So, this is the next chapter in my life. I have moved away from a family, I said I would never leave. They seem to be fairing well without me, but dad called today and he seemed a little down.
Now, I'll explain to you about my dad. He's a lovely human being who only works about 5 months out of the year, the other months he is going to track meets, soccer games, friends and babysitting sweet Emma. My dad also loves his mornings alone. He gets up at 11 (I wish I could) and needs to be completely in peace until 12. Unless its sundays, then its one. Its almost a unwritten rule in the house.
Well, today I said I would be over at 9am tomorrow because DD has a birthday party down the street at 11 and he said don't forget to wake me up! lol! He must really miss her. He doesn't get up that early unless its tax season. He also informed me he is defrosting a turkey, which in turn me means Jamie is cooking up a big dinner tomorrow.
So about DE, well its just fantastic here! There is nothing for DD to do, and she misses her friends in NJ. We lived in a huge neighborhood w/tons of kid. Honestly, I like it. It just gets boring when S works doubles. He is working 4 this weekend into this week. Ugh. It is good money, though. I am siked because his next pay check will have NINE overtimes on it. Can't beat that. Anyway, I am going to be making dinner for just DD & I and so S has something for breakfast, lunch & dinner when he does his double tomorrow, too.
Its odd, this place is starting to feel like home for me. Like Stephen said, He & emma our my family. My father & sisters are my family, but not my main support group, which is odd, because they ALWAYS were and still are to a point. I miss my big house, but I don't miss cleaning it. I miss my stocked fridge & freezer, but I don't miss cooking two meals everyday one at 2 and one at 6:30. I am getting use to this. NOW, I do despise the loud cars, stupid motorcycles and ambulances, BUT I think I can get use to this. Oh yea, I also hate the drive NJ.
Well, we just got back from the party. Emma is napping now! She was an angel, she was so so so good. It was just a good day. She was so sweet, and had tos of fun. She listened to everything I said, and was just a breeze to handle. She also fed herself an entire plate of Mac & cheese. Dad & Mol are at her soccer game. I am going to stay here and make dinner & do a little laundry for them. I'm probably going to leave around 8 so I can get home & straighten up before S gets home at 12.
I went food shopping yesterday for the first time in DE. It is the rinky dink little Shoprite. I am not to fond of it, because the isles are so SMALL! It was about 9:00 and when I pulled up with $200 full of groceries, I was thinking how in the hell am I going to get these up with DD? I can't leave her in, so I am going to have to carry her & groceries up every time. Well, mind you DD weighs 34lbs and we live on the 2nd floor AND I am scared of elevators. Then I saw my savior.......JOHN! The gay guy who lives on the 5th floor (At least I am assuming he's gay, its pretty obvious) He helped bring in ALL the groceries & take them up to our Apt. DD & I then went and spent 2 hours at his place, he is so fun, he is going to be a really great friend I can tell. I mean it was pouring and he helped me, he could have just pretended not to see me. DD loves his dog Guiness. We just talked for two hours, and he adores DD. He has a girlfriend though, lol! I Am almost positive he IS gay though. Only time will tell. I cleaned alot last night, and I have to today too. But dad & mol went dinner. They will also play with DD so that will give me a break for a little. Well, off to take a nap before I have to start dinner.
Everything has been great, I got 4 bills out & paid today, so that is a little off my mind!! I have school tonight so FIL is picking DD up from home today!! I have most of Ems presents ready(her bday is in 8 days) I am still waiting for one more to come in from ebay! My dads birthday is today, I need to pick him up a picture frame & some cards from DD & I. Life has been good. I had some awesome last night!! Thank god Anyway, I am doing so terrible in my math class, my dad is going to kill me! I MUST go get totured tomorrow!! I need to go to KOHLs and pick up DD's halloween costume tomorrow, and she needs to get her portraits done at the PP for her birthday & halloween! We also need to get our new family portrait done ASAP, and our extended family portrait(dad, molly, emma, me, meg & elissa) for my dads house. It'll be home his 3 girls, and 2 granddaughters lol! Poor man is sorrounded by woman! S is cleaning the house & made lunch!! He does such a good job! Anyway, I have been feeling really good, lately. Next month we are paying off my entire KOHLS charge so it'll leave it all open for christmas shopping. Another great thing is I was looking at all of my records, I have never been late on anyone of my charge payments or car payment, Thats really good S has been late on his charge SO many times, lol!! Well, until I started doing it for him men are so forgetful!! Anyway, DD is napping right now, and I am doing some laundry. S is working tonight, so I'll be coming home to an empty house again Anyway, I need to go get ready!!
Well, its official. I have a crazy neighbor. Remember the nice gay guy(who doesn't know he's gay) well he's nuts. Yesterday, he came to our apartment SIX TIMES in a one hour period! Now, S & emma & I LOVE to get out friday mornings together, we eat our breakfast & dinner (at 1pm) together, and lounge around all day. WELL, little neighbor seems to think its OK to come over, even when I said we would be busy. THEN, he called my cell 15 times! Oh jeez! He's a nice guy, but last time he was over he let his dog piss on my carpet AND chew on our cherry wood futon in the spare bedroom! I WILL NOT have my house look like trash because of HIS dog. He is sweet & helpful, BUT since I made him dinner ONE night, he has barged into TWO more dinners since when S had off tues & Weds. I want to be nice to him, and I do enjoy his company, but when I am with family, I don't want him around ALL the time, lol!! Anyway, I slept in NJ last night. I went to creamy acres w/ Chris! It was nuts, I remember when it was some rinky dink shack and it cost $5 to get in, NOW the place had like 800 people there and it cost twenty, and the line was over an hour long. I remember in 3rd grade when it first opened and you could go through the haunted house over & over again b/c no-one was there! lol! Now they are talking about it on the radio & all. They are bringing so much publicisty to my little town, lol! My dad said they must be bringing in upwards of 800,000 for the 35 days it runs for. Nuts!! My sweet little emma has been great, she spent almost the entire day w/my dad yesterday (hadn't seen her for a few days) so I got her presents wrapped & whatnot. I have to work tonight, thank god, b/c i need the money! Its so hard to get Meggy to go down at night, I don't know how her parents do it! Tonight should be fun I don't have my laptop w/me, so that means I'll have nothing to do from 9pm when the girls go to bed until like 12 when her parents get home!! Ugh, & i hate watching TV. I ordered 700 return address labels on my dads buisness card last night. We need them so bad. I gave him the cash for it, but I got a discount since i used his cards, which was sweet. He also is ordering me a filing cabinet for the apt. to keep my documents. He is giving me the buisnesses old shredder too. Poor guy had to spring out $500 for a 'constant' use shredder, he was pissed, lol. The other one that I am getting only does 5 sheets at a time. He said his secertary would have to stay an hour at the end of the night, just shredding the returns, lol! He is going to pay me 300 again this year to fold, package, stamp & label 700 'new season' letters. It'll be right before christmas too, which will be nice. That will pay for all of S's gifts, so I def. can't complain. OH yea, for the record:
I always get so mixed up, and my bill binder, just ain't cutting it anymore.
Well, my Ugg boots got SO SO SO muddy yesterday, I am pissed beyond belief. I threw them in the washer machine & now their on the deck drying. I HOPE they don't shrink. They needed to be washed anyway, those babies were kicking. S was starting to make me leave them on the patio, lol!! Anyway, off to finish mollys laundry.
OMFG- I just got our connectiv bill (electric) and it was 54 dollars! Thats not the kicker, it was only from the 8th to the 21st of this month! Thats nuts for a 3 bedroom. OMG. I also got approved for my CITI card, so that is going to be my emergency back-up card that S will NOT know about. Its not to high of a credit limit, which is good because having my KOHLS, Express, Macys & Stephens capital one I don't want anymore credit payments each month. I can't believe our electric was that high for NOT even twenty days! UGH! Well, S & I are fighting a little, not to big of deal, but I did sleep in DD's room. This is his 4th double in a row. He is so ****ing tired, he onlys gets about 5 hours of sleep a night then he's off to another 16 hour day.
The woman I worked for basically told me how much she values my help and the care I provide for Meggy(her daughter). The only thing I don't care for is the walking ALL day long, it puts a beating on my back b/c I have to bend over to stabilize her. Well. Off for another pop tart for my fat ***.
After wearing this engagement ring for two years tomorrow (Ironically he proposed the day before I went into labor & dd's birth) we decided to get a move on things! We have it split between two things. A wedding/honeymoon in disneyworld with only immediate family or a wedding and smaller reception at Pine Hill golf course. When I mean small, we are talking 50 people max. I am so relieved, its finally happening. I am so happy! Off to give my daddy the news tomorrow. We are starting the planning ASAP after DD's birthday I am so excited. I would rather do Disney world, he would rather do the golf course (of course!) so we must decide soon.
Now I am going to be Jamie MC to match my Emma MC!!
I will let you know how the discussion goes with my dad tomorrow, lol!
Still in a great mood. DD's second birthday is tomorrow, and my heart aches just thinking of it. My little girl is growing up. I am not longer the mother of a child still in their first year of life, its heartbreaking and yet SO joyful at the same time.
I got discouraging news today. My chaper 35 dependent benefits will stop as soon as I marry. This puts a kink in the plans, but we were still thinking within the next year, so we shall see. I am really blessed to have those benefits, and they make my life much more easier, so this may change things a bit. Stephen said "We're still getting married, Kid" so we shall see. I am going to have my dad check out everything more in depth first. Well, I am at my dads tonight b/c my sister meg is up from AC, and so is elissa. Emma's birthday party is tomorrow, and let me tell ya' it'll be a Dora the Explorer Fiesta, lol!! Well off to bed. Ugh, yuck my burp tastes like lobster from dinner tonight! UGH GROSS!
Life has been great. Emmas birthday party went great and so did halloween! She LOVED being a "Ducccc" and she loved going up to houses and getting candy. But, more then anything she loved handing out candy w/my dad. She was SO scared of all the george W costumes, lol! That kid knows whats right
Anyway, I am a bit discouraged about the election. Though, my home is buzzing with joy over the win Stephen voted for W. Of course. We are both so different. I am liberal he's republican. Anyway, It has put me into more of the activist mood. We shall see. Life had been good. School not so good. Work pretty good. My dad bought a new car today. An 05 Maxima, completely loaded. It has a GPS system, lol, I felt like screaming WHY in the hell do you need a GPS system, you go nowhere, lol!! He spent 35,000. I think thats nuts for a car, but whatever Stephen was about to have a baby because he is in love with maximas. I think it was really sweet, but I am not going to go nuts like they are. Picking it up tomorrow. To top it off, Its a stick. ugh. I cant drive it. When Mol saw it she said "Dad that is so pimp! On a scale of pimp, its the pimpest!" I was like WTF? You little child, what do you know about pimps. Anyway its nice, he is giving the dodge to meg since she is hard on her luck. Must be nice being 30 & still getting things from daddy. I bought my own darn car. I guess I am a little miffed. She does need it terrible, though.
I am feeling good. Tired & what not, but OK. I miss S, since he has been workin tons. He put in 154 hours in the past two weeks. The money is worth it I guess. Emma misses him. Anytime anyone says daddy she says "Awork" lol which means "At work". My dad asked me today what should happen to DD if I pass before she is 18. Really made me feel my mortality. He also let me know that if something were to happen to me, my entire inheritance will go to DD, which makes me feel great, because I know at least she'll be supported. I guess he was feeling morbid, because we talked about death alot. OMG. he was also SO pissed. The car salesman we saw said he was a veteran & whatnot. When we left my dad said no way. He was angry because when my dad asked him when was he incountry the guy asked what he meant. My dad said anyone who is a vet knows what it means. Anyway, I think it soured him to the guy. We'll see when we pick up the car tomorrow.
Stephen & I had a little tiff the other night. He has been WONDERFUL around the house, at times he does more then me, and he has been helping a ton w/emma, but not to good on the affection part with me, so we'll see if that'll change. Otherwise he has been great. He has been cooking, cleaning & getting up with DD on mornings we don't have to work.
So I really enjoy my job, its good money under the table, and I get paid the same amount everyday whether I work 5 hours or 8 so thats nice. Meggy is a sweet little girl. Her parents are adopting a little girl from the ukraine between jan-march, so we'll see how it will affect me then. Anyway, emma has been an angel. It is amazing how much I love that little chicka. For awhile I was getting overwhelmed, because I NEVER got out, and still don't but I am doing better now. She did make herself vomit again at bedtime last night, but she went right to sleep after we cleaned her up. She is so amazing, and so damn smart. Once her verbal skills catch up, I am sure I will have a sharp-talking genius on my hands. Anyway, off to do some work. I still have dishes to do
I hope that your day went well and I'll either see you tonight or tomorrow morning. I love you both very much and I miss you, and I won't even see you that much until next tuesday or wednesday. The letter was very nice and I love you very much for working when you don't have to and I know that you have hard days and it is not the easiest job on some days taking care of two little kids. You are helping the family out so much and I don't think that we could have did it unless you have worked because that money is helping out more that you think. I love you and Emma very much and have a good night at work and I'll call you when I get home to see what you are doing or you can leave me a message on the machine and I'll listen to it, whatever you choose.