I feel insanely dumb posting my drama in my pregnancy journal (thats for pg related stuff) SO I finally decided to make me a journal journal.
So last night was horrid. Ricky went to the store at like 10:30 and said he would be right back. 20 after 11 he still wasnt home, so I called his cell phone, sent me straight to the v-mail yet wouldnt let me leave a message not just once, but three times. So then I log on to AIM and he is on there on his cell also, so I left him like 8 messages over the course of 45 minutes.. All of which went unreplied to. Naturally, I was worried and thought maybe his payment didnt post yet so I logged onto the tmobile website to check it out. Everything looked fine, so I went into the recent activity area of it and looked to see who the last person he talked to was.. I didnt recognize the #, called it, asked the woman who she was, told her my name, and asked when the last time she talked to him was. She said she had just gotten off the phone with him.That was pretty much the end of the conversation.
10 minutes after midnight he strolls in the door all pissy cause I left him an irritated v-mail (when it finally let me leave one). So I said "who were you on the phone with that it kept bumpin me to your voicemail" and he blatantly lied to me and said "noone". So I got highly annoyed and said "well, that's not what Geniveive said" and it all went downhill from there. As usual when I bust him in a lie, he somehow makes it seem like it's my fault.
So he bitches at me for like 35 minutes, says the same shit over and over "why do you always think I'm boinkin someone else??" When those words never came out of my mouth nor the thought cross my mind.. So I said "are you tryin to tell me something? Are you?" No Diane, I'm just sick of you always thinkin I want to sleep with someone else.. RICKY, I never said that!! The issue at hand is NOT who you are talking to or even what the hell you are talking about.. The issue is you sneaking behind my back (I left out the part that he went "for a walk" on saturday night, was gone for 56 minutes and on the phone with her for 53 of them) to talk to her and then lying to me when I ask you about it! Finally I have had enough of the talking in circles and I leave to go for a walk. I get down by Amber's school and I call my MIL, an ironically non-biased party. So I sit on the phone with her for awhile bawling my eyes out because even tho I know in my heart that it's not "me", he has made me feel like it was so now I feel like the shittiest person alive. She keeps tellin me to calm down, that I dont need this stress right now and he knows it, etc etc. She hears me out, listens, says "all the right things" and slowly starts working other things into the conversation to take my mind off the crap.
Anyways, long story short, I came home and sat on the porch and talked to him from my phone till we settled down more. I came inside and went and laid down, txt'd my MIL a few times.. Me and DH didnt really say too much more to each other. He ended up sleeping on the couch, but not before we both made our closing arguements. Woke up this AM and everything seems to be back to normal again, tho I still feel hurt because it always happens.