have a hard time separeting the uses of the boob. When Chloe was born, we had the same problems as I did with Nick. My nipples were too big, her mouth was too small... I had additional problems tho. I had a c-section. Laying on my side (which they had me do the first night) only made my uterus displace and slide around in my stomach. I couldn't get help from DH. And I felt very alone... I had been in the hospital for two days BEFORE Chloe was born, so by the time she was born I was already stir crazy and getting depressed. On the last night I was at the hospital (I was due to be released the next day), I asked for a breast pump. I realized that the pacifier could only make her happy for so long... So I pumped... and I got 50 CCs of colostrum, and felt like a champ! I fed her the bottle and was so proud of myself. I pumped a few more times, and fed her the bottles right away (thank god we didn't suffer from nipple confusion since they were the skinny nipples)... So I got home, and borrowed a pump from WIC... Now, WIC is VERY pro bfing... They gave me a pump with used attachments... They said just wash them off and they'll be fine. ICK! Fortunately, I could use the kit they gave me at the hospital with the pump. So, I pumped for a few days, and decided just for fun to try to put her on the breast again. She latched on... I was so shocked! We've been latching on ever since. I'm now pumping, so that I can have some extras in the freezer. I end up giving Chloe a bottle every few days to let my nipples rest because they are still a bit large for her mouth, so she only gets nipple, and it hurts after awhile. I do the nipple sandwich thing, but still just nipple... I feel a lot better about myself... I think whatever down feelings I had about the c-section were off balanced by the fact that I can make milk! I've even bf in public... My mom gets all pissy about it, but darnit... who cares! I would give the baby the bottle in public. I nurse in front of my son because I want him to know that's how babys eat. He's real interested in my boobs now, but that's okay... He's interested in DH's too.

Nicholas Ian - November 13, 2002
Chloe Cameron - March 26, 2004
DH- Paul

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Poster: rachelrazzle
Posted: 04 Jul 2004 21:11
Post subject: My breastfeeding success story

Lower-weight baby
Sleepy (extreme) baby
Positive Coombs test
Manual expression in hospital
Supplementation for weight gain
Small Nipples
Bad Latch?


I read some other success stories, and they made me sooo happy! It made me want to share mine!

My daughter was smaller when born, 6lbs 3oz, and a positive blood type, mine is negative, she tested positive on the Coombs test (meaning my antbodies were attacking her body as a virus). As a result she was a VERY sleepy baby. We could not get her to wake for anything, even eating. The l/c came the second day to show me how to manually express colostrum into her mouth. The nurses would ask every time if she ate and then write rude comments on her chart when I said I was manually expressing. After going home we had to take her back to the ped's office every two days for a weight check, it took into the third week before she started gaining. At her smallest she was 5lbs 8oz. The ped had advised us to supplement with formula after every other feeding, which we did, I stopped that at about a month. I bought a pump to make sure my supply was up (and was going back to work part time later anyhow) and it was okay (2oz for both breasts). Also, I have very small nipples (they never changed during my whole pg) and she had a difficult time latching. I cried EVERY time she nursed for at least the first 3weeks, it hurt so bad. DH suggested giving her pumped breastmilk, but I was determined.

We stuck it out, and she started thriving, at 2mo she weighed in at 12lbs! She was in the 70%, I was sooo proud. By that point I had an overabundance of milk, I was always leaking and if she pulled off they would squirt all over. We both loved breastfeeding, and DH was all for it too. We breastfed until she was 14mo old, and I sure could have gone longer, but we were TTC, so thought it would be better to stop then. I would not have traded all my struggles for anything, as they made me more determined to keep at it, and sooo happy that I did!

I am really looking forward to breastfeeding this next baby, I miss that closeness and sharing myself with my baby in such a special intimate way. And knowing more now, I can handle bad latch, etc much better!
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Poster: playitagainsam
Posted: 24 Jan 2005 06:29

Nursing after breast reduction surgery
Lack of support
Pumping to increase supply


Okay, I'm new here, but I'll give it a go...

Pg #1: I had a TERRIBLE time bf-ing with my daughter, mostly due to my previous reduction surgery and my lac consult's apparant complete lack of understanding regarding breastfeeding after reduction issues. Everywhere I turned for help I heard either "Your heart is not in it; if it were, you'd make enough," or "What's the harm in using formula? It would make your life so much easier". No one seemed to understand that I simultaneously desperately wanted to bf but was willing to supplement what was needed to make up for what I wasn't producing. I bf for 45 minutes and pumped for 45 minutes every 2 hours for four months, then just quit. Very disappointing.

Pg #2: I'm currently 16 1/2 weeks pg, and have been proactively doing research and seeking professional guidance. My most helpful resource has been Diana West's book (published by the la Leche League) called "Defining your own success." I now feel confident that I will know WHEN supplementation is necessary, HOW MUCH my baby will need, and HOW to administer the supplement. I also have information about galactagogues, which I didn't even know existed until a couple of weeks ago. So, things are looking up!!!

Proud mommy of Ryan Julia, 11/13/01
ttc#2 9 months, donor sperm IUI
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*Angie's note: This is a story about not giving up*

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Location: Yankee South of the Mason Dixon Line
Posted: 02 Feb 2005 08:36 Post subject:


Eventhough my DD quit me at 4 mos. I will post my story...

My DD was born 4 weeks early and I pumped for her while she was in the SCN. We did attempt to b/f but her mouth was so small. After 9 days she was released to come home. I continued to pump and found I had more progress with the Avent Isis manual pump than the automatics. We were still haveing latching on problems and I finally decided to go to our local hospitals b/f'ing group that met once a week. Finally at 7wks. of age my DD latched! Everything was good for about a week and then she kept getting upset everytime I would put her up to my breast. Again went through the reasons as to why she might be regressing, and found out that my letdown and flow were too much for her to handle. The LC had me try a nipple guard, which I know most people do not advise, but it did work for awhile. All along I was still pumping. We struggled off and on until at 4mos. of age she refused to nurse at the breast. She would get upset even if I offered it to her. So I decided that I needed to do something about it and started a daily pumping regiment. After getting sick twice and re-lactating twice at 6mo. of age I dried up. I wanted to get her to 6mos. anyways but when we got to that poing I felt bad that we could not go any further. I know I did my best and hopefully will have an easier time of it with the next one.
Kaya 12/13/03

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Poster: whitemeem
Posted: 17 Mar 2005 15:18

Unsupportive nursery staff
Nursing staff giving glucose/pacis without permission

I bf my dd for 20 months. But when she was born the nursery staff were not very supportive. They brought her to me with a pacifier in her mouth and a bottle glucose H20 they had already partially fed her. Luckily, DD latched on easily once we got home. I guess I was too scared to say anything to nurse's about what I wanted. So make sure your wishes are known. I learned my lesson and will be sure to speak up this time around!!!

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Poster: mystical
Posted: 17 Mar 2005 19:05

Cracked nipples
Baby’s nursing posture
Breastfeeding was more difficult than I’d imagined
Importance of research and knowing what to expect

I pop in here from time to time.

DS was able to room in with me in the hospital. Even though I had a c section, he was very interested in BFing. During the inpatient stay, we had no problems.

Once I got home, everything was great, until one of my nipples developed a huge crack. It was so painful to get DS to latch on. Under pressure from DH, I pumped on that side for 2 days and BFed on the other side. Then I did some research and decided to start BFing on that side again. That has helped it heal so much better! Additionally, I put Lansinoh on both nipples after every feeding. I also noticed that although DS's latch was fine, his body posture wasn't right. I let him be lazy and lay flat, rather than facing in towards my body (with the cradle hold, at least). His position was keeping me from healing! Once I "fixed" his position, I started to feel so much better! My nipple is almost totally healed now and doesn't hurt at all.

One of my friends told me that BFing gets so much easier at 6 weeks, almost like magic, so I was determined to stick it out to the 6-week mark!

I wish I had known how difficult BFing could be! I watched my mom BF 3 kids and she was a LLL leader. I was always around so many BFing moms! All of those LLL moms made it look so easy!


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Here's mine!

Prolonged Jaundice
Failure to Thirve

After a slightly disappointing nursing relations ship with ds1, I decided that I would have another go at breastfeeding with ds2.

Jamie was born at term after a speedy labor & delivery. He latched on well, much to my surprise. I bugged the heck out of the nurses while I stayed in the hospital, but each time I was told that we were doing great. Then when the midwife came to discharge us from her care on day 14, she was concerned about Jamie's jaundice levels and sent us back to the hospital. Luckily his levels were just low enough to keep us from being admitted. But then the hassle started, not from health professionals, but from family and friends (my dh was great though). I think that I found this harder to deal with than anything. I was looking to these people for support. The jaundice dragged on and on, but our ped wasn't worried, so I wasn't worried. We were told that it was called breast milk jaundice and that it is harmless. My family (namely MIL) kept telling me that it was my fault he was so yellow and that I should give him formula.

I carried on nursing Jamie inspite of what everyone else said and he did well until he got to about 4 months when his weight gain had slowed and slowed, until he stopped gaining weight at 14lb. Jamie stayed at 14lb, give or take a few ounces for another 4 months. My family/friends got on my case again, even dh suggested that I supplement with formula. In this time Jamie was admitted to the hospital twice for investigative tests and was diagnosed as Failure to Thrive. While in the hospital for the 2nd time, Jamie finally started to eat stage 1 baby food. He was 8 months old. He has finally started to put some weight on and currently weighs 16lb 1oz. As we stand at the moment, Jamie is STILL exclusively breastfeed. I am so glad that I stood my ground and didn't give up at the first hurdle.

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Low birthweight baby
Tramuatic labor which led to C-section
Hard recovery
Postpartum depression
Unsupportive doctor

I had opted for a natural birth. Instead ended up with a cesearian. The hospital wouldn't allow me to see her right away. It was nearly 4 hours before I could hold my sweet baby girl. Fortunately, they followed our birth plan and did not give Desmina any glucose water, pacifers or formula. Luckily, Desmina had a great latch from the beginning. She was like a baracadua, enthusically nursing.
I had a difficult recovery, recovering from long back labor and major surgery. It was hard to get around. The disappointment of my c-section added to my PPD. I was a mess for months! Desmina had to stay in the hospital longer than I had to because of the jaundice. I had to go up there every 2 to 4 hours to schedule my feedings. Because she was jaudncied, she slept most of the time. We were fortunately able to get home health care and we were able to do therapy from home.
Unfortunately, I was given poor advice and I didn't do my research. I was told to schedule my feedings every 2 to 3 hours. Which I did. Desi was sleeping most of the times anyways, so I had to wake her up to feed her.
Desmina gained her birthweight back by 2 weeks. But her doctor was still unsatsifed since she was a small baby. Every visit we had, he was unhappy with her weight gan, although she was gaining the recommeneded 4 ounces a week. Instead of looking at the baby he would look at the charts. This caused alot of unneeded stress in our lives. And added to my depression as well. Finally after 4 months of BS from the doctor we switched. The new doctor looked at me and said she is small becasue you are. She said Desi looked perfectly heatlhy.
At this point, Desi started dropping in her weight gain. She still is very small. She is a year now and still under 12 pounds. Her cuurent doctor has never said anything about it. Desi is still going strong and nursing! I have never supplemented with formula. I am proud of our breastfeeding relationship.

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Hard delivery
No Milk supply in mom
Nipple Shield

When my DD Megan was born, they used a vacuum to get her out, causing a big bruise on her head. She didn't want anything to do with sucking because it probably hurt her. She was also fairly jaundiced, and very sleepy, so attempts to feed her in the first 4 days did not work well.

I did not have any colostrum, so the nurses had me pumping at the hospital every three hours, as well, we put Megan to my breast every three hours, all to try to encourage my milk to come. I left the hospital after 4 days, still with no colostrum and no milk.

I continued pumping every three hours at home for the next few weeks, and my DH would feed Megan formula (good thing he was off work). I went and saw a lactation consultant when Megan was 6 days old. She put me on domperidone, and got Megan to latch using a nipple shield. I returned to the lactation consultant every two days for the next month, and she increased the dose of domperidone that I was taking each visit until I was taking 4 pills 4 times a day, which I continued taking for months.

When Megan was 8 days old she starting Breastfeeding using a nipple shield, but we were supplementing with formula because my milk supply was so low. When Megan was 2 weeks old we got her to latch without using the nipple shield. As a result of the milk being "forced" it caused me to have very painful letdown every time that I breastfed.
We slowly decreased the amount of formula, and I was 100% breastfeeding when Megan was 2 months old.
Megan is now 7 months old and still breastfeeding (although it is starting to decrease as solid foods increase). I am still taking 2 domperidone pills a day because my milk supply still has some problems.

It took us 2 weeks to get both of us working together, but we finally got it.
I had an amazing lactation consultant, and without her, I might not be breastfeeding my DD.

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Holli & Zoey's story

Let's see...Zoey was born premature by C-Section on April 1st, 2005. She was immediately taken to the NICU where she stayed for 2 weeks. We weren't allowed to even hold her the first week. I pumped starting the second day and she was given breastmilk through an NG tube (a feeding tube inserted through the nose). I didn't try to breastfeed her in the NICU, except for once, because I didn't want her to burn any extra calories while eating. She went from her birthweight of 6 lbs 9 ozs down to 5 lbs 5 ozs. So they didn't want her to have to "work" at eating. She didn't get her NG tube out until the day before she came home. Our first "real" session of breastfeeding was the day we brought her home from the hospital at 2 weeks old. We used a nipple shield for the first 2-3 months. We did use a lactation consultant at home for the first week.

She is now almost 9 months old and she is nursing like a champ. You would never know that she had a rocky start. I was really scared when she was about 7 months old because she had to have surgery. I was afraid she would try to wean herself. But as soon as she woke up she wanted her mama milk. I know when she was in the NICU and I couldn't even hold her, I felt like pumping my milk for her was all I could do for her and it gave me a lot of peace. After we brought her home it was really hard for me to bond with her because we had seen her so sick I was terrified of losing her and wouldn't allow myself to bond. Breastfeeding really healed me and allowed me to fall in love with my daughter and make her mine!

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Large Baby
Pumping while returning to work
Never having B/F before & not having a clue, LOL

Ainsley was born on Oct. 27, 2005 at a whopping 9 lbs. 6 oz. After trying for a natural delivery, I ended up having to have an emergency c-section. Thankfully she was born in a hospital where they believe the breast is best and do not try to give the baby a bottle of formula behind the mothers back. She latched on like a champ, but her birth weight had fallen by 10% when we were ready to leave the hospital and the nurses were encouraging me to supplement. When Ainsley's pediatrician visited us in the hospital she put her foot down and said no- that she wanted to wait a few days to see what happened. Thank goodness she did because Miss A was back up in weight by the end of the first week.

We battled tears and soreness for those first weeks because Ainsley wanted to nurse practically 24 hours a day, but we made it! The best thing that I did was set a goal for myself- first it was 6 weeks, then it became 3 months, now it is 6 months, and I am sure it will become 1 year! Knowing that I had a goal made the hard times better- workign towards something really helped me.

At about the month and a half mark I started pumping and freezing to go back to work because I knew I wanted to B/F as long as possible. I am now back to work and we have a great routine established- I wake Ainsley at 5:00 to B/F before I shower. I pump on one side at the same time. She then B/F's again at 6:30 before I leave for work. She gets bottles of EBM from Daddy (who she is with while I am at work) until I fly over (literally) at lunch to B/F her & pump. She then gets another bottle of EBM from Daddy before I get off at 3 and then she is BF for the rest of the day.

Best part is that I am able to produce enough pumped milk to give her fresh-not frozen milk each day, and still be able to freeze another 10-12 oz each day.

Biggrin :D Biggrin

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Formula Supplementation
Sleepy Baby

Parker was born August 9th 2005, I had tested positive for the Strep B, and when I went into labor I was dehydrated and showing signs of infection. So when Parker was born they put me on the antibiotics and tested him for infection as well, he showed positive for infection. Worried that he had become exposed to the Strep B they put him on antibiotics and IV. The hospital was not anti-brestfeeding, but with babies who were in the NCU ward it was more difficult. They would take him to give him his IV of antibiotics and then they wouldn't bring him back on time to feed him... then when they did finally bring him back they would tell me "You HAVE to feed him, RIGHT NOW" and then they would test his glucose levels because they worried he wasn't eating often enough... even though it was their fault... after that my husband and I would go to the NCU and get him to feed him and take him back when they needed him. After 48 hours they released me, but Parker they kept because he was still fighting off the infection.

I stayed in a nurses lounge with my husband as they ran out of rooms for the nesting mothers. Parker ended up fighting off the infection - which turned out to NOT be Strep B at all - we where just plain old "sick" most likely the flu or something else. When they were about to release him they noticed he had turned yellow and started becoming sleepy and unresponsive... it was heartbreaking, I couldn't stir him awake to feed him at all he was so limp. The doctors told me he needed to go under the blue lights to help him kick the jaundice. They said he could not be away from the lights for more than 20-30 minutes for me to feed him at a time... By this time I was at the hospital 4 days, exhausted, emotional. I tried to nurse him in that window but it was just too hard and he was too sleepy, so I gave the nurses permission to suppliment him and give him whatever they needed to keep him happy while he was getting better.

We finally got to take him home, and I had so many problems with his latch, and with him kicking and arching. Then I had so many visitors and we were going everywhere... it was so difficult getting him to eat but he was taking the bottle okay. So we supplimented him, and I pumped and pumped and pumped. I kept offering him the breast when he wasn't so fussy and more willing to accept it... and after about 6 weeks he took to the breast like a champ and it was going great, my supply exploded I had plenty for him nursing and for work pumping and we've been BFing for almost 7 months now. Parker prefers me to the bottle hands down and it's just so heartwarming to see him want just me.

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I figured I'd post my breastfeeding histnry:

With my son, I had an unexpected c-section and he had no trouble latching on. He nursed great and nursed often. My job which I was returning to when he was 9 weeks old was not a job where I could pump so I started to supplement formula to get him use to a bottle since he was nursing so much, I couldn't build up much of a supply. Once I went back to work, he refused to nurse at night and in the morning like I had hoped and basically self weaned from breastfeeding.

The second time around, I was not returning to my job and I was determined to breastfeed for at least 6 months. I had another c-section and my daughter had some trouble latching at first. Once the lactation nurse at the hospital and I figured out how to get her to nurse, all went well. I nursed her for 13 months total. During that time, I rarely pumped because she'd refuse a bottle if I wasn't around. I think she only drank 3 bottles the whole year.

Right now I'm successfully on month 7 of nursing my youngest daughter. I had a 3rd c-section with her and she latched on with no trouble. I was really lucky with how smooth it all went for me this time around. I've pumped more this time around as my son's in a co-op nursery school where I have required volunteering to do so I want to have milk here for her when I'm not but she'll only drink 1-2 oz if I'm not home and then "wait" for me to nurse. All is going well and I plan to make it to her first birthday and then start weaning.

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Lazy latch
Sleepy Baby
Small breasts
baby reflux

Great free LC (hospital-sponsored)
Great support (Mom & Step MIL bf'd)

Compared to the stories above, I don't think my bf journey has been all that bad so far. However, here's my story just the same.

Immediately after Jacob (my first) was born, the nurse put him on my stomach and said now lets get him latched on to breastfeed. I was a little overwhelmed having just pushed him out for over an hour and twenty minutes with an epidural making me numb from the waist down. She helped me latch him on to each side.

As the days went on, I tried and tried to get his little mouth to open wider and get him to pucker his lips out, especially the bottom one. I had sore nipples, but they weren't cracked or bleeding... and, I used the lansinoh religiously after every feed.

When my milk came in around day 5 or 6, I was very engorged. My breasts (pre-pg size A) wore swollen up to my collar bone - it was not a pretty look! I called the LC at the hospital (whom is definitely worth her weight in gold). She had me work on the engorgement by putting Jacob to my breast and had me massage the breast tissue while he sucked. I nursed him for 40 minutes in her office that day and completely emptied one side - nearly ending the engorgement in my left breast. The right one took a little longer, but through ice and heat and baby I got through it.

Because the massage (compression technique) worked so well at getting the engorgement out and keeping Jacob awake, I continued to use it at every feeding for about the first 3-4 weeks. (This may have helped keep me from getting clogged ducts as I was always massaging my breast tissue :roll: .) I finally stopped all of that, to let Jacob suck, at around 4 weeks.

Then, the thrush came around 2 1/2 - 3 weeks. I tried the Gentian Violet and that made it go away. Then, it came back at 4 1/2 weeks. So, we tried the GV and oral Nystatin for Jacob and it went away.

During this time, Jacob was spitting up a lot and vomitting occasionally. I was getting discouraged because it seemed as though he was spitting up everything he was getting from me. The pediatrician diagnosed him with "baby reflux" and prescribed baby Zantac (0.8 mL) twice a day. This has helped us tremendously. He spits up a considerably less amount, he has hiccups much less often instead of after every feed, and he seems much happier since he started the medicine a month ago. At four months, the pediatrician wants to start to wean him from the zantac.

Joined: 03/22/05
Posts: 2


When Cypress was born, he had the cord wrapped around his neck, which had been causing some dips in his heart rate. But once he was out, he was great, and had an awesome set of lungs! On the day we went home, his bili was up (10), and he was a bit sleepy, and didn't seem to want to nurse. The ped on call said that we needed to take him on Monday (this was a Sat.) to see his reg. ped. That night I knew something was wrong bc he wouldn't nurse at all. By the next morning, we took him to the ER and they admitted him for severe jaundice and dehydration. We had only been home for 13 hrs. In the hospital, we met our angel, the LC on staff who was our advocate. I don't know if I would have continued nursing w/o her support. The first hospital visit, Cypress was in for 4 days, and was released. The second time, he was in for about 5 days, and was diagnosed with GERD and labeled "Failure to thrive" as he hadn't gained any weight in two weeks. The third visit, he had an endoscopy, a PH probe, and other tests. That one was about 3 days. By the end of the third time, he had been placed on a fortifier to my BM to try to help him gain weight. I really felt like a failure. He vomited constantly. Milk allergery was ruled out, and he was just labeled with severe GERD and "failure to thrive" (horrible name). I felt like I was letting my baby down. The LC was wonderful though. She told me to stick with it, and that it would get better. We had to weigh Cypress before and after every feeding, we saw a speech therapist (he had a weak suck reflex and latch), and I had to end up pumping for quite awhile. But it got better. Cypress's reflux started improving, with medication, and he was able to get off the fortifier (added to BM in a bottle), and I was able to nurse him more. Eventually, he was able to nurse without having a bottle, AND he started gaining weight!!! I had to return to work when he was 10 wks old, but I had a huge stash of frozen BM, so I knew that I could keep pumping. My DH is with him during the day, and he would bring him to me at lunch so I could nurse him. It really helped to solidify my resolve to continue to breastfeed w/o supplementing. I knew that if I could deal with all the reflux problems, then I could BF and work. So, now, we have been nursing for almost six months. And NOW, he is almost 15 lbs! So much for labeling my baby "failure to thrive"!!!!

Joined: 10/16/06
Posts: 286

Post Date: April 21, 2006
Baby Birth Date: Feb 18, 2006
All my family FF'd
Overcoming my own feelings about BF'd
Pre-term Baby
Lazy eater
Used nipple shield

Here's my story:

Today I was just thinking about my pregnancy and my feelings toward breastfeeding before I got pregnant and now. They are very different! Pre-preggo I was one of those girls who thought I would never breastfeed. I had tons of excuses ...."my nipples are too sensitive, formula is easier, it will make my boobs sag, etc."

However, over the course of my pregnancy, my feelings began to slowly change. I could feel this little person inside and I loved him with all my heart. One day near the end of my pregnancy, my breast leaked, and it triggered something inside me that made me realize I want to give BF'd a try.

The day I delivered, I was nervous about BF'd. I actually thought that if the nurse didn't offer to help then I would just let him be FF'd.

Wow! It's hard to believe I actually thought that way two months ago because now I can't imagine giving my baby anything besides my milk! It's amazing how having a baby changes you. The bond is so strong, and I get such an emotional connection when I nurse him. I know that no-one else on earth can give him what I'm giving him, and it makes me feels so warm inside. I know he feels the same when he looks up at me with those big blue eyes.

We did have to slowly overcome several issues. David was born at 36 weeks preggo. He had a weak latch and he was a lazy eater. I had to pump in the hospital to get my milk supply going, and I finally had to use a nipple shield to help David with his latch. We still use it every now and then, but he has learned to latch onto the bare breast most of the time.

Why am I posting this? Well, honestly, I needed to reflect on my huge change in emotions over this time. Also, I wanted to send out a great big THANK YOU to all the ladies who work to make people more aware of breastfeeding. Without all the changes that have taken place over the past 20-30 years, I would never have given it a try. I would never know the joy and connection I get when I nurse my son. I know a lot of the ladies on this board work with LLL and work to get the information out to the public. So, from the bottom of my heart, thanks for all the hard work you have done! You informed this Mom!

Joined: 04/20/06
Posts: 1

So inspired by the above stories.... here is mine.

DD#1 BD: June/02
Born 4 pounds 12 oz. full term (5 dys early)
Knew nothing of BFing
Supplimented once at hosptial

DD#2 BD: April/06
Born 6 pounds 9 oz. full term (5 dys early)
Hemorage after labour
sleepy baby

My main reason for wanting to breast feed was because I have severe allergies and asthma. I was formula fed. I spent most of my childhood in hospitals missing school, undergoing tests and not being able to do a lot of things kids do. I knew I wanted to give my kids the BEST advantage over what I went though - so when I was pregnant with DD#1 I read many many books on babies and breast feeding and decided that was the way to go, come hell or high water, I wanted to breast feed.

DD#1 was born a small baby but that had no effect on her - she latched right away perfectly like it was second nature - I never had problems with her having gas, crying, latching or eating enough. She was supplimented at the hosp. once during the night, I didn't know any better, the nurse told me its "what they do so the mother can get rest" I was scared to protest, I wanted only the best. Course now I know supplimenting is not needed. I successfully BF DD#1 until she was about 2 yrs and 3 months and so far my wishes of her having a better childhood them me have came true. She has not been sick but for once when bronchitis when she was 2 and a half years old, and the odd cold. She never peaked a fever with her shots and never got the colds or flues that came and went in the house. She is only allergic to walnuts and coconut, and suffers from mild hayfever, which just developed this year. She does have slight exercise enduced asthma, but nothing compared to what I went through. To me, I did all I could to prevent allergies and asthma... I did my job and feel so proud to have breast fed her as long as I did.

DD#2 was born 6 pounds 9 ounces and didn't cry when she came out. She was healthy and strong and perfectly healthy. I made a point this time to remind all the nurses I wanted her exclusively BF - they listened to me and she was allowed to stay in my room all night - I fed her frequently throughout that night - she was a drowsy baby, hard to get to feed for very long. On day 2 she developed Jaundice, I was freaked as I knew nothing about this and felt it was my fault somehow. Dealing with guilt and worry I called LLL in my area, they reassured me she does not need supplimenting just frequent feedings - it was a battle for the first 2 weeks getting her to eat enough. Many sleepless nights, trying many different things to keep her awake. Since she only ate little at a time I was feeding her every hour on the hour. She developed a gas problem, spit up more then I thought was normal, got the hickups alot... we are still battling these issues to this day but the jaundice has cleared up without having to go to the hospital for phototherapy. ((thanks LLL for the strong support and info.))

I am proud to have BF DD#1 bm eventhough my family was a bit shocked, they were and are fully supporive and think its a fantastic thing, esp. since they see how well DD#1 is doing. I plan on doing the same with DD#2 if god is willing... she is gaining weight now after a pound drop in her weight during her jaundice time. She is now thriving and eating well even though we are still on a battle with her gas. LOL!


Joined: 03/16/15
Posts: 53852
Really long!

Weight Loss
Refusal to nurse
"Natzi" lactation consultant

When I was pregnant with my oldest, I never had any doubt about breastfeeding. I just knew I would do it. I took a class and knew it might be difficult, but just figured it would be fine.

After he was born and I tried to nurse him, he would latch on, pull off and scream his head off. I had plenty there...I could express colustrum. He could latch fine because he would, but then he'd be royally ticked when something came out. I had wonderful nurses! They came in every time I tried to feed him. They would check his blood sugar to make sure it was okay so we didn't have to give him formula. They encouraged me that I wasn't doing anything wrong, but some babies just are stubborn. He cried all of the time.

The day after he was born, the lactation consultant came in to see me and try to "help". I was wililng to start pumping and giving him a bottle. She told me again that I wasn't doing anything wrong and his latch was good and he just was refusing to nurse. She also told me that I gave him a bottle, he would NEVER nurse. And she left. The pediatrician had told me that he would probably be jaundiced because of his skin being so fair. His bili level was between a 17-18. The jaundice lasted for 2 weeks, and he was REALLY yellow. He slept a lot and that contributed to it lasting so long I'm sure.

The day we were going home, Joshua had lost a pound from his birthweight of 7#5oz. They said that was only about 9%, so it was higher than they like but it was still okay. That day, the lactation consultant brought a pump for me to use. She reiterated again that I was not to give my baby a bottle because he would never go to the breast. We were to only tube feed him. As I pumped for about 30 minutes, my colostrum turned to milk. I have no idea how on day #2, especially since my baby had never nursed.

We tried the tube feeding, and that just really made him mad too, and he would never take more than half an ounce. He was born on Sunday and by Thursday, he had barely had anything to eat. My husband had gone to work, and I called him bawling my eyes out that the one thing I should be able to do for my baby, I can't do. He told his boss he was leaving and came home. He said we needed to make a decision and that the finger feeding/tube feeding was not working. So, he went and bought bottles and we went and rented a pump and I pumped and bottle fed Joshua. From the get-go, he drank 4 ounces. By two weeks, he was drinking 8 ounces. He was a hungry little boy!

I was so petrified that my baby wouldn't nurse, and I wondered where I went wrong. My Mom tried to comfort me. She told me that when I was born 22 years prior, she was very ill after her c-section. They couldn't figure out what was wrong with her and they wouldn't let her see me because of it. I was bottle fed formula for 12 days until she got well, and still went on to breastfeed. So told me it would be okay.

I would try to nurse Joshua several times a day, but usually it was just a frustrating experience. Finally, the day he turned 2 weeks old, he latched on and chowed for 45 minutes. He never looked back and wouldn't touch a bottle after that. We nursed for a week shy of 35 months.

When Zachary was born, I was still nursing Joshua who was 27 months old. Zachary latched right on and was a pig. He only lost 6 ounces of his birthweight and my milk came in in no time. When the lactation consultant came in that time, I kicked her out. I had such a bad taste in my mouth after my previous experience with them. The only issue we had was he really preferred my left side and would fight me on the right. We used the football hold for a couple of weeks on the right side, then he was fine.

When Sarah was born, she didn't have a single issue. When the lactation consultant came in, I told her my history and that I thought I had it pretty well figured out. She agreed and offered a lot of encouragement. I think if she would have been the one to help me with my first child, my experience would have been different.

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Joined: 05/18/05
Posts: 9

Poor Latch
Weight Loss
Slow Weight Gain
No one around me had been bf
Heavy medicated delivery

I was induced and did not have the delivery I had imagined. At birth Miranda was a little jaundiced, but not enough for the lights, though knowing what I know now, I wish I had put her under for a little bit. Her latch was very poor and I was getting very sore. She was not sucking hard enough to get what she needed and I did not realize that. After a month, she still had not regained her birth weight. Almost everyone around me had horror stories about bf. I did not hear one positive story. When we went to get help from the hospital I delivered, they were very quick to tell me everything was fine, but they were too busy to spend some quality time with me. Had they , they would have known that things were not fine. Went to a different lc through another hospital. They scared me, but were very helpful. I pumped for a week and Miranda gained like a mad woman. Then we used a supplemental feeder. It only worked once. We were both frustrated. I was tired of pumping one hour and then feeding her the next. I was chained to my bedroom. I thought I would put her on just to see and it worked. We have never gone back. I ws very fortunate that there was no nipple confusion. She is 8 weeks now and is almost three pounds heavier than her birth weight- 6#4oz then and 9 now. I love bf now and I tell everyone I can about my positive story. I want people to know that there are success bf stories. I tell everyone about my biggest mistake- I should have gotten help earlier. So if anyone is reading this- GET HELP IF YOU NEED IT! BF is such an organic experience. I have never felt more like a woman than I do when I feed her. I seriously think people need to talk about bf more. Motherhood is not a list of do's and don'ts. It is an intense soulful journey that truly gets better each day.

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Joined: 11/23/05
Posts: 4

I just wanted to post my happy news...

Gen was born 4 weeks early but weighed 7lbs 10oz. Of course she dropped weight before we left the hospital and it's been three weeks. The first two weeks she wouldnt breast feed, but then she finally picked it up after much determination on my part and getting her over jaundice.

Last week at her 2 and half week check up she had only gained 7lbs 6.5 oz. Doc wanted to see her this week. I have been nearly 100% bf/ebm with her all week. Today she got weighed in and she is up to 8lbs 1oz!

Doc was very happy with her progress and is looking forward to seeing her at her 2 month check up.

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Joined: 02/20/06
Posts: 4578

here goes my story, i need to put it down in text before i forget all the details..........


Lucy Violet Thomas was born on January 25th, 2006, 3 weeks early. Her due date was February 14th, 2006. Thank goodness she came early because she was born at 8lbs 5.5 ozs., 21 inches long. The birthing process was quick, probably because she is my 3rd and my son was over 10lbs. Basically 2 pushes and she was out. I had gestational diabetes while pregnant, so the pressure was on to nurse immediately. They gave us only 20 minutes of nursing time before Lucy needed her blood sugar tested. I thought we did ok, but her blood sugar level came back at 17 which is drastically low, they need it to be around 40. So the lab tech came up to draw more blood to get a more accurate reading, but in the meantime, they cup fed Lucy formula. I was devastated that she needed formula, but at the same time i knew she needed to get her blood level up. So after 33 mls of formula her level came up and they were satisfied that she wouldn't need anymore formula. We co slept in the hospital and nursed around the clock, which the nurses kept telling me was normal. I didn'tn have a good feeling because she never seemed satisfied and she seemed to fidgity for a newborn. The LC came by just before i was being discharged (it was the only visit in the hospital), and said we were doing great from what the nurses had told her. I just wanted to go home to be with my other kids so i didn't mention anything to her.

My milk came in 2 days later with a vengence and now lucy couldn't latch. So i pumped and kept trying, but she was getting more and more disgruntled and I was getting more and more frustrated. I knew i could breastfeed, i'd done it for a year a piece with my other two kids. So day 4 Lucy was jaundiced and not nursing and losing weight fast. i started expressing and fingerfeeding, this went on for a couple of weeks and all the time i was still trying to nurse and it was unsuccessful. I was seeing the pediatrician daily doing billiruben checks and seeing the lactation consultant 3x's a week. At about 4 weeks old, i had tried fingerfeeding and the sts taped to my boobs and still no luck with breastfeeding. The whole time pumping and giving her breastmilk. The stress was getting to me at everyfeeding having to find the tape and tape tubes to me , i caved and started her on the bottle. Which i noticed she couldn't keep the breastmilk in and the LC kept saying she had a poor suck. At six weeks old, i couldn't deal with Lucy not nursing, one of the moms on this board suggested i take her to a chiropractor. I thought they were nuts, but lucy had been still arching her back and seemed very disgruntled at every feeding even with the bottle. so i figured i had nothing to lose, her latch was pathetic, and she had barely gained any weight back at 6 weeks old. Would you believe Lucy had 2 bulging discs and her TMJ was out of alignment. Holy Crap!! One disc was in her mid thoracic area which was telling her brain she wasn't hungry, and the other disc was in her neck that affected her swallow, not her suck. and they adjusted her TMJ ( jaw joint) . The chiropractor said try to latch her, and at the beginning of the appointment she couldn't , but after the adjustments (whick took 2 minutes of the dr.s time ) Lucy latched on!!! no arching of the back, no screaming before latch, I thought the situation was cured. We kept trying to latch, and she would, but then fall asleep.... I couldn't keep her awake,a nd she still wasn't gaining weight. I was beginning to think that pumping and bottlefeeding were our only options. Which i was ok with, i figured i'd be a full time pumper for a year. my other kids got breastmilk for a year, so will Lucy. My only goal at this point was to plump lucy up. So i pumped every three hours around the clock even while lucy was sleeping and bottle fed for the next 6 weeks. We comfort nursed whenever we could, but she would just fall asleep. I never stopped trying to breastfeed. My milk supply had issues( the minipill caused my milk to plummet , so i had to pump every hour and a half for 2 days to build it back up.)

By the time Lucy was 12 weeks old, she was up to 11.5lbs, and my milk supply was double what she was taking in for daily consumption. One night ( the day before she was 12 weeks old-April 18th to be exact, Lucy nursed for about 30 minutes on both side, and was satisfied!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was thrilled to say the least. And from that nursing session , i have not given her a bottle. She is 100% nursing at the breast for over a month now. She does take a bottle when i'm at work and it is only EBM!!

We had so many bumps in the road, you can see why it took me so long to post as a success story. But we made it!!! Our perseverance paid off. Lucy will be 4 months old in a couple of days and is a very efficient nurser now, she goes about 20 minutes on each side every 3-4 hours and sleeps through the nights. She has an appointment this friday (april 26th) and we will see how much she has gained. She has plenty of soaked diapers and poops that i'm not worried. It's been a long time coming but we did it.

Thanks for reading, and all the support you ladies have given me. You all have been my sanity and saving grace. My DH and older kids were a huge support system, but they didn't have the suggestions or knowledge that you ladies have . So thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!!!! Colleen!

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Joined: 11/04/05
Posts: 88

Date posted: August 2, 06
Baby Birthdate: March 21, 06

ff'd first child due to tounge tie
tounge tie/poor latch
family ff'd
formula supplemented
large baby

When my first son Elliott was born i was told (by a lc) that i would never breastfeed a tounge tied baby! He would never latch properly and as an almost 9lbr i probally should supplement as i wouldnt have enough for him to eat. so heartbroken i went home and suffered trying to get my son to latch, crying during every feeding and resenting the times when he would get hungry again. my dh tol dme i was "doing it wrong" and thats why he cried cause i was "starving him" ... sadly i gave up on our thrid day home. I pumped for days after that hoping to establish a supply and ultimetly gave up, excepting defeat that i quite possibly would never live up to my expectations as a mother. Then I became pregnant with our now four month old son Ethan. My whole pregnancy i read books about breastfeeding, read information that you COULD breastfeed a tounge tied baby and with the growing support from my wonderful sister in law who bf her children for 3 and 1 year each, her mother & a wonderful group of supportive women here on, i anticipated his birth and a second chance to nurse again, i thought for sure i had this thing beat and i would breastfeed our son if my very life depended on it. I even insisted him be brought to my bedside in recovery from my csection so he would have the best chances of nursing. I watched him being born in a tiny mirror as the doctor pulled him from my swolen belly, he was born on the morning of March 21, 06 weighing in at an astonishing 9lbs 15oz, more than a pound bigger than his brother despite his early arrival. They rushed him upstairs to the NICU stating we had undiagnosed gestational diabettes and he was to have his blood sugar level checked and given glucose water immidietly, i was in shock! What I had invisioned as my perfect day was unfolding before my eyes. An hour later he came to my room, upon his arrival i didnt focus on his beautiful grey eyes, his perfectly shaped fingers, toes, ears and lips but his tounge which was fused to the bottom of his mouth just like his brother before him. I was heartbroken, ready to give up. Everything I read and knew had gone from my mind, I was nearing tears as the LC reminded me that I could breastfeed a tounge tied baby, it would be more difficult than a baby without his tounge tied but it was possible especially if i had my heart set on it. I lifted my gown and held him close to my breast and sure enough he latched. Through the horrible morphine allergic reaction my vision fixated on his tiny face suckling, and my world became clearer as if all at once. While I did supplement while in the hospital Im happy to report were exclusivly breastfeeding, wuth no bottkes. We have successfully overcome his horrid tounge tie, in fact we had it clipped not a month ago, breastfeeding has become that much more enjoyable since then. I look forward to many more month milestones in our breastfeeding journey.

i do make milk & it is my super power!

Joined: 12/05/05
Posts: 6

DS had breathing problems
Pumping in hospital/1st week
Supplimented in hospital

My delivery with James went very smoothly until the very end. When my water broke at 10cm(yes, at 10 cm) we discovered he had meconium in the womb(means he had his 1st BM before he was born.) The respitory therapist came in for his birth and he was taken away to have his lungs suctioned. He was then sent down to NICU. DH and I were devastated. You don't expect your fullterm baby to end up in the NICU. I was not allowed to nurse him for the first 4 days after his birth due to his breathing problems b/c of the meconium. He had to stay in the NICU and I had to leave the hospital without him. Sad So I pumped and brought him as much as I could but they also supplimented his feedings with formula. He ate through a tube the 1st few days.

Finally, the 4th day I was allowed to try and nurse him. Luckliy, he had a strong suck and a great latch. He caught on quickly. YAY! I was also finally allowed to take him home on the 5th day. Even bigger YAY! All seemed to be looking up.

I took him to his first doctor's appointment the next week only to find out he has thrush. The antibiotics he was on in the NICU have most probably caused it. So we got him some Nystatin and we both used it. I don't really have it yet, but I rubbed the medicine on my nipples after each feeding to prevent it. It seemed to work and I bolied all his pacis and blah blah...

Then the next week I wake up feeling so sick. I have a fever and my joints ache. I have mastitis. Yuck. This seems to come and go for a week and I start to get frustrated with the whole nursing thing. I don't dare give up though. So we get through the mastitis and then...

I start to wonder what is wrong with James. He cries ALL THE TIME. Every night he screams to the point of making me want to cry for him. I know he is colicky, but I can't figure out what to do for him. One night I have a huge glass of milk. This sends him over the edge. He breaks out in tiny red bumps all over his skin. He butt is already red, but it becomes even redder. He screams and screams. I decide cutting out dairy is a must for his sake. I was sad about that though. No more ice cream is a bummer. This seems to help tremendously though and that makes it worth it.

Ok so things seem to be working out until I notice that it is really starting to hurt everytime he eats. It hurts so bad that I cringe at the thought of him latching on. Someone suggests that it might be thrush. Go figure... it is AGAIN. Turns out this crap is hard to get rid of. This time I have it as well as DS. So I get on some Diflucan and DS gets back on the Nystatin. Boil the pacis again and all that stuff. Oh and this time, DS seems to have thrush on his butt. Poor guy.

Ok ok things start to get better. Oh and while all this stuff is happening, I should add that nursing him was totally worth it. No pain could match how wonderful it was, BUT just as soon as we get rid of the thrush again, it comes back to bite us in the butt! :roll: This time I take him to me Pedi and beg him to get rid of it. I do everything the girls on here tell me to do and we both take diflucan again and FINALLY it goes away for good! (I hope Lol )

I have to add that I have never supplimented with formula since he left the NICU. I vowed to myself that I would do it without formula no matter what the circumstances were. I did end up having to throw out the cans they give you at the hospital at 4 in the morning once b/c it looked so tempting. Nursing my son has been a wonderful gift for me as well as him. I never knew how much I would enjoy it and just how close it would bring us. I feel like we can get through anything now. All the support and info I got from this board made a huge difference too. Biggrin Thanks for reading and for your support!

Joined: 12/10/05
Posts: 9

Flat nipples
Poor Latch
Sleepy baby
Large Baby
Screaming at the breast
TOO much help from the LCs and nurses

Francis and I just had all sorts of problems to start with. I saw him for 3 seconds after he was born because he was whisked away for oxygen (cord around the neck). I didn't get to see him for 4 and a half hours after he was born. I kind of feel I would have had more success had they let us have our bonding time. His problem hadn't been serious.

When I did get him I tried to feed. He could not get a latch. He would not open his mouth... and that was if we could wake him. I got him to nurse once that day. The nurses told me this was alright on the first day.

The next day if we could even wake him to feed he would SCREAM bloody murder if we tried. This made me really depressed. The pedi on call said he wanted me to formula feed him to get rid of his jaundice. I freaked. NO FORMULA AT ALL EVER. He got a little annoyed with me. He talked to the OB nurses and they brought me a pump. They didn't think I could pump! Ha. I impressed them with the amount of colostrum I could get out (about an once and a half) at a time. He would not wake even if we got him butt naked (I wish he slept like that now phew).

Finger feeding wasn't working and the pressure was on to get food in him. I made a choice. To bottle feed him the pumped milk. I refused to let myself feel bad about it. I was a power pumper after all. I had two LCs come in all the time to help. One was very over bearing and it was hard for me to relax around her. I felt harrassed.

Once we got home he still cried at the breast. I was pretty much at this point going to give up... Pumping seemed to work.

The pushy LC came over for a PP visit. Again with the pushy. She gave me a nipple shield and an SNS feeder. We put a bottle of breastmilk in it and tried. I had three people trying to help. Francis still wouldn't open his mouth. It was closed tight. Both Francis and I freaked out. This was just too much. I gave up.

A few days later the other LC came over. She was so nice. She was like "Lets try it one more time before we give up if its okay with you." We tried. Francis cried a little at first but magically latched on after that (with no nipple shield). He ate fine for 10 minutes. Longer then ever before.

I regained confidence. I tried again later. Same thing but he nursed for 20 minutes. I ended up nursing him 4 times. The next day 6, and the next day for every single feeding except at night.

It was a bit harder to learn how to nurse him at night when I was asleep but since then we have figured even that out on our own.

Now Francis hates the bottle. He tries to nurse the bottle and cries because you have to suck on a bottle and nothing will come out for him. Now the only thing that makes him stop crying is to nurse. He loves being close to me and falling asleep at the breast. I am so happy we did not give up and gave it that one more try because we are old pros at it now (we have done it in public even and at other people's houses).

If you are having trouble nursing don't give up!! It will happen for you Biggrin

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Joined: 09/15/05
Posts: 86

large baby
10% weight loss
flat nipples
poor latch
nipple shield
supplimenting during hospital stay

great lactation consultants
supportive dh

Spencer was born by c-section at 40 weeks 2 days after an induction and 2 hours of pushing. He weighed 9 lbs 5 oz. During the first feed he seemed to latch well, but for the rest of the morning I couldn't get him to suck, although I could get the nipple into his mouth. I was seen by a lactation consultant immediately. After 2 days of trying, and after Spencer had lost more than 10% of his weight, I was given a nipple shield and told to pump every 2 hours.

The process of actually getting him to suck was quite comical! I would pump for 20 minutes, then put the nipple shield on, position the baby and then use an eye dropper filled with either breast milk or formula to 'fill' the nipple shield with milk (this required the help of another person...anyone I could get, dh, friends, mom, nurses...LOL). Once the milk started leaking into his mouth from the nipple shield, he would suck. After about 2 days he'd suck right away and we no longer had to use this long process.

It took almost 6 weeks to get him to nurse without the shield, but he eventually did it!

We've had other problems along the way. Too fast of a let down, sore nipples, prolonged feedings, but overall our breastfeeding experience has been a wonderful experience. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I am so thankful that I choose to stick with it!

A couple of things that REALLY helped...

#1 Telling family/friends about my choice to breastfeed long before giving birth. This helped them (most of which didn't breastfeed) get used to the idea.

#2 Taking a breastfeeding class WITH my dh. It helped him realize how important it is and gave me a lot of valuable resources.

#3 Choose a hospital that advocated rooming in and breastfeeding.


We breastfed for 15 months and weaned after I became pregnant with #2. I'm am soooooo thankful that I stuck with it. I pray that I am able to breastfeed our second for just as long!

Joined: 10/15/03
Posts: 14

Relatively small baby
Poor suck reflex
Sleepy baby

Miriam was born at 5 lbs, 12 oz. She wouldn't latch on for more than a few seconds at a time. Never having done this before, I thought that was normal. But then, just before we were discharged, a nurse became concerned because she had dropped down to 5 lbs 3 oz. (losing about 13% of body weight) and didn't seem to suck anything, including a finger. She was seen by a neonatologist, who said that she had "premature suck," even though she was full term.

We were sent home with instructions to wake baby to feed every three hours. We had to give her a certain amount by bottle -- if she breastfed in addition, that was bonus, but we couldn't rely on her sucking. The first night, we had to give formula because the pump rental place was closed, but the next morning, I got a pump and we were able to ditch the formula.

The first two weeks were torture. Miriam would have slept 24 hours a day if we had let her. We woke her every three hours to get food into her -- she didn't want it, so it usually took an hour for my husband to get 1-2 ounces in her by bottle (I pumped while he fed her). Finally, by two weeks, she had regained her birth weight, and we could relax a little.

On week 3, she actually latched and sucked! We were still using a nipple shield, but that was enough to lose the bottles. We continued with the nipple shield for two more weeks. At week 5, she began latching and sucking without the nipple shield. That was torture on my nipples -- tears came to my eyes every time she latched. I wanted to give up, but my husband pointed out we had worked too hard to give up now. By week 6 or 7, my nipples felt much better, and now breastfeeding is going great at week 10!

Joined: 05/24/05
Posts: 944

24 hour NICU admission
Formula by bottle in NICU
Blistered nipple at 4 days pp

My beautiful daughter was born via c-section November 10th, 2006. She was pretty flat at delivery, and had to be given an injection of Narcan to counteract narcotics and she was bagged for a few seconds to initiate breathing. *sigh* Due to this less-than-perfect entry into the world, she was brought to the NICU for observation while I went to recovery for 3 hours. She was a fairly big baby at 8lbs 13 oz., and therefore after a short amount of time without being able to breastfeed, her blood sugar level started to dip. The staff in the NICU gave DH the option of giving her formula or starting an IV (what about letting her breastfeed?! :roll:), and he agreed to the formula. She had three bottles (if I remember correctly) before I was finally able to make the trek from my room to the NICU to breastfeed. She latched on to my breast right away and was an eager little nurser.

At about 3 days post partum I started having some pain from my right nipple that quickly turned to a bleeding blister by 4 days post partum. A quick visit from my LC to correct her latch (she needed to be up higher when latching), and 24 hours later my nipple was healed and we had no other troubles.

She's been a booby girl for over 7 months now and I wouldn't have it any other way. I get sad just thinking about the day that she weans... which I don't think will be any time soon. Smile

Joined: 03/16/15
Posts: 53852

heart condition
NICU stay
tube fed
weak suck

In Jan 05 I gave birth to 2 beautiful little girls, Kiera and Kayden. 20 minutes after their birth one of the nurses noticed that Kiera had a loud murmur. The oncall ped wanted to check her out so while Kayden was getting her first bath and her first shot at the boob, Kiera was given the once over in the nursery. About an hour or so later, the ped came in to tell us that Kiera had to be moved to another hospital as she was in need of a pediatric cardiologist to figure out exactly what was going on. I never did get a chance to try nursing her before she was moved. Kayden on the other hand was a pro BFer. The nurse actually commented that she hardly ever sees a baby nurse as well as she did.

By the time I got to see my baby, 2 days later, she was on a sugar water only diet until her surgery. After her first surgery she became extremely lazy in the eating department, DH got to feed her EBM for her first non tube feeding and she only took about 5cc in 20 minutes. Over the next couple of days we got her up to 15cc every 1.5 of EBM.

Let me tell you, trying to BF one baby and pump for the other is exhausting. There were so many times that I wanted to give up but I just couldn't quit knowing all the goodness that my BM was providing. Every feed I'd put Kiera to the breast before I'd let her drink from the bottle and after about 3 months I got her to eat exclusively from me!!! I can't tell you how happy I was to be able to BF BOTH my girls and how it improved our lives as it was then not centered around eating and I could actually do things with them.
I tandem fed until 10 months when the biting became unbearable.

horrible latch
cracked and bleeding nipples

My third daughter was born in May 07. The day she was born the hospital had delivered another 30 babies. There was no free beds and they were sending people home as fast as they could. The nurse who first watched Sydney BF told me that she had a great latch without really looking closely at it. By the time we got home the next day the damage had already been done.
My nipples hurt so badly, they bled constantly and I even had a cut the whole way around both nipples. I cried every feeding and actually dreaded when I'd hear her waking up knowing that I'd have to feed her again. I caved one night because the pain was unbearable and gave her 2 oz of formula......I cried the whole time she ate it.
After 3 days of excruciating pain, talking to many nurses and LC's, I rented a pump from a nearby drugstore. I pumped exclusively for 3 days to give my nipples a break and slowly brought back the BFing. After about 2 weeks of pumping, nipple shields and breast guards the pain had ceased enough that I started using my pump only to stockpile EBM in the freezer. Sydney is now 5 weeks old, chubbier then ever and I'm hoping that I can make it atleast as long as I did with her sisters.

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Joined: 01/10/07
Posts: 443

My first, my daughter Victoria
I breastfeed my daughter for one whole year with absolutely no problems. She latched and ate like a pro.
My second, my son Vincent.
He was really big at birth so needed to eat right away so they gave him a bottle, he also had blood sugar problems so he had to drink formula after every feeding, then I got an infection from my c-section with a high fever so I wasn't allowed to breastfeed. Once everything settled down everything has been going really good. I got two breast infections which was horrible. He latches and eats like a pro. I have been breastfeeding for almost three months. My goal is one year again.

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Joined: 12/19/03
Posts: 2

Flat Nipples
Broken Arm

I think I always knew my breastfeeding experience would be a "success" story, but if I hadn't believed it, I'm not sure I would have made it! I broke my arm 2 weeks before I delivered, and my arm was locked at a 90 degree angle in a hard cast during labor and delivery. I couldn't push effectively, and eventually had to have a c-section. It was 3 hours before I saw my son. I couldn't pick up, change, or really do anything for him. I needed someone with us at all times to help position and latch him. On top of this, my nipples were flat, but the nurse suggested a nipple shield. It truly helped for the 3 weeks my arm was in the cast because my LO was able to latch himself. As soon as the cast came off, I began weaning him from the shield. It was like starting all over, the nipple pain was excruciating at first. It took us 2 weeks to fully wean from the shield, and we've never looked back. In those early weeks when it seemed like breastfeeding would never be "second nature" to us, it's amazing that it has become just that. I set a goal to breastfeed for a year, and I see nothing that will get in the way of that. I am blessed with a good supply and the ultimate support from DH and our families. Good luck to all the new BFers, you can do it!

Joined: 03/16/15
Posts: 53852

4 weeks premature
9 day NICU stay
bottle fed for those 9 days(w/my bm)
poor latch

i didnt bf my 2 other children, but this time i really felt the urge to. my LO was in nicu for the 1st 9 days of her life due to breathing problems, prematurity, and jaundice. she wasnt fed whatsoever for the 1st 5 days, then she started getting my bm thru a bottle. we finaly got our 1st try at breastfeeding on day 9 of her life. it wasnt very successful as i was overly engorged. i had been pumping since she was in the Nicu and my LC said i was producing enough milk for triplets!(i was getting 6-8 oz every 3 hrs at 6 days pp) we finaly got over that hurdle and after working on our latch and positioning we did great for 6 weeks. now at 6 1/2 weeks of bfing, she has thrush and it is on my breasts as well. this is the most painful thing i have ever experienced. were starting treatment for it today.

all in all i LOVE bfing and plan on doing so for ATLEAST 6 mo-a year. Gl to all that are just starting out. it can get very painful and difficult at times, but dont give up, it takes time. in the long run it is a amazing experience for you AND baby!

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Joined: 10/04/06
Posts: 3


Glucose problems
NICU stay
Blanched nipples
Supply dips with my monthly periods

My baby Hannah arrived via c-section but I was able to nurse her within an hour. She latched well and ate eagerly. On day three she wouldn't eat and her glucose levels plummeted. She choked on mucous and stopped breathing thus the NICU stay. In the NICU she was given a bottle of formula to get her levels up, then she was put on a glucose IV. I BF her every two hours after that until we were released. Around six weeks I had severe nipple pain - Hannah and I had thrush. She was also pinching my nipples so bad that there wasn't any blood getting to them, they were white and so painful I felt like giving up.

Now at six months every time I get my period my supply dips so bad I don't have enough to feed her. I have to supplement. Once the witch is gone, the supply is good so three weeks out of four she is mostly BF. We're still going strong, well, as strong as we can. I'm happy to be able to give her all that I produce and she's happy to drink it ! BF hasn't been easy for us but I'm committed to it - the bond we've created is so special to me.

Joined: 04/18/05
Posts: 2
Pain Pain Pain! Issues: Excruciating pain for 9 weeks!

I decided to read this thread to see if anyone else had the bf-ing issue that I had, but it doesn't look like it. For me, breastfeeding hurt. Really, really hurt. I cried when my son nursed. I dreaded it. I thought that his latch MUST be wrong. I consulted 2 lactation consultants, and neither could find anything wrong. I used lamisil (sp?), soothies, and shields. But until I dosed up on Ibuprofen, and stayed dosed, the pain did not diminish. This went on for 9 weeks before I was able to stop with the Ibuprofen. I was taking a ridiculous amount every day (but not more than the Dr. OK'd.). It was the ONLY thing that allowed me to successfully BF for 11 months. (Ds then weaned himself all on his own the day he turned 11 months. I wasn't ready, but he clearly was. I continued to pump and give him bmilk through a bottle until he turned one.)

Thankfully I had a supportive family, and I was absolutely determined. But it was really hard. If anyone else is having this issue, please don't hesitate to ask your Dr. about Ibuprofen. After the first 9 weeks, breastfeeding was a breeze for me, and I am SO glad that I stuck it out.

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Joined: 10/17/06
Posts: 567


delayed BFing initiation
flat nipples
small mouth, NQP latch
severely cracked/bleeding nipples

I gave birth on January 9th to my beautiful baby boy, Jesse, at 42 weeks 1 day. I was so excited to finally be able to BF him. It's something I had been looking forward to for SOOO long. However, our first nursing session had to be delayed. Almost immediately after his birth, I was brought to the OR to repair the extensive lacerations I received during the birth. He was born at 8:11 PM, but I wasn't able to nurse him until around 11 PM, when I got back to my birthing room. Jesse was wide awake, and ready to feed, which was great! I wasn't able to sit up and latch him on myself, though, because I'd gotten a spinal in the OR. The nurse latched him on for me and held him to my breast so that he could suckle. It was an amazing feeling! Smile The next few days were a bit difficult, because my nipple were quite flattish. Jesse would latch on, but since his mouth was kind of small, and his latch was not quite perfect, he was not alway dead centre on the nipple, so within a few days I ended up getting some pretty severe cracking. My doctor prescribed me a nipple cream with an antifungal, antibiotic, and corticosteriod in it to prevent infection. And my visiting public health nurse recommended we try a nipple shield. I'm so glad that she did, because until I tried it, every nursing session was incredibly painful. With the shield I could nurse my son relatively pain free, and it gave my nipples a chance to heal. It took a couple of weeks to wean from the shield completely, but we did, and we haven't looked back. At 3 months old, he's still exclusively BF'd, and is in the 95th percentile for height and 88th percentile for weight! Smile I look at him every day and think "I did that!" Smile

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Poster: MrsCK
Posted: 14 May 2008 12:11pm

Cracked nipples
Breast abcesses

Long before I even wanted children, I knew I’d breastfeed my kids one day. To me it was the natural thing to do. In my opinion, to give your baby formula, was the utmost exception, like when your baby was allergic to your milk or if your milk dried up for some reason.

So when I found out I was pregnant there wasn’t any questions on how my baby would be fed. Breastmilk is best. My one sister-in-law was my breastfeeding idol. She had 2 kids, aged 3 and 1 at the time. She breastfed the eldest one throughout her second pregnancy and only weaned him a month before the second one was due. We spoke a lot about breastfeeding and I also read everything I could get my hands on. It looked so easy, so natural. You stroke baby’s cheek with your nipple and then baby turns his face towards you and opens his mouth and you quickly put the nipple in his mouth and he sucks away happily. It looked so easy! I knew the steps by heart.

Another thing I had my mind set on, was to give birth as naturally as possible. I had visions of how I'd give birth in a dark room with angel music playing in the background with my DH at my side where the baby would crawl up my chest after being born, latch on with the first try and all would be OK. It didn’t turned out like that. At my 40-week checkup the ultrasound showed that there were no amniotic fluid left, baby was big (about 4.1kg) and to top it all he was in transverse (shoulder) presentation and he was with his head tilted backwards. My OB told me that a natural birth was out and an emergency c/section was scheduled. I basically went straight to hospital from her practice and 2 hours later my baby was born! I got to give him a kiss before they took him away to the nursery, where he was held in an incubator for 2 hours.

These 2 hours following his birth went by in a blur. I slept for most of the part and when I was awake I cried for my baby. My husband finally came and asked if I was ready to hold baby as he was warm enough to take out of the incubator. As he returned to the nursery to fetch our son, I prepared for breastfeeding. I was finally going to get a chance to breastfeed my baby while he was still awake.

Once again my plans were shattered when my husband’s parents walked in right on his heels and stayed in my room for over an hour. By the time they left I called the nurse and asked her to help me. I tried everything I’ve read but suddenly it felt as if I knew nothing. I stroked his cheek with my nipple but he wouldn’t open his mouth. The nurse came and forcefully tried to squeeze my nipple as flat as possible and then popping it into baby’s mouth, but he didn’t took the nipple and drifted off to sleep.

I was in tears. I failed as a mother. I couldn’t do something as simple as breastfeed.

Two hours later my baby was awake again and a nurse came to ask me if he nursed as yet. I told her that I’ve tried with another nurse but couldn’t manage. She disappeared from my room and returned a while later with the lactation specialist. I had to lie back while one nurse held my baby and the LC squeezed my nipple and put it into my baby’s mouth. He gave a few sucks and let go. We tried this a number of times until it felt as if my nipples were going to fall off. I told the LC I’d try a bit later since it seemed as if my baby wasn’t too hungry. Another 2 hours passed without me succeeding in breastfeeding him and to top it all I had no privacy as visitors poured in and out of my room. I tried but I just couldn’t get it right and I got very anxious about it. When the LC came back and asked if my baby nursed I told her no and she then wanted to take him away to give him supplement. I gave her a very firm “over no circumstances”. We once again tried to latch baby, but to no avail. This made the LC even more adamant to give my baby a supplement and in a frantic, desperate attempt to prevent this I suggested that we tried to express and see if he would take it like that. To the LC’s surprise we expressed 5 teaspoons colostrum and baby took it without spilling. After this she was happy and left him with me.

Shortly after this it was visiting hour and friends and family filled the room for what felt like forever. I was kind of annoyed with everyone there and I was relieved when they finally left.

Right after the visitors left, the LC came around to give breastfeeding another go. This time she expressed a bit of colostrum before trying to latch Marcel and it worked! He latched and he nursed! I was so happy that I broke down in tears. I couldn’t believe that it was such a struggle to do something that’s been portrayed to be second nature.

The following two days I always called a nurse or the LC before I latched my baby because I wanted to do it right, but despite them assuring me that he was latched on perfectly, my nipples got really sore and painful. After 3 days a physiotherapist came to give me phototerapy on my nipples, which was supposed to prevent cracking and help “toughen” them up. It didn’t and the pain just got worse.

I battled with other positions to feed him in and preferred to sit up and feed him in the “normal” way.

On the morning that I was released from hospital, I woke up to huge breasts that were full and painfully engorged. Poor DS also had a hard time keeping up and he was gulping down milk whilst gasping for air. It sounded as if someone was pushing a wheelbarrow!

Before I went home, I got a good lecture from the LC on not to express milk and give milk to baby via a bottle or use a nipple shield because it would cause nipple confusion and my breastfeeding days would be over. I took her advice on not using a nipple shield, but I already made up my mind to express milk the moment I got home to relieve the engorgement and to give my sore nipples a break. And it’s exactly what I’ve done.

I got home with my husband and our baby and nursed him, burped him and put him to sleep. By that time my nipples were so tender and sore and I had to wriggle my toes when I latched him just to not think of the pain. After that I sterilized the pump and expressed milk. I was surprised by the amount of milk I got out and I know now that I pumped too much because a few hours later I was exploding once again. I was fine with baby latching on & nursing from the left side, but my right side nipple was sore and I had lot of pain with him nursing on that side.
That evening the “blues” set in and I cried uncontrollably for everything! I cried my eyes out because I felt like a bad mother. I couldn’t go into labor by myself and have my baby naturally and now I couldn’t even do something as simple as breastfeeding. I quickly told myself to get a grip of myself and pull myself together, but it was difficult. The next morning, Saturday, I really had enough. Baby wanted to nurse again and I was fine with him nursing on my left side but after reading that you should alternate positions when you have sore nipples, I decided to try and feed baby on the right side with the football hold. I struggled and DS also struggled with the new position, but I tried to push through. After a few minutes I was overcome with pain and I took him off and decided to express milk and feed him by bottle. Baby was furious after being taken off but I called my husband to prepare a bottle of previously expressed milk and to feed him because I just couldn’t take the pain. After DS got settled with a bottle, I fetched my pump and began to pump again, on low suction because it felt as if my nipple was about to fall off. All of a sudden I saw that blood flowed down the funnel and I got the fright of my life! I immediately stopped pumping and when I looked at my nipple I saw that it was cracked open! I had a 5mm hole in my nipple! Of course I freaked out and started crying again. After this I was too afraid to express on that side and I tried expressing with my hands, but didn’t get much out.

I knew that I had to let DS nurse on the cracked side as well to relieve the engorgement but it was pure torture. I came dangerously close to telling my husband to rather go to the shops and buy some formula because I was at the end of my tether, but on the other side I also wanted to breastfeed really bad so every time I got the idea of sending my hubby to the shops for formula, I thought by myself “lets just get through this one and see how next time goes”.

Later that day my mom came to visit with one of her friends and when I saw my mom I just pulled out my breast in front of her friend and showed her my cracked nipple, whilst crying as if my world was crashing down. My mom’s friend told me to get some nipple shield immediately. I didn’t. In stead I got breast shells to protect my nipples from rubbing against clothes because I was scared to use nipple shields because of what the nurse told me in hospital.

Because of the cracked nipple, I rather let DS nurse on the left side, where the nipple was fine and when I latched him onto the right & cracked side, it wasn’t for long periods. As a result terrible engorgement set in and at one stage my breast got so hard that I couldn’t even pull my nipple out enough to express some milk by hand. I tried soaking my breast in warm water, taking hot showers but nothing helped. A day later I was covered in lumps and by that evening sores began forming on the outside of the lumps. The pain was unbearable. Every time I latched my baby on that side I tried using the breathing techniques I was supposed to use during labor and I wriggled my toes. It was pure torture.

When I woke up the next morning I had a head ache, chills and a fever and my breast was red, lumpy and full of sores. I freaked out and immediately phoned my OB and after describing my symptoms to her, she instructed me to come and see her immediately. I had severe mastitis and abscesses that formed on the outside. I was given a strong dose antibiotics and told to get lots of rest. Luckily the antibiotics worked and the mastitis cleared up within 2 days.

I’ve read that you can take Rooibos tea bags that were soaked in boilt water and apply it on cracked nipples and that it would speed up the healing process. I spent the most part of the day with my nipple out to get it air dry, applying breastmilk to it and then I put the Rooibos tea bag inside my bra over the nipple. It helped and the healing begun and I even managed a few latches without any pain! Until 2 days later when I once again got dangerously close to throwing in the towel and giving up on breastfeeding. It was the evening of the day that the mastitis cleared up, or rather early the next morning at 3am and baby had to nurse again. I knew I had to let him drink from the right (cracked) side first so that he could empty the breast but all of a sudden the pain was back and it hurt ten times more! I was tired and in pain and I actually shouted at my poor baby “You’re hurting me”! This gave me a real big fright because breastfeeding was supposed to be fun for both mom and baby and a time of bonding and here I hated it! I once again cried uncontrollably and then, at 3 a.m. picked up the phone to call my breastfeeding idol (SIL) and asked her to please come and help me first thing the next morning. Once again the formula got postponed to “next time”.

My SIL was there very early the next morning and she helped me to latch baby. It turned out that he took his lower lip in and couldn’t latch properly. I had difficulty to check there without the help of someone else because I still found it painful to strain (remember I had a c/s). She also showed me how to breastfeed whilst laying down and this became my favourite breastfeeding position! She also told me to get nipple shields to protect the cracked nipple and I immediately sent my hubby off to buy me some, which I used for the next feed when I was able to breastfeed my baby without any pain!

I used the nipple shield only on the one cracked side and let baby nurse on the bare nipple on the other side to try and avoid nipple confusion. DS never liked the nipple shield though and I discontinued use of it after about 10 days, but it gave me enough time to get over the pain. The healing took almost 3 months, but after I managed a correct latch everything was fine afterwards.

After 3 weeks my baby and I was a champion nursing team and I couldn’t believe that we had such a struggle in the beginning. Breastfeeding finally came naturally and I breastfed him until his first birthday.

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Joined: 05/31/08
Posts: 78

I just thought I'd share my story since I'm finally feeling like I've succeeded...

I always thought that Bfing would be easy... My mom had no problems and could "put out fires" when she BFed me and my brother. She was a pioneer and had very strong opinions about the fact that everyone could do it. And that some women just gave up too soon and whatnot. Well, that opinion got passed along to me so when I started having trouble I didn't feel like I had anyone to turn to. I couldn't talk to my mom cause A) she never had any trouble and Dirol I wasn't sure she'd be supportive. I couldn't talk to my MIL (even though I love her) cause she didn't BF for long if at all. And I couldn't really talk to DH because his idea of supportive (while good intentioned) was to ask (repeatedly) if I was going to BF or just give a bottle (with EBM in it). Thanks goodness for the wonderful LCs at the hospital!

~ Preemie
~ pre-eclampsia (mag sulfide, Bp meds)
~ 1 month delay in direct to breast
~ calorie booster (since HE refused to tolerate an IV and repeatedly pulled them out)
~ c-section
~ jaundice
~ tube fed
~ guilt and blues associated with feeling like a failure as a mom b/c of the pre-e and therfore preemie

My little man was born at 32 weeks. He was pretty strong from the get go (only needed about 6 minutes of tented oxygen). I started pumping day 2 or 3 after birth (I was really sick so days are kind of a blur for a little). He got whatever I pumped plus a mix-in to boost the calorie count. He was in NICU for 17 days. I worked with an LC but never really pushed myself or him to go directly to breast (he was so little and hooked up to all those wires) I was afraid that my desire to breastfeed would harm him. He was getting breastmilk either way so why push the issues. He finally came home.

Then the supply issues started. I blew through almost my entire back supply. (stupid period!) I was always worried that I wasn't going to make enough for my LO or he would tire out too fast and not eat enough. It wasn't til I was down to my last 2 oz of stored EBM that I really gave BFing an honest go (I had to... I felt that using that last EBM would mean that he would starve ~ not sure why). So I felt like I had to BF from the breast for every meal and was terrified that I was gonna have to give him formula. But he took to it like a pro and we've be exclusively BFing since! Sure he started out eating every hour and half. But I guess I sort of saw it as the month we missed while he was in the NICU. All babies start off eating all the time.

I think he's had like 4 bottles total since (like a month ago) and that was only because I was at work or something like that. I kept pumping on occasion and have a nice little back stock again.

Oh... I can "put out fires" just like mom now. (he pops off and there's still a constant stream going ~ like a firehose)

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Joined: 02/27/08
Posts: 3

Born at 36 weeks
Fed EBM for the first week
Tongue Tied

I knew she would come early, I went on anti contraction meds at 26 weeks, once I went off of them at 35 weeks I went into labor a week later. I tried and tried and tried to get her to latch at the hospital with not much sucess. The first day we were home she had no wet diapers! Took her to the Ped. she had lost 13% of her body weight and was not able to stay awake for more than about 5 min. at a time. She was extremely jaundiced and we spent about a week in the hospital with her on a bili bed and under the light in this wierd glowing blue tent. She was not allowed off the bed for more than a few min. at a time so I had to pump and feed her bottles while she was in her tent. Once we finally got that under control she was finally able to stay awake for feedings but they were INCREDABLY painful, I'm talking toe curling, tears in the eyes pain the whole way through each and every feeding for the first 2 1/2 months. When I spoke with a Lactation consultant they said that my nipple was too big for her mouth and that it would get better as she got bigger, and I had a goal of 1 year, come hell or high water we were going to make it pain or not. She was finally diagnosed as being tongue tied (hence the pain). I'm not sure what happened but around month 3 it stopped hurting!!!! We are at 4 months and 2 weeks now and I am so glad I stuck with it. The pain was temporary, the benifits she is getting from breastmilk will last a lifetime. Sooo worth it!

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Joined: 04/01/08
Posts: 813

36 hours very actuve labor
Tongue tie

Florian was born 3 days before his due date and after fighting all I could against a C-Section... I had to accept the fact ! my small body and cervix refusing to open.... was hiding a 8lb 10az baby (I am 5ft2).
I had no first skin to skin contact and nursing as I had "all planned"....
but we never had an problems together... he had a tongue tie and I got it fixe at 1 week old and since then NO PROBLEMS...

He is a happy fat boy and I am a Happy mom...

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Joined: 01/18/06
Posts: 1214


Initial poor latch
Sleeping shortly after latching
Low milk supply
Baby has huge appetite
Painful nipples (turned out to be thrush)

Although I was induced and Evie was taken away by a team of nurses b/c someone accidentally pressed the panic button, she was brought to me 20 mins post-delivery and nursed right away.

However, my milk supply was slow to start and I had very little colostrum for her at the beginning. This was compounded by her latching at the nipple (instead of the areola too) and falling asleep shortly after latching. After only 24 hours she lost 1 lb 3 oz and had to go on formula supplementation.

I was so fortunate that she had no nipple confusion and was just as happy with my breasts as she was with bottles.

I was really hating BFing tho b/c her chomping down on my nipples really hurt me, but after her latch and sucking techniques were corrected at the hospital, I was still in a lot of pain.

Because I was overwhelmed with being a new mom and BFing issues, Evie was 5 weeks old when I finally saw the LC. The LC was really my last that point, I would cry to my DH every night how that was it, I was only going to FF, but every morning, I would sigh and try BFing again.

Working with the LC was awesome. She helped me get the right BFing positions for us (this turned out to be very important to Evie for comfort and sucking technique), she finally diagnosed my painful nipples as a result of thrush, and genetian violet got rid of it. She helped me find ways to get Evie to complete her feeding and be full before falling asleep.

It took 9 weeks for the pain to go away, and when that happened, overnight, I went from resenting and dreading BFing to loving it. It was such a happy moment and a huge relief that I cried tears of joy knowing I stuck with it, was able to fix the problems and etc. and now I BF almost exclusively. Occasionally I still bottlefeed EBM, but it's getting rarer and rarer all the time.

Evie has become an efficient nurser and altho I usually have to offer both boobs twice to feed her sufficiently (she takes in 6-8 oz per feeding now), it doesn't hurt and doesn't take all day to nurse her. It's so awesome. It's a beautiful relationship. Smile

skylamommy2's picture
Joined: 04/13/09
Posts: 41

I wanted to write my success story about being able to breastfeed my 2nd child!

When I had my daughter from the first latch I was in great pain like pins and needles. I worked with a lactation consultant and my daughter didn't want to open her mouth large enough to get the entire areola and because of this she said she has a shallow latch and unless it changes breastfeeding will be painful. I always had cracked/bleeding nipples and I would want to pull away because I was scared of the pain and just didn't want to breastfeed because of the pain physically and even mentally it had on me. I decide to pump excusively and was able to do it for about 4 months until I lost my supply and then decided to formula feed. I always felt like a failure that I wasn't able to breastfeed her but that someday when I had my 2nd child I would be able to breastfeed them! My daughter is a healthy girl today and I hope she understand that he mommy did her best Smile

When I found out I was pregnant with my son I read a lot about breastfeeding and talked to other moms and got advice from them. Right after my son was born I breasfeed him and he took to it right and I had no pain at all. It was such an amazing feeling that right away my son had a great latch and that breastfeeding could be such a wonderful experience. My son is almost 3 months old and we have been breastfeeding exclusively ever since. We have had no problems and he is gaining weight really well and it already 14 pounds! He eats about every 2-3 hours for about 10 minutes each side and luckily I have a large supply so he tends to get full pretty fast. He is such a happy guy and loves his mommy's milk and it makes me feel special that I can feed him what I make. I want to exclusively breastfeed him for a year and then we will go from there Smile

So I just want to let other mommies know that just because you couldn't/ didn't breastfeed one child doesn't mean you won't be able to breastfeed your other child/children Smile

Update: We are going at 23 months of breastfeeding and no plans to stop! We love our breastfeeding relationship and will go until he doesn't want to nurse anymore!

nitefire_98's picture
Joined: 01/06/07
Posts: 18
My Breastfeeding Journey

Issues: Mental block

Are you going to breastfeed?

I heard this question a lot. It irritated me even more. When I was pregnant with my son in 2007, I was asked this question at every doctor visit. I always said no. Breastfeeding was disgusting. Why anyone would want to do that was beyond me. Why on earth would I want to stick my boob into a poor innocent baby’s mouth and make him/her drink by bodily fluids? I ranked it right up there with molestation.
I was wrong.
When DJ was born 6 weeks early, I was contemplated it for a minute until the nurse said I wouldn’t be able to breast feed him. She meant actual baby-to-breast but I thought she meant “at all”. I could have pumped until he was big enough to nurse, but I didn’t know that then. I didn’t know anything about breastfeeding. I didn’t know the nutrition value or the ease and convenience of it. I also didn’t know how special it can be.
DJ had reflux and breathing problems. Mostly typical issues for being a preemie. He came home on a breathing monitor and reflux medication. We tried several different formulas before finding one he could tolerate. Of course, it was the most expensive one! When he was a little bigger, we tried the store brand formula and he tolerated it well so we stuck with that one. For an entire year we lugged around a can of formula, bottled water, and bottles. I did it for an entire year because the thought of breastfeeding made me want to puke.
I now wonder if some of the struggles with his health could have been avoided had I just given it a shot. From the time he was born, my son has had some health issues. Nothing too pressing or life altering. Just annoying. Ear infections, colds, allergic reactions, hives, random fevers, etc. The latest was a couple of weeks ago when he suddenly spiked a 104 temp that proved to be from pneumonia.
Do you want to know the end-all, final-say was in what made me decide to breast feed?
I was diagnosed as bi-polar with anxiety disorder when I was a teenager. I found that I am allergic to the antidepressants and mood stabilizers so I just deal with it on my own.
After my son was born, I went into a deep depression. He’d cry to be fed and just wanted to run the other way. I would just hold him and cry and think of how much easier it would be if he wasn’t there. I remember how horrible I felt for thinking that. I felt useless. Heartless. I was nothing more than “the baby-maker”. I meant nothing.
My husband was wonderful. He had nothing to do with how I felt. He did most of the child care when he was home because he wanted to. He fed our son, bathed him, dressed him, rocked him, etc. I just wanted to sleep. He tried so hard to get me to get me to want to take care of our son, but to no avail. Those of you with depression will understand that you can’t just “snap out of it”. It just has to ease up on its own and until then…you just deal with it. When our son was about 18 months old, I finally started to see him as the miracle that he is. I’ve spent every minute since then trying to make up for the first 18 months of his life.
When I found out I was pregnant with my daughter, something changed in my heart. I honestly can’t tell you what or when. One day it just crossed my mind that maybe I should give breastfeeding a shot. Maybe it was the guilt of not even trying with my son? I started reading about it and asked a lot of questions. I had a lot of concerns and hesitations. The more I read the more I felt that maybe it was going to be ok. I was becoming convinced by the nutritional values, health benefits, and (to be honest) the cost factor didn’t hurt either.
I told everyone that I was going to try. I didn’t want to say “I will” because that just seemed daunting and like I was setting myself up for failure. If I said “I’ll try” then I had an out which I knew I wouldn’t take. I had taken the breastfeeding class, bought the pump, watched the videos, talked to the lactation consultants, interviewed my cousin (she breastfed her son for over a year), threw away all sample cans of formula, etc. I was ready. I knew it all. Yeah…that all went out the window when I tried to latch her on!
The first week was, and I’m not going to sugar coat this, HELL. There were tears, screaming, temper tantrums, fussiness, and frustration. Lila didn’t seem too happy either. She was born on a Wednesday. By Sunday, I wanted to quit. As I sat in the chair with Lila screaming from hunger and my breasts sore and throbbing, I bawled. My husband (sweet, sweet man) knelt down in front of me and took Lila until she calmed down enough to latch on. I continued to cry. He looked me in the eye and said “You’re doing great! You can do this.” He was so sincere and supportive. I cried again. Monday morning, as if by some miracle, the pain started to subside. By Wednesday…one week after her birth…breast feeding didn’t hurt anymore and I actually started to look forward to it.
I haven’t slept a full night since she was born. She’s still up at least once a night. She still wants to nurse from 6:30 until 9:30 every evening. But she’s only had one instance of bronchitis and even that was minor. Her diapers don’t reek to high heaven. We’re not out at trying to find an open store because we forgot to buy formula. I AM the vending machine (as my sister likes to call me). We don’t have to bring an extra bag full of bottles, formula, and bottled water. The only extra item we have is my pump which I bring to work and on long trips (just in case).
Today is our 6 month milestone for breastfeeding. It has NOT been easy. I’m not a morning person and being up several times during the night doesn’t help. However, I know this is best for her. We have a bond now. It’s a very different bond than what I have with my son (the bond with him isn’t any less…just different). I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Hello, my name is Jennifer and I’m a formula-to-breastfeeding-attitude conversion survivor.

girlisrad's picture
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 1587

Breast Augmentation
Low Supply
Poor Latch
Breastfeeding and supplementing

Against all Odds… a Breastfeeding Success Story

My story begins at the age 0f 21. I had my breasts augmented (implants) after realizing that God was only going to bless me with an “A” cup. Not acceptable in my opinion. My implants were placed through the bottom half of the nipple. It has since been proven that this placement method can be (and in my case is) as detrimental to milk making as a full reduction. A few months after a seemingly successful surgery, my left breast became swollen and hard. It was determined that my body was rejecting the implant and had become infected. The implant was removed and I had a drain placed for a few weeks. When it came time to replace the implant I chose to have a larger one placed in my right breast as well. Hello, vanity! There was no further issue after the last surgery.

I had my first son when I was 25. Breastfeeding was not something I had strong feelings over one way or another. I latched him on a few times but in a short week he was fully Formula Fed. I remember that I never did feel my milk “come in.” I never felt engorgement, and drying up was a non-issue, as there was nothing there to begin with.

Fast forward 5 years later to the birth of my Second Son. Call it time, maturity, whatever, I was determined to breastfeed this time around. I was sure that IF I wanted it bad enough my milk would be there and we would breastfeed and that would be that. I did little research during pregnancy. We made it a short 5 weeks of partial breastfeeding before I threw in the towel. I DID have milk, but very little. I tried Fenugreek and Mothers Milk Tea only to find that I was not able to make even 25% of what he needed. I also did not have or obtain a good breast pump. Again, I never felt engorgement and drying up was easy. What was horrible though, were the guilt feelings I had once I quit. I felt as if I had done myself and my Son a major disservice. I was emotional to the point I felt like I was mourning a loss. It was at that point I decided I would be successful for the next child.

8 months later I became pregnant again. I was THRILLED and began researching and absorbing all the information I could about breastfeeding. I was in total shock to discover how little I knew about it. It was SO much more than just feeding your little one. It was a bonding mechanism. I understood why I felt so terrible before, and was even more determined to make it work this time. Sadly, at 15 weeks gestation our little girl passed away. After a short and devastating labor she was born silent. At the time there was no way to console that loss or justify it, other than trusting in My Lord. About 2 days after her birthday, I noticed my breasts were swollen and painful. The day after that, I was leaking milk. Something clicked in me that day and my drive to be a successful breastfeeding Mom became damn close to an obsession.

5 months after we lost our baby, I fell pregnant with my newest Son. It was a difficult pregnancy with many, many obstacles. The most difficult being I was to have a repeat C Section. This terrified me… I was SURE that it would cause my milk to delay and things would not get off on the right foot. When I checked into the hospital, I had a PLAN: A breast feeding plan. I made sure everyone who walked into my room knew this plan from top to bottom. The plan was nurse as soon as humanly possible, begin herbs immediately, and pump after every feed from the start. I found that I had SO much support in the hospital for this. Not one nurse even mentioned formula to me. I was loaned a hospital grade pump during my stay, and was able to start pumping right away. Much to my delight I was able to take that pump home with me! I was SO grateful and felt so blessed. My baby’s latch left a lot to be desired. He was not flaring his upper lip and was making that awful sucking sound. My nipples were sore on the first day. He had a very strong, eager suck. He would fall asleep easily. Keeping him awake to eat seemed to be out greatest challenge. I assumed everything was well (as did the nurses) because before we left the hospital my milk was starting to come in. At release my very large (9lbs 9 oz. at birth) Son was down to 8 lbs. 7 oz. I was a little nervous about the weight loss… but my doctor assured me that bigger babies tend to (and safely can) lose a little more weight. I walked out of the hospital confident that we would be just fine.

At home things were going ok. I was breastfeeding constantly. He would suck three times and pass out. Wake up, repeat. Over and over. My nipples were cracked and red and sore. I had read this was normal, and kept refusing to think anything negative. I just kept nursing and pumping and praying. His latch was still terrible, but I kept my mantra going. At 5 days he had a weigh in. He had lost another 3 oz. His stools were green and mucous. My heart fell to the floor. I knew then my supply was not ample, and I had to supplement. I cried… no I BAWLED on the way to the store to buy bottles and formula. It was devastating. When we got home, I fed him his first ever bottle of formula. He sucked down 3 oz. and fell asleep for nearly 3 hours. It was the most heartbreaking day of my life. I was not only losing my battle, I had been starving my own Baby. I must have cried for two hours straight. My Mom and my Husband kept coming in, holding me, and I would just cry harder. I am not sure if they had any idea how painful that was for me. Even now as I recall that moment I am tearing up.

A few days later we did another weigh in. He had gained a few oz. back and was slightly jaundiced. Doctor was confident we were doing just fine and he was healthy. It was hard to believe him at that point. I really felt as if I had failed my baby. I began a grueling routine of Breastfeed, supplement, pump. Over and over. 24 hours a day. It was exhausting to say the least. And on top of it all, he was still a terrible latcher. He still passed out after 2 minutes of sucking. Something was not right here… so I called the Lactation consultants at the hospital and got an appointment. After observation of my sons latch, it was determined he had a tight upper frenulum. Basically, his upper lip is tied and he is unable to maintain suction while latched on. In addition, he exhibited signs of a high pallet, which make it terribly uncomfortable to take a deep latch on the breast. This news was refreshing in that it was NOT just my imagination that things were going badly. It was difficult because this issue was not correctable with anything except time and patience. Time was hard to come by having a two year and a 7 year old at home with me. Patience has never been a virtue of mine. Through the week I rarely latched him on. I pumped and pumped and pumped. But I missed the breastfeeding part of it. It was at this time I decided that I was either going to commit myself 100%, or I was going to quit. In fact, that same evening after yet another failed attempt at a good feed, I said that was it. I won’t pump or latch him on again. I bottle fed him through the night, skipped pumping and just slept. The next morning I was for the VERY first time in my life, engorged. It was painful, and oddly exhilarating. I was giddy with excitement that my breasts were finally doing what they were meant to do… make milk.

The next month brought a host of problems I had never anticipated. I figured that we had been punished enough with the low supply and the latch issues. I could not have been more wrong. We got out first case of thrush, which seemed to go away with Nystatin. My nips were constantly sore and I really attributed that to his poor latch. A week later, I could not latch him on without screaming in pain. I realized that we must have thrush again, and began the Nystatin treatment. That night I became engorged to the point I could not pump anything but a few drops. Latching him on was not even an option, simply too painful to even attempt. I had a large “vein” in my breast that was painful to the touch. Then I saw the white dot on my nipple. A plugged duct. I worked and worked on it with heat compresses and pumping. Finally I latched him on and endured the pain in the hope he would drain the breast. He was able to get enough to give me some relief that night, but the next morning it started again. After 2 days and pressing from my husband, I went to the doc. They prescribed antibiotics for an assumed infection (mastitis) and told me to use the Gentian violet for the thrush. 18 hours after the first application of the purple medication (and lots and lots of giggles) I was able to latch him on without crying out in pain. I will never forget this moment. He looked at me, smiled the biggest smile you ever saw on a baby, and began to nurse. He ate greedily and I was able to observe the most precious of all things… my milk drunk baby. As his eyes rolled back into his head and he fell of my breast in a total coma, I cried harder than I had the day I gave him his first bottle. Only this time it was tears of joy. I had my final Epiphany then… we are going to do this and we are doing it 100%. When we stop, it will be on his terms. Nothing else will get in our way.

Since that moment breastfeeding has been a source of joy in our lives rather than stress. Somewhere around the 12 week mark the whole process just sort of “clicked” for us. I suddenly realized I was no longer watching the clock at feeding time. My nipples had not been sore in weeks. His latch was not only improved, it was perfect. I was able to understand when he was hungry and when he was nursing for comfort. I stopped feeling the quilt over the supplement feedings. We were nursing in public, nursing in front of family members, and in front of the neighbor kids. We were nursing in different positions. The rules seemed to loosen up somehow. We found a flow that worked for us.

I will not sugar coat it and say it has all been roses as it hasn’t. My supply is still low. We have our good days, and then we have our BAD days. I made the decision to take domperidone for my supply. I tried a 2 week trial of it and it made a HUGE difference. After a short (and not welcomed) hiatus I purchased a full 4 month supply. Today, at the three week mark, I am making more milk than I ever dreamed I could! I may never hit 100% supply, and through all of this I realized that exclusive breastfeeding is not what I was seeking all along. It was the bond of the relationship. We have that and it can never be taken away.

Nothing on this earth feels better than putting my sweet baby boy to my breast. Nothing is sweeter than him making his polite “nursing face” and smiling when he gets close to me. I have never been as proud of myself as I am now. Against all odds, I am a breastfeeding Mom.