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Mommy Confessionals ~ Helpful or hurtful?

I lost it this morning. Really lost it.

After the kids were all dressed for school, breakfast eaten, teeth brushed, backpacks packed, I turned on the TV. I have a rule that the kids can only watch certain channels. There is so much crap on TV ? shows geared towards teens and preteens, shows that showcase kids calling other people ?idiot? and ?stupid? and generally behaving obnoxiously ? and in all seriousness, I have a hard enough time keeping my kids under control without exposing them to those kinds of influences and role models. So the rule is, Mom sets the channel, and you don?t change it without permission. Annabelle never, ever, ever sticks to this rule. The moment I walk out of the room, she?s got the remote in her hand, channel-surfing, looking for some obnoxious show featuring smart-*** teenagers. It happened this morning. Within thirty seconds of my turning the TV on to Nick Jr. ? really for Finn ? Annabelle is changing the channel. ?Leave the TV alone, Annabelle,? I said. I left the room. A few minutes later, on my way to the kitchen, I saw her there, remote in hand, channel surfing again. And I lost it.

Screaming and yelling ensued. Swearing. ?I?VE TOLD YOU A THOUSAND TIMES TO LEAVE THE TV ALONE!!? I shouted. ?GO TO YOUR ROOM! GO SIT IN YOUR ROOM UNTIL IT?S TIME TO LEAVE FOR SCHOOL. NOW!!!? She just stood there staring at me, not moving a muscle. ?GO!!? I yelled. All the kids froze in their tracks while I chased ? literally chased ? Annabelle into her room. She beat me by a half a second and locked the door against me. Locked the door! ?I?m going to kill her!? I muttered. ?MOM! Are you really going to kill Annabelle? Did you really just say that?!? Daisy shrieked. ?OPEN THIS GODDAMN DOOR!? I yelled. Annabelle unlocked the door. ?Don?t you ever lock the door against me again! Do you hear me?!? I yelled at her.

Michael?s trying to calm me. ?Leave me alone!? I yelled at him. ?I do EVERYTHING for you people ? including YOU! ? and you all treat me like ****! Every last one of you!?

I know. All this over an eight-year old changing the channel on the TV. But really, of course it?s not just about that. That was just the straw that broke the camel?s back this morning. It was my eight-year old changing the channel after I told her not to ? again. It was dealing with Finn tantruming his way through breakfast ? again. It was Joey throwing a dramatic tantrum and copping a major attitude last night when I said no, he could not have an Instagram account (he?s ten, for crying out loud!). It?s the bickering and tattling all the time. It?s the ?I want, I want, I want? all the time, and the lack of willingness to do much of anything I ask. Ask somebody to set the table for dinner? Tell them to clean up their room? Oh myGOD! You would think I?m asking them to pull their own fingernails out! It?s my husband being gone so much of the time and me feeling utterly alone, like I?m dealing with all of this single handedly.

I?m not excusing my losing it this morning. I?m ashamed. I wish I held it together better, I really, really do. And lest I start to sound like my own mother who seemed to believe that her kids were responsible for her happiness/unhappiness but she, the adult, was not responsible for theirs, let me just say that I know kids are kids, they don?t actually mean anything personal by their behavior ? I know that, I really do.

Sometimes motherhood just feels like a big, fat **** You, though. This is why people say that motherhood is a hard job. Not because it?s especially intellectually challenging or physically demanding ? I mean it is those things, but there are certainly other pursuits that require for far more intellectual and/or physical output than motherhood. Not because it requires a great deal of bravery ? of course, it does call for that, too, but certainly not as much as being a soldier or a police officer, for instance. No, it?s not those things. It?s because it?s so ****ing emotionally taxing. It?s because it?s so incredibly thankless so much of the time. It?s because I feel like I?ve sacrificed so much of myself for them, and they don?t appreciate it. It?s because I do and do and do for them, constantly, and it often seems like all I get in return is complaining that it?s not enough ? or just outright ignored. I?m not looking for accolades or awards or fanfare. I?m not even looking for ?thank you.? It would just be nice to get a little cooperation. A little respect for the rules ? rules which aren?t onerous or unreasonable for crap?s sake!

And, you know, it?s hard to admit these things. Everyone wants to talk about how great motherhood is, how fulfilling it is. Sometimes it is. And often, it?s not. I?m not even sure why I?m writing about it this morning ? opening myself up to criticism and judgment, exposing the flaws in the pretty picture. I don?t want to feel alone, I guess.

After I got back from dropping the kids off at school this morning, I discovered that Annabelle had left her lunch at home. Who do you think packed the baby and Finn back into the truck to drive her lunch to school?

Because that?s what moms do.

Taken from Scarymommy.com

This made my jaw drop. I know that this sort of "confessional" blogging is very en vogue, but I still haven't gotten used to it. I find it so ugly and off putting. Yet it seems to resonate with people, I think that this had something like 20 THOUSAND facebook likes or shares or something, I was too flabbergasted to focus. And forgive me for not linking to it, but I simply refuse to give this garbage hits. You are welcome to look it up.

So what do you think? Kids will obviously read this stuff as adults (the author writes under her real full name). Healthy, honest, good, bonding, stress release, whatever? Is this a great way for women to bond, reading "eff you's" to our children?

Or is this awful? Or you think that we as women should be "liking" or encouraging more of this sort of writing?

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I dont like it. I cringe when I read it because I know that her kids will have access to it someday, makes me sad for the kids. I also dont like when parents are all "I do everything for you, and what do you do for me?" I would love to remind her that she chose to have kids.

I have read some mommy confessionals that make me laugh. A friend of mine recently posted on her blog a funny story about taking the baby (kid #4) to the pediatrician for his circumcision and half way through she noticed she had on 2 different shoes. All of her posts are self deprecating and never complaining about parenting. I really enjoy reading that.

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I do think this article is in poor taste. I have however, read mommy confessionals that are funny and have helped me to relax. For example I remember reading a long list of differences between a first child and a second (or 3rd or 4th) child. For example buying only the expensive diapers vs. the cheaper ones, or boiling bottles vs. just washing them in hot water. Yes, the mom was letting loose, but it really helped me as a FTM to put things in perspective.

All of that to say, I do not think all mommy confessionals are bad. This one however, I think does not serve any good.

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I don't mind some of the confessionals, but some are just too much. I read the ones on scarymommy which are anonymous. I have posted there as well (like about my frustrations with Kaiya who can't ever pick up her toys!). But kids will never see those and know it was about them. I see that as a venting forum which can help in that moment of emotion.

Some of them are really scary though. The ones about being beaten or wanting to hit the kids. I am also shocked at home many people are cheating on their partners or don't love them or hate them even. Honestly they make me feel better about my own parenting and relationship! And I wouldn't want to post things about my kids in a public forum that they can read someday. Maybe the funny things they say, but not venting. That shouldn't be public and have names and such. It is too easy to find and they people being written about would feel like crap if they found it.

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Well this particular piece sounds like a big whine-fest with no larger point honestly. The whole thing was a turn off and the moment she confessed to with the language and words used...is particularly eye popping to me.

I think some carefully written mommy confessionals are therapeutic is some ways. I think there is something soothing about knowing that we all try our hardest...we all fail to do the right thing sometimes, but that our kids can still be okay. I think there is a lot of pressure to be perfect on parents...and a lot of "This will destroy your child" "That will ruin them emotionally forever!!!" in day to day parenting culture and sometimes its good to remind each other that while we all should be responsible and do whats right, lets just acknowledge that we all have our fails.

This article is not in that vein at all. This article just says "Motherhood sucks...i'm embarrassed to say it but motherhood sucks" I don't really see any other message in it.

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Really, my feelings about this mom, in my totally no professional, not an ounce of psychology education opinion, is simply looking for 'there theres' and a pat on a back that what she is feeling is okay. This piece was self serving.

I think she sounds very unhappy, and is probably ashamed of some of the things she's done. I think she might be looking for justification or reassurance that she's normal and not less happy than other people with kids.

There was no attempt to put a positive spin, or a proactive call to try harder...or a larger lesson learned. She just sounds downright unhappy.

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I just find it really disgusting. And I'm floored that there are people commenting things like "ITS SO GOOD TO KNOW I AM NOT ALONE"........like.....THIS utter CRAP makes people feel BETTER? UGH!!! What on earth are we aspiring to as parents if this makes us HAPPY? Are there honestly and truly women out there who are so isolated and alone and friendless who don't know that motherhood is hard, or who don't have actual friends to talk to about having hard days or whatnot, who really think that there are "perfect Mom's" out there and are actually reading this trash sobbing and thinking "THANK GOD I'm AN OKAY PERSON BECAUSE I SCREAM CURSES AT MY KIDS TOO"? I mean......really?

I just find this whole "Eff off kids" and "Go the F to sleep" and all that just boring and tiresome and not entertaining or relatable. If you didn't know that motherhood was hard before entering into it, I feel really sorry for you. Of course it is. Duh. Life is hard. Duh. If you seriously feel like its THAT terrible or you are THAT undervalued or its THAT thankless, I truly think that you should be in some marriage counseling and therapy. The author sounds out of control or depressed or something. I get it that 7 kids must be really tough, but, I mean, its your life at this point, so either accept it or find help (babysitters or whatnot) or find a way to accept it that isn't scarring your kids. THreatening to kill your children in their presence simply isn't like....normal or healthy behavior, any way one slices it.

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It seems like to me she is asking for a pat on the back to say its ok because everybody does it. Ummm no, everybody doesn't do it, especially cussing out their kids.

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I just find it really disgusting. And I'm floored that there are people commenting things like "ITS SO GOOD TO KNOW I AM NOT ALONE"........like.....THIS utter CRAP makes people feel BETTER? UGH!!! What on earth are we aspiring to as parents if this makes us HAPPY? Are there honestly and truly women out there who are so isolated and alone and friendless who don't know that motherhood is hard, or who don't have actual friends to talk to about having hard days or whatnot, who really think that there are "perfect Mom's" out there and are actually reading this trash sobbing and thinking "THANK GOD I'm AN OKAY PERSON BECAUSE I SCREAM CURSES AT MY KIDS TOO"? I mean......really?

I just find this whole "Eff off kids" and "Go the F to sleep" and all that just boring and tiresome and not entertaining or relatable. If you didn't know that motherhood was hard before entering into it, I feel really sorry for you. Of course it is. Duh. Life is hard. Duh. If you seriously feel like its THAT terrible or you are THAT undervalued or its THAT thankless, I truly think that you should be in some marriage counseling and therapy. The author sounds out of control or depressed or something. I get it that 7 kids must be really tough, but, I mean, its your life at this point, so either accept it or find help (babysitters or whatnot) or find a way to accept it that isn't scarring your kids. THreatening to kill your children in their presence simply isn't like....normal or healthy behavior, any way one slices it.

I think your second paragraph really hits it. I think there are a lot of people who actually are unhappy in parenthood, but likely don't want to admit it. So if they hear other people feel the same way...instead of admitting its a problem, they can just tell themselves its 'normal'. It gives them a reason to not have to be proactive.

On the flip side

I think reassurance that your kids are going to be okay even if you mess up sometimes, and everyone does it, as long as your heart is in the right place and you don't lower your standards (aka acknowledge what you did was wrong) is a good message. I think a lot of mommy confessional are of that ilk.

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I should add that when i talk about the 'good kind' of mommy confessional...i don' think that means any and every act a mommy can 'confess' about is ok. For example i don't think there is any excuse for what this woman wrote about. Its terrible.

I'm talking more about when parents admit that they like...sat their kid through two movies in a row because they had something that needed to get done, or they had ice cream for dinner one night.

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I've followed Lisa's blog for many years and I love what she writes, I love her voice, I love her advocacy for Down syndrome, I love how she doesn't give a flip about how other people see her, she seems very honest in what she's putting out there, it's not a show, it's not glossed-over, it's just her. She doesn't censor herself. She writes about the nonsense things -- her dog yapping too much and baby poop and the girl she met at Starbucks -- along with all the important stuff she writes about, like whether to buy condoms for a teenager and advocating for her son who is being denied his legal rights by their school district. And when she had a bad day, she wrote about it. There was no larger point to that post, no message to take away, I don't think it was even a plea for "back-patting," it was just venting.

That said, she does seem to have a lot of bad days. She also doesn't seem very good at avoiding some of these things to begin with (why leave the remote where Annabelle can reach it, and why is there a lock on a child's door?) or in dealing with them after the fact (let her eat cafeteria food if she doesn't remember her lunch) which probably makes more bad days for her. She does seem to love her kids very much and she seems to take very good care of them most of the time, so I'll give her a pass on having a really bad day. I don't generally like people writing about their kids as a profession, but if anyone is going to do it, then at least give us the daily grind along with the roses & rainbows. That gets boring.

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I dont think what she was describing is what a normal person would consider "the daily grind" To me that is an extreme in parenting. I like Lisa too, have read her for years, since Finn was born. But when she writes like this I feel really bad for her kids.

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"GloriaInTX" wrote:

It seems like to me she is asking for a pat on the back to say its ok because everybody does it. Ummm no, everybody doesn't do it, especially cussing out their kids.

I guess I'm missing the part where she's cussing out her kids. She cusses at her husband, but not her kids. Except to say "goddamn" which many of don't consider to be "cussing" in the way that **** & **** & ***** are. It's not even censored by pg.org.

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She said that yelling ensued and swearing. First sentence of 2nd paragraph.

Meh. I don't like articles like this that make parenting and being a mom or dad to be the worst thing in my life. Some days are crappy. Some days are the best. It averages out to be pretty good. I don't mind venting ones but to put out there a scenario like this are saying...hey kid(s) I think this/you/everything sucks is not good.

But, man, I love "Go the F*ck to Sleep". I laughed so hard. When you have a child who has sleep issues, is just over 1 and is up from 6am and won't go to bed until 1 am while you are pregnant and working a full time job and this sleep issue goes on for a year and then morphs into going to bed at 9 and waking up from 3-5 daily for 6 months.....you would laugh too. I prayed and cried daily for sleep. I love that girl so much but I have to say....I didn't completely understand what having a child with autism was going to bring me.

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Oh, now I know who wrote the blog! The name Finn was familiar, but I didn't place it at first.

I think some mommy confessionals, like "rough day....letting the kids eat cereal for dinner" are one thing. But this one - I feel horrible for her kids. This isn't just yelling at them to "please, for the love of God, go clean up your room" for the eighteenth time.

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Carolyn...I agree...I guess I don't really discuss my kids and parenting to a lot of friends. I have 1 friend I basically discuss these things to and she gets it but it still feels crappy when you have a day when you give up and they are eating a little too much sugar or you are throwing a piece of cheese at them for dinner. Those kind of "confessionals" I can get on board with. We do sometimes need someone to say..it's cool that you didn't make dinner tonight...they won't die. You make dinner every other night. Whatever. Or that it's okay to not think that every action your kid does is a miracle (like when my 3 year old talks fresh).

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But, man, I love "Go the F*ck to Sleep". I laughed so hard. When you have a child who has sleep issues, is just over 1 and is up from 6am and won't go to bed until 1 am while you are pregnant and working a full time job and this sleep issue goes on for a year and then morphs into going to bed at 9 and waking up from 3-5 daily for 6 months.....you would laugh too. I prayed and cried daily for sleep. I love that girl so much but I have to say....I didn't completely understand what having a child with autism was going to bring me.

Yes! I laughed so hard I almost cried. I listened to it on youtube a few times as therapy after a particularly bad bedtime. Kaiya was terrible at falling asleep and bedtime was the hardest part of our day.

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I don't think it's horrible for her to think those things. And I don't think it's horrible to write them down and share them with like-minded friends. And I don't think it's that unusual for parents to occasionally lose it on that level....I don't get to those levels myself, but I figure that's just luck and circumstance. BUT...I don't think publishing it in a place with your real name, where your kids and their friends can see it, is particularly nice or wise.

I think it's okay that people identify with it. It's very normal to feel unappreciated, exhausted, pushed to the limit, and alone in all of that. I just think that the internet in general has made too many people think it's okay to put their more private thoughts & moments out there for an audience of strangers and forget how it might affect the people closest to them. Vent all you want, express your darkest thoughts, but find the right place for it. Anonymously would have been fine.

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"Jessica80" wrote:

She said that yelling ensued and swearing. First sentence of 2nd paragraph.

You'd prefer her to say, to no one in general, "Man, I can't believe what a bunch of lazy self-absorbed slobs I'm raising. I should have been a farmer because that's what I'm doing here, raising pigs. A bunch of worthless pigs that are never going to amount to anything, probably living in my basement when they're 30. What a wonderful life we all have ahead of ourselves." That would involve no swearing, no cussing, nothing directed at her kids, but IMHO that's all way worse than saying, what Lisa says she said.

And this isn't an "article" that she "published" intending to spread some kind of information or opinion to others. It's a vent posted on her personal blog. I don't think it was wise for her to allow it to be re-posted with her own name and her kids names, that's admittedly a bit too much for me. She should have had them change the names & post it anonymously. Of course some people might be able to figure it out and that takes away the authenticity which is what draws many of us to read her in the first place....

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I agree about the swearing. . .swearing doesn't bother me on its own. You can say things that are a lot worse without swearing. Those words don't have much power over me. We've covered this in other debates, the only reason I curb my swearing and discourage the kids from doing it is because of the effect it has on others, not because I think it has intense meaning or impact.

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Stacey I have no real opinion on the swearing but you asked where she wrote about swearing and I answered.

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I didn't ask where she wrote about swearing, but where she wrote about swearing at her kids. That seems to be the issue for some of the posters here, and I just don't see it. Stomping around and swearing about a situation you're in is not the same thing at all. "Open this goddamn door," and, "You all treat me like ****," are simply not swearing at or cussing out your kids. Maybe she did say something awful to her kids & chose not to post it? We don't know, but with everything else that Lisa posts openly & honestly, I kind of doubt it.

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You don't think saying "I'm going to kill you" to your child in the presence of your children is terribly frightening? And you don't think goddamn is a curse word? She said it directly to her young daughter.

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You'd prefer her to say, to no one in general, "Man, I can't believe what a bunch of lazy self-absorbed slobs I'm raising. I should have been a farmer because that's what I'm doing here, raising pigs. A bunch of worthless pigs that are never going to amount to anything, probably living in my basement when they're 30. What a wonderful life we all have ahead of ourselves." That would involve no swearing, no cussing, nothing directed at her kids, but IMHO that's all way worse than saying, what Lisa says she said.

And this isn't an "article" that she "published" intending to spread some kind of information or opinion to others. It's a vent posted on her personal blog. I don't think it was wise for her to allow it to be re-posted with her own name and her kids names, that's admittedly a bit too much for me. She should have had them change the names & post it anonymously. Of course some people might be able to figure it out and that takes away the authenticity which is what draws many of us to read her in the first place....

No it wasn't. It was an "article" that she submitted to the site scarymommy and that is where it was presented. At least she sent it to the right place. Scary Mommy indeed.

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This whole article isn't my cup of tea, but everyone is different.

I do however, think this is swearing at your kids:

"Michael?s trying to calm me. ?Leave me alone!? I yelled at him. ?I do EVERYTHING for you people ? including YOU! ? and you all treat me like ****! Every last one of you!?"

It happens. I am sure they are all fine and dandy, but we don't do that. I mean, I am normal and I get irritated like every human being on the planet, but we just don't relate to each other like this. It's really sad. Sad

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No it wasn't. It was an "article" that she submitted to the site scarymommy and that is where it was presented. At least she sent it to the right place. Scary Mommy indeed.

Yes, it was. She posted it to her blog on February 26th of this year.

http://www.lisamorguess.com/2013/02/26/motherhood-the-big-fat-****-you/

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Right, and no one really cared as her blog isn't that popular. When she submitted it to scary mommy and had it posted there, it got more notice. You don't really think that scarymommy read her blog and said "WOW! You sound like a TERRIFYING Mom, can we please copy your post, do you? As she says in her latest blog post, she has submitted posts all over the place trying to get them picked up. There are also blog posts bemoaning her lack of success in doing so ~ she seemed frustrated that simply having a DS child didn't propel her to stardom like it did Kelle Hampton . I guess she has found her genre as the **** YOU MOM. Lovely.

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I can relate to this post, in that I have a temper and occasionally lose my **** with the kids. Not to this extent, but it happens. What I find missing though is the 'we all ended up sitting on the kitchen floor, cuddled in my bed, etc, talking about what happened, how mommy was wrong, where they were wrong, how I would try not to let it happen again etc. Another big thing I found was missing was the 'what I learned from this experience'. I always try to take away something to prevent a repeat, in fact, I often get the kids to help me with this. Things like, taking away the clicker, or turning off the TV if the channel gets changed, taking the lock off the door, going to your room when told to, and on moms end, if I feel like I am losing my temper, giving myself a time out alone in my bedroom.

I would have appreciated this post a lot more if it had included those things, been a learning moment that she was choosing to pass on. But instead it is just a whiny 'being a mom is hard' post and it makes me a bit ragey as well.

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Kyla, I really agree with your observation.

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I don't think it's horrible for her to think those things. And I don't think it's horrible to write them down and share them with like-minded friends. And I don't think it's that unusual for parents to occasionally lose it on that level....I don't get to those levels myself, but I figure that's just luck and circumstance. BUT...I don't think publishing it in a place with your real name, where your kids and their friends can see it, is particularly nice or wise.

I think it's okay that people identify with it. It's very normal to feel unappreciated, exhausted, pushed to the limit, and alone in all of that. I just think that the internet in general has made too many people think it's okay to put their more private thoughts & moments out there for an audience of strangers and forget how it might affect the people closest to them. Vent all you want, express your darkest thoughts, but find the right place for it. Anonymously would have been fine.

I do agree with that its okay with acknowledging that you sometimes feel unappreciated and in your darkest moments of frustration nothing seems particularly great about it...at that time

But man, she sounds really unhappy and extra PO'd. Did she write this immediately after it happened? That could explain it. And i think thats a terrible idea. To write publicly when you are infuriated.

And I think its fine to identify with feeling unappreciated. But she ties that whole feeling to this really ugly moment, where she is saying things her kids really shouldn't hear. And i think its really bad that she is getting all this positive reinforcement for sharing it.

There is a difference between
"I feel unappreciated" with a response of "thank you so much for writing this!"

and

"I feel unappreciated and I *****ed my kids/husband out" with a response of "thank you so much for writing this!"

I just feel like she sounds very unapologetic for doing what she did.

FTR, I"m responding to your post, but i'm not disagreeing with your post. Just using it to jump off from.

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"Spacers" wrote:

You'd prefer her to say, to no one in general, "Man, I can't believe what a bunch of lazy self-absorbed slobs I'm raising. I should have been a farmer because that's what I'm doing here, raising pigs. A bunch of worthless pigs that are never going to amount to anything, probably living in my basement when they're 30. What a wonderful life we all have ahead of ourselves." That would involve no swearing, no cussing, nothing directed at her kids, but IMHO that's all way worse than saying, what Lisa says she said.

Are you trying to say she handled the situation well? She certainly didn't. Why defend what she did? She should have done something different. There are more choices than just what she did and this hypothetical you portray here. I'm not saying we all do the right thing every time....but really, that is a very ugly moment to share simply to say "You know what, i'm tired of feeling under appreciated"

And this isn't an "article" that she "published" intending to spread some kind of information or opinion to others. It's a vent posted on her personal blog.

Who cares what its technically called. She put it out on the internet for everyone to read.

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I can relate to this post, in that I have a temper and occasionally lose my **** with the kids. Not to this extent, but it happens. What I find missing though is the 'we all ended up sitting on the kitchen floor, cuddled in my bed, etc, talking about what happened, how mommy was wrong, where they were wrong, how I would try not to let it happen again etc. Another big thing I found was missing was the 'what I learned from this experience'. I always try to take away something to prevent a repeat, in fact, I often get the kids to help me with this. Things like, taking away the clicker, or turning off the TV if the channel gets changed, taking the lock off the door, going to your room when told to, and on moms end, if I feel like I am losing my temper, giving myself a time out alone in my bedroom.

I would have appreciated this post a lot more if it had included those things, been a learning moment that she was choosing to pass on. But instead it is just a whiny 'being a mom is hard' post and it makes me a bit ragey as well.

THIS exactly. There is no apologetic tone to what happened. Just fury with motherhood. She used the moment as a set up to portray her frustration with motherhood and nothing else. Thats really bothersome.

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Oh and FTR I laughed a lot at GO the **** To Sleep.

That didn't bother me in the least. Its a humorous piece...and its not meant to be read to kids.

Sorry for the serial posting...i was very busy all weekend and just catching up.

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"Spacers" wrote:

I guess I'm missing the part where she's cussing out her kids. She cusses at her husband, but not her kids. Except to say "goddamn" which many of don't consider to be "cussing" in the way that **** & **** & ***** are. It's not even censored by pg.org.

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I do however, think this is swearing at your kids:

"Michael?s trying to calm me. ?Leave me alone!? I yelled at him. ?I do EVERYTHING for you people ? including YOU! ? and you all treat me like ****! Every last one of you!?"(

Yes that.

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From what I remember of Lisa, she did have a very abrasive tone when posting here. I'm not entirely surprised by her blog post, sadly.

I'm sure all of us here can say we've had a moment where the dam broke, and we kind of flipped our lid. But what she described wasn't just flipping her lid - she went way past that to a very dark territory, with the "I'm going to kill you" comment. Honestly, even in my worst ppd moments I never, ever would have said that to my kids. That part bothers me even more than the swearing.

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I tell DD that I'm going to brain her, however it's said in jest when she's being a pain. She definitely pushes my buttons too and I have had a couple of explosive moments with her. We all have different personalities, as do our children so of course what I think is OK others may not and vice versa.

When my DD is playing up and acting like a demon, I sometimes do feel completely isolated like she's the only disruptive child in the history of the world! Haha OTT but it's true and it's good to hear I'm NOT alone.

I don;t feel sorry for the kids either - personally I don;t think they'll ever read it BUT if they do, why would they feel hurt by it and not take it in jest? I know I would if it was my Mother.

Like I said, different personalities.

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