I know I posted before... I'm pregnant- 15 weeks today. My DD is almost 20 mos old, and still nurses quite a lot really. At this point I still have milk, and my nipples feel RAW. She has also been teething and sick for the last MONTHS. So she's biting because of the teething (this is really the only time she bites- and it's all 4 cuspids coming in- thank God all four have *just* broken through the gums), and she is doing a suck, suck, breathe through the mouth because nose is stuffed, and then relatch thing because of being sick. It's all adding up, along with pregnancy hormones of course, to major pain for me!
But as I said, she still nurses a lot. Typical day would be nursing at waking, down for naps, just after waking from naps, and at bedtime at a minimum. At bedtime, I now have her nursing, but not nursing to sleep. We nurse, and then I sing and just be with her until she falls asleep on her own. She still wakes every few hours usually, and I don't nurse her every time, but, the closer it gets to the middle of the night, the more asleep I am, the more nursing she does. Some nights are better or worse than others, but, there are nights where from like 3am on, she's waking once an hour or more, and comfort nursing until morning (usually between 6 and 7). Needless to say, this much nursing at night is wearing on me, and adding to the sore nipples.
I have two major concerns-
1) What if I push through, and then find that I just CANNOT (mentally/emotionally) tandem nurse? Then I'll be weaning her in a way that has the new baby seemingly replacing her. I hate the thought of that.
2) I have been SUPER committed to letting her self-wean since before she was born. I REALLY wanted her to nurse until 2 at least. As much as I wanted another baby, I didn't ever do anything on purpose to bring back fertility, etc... it all happened on its own, and we were able to get pregnant very easily... and now here I am... a good 4 mos shy of her 2nd birthday, wondering how I will make it til then.
So... really, I'm looking for either support or advice from mammas who have been through this. Did you push through your whole pregnancy even though it was painful (did it ever get better?)? Did you find you had a hard time nursing both your kids once you had a newborn in your arms again?
I think the thing is in my heart, I want to keep nursing. But the last few days or weeks have me feeling like I really might not be able to make it... but I don't want to quit on my worst day... but I also REALLY don't want to leave the weaning until the new baby arrives, as I said before. And I think a part of me is questioning the real why I'm doing all this... because the WHO says so, because I set a goal and MUST FINISH, because I'm just stubborn, because I want to be a martyr... I don't know...
So... what would you do? What did you do? Help!