Hi everyone! I hope you guys are all doing well. It's been so quiet around here and I know we're all super busy with our new little ones but I thought it would be nice to have everyone check in. Please tell us how you are all doing. Any struggles you want to share or maybe milestones or just some pictures for us to enjoy.
I've been super busy with Lucas. I had NO idea how hard having a newborn would be. The constant worrying and second guessing yourself as a FTM plus the sleep deprivation is a toxic combination, I tell ya! I'm just starting to get the hang of things and feel like myself again.
My struggles -
Breastfeeding - due to jaundice Lucas stopped latching so I had to start pumping and supplement with formula. He got used to the bottle so he stopped nursing. I had to exclusively pump so I was pumping around the clock and seriously felt like a dairy cow! I also keep getting excruciatingly painful plugged ducts and have supply issues. BUT, Lucas starting nursing again so, progress! I'm still pumping and taking all sorts of supplements to increase my supply. Anyway, I had no idea breastfeeding would be this hard.
Naps - Lucas will only nap for 20 - 40 minutes so I have zero time to myself. I use the precious few minutes of nap time to catch up on housework, eat and take a quick shower. I'm really hoping he'll start napping longer soon. He's pretty good at night (knock on wood) so I guess I can't complain too much.
FTM struggles - being a FTM, I have no clue what I'm doing so I'm constantly second guessing myself. I?m so stressed out and have so much anxiety about everything. I just don't want to do anything wrong. Also, I know people mean well but they keep making me question myself by giving me unsolicited advice. I've pretty much decided that I'm just going to trust my instincts and not listen to other people because what worked for them might not be best for me and my little man.
Body issues - I gained a total of 24 lbs. and lost 19 lbs. the first week and gained a few back since. So, I now have 7 lbs. lose. I'm not too worried about the number but my body is NOT the same at all. My stomach is...ugh...flabby...lol. I also have extra padding in my inner thighs. I'm pretty sure my body is hanging on to the extra weight because I'm breastfeeding. Plus, I'm sure all the sugar I'm consuming isn't helping. I guess I just feel so frumpy since I'm stuck at the house so I wear nothing but yoga pants and nursing Ts. I ordered bunch or transition clothes so hopefully I can start getting dressed every morning again so I don't feel so gross.
There are tons more I'm struggling with but I should probably stop here so I don't sound ungrateful because I thank the stars every second of the day for my little man. He is so perfect and I love him sooo much. I take one look at him and I melt. The smiles he gives me are to die for. I can't even tell you guys how much I love him. ~sigh~
Hubby has been so great and he's an amazing father. Watching him interact with Lucas is a joy to watch. I'm a very luck girl.
Lucas is doing well and is a little imp already. His little grins are so precious and he LOVES to smile at himself in the mirror. LOL He's eating 3.5 - 4 oz. every 2.5 - 4 hours and is growing so fast! I'm not sure how I feel about that. I miss my little tiny baby. He goes from breast to bottle to paci with no problems. He tolerates tummy time but it's not his favorite thing to do for sure. He is fascinated our huge living room ceiling fan. I think it's his best friend and he has big plans for it...lol. Lucas has yet to sleep in his own room but that's about to change. I'm going to move him into his room this weekend - wish me luck!
I have so much more I want to say but I have to go for now. My internet time is pretty much non-existent these days but I'm going to try to check in more often.
Anyway, things are going well for now and I miss everyone here. Please check in and let me know how you and your little ones are doing!