I've been having some light cramping for the last few days. I didn't think anything of it, so I ignored it.
I woke up this morning in a ton of blood... My husband and I called my Mom to take care of Sophia and we headed to the ER. There was so much blood and the cramping was getting much worse, to the point where it was comparable to labor pain. The doctor did a pelvic exam and put me on some pain meds, then they brought in a doppler and they couldn't find a heartbeat.
I was crying during all of this. We were convinced we lost the baby. Completely convinced, to the point where we were talking about how lucky we were to have Sophia and talking about if they were going to make me go home to pass the baby on my own or have a D & C. I was scared I'd have to see the baby. We'd had the bleeding before while I was pregnant, went to the ER, had them do the same exact process, only for them to tell us we were miscarrying. It was terrible.
We went to have the u/s and the u/s tech told us if there was a heartbeat, she could tell us, but if there wasn't anything she'd have to let the doctor discuss it with us. So she starts the u/s and she's quiet for a while. It verified to me what we were already thinking. Then my DH looks at the screen (he told me later because he wanted to say goodbye to the baby and he just looked shocked. I asked him if he was sure he wanted to see the baby and the u/s tech said, "No, the baby's moving and there's a heartbeat, see."
I cannot tell you what an amazing feeling it was to have someone tell us our baby was still alive, even though we didn't know what was happening with all the bleeding and cramping. I just started bawling. It turned out there was a tear that caused hemmoraging and cramping, but the doctor said this isn't too uncommon and I should be fine. I'm going to schedule a follow up on Monday with my OB.
It was such a difficult morning, but I can't even describe how happy I am to still be pregnant. It was like waking up from a nightmare. I never want to go through anything like that again. The bleeding is slowing and so is the cramping. I really hope it doesn't come back.