Anyone else finding it hard to contain their emotions? I cry over everything these days...
Yes! I am a basketcase lately it seems.
My mother called me today asking for a new pic of DD1, my nephew (almost 4) stole the one I sent them, he hid it in his pants and when my Dad put him in the truck to take him home he found it, Nephew grabbed the picture, said MY Eala and kissed it. He loves her so much it breaks my heart because we see him so rarely now that we're 3 hours away. Every time we see him he wants to come home with us because he doesn't want her to go. He once threw himself on the driveway beside my car crying saying 'No Eala no go I Wuv you!' It always brings me to tears
Then of course the news about the shootings today, when DD came home I pulled her into my lap and cried for all those poor kids, I'm choked up just typing this... what a horrible tragedy!
I know. It is horrible about the shootings. So senseless. No one can ever know why. Makes me want to not send my kids to school, because you never do really know. I have teared up several times today thinking about it. Have kept the news off on purpose though, can't handle that.
I haven't been able to turn on the news of even facebook because of it. I can't imagine something so terrible
As for the emotions, I've been able to keep them more or less in check (except for when it's just me and DH)......What I'm having a hard time controlling is this sudden clingyness. I almost get a little panicy when DH is gone.
Jo I feel that too sometimes. I am much more emotional this pregnancy than last one. And MUCH more nervous, maybe because it was such a long road getting her? Or the fact that I had bleeding early on and we didn't know how it would turn out? Maybe just hormones I don't know.
I wanted so badly to really ENJOY being pregnant this time, I'm looking forward to labor and delivery, sleepless nights and poopy diapers, I'd do them all a dozen times but I have to say it's the pregnancy part of the whole process that will limit how many babies we have.
My emotions are a mess too. I keep freaking out about the shootings and tbh, I kept my kids home from school today. Partly b/c they had a late night and wouldn't wake up and partly because I'm terrified.
Overreacting? Nope. Friday was their holiday show and while people in CT were facing that horrible tragedy, our local school was scaring me all on it's own. At the end of the concerts, people were signing their kids out and there was just a huge, chaotic mob, in the hall of both adults and children. As Xander ran through the crowd and I lost site of him, it became very clear that anyone could have walked off with someone else's child and nobody would have noticed. The school was completely careless. I mean, who's idea was it to sign them out in the hallway instead of in the office one at a time? Nobody was even trying to organize the mess!
Also, when entering the school, there was absolutely nobody checking to make sure that bad guys of any kind weren't coming in with the parents. The school was so crowded that had someone tried to come into our school with a gun, nobody would have noticed!
Before I even learned about the shootings, I told myself that I wasn't sure I wanted to send them back there ever again. I think I will send them tomorrow but I'm also going to complain to the school board I think.
That and last night I was bawling about the fact that I still haven't found an OB that will see me unless I consent to a repeat c-section so I'm starting to get a little worried.
Our school is locked from the time the kids arrive to the time they leave, with one door which is just outside the main office open for visitors to enter through, anyone coming in would have to go through that main door and would be required to sign in. Not that someone wouldn't be able to make their way in but it makes it much harder and people would be alerted quickly should something arise. The kids also practice 'lock down' on a regular basis, the procedure which they follow should someone enter the school with intent to harm. It makes me sad that this is the way it is now but I'm glad my child is safe. (After the School concert, if you want to sign your child out, you'd have to go to their classroom first and sign them out at the office. However we have a turkey dinner with the kids in the cafeteria immediately after our concert)
Danielle - If you can't find an OB soon will you consider a repeat C-section?
Crystal- if I don't find an OB soon, we're going to have a home birth. I cannot handle the trauma of another c-section without a medical reason and prior abuse is not a medical reason. I've been bullied into that position too many times and it will completely destroy me to go through it again. It almost destroyed me the last time. I had some really nasty PPD issues for a long time (I've only really recently gotten better!). 2+ years of depression isn't worth it, especially if if ends up being worse this time around. DH wasn't fond of the idea of a home birth at all but as it's looking like more and more doctors want to ignore my right to informed consent and the local hospital has admitted that they're going to section me without consent (his words were literally, "even if you come in ready to push, we're just going to section you anyway"), we may not have a choice.
I'm not thrilled about being backed into a homebirth at all but at least I'll be allowed to try and the midwife will transfer me to the hospital in the event of a problem. IF I have another section due to medical need, I'm prepared to handle that but I cannot walk into the hospital and just let someone cut me for no reason.
Just the idea of another section makes me start hyperventilating.