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ANEW!!!!!!!!!!

Well, this is my first official post on this board. I have friends over here, one really good one, but have never posted over here. I would rehash my history, but as my title says I am starting an ANEW!!! If you want my story it is a long boring blah blah blah story over on the ttcing je board. Wouldn't go there if I were you, real downer!!! But my new story is going to be one of happiness and adventure. Man can I make a story sound interesting or what?!??! No really, I just need somewhere to pour out my self so no one in my physical world has to deal or listen to it. Hope you all don't mind.
Little bit about myself. I am 40 years old, most people say they don't believe it, but you never know weather they are yanking your chain or they really think so. I love my 4 hairy ones and really really love my Chris, my dh!!! I have an amazing family that I love spending time with, I love camping, hiking, exercising, wakeboarding and anything to do with the water. I am an office manager, bookkeeper and do what ever all the bosses need done, and I live in GA, but born and raised in TN, go VOLS!!!! You will probably hear alot about the VOLS, or at least for the next 4 months anyway. That is pretty much it for me. Not too interesting but I love life, family, friends and Coronas!!! Sorry about that last one, but I really do. This is my intro and hope to see you all daily, except for the weekends, don't do weekends on the computer.
Thanks, love and peace out!!!!

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Almost Friday, almost. I live for the weekends. AF is just wearing me out, I went through almost a box of super tampons yesterday. sorry if TMI. Went home last night and the power was out. Putting some new condos in down from us, figure it was from that. So we got a couple of Coronas and set out on the deck. Was so nice. I finished putting my lights up on my umbrella. It really looks nice at night. We are going to have the families over at the end of Sept, prob for Chris' bday. We have to have them on separate days, the family are very different. Not in bad ways, just different and when you put alot of people together that have nothing in common but you, it usually just is very uncomfortable. Plus in Chris' side there are kids galor. I have to keep a close eye on the kids and my dogs. My hairy ones are wonderful, but they are not too fond of kids. I think because they are so loud and they think they have to carry them everywhere. It really is not a good situation, but when I choose between and pick sides, I have to side with my hair ones. I mean they are the way they are because of us and i have a job to protect them. So whenever the family is over, I have to make sure the kids leave my hairy kids alone. Is a really big job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Especially when their parents could care less what their kids are doing. My family on the other hand have only dogs, no kids. All of our dogs get along, that is all but Cooper the new dog. He is my aunt and uncles, but he doesn't travel anyway. So for my family we can let all the dogs run and play and do not have to worry about them. It is really nice and relaxing. But I am still looking forward to everyone coming over and seeing what a great job Chris and I have done with the house.
Our Neice called last night. Her worthless husband has left her and the kids, and what is so terrible is that he left them with nothing. Closed the bank accts, and everything. What a jerk. Times like that, I look around and see what a wonderful life I have and should always be so thankful!!! She is going to talk to a lawyer today, the family are all going in and suppling the $$. We just want her away from the idot!!!!
Well, better get to work, sad but true.
Later ladies!!!!

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Friday, what a great day!!! So far anyway!!! I went home last night, worked out and then went out on my deck, had a Corona, put on a little UB40 on and danced most of the night. Chris had a project to work on with the Scouts so he didn't get home till around 10. I am going to do that more often. Talking about free, I felt totally free. Next time though, I want Chris to be there with me. I then went to bed and slept better than I have in forever. Never woke up, just slept. I even woke up this morning feeling good. Morning and feeling good usually don't go together when you are talking about me. But I really didn't mind getting out of bed this morning. And so far the day has been pretty good.
Seems that I am surrounded by unhappy people. I mean everywhere. Is no one happy anymore?!?!?! I don't know. I feel that I am a happy person, most of the time anyway. But the people that I have around me seem that they can't even act happy. Even when I am unhappy, unless I am in tears, I try not to let people feel that unhappiness. I guess some people just can't do that. If they are unhappy, everyone should know it and in come cases feel it. I just don't get it. Now anyone that reads my je knows I have unhappy times, but that is a big reason I have this je, so I can get it out and maybe not make someone else unhappy. I don't know, I just would like to see a smiling face smile back at me. Really don't think that is too much to ask?!??!
Don't have big plans for the weekend. I don't see the lake in my near future. wha wha!!!! I am just getting the hang of this wakeboarding and now the season is pretty much over. I plan on spending alot of time on the lake next week though!!!!
Well, work becons!!!
Hope everyone has a great weekend. Love and peace out!!!
just to add, V, I am excited about you being here with me!!!

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Mondays, boy do I hate Mondays!!! Just the word makes me ill!!! Kinda dragging this morning, been down with a headache all weekend. Not fun, but it is gone now, just the after effects still remain. But Iwill live, is that good news or bad, he he!!!!
Other than it being a crappy Monday Morning, things look ok. Went to one of Chris' Scout's Dedication for his Eagle Scout project. They constructed a plaque in stone in memorial to the Trail of Tears. They had the Eastern Indian National Chief there and everything. Really a touching thing.
That is pretty much it. I do feel a little bad. One of the girls on the ttcing je had a bad us last week. I pmed her and asked if they did bloodwork. I just don't believe in giving up untill the last and she replied that it was all posted on a board. I just hope I didn't make her feel any worse, but I felt that I did. I mean really, when it happened to me, everytime, I didn't want to hear, oh I went through it, I didn't want anyone to say anything. I should remember those things. I am just so sorry for her, hope she is doing ok.
Well, bosses are here, better scram!!! Have a good one!!!

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Thank goodness monday is gone, gone far away!!! Today is my dad's bday. We are taking him out to eat tonight, Outback, wha hoo, pasta and crawdads here I come. Had a pretty good night last night. Went home got on my treadmill and worked out. I am in a rut again. And yes I did take the scale off the bump in the floor!! he he. But at least I am not going hungry!!! Maybe I should step up my workout, but just don't feel ready physically yet. I have an appt to go to my reg oby dr. Hopefully he will be able to figure out what those stupid drugs did to my bod?!?! but not counting on it, I don't put too much faith in drs here lately. Football in TN starts this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited!!! and a 3 day weekend!!!! What more can a person ask for?!?!? We are the underdogs, which is a really good thing. TN seems to have a problem with their head growing too big when the press pumps them up, then they can't play with their over sized heads. But when we are the underdogs, they almost always come through. GO VOLS!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully it will pretty too this weekend, get some much needed lake time in.
Did I tell you all that we slept on the deck Friday night. Chris got me this great lounger (spelling??), it is like 7x7 round, so Chris, me, Nick, Lacey, Pat and Smokey were all piled up on it. It was fun. Some of our neighbors played the radio till 4,but it wasn't really loud, just enough that we could hear it. All in all, really fun. Maybe next time I wouldn't be on the rag and will put a little spice into the evening, if you know what I mean. :bigblink: Had to add that little face, I just love him!!!
That is pretty much it, hope you all have a kickin day!!!

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Hump day!!!! Almost 1/2 way through the week!!!
We went out to eat for Dad's bday, great Italian food!!! My favorite!!!
Not wanting to be here, I need to take a couple days off. I am hoping that a 3 day weekend will settle me down. Just taking 1 day off around here is like taking multiple days, you always come back to crap people have left and put off on you.
Other than that, not much going on, same ol same ol. Boring I know.
Better get to work, check writting day.
Kerry, I love reading about your and the boys life!!!!
Later girls,
Love and peace out!!!!

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One more day till we have the big 3 days off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Went to bed early last night. I wish I hadn't now. I dreamed and dreamed. One dream was about me telling my parents that we were pg with a little girl. People, such as my parents always say, oh as long as we have you. But if you ever get to tell them that they are going to be Grandparents, you will never forget their reaction, never. So when they tell you that crap, well at least we have you, well, that is just to make you feel better!!! Don't get me wrong, I know they are thankful to have me, but I know their longing of having a grandchild too. Then I dreamed that our little girl was coming home from the hospital. I never saw her, we were just so happy that we were able to bring her home. It was like a movie that I was just seeing parts of. I hate dreams!!!!!!!!!!! I wish they would leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Other than trying to get that crap out of my head, I am excited about having 3 days off. I feel like I am going on vacation!!!! Happy times!!!!
Oh and I know that I have mentioned it is Football time in TN!!!! I just had to wear Orange today. Just to get the season started!!!! Wha hoo!!!!
Well, pretty much it for me.
Better fly.
Love you all and peace out!!!
V, glad you are feeling better girl!!!!

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Friday, finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited, I can see Lake time in my future, but the weather is turning cooler, I hate that, I am such a hot weather person. Anything under 80 is too cool to me!!!! Going out to eat with some friends tonight, house, yard work and Football tomorrow, Lake time Sun, and Chris' side of the family cookout Mon. I love weekends that are packed with fun, family, friends, and of course TN Football!!!!!!!!!!!
Some major crap went down in the office yesterday afternoon. Thank goodness, nothing to do with me directly. But 2 of the bosses are scurring around here and of course, I am getting hit with the brunt of the work, which sucks, I mean it is Friday people!!!!
I bought some throw away cameras this week. Going to start taking more pics. We have a very expensive digital, but Chris has it most of the time, the cards are always full and I never see any printed pics from it. So I am taking matters into my own hands and going to start getting pics on our fun weekends. I want my new house to be covered in smiling faces of friends and family. I have never been a good pic taker, most people that see me in pics say, is that really you. I never take a good pic. Not that I am beautiful or anything close, but I just take horible pics. But they do say pics don't lie. Oh well.
Started putting a notebook of things that we want in the new house together. I have a feeling that we will go way over budget, but hey, this is the house I plan on dying in!!!! I am going to refuse to do with anything less than exactly what we want!!!!
Nick went out last night, and came back in rolling. I don't know what he found, but he smelled like something that had died, but pooped on itself before hand. I was chasing him through the house screaming, which made him run faster and gagging. I have never smelled a smell worse than this before in my life. Oh my gosh. Chris had to give him a bath, for I was throwing up by just smelling him and I cleaned the carpet. Oh my gosh, that was a bad one. This morning when he went out, he didn't even go to the end of the walk to pee. I guess I scared him too bad that he was afraid to go back into the yard. Poor baby!!!
Well, pretty much it for my daily rambling.
Hope you all have a wonderful long weekend.

And I just have to add, WHA HOO, Katy!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for ya!!!

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Oh my goodness, I am trying so hard to get myself going this morning. I just can't get myself into gear. I DO NOT WANT TO BE HERE!!!!! We were so busy this weekend, I really didn't have any time to breath. But that is a good thing!!! Good thing that happened too, VOLS won!!!! That is a very good thing, bad thing, Steve Irwin died. What a downer. I didn't even know it till my bro told me yesterday. I just feel so crappy for his family. It is amazing on how much you feel that you know someone that you have never met. I just hope his family knows just how much good he did in his short 44 years. He was an amazing man and needs to be held in nothing but the highest regards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have a appt with my gyno Thursday. Other than that, nothing else happening. I am going to the ballgame Sat though. Party time!!!! Oh an I did drop a few more lbs. I only have 5 more to get where I want to be. Funny though, how when you get older, you body changes so much. Like 10 years ago, if weighed this much, I would have looked like a whale, but it doesn't look so bad right now. I am toned and really don't look that bad at this weight. I just like being a weight that I can go out on special occassions and not worry about eating too much. Right now, I can over eat and you can tell the difference. I am going to try and keep a check on this weight thingy. We shall see. Funny though, no one has even noticed my weight loss, guess I hid it pretty well. Or maybe I don't look as good as I thought I did. Don't get me wrong, I don't think I am any beauty queen, but I look alot better than I did a few weeks ago.
Well, am through rambling.
V, so glad you are feeling better. I know so well how this crap can get to ya. Stay strong girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tammy, I am sending you bfp vibes all week!!!
Got to fly.
Love and peace out!!!

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Hump day and it is not starting out very well. My boss I guess had a bad night at home and decided the only place where he has any authority is here and I am being the target. I just really hate when people do that to me. I really hope that I never do that to anyone!!!!! Nothing like being picked on when you haven't done anything wrong.
Ok sorry bout that, just had to vent a little.
Went to my riding class last night, and no class. No one called or anything. So 60 miles down the drain. Oh well, guess they thought we knew, a couple of the kids and me showed. Maybe they weren't there last week either, forgot to ask them, but oh well. I then went to Sam's and picked up a bottle of Mangosteen. Have any of you heard of this. I was watching an infomerical the other night. They were talking about it. Sounded like a good thing so I am going to try it. Looks really gross, smells gross, but the taste is really not that bad. You get 32 oz bottle for $17 and you drink an oz a day. I will tell you in a mo weather it works or not. Just suppose to give you a boost and give your immune system a kick. I will let you know.
Other than that, pretty boring!!!
V, thinking of you on your mom's day!!!!
Sparklemomma, hope you hear from them.
Nicky, hope you get some good excitment!!!
Later girls
Love and peace out!!!!

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Silence, sweet silence. I love coming into an empty office. Gives me time to settle in and get myself ready for the day. One boss off with his little girl getting braces ouch, don't know where the other is. But all I have to say is yeah!!!!
I just don't know what to do with Chris, this job is driving him crazy, but he refuses to even look for another job. I know he makes good $$, but it just isn't worth it if it tends to take over all our conversations. I mean he is just hates it. I just don't understand, last year it was after he gets back from Scout camp, then back from business trip, then at the end of the summer and now at is the end of the year. I want to be there for him and make him feel better, but just doesn't seem that he is doing anything to help his situation. I just don't know what to do!!!
Have a dr appt this morning, just my yearly that I have put off, was due in April. Was just hoping that my visit would be a happy one instead of the same ol same ol. I am taking my shot that I pd too much $$ for. I am going to tell him that he can either find someone that can use it or throw it away. I just can't bring myself to do it. That way I think well, it will at least go to someone that is having a hard time affording all that crap!!!
Getting cooler here. Makes me depressed. I set out on the deck last night till dark. Chris said you are missing tv, I told him that I wanted to enjoy the nice weather while it was still here. Nothing on tv anyway. Seems that I am trying not to miss things anymore. I seem to have more of a sense of how important life is and the things in it. The other night on tv one of the characters said, why is there even death, the other character said to prove how important life is. Isn't that just so true?!?!?
Well, way too much rambling!!!
Just can't believe Tater Matt is almost 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got to fly.
love and peace out!!!!

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Happy Friday!!! Having a really hard time getting started this morning, I know, so what is new?!?!? I am looking so forward to going to the ballgame tomorrow, bro wants to leave at 1, that would put us up there 4 hours before the game, I can see getting there 2 hours before, but wow. Oh well, can't look a gift horse in the mouth. I wouldn't care if they wanted to go up tonight, plenty of partying to be done. Other than that, nothing else going on.
Oh I went to the dr yesterday. I took that shot that I never used. My dr said he has plenty of women that could use that, so I felt better. I hope it helps someone. I am on pins and needles waiting to hear from Tammy. I want that bfp for her so bad. I know that I will never have one again so I put all my hopes and dreams on my friends. May not be fair to them, but hey good vibes are good vibes right?!??!
Boss just came up here and started talking. It is taking me forever to finish this je, back after 45 minutes.
Other than the ballgame, nothing going on, if something else happens will be back if not, have a great weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love and peace out!!!

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09/11, this day just sucks, Not as much for me but for thousands that had to live the actual tragedy. I got up this morning feeling really crappy and feeling very sorry for myself, then I realized what today is. It didn't make me feel better but it did make me wake up and realize that I lost no one on that day and there are so many people that did. What right did I have to feel bad on a day that was so filled with so many terrible things and happenings. Just kept me in check. I just can't help feeling so badly for all of those people, yes for the people that died, but also for those left to pick up the pieces. What heros those people are, how we should learn from them, pray for them and moarn for them. I am here in this office with 2 people that don't even know what day this is, they think that I am silly for taking it to heart like I do. How can they not be aware of what happened and not be just totally taken by all of it. I don't understand people. Are they so wrapped up in their own lives that others just don't seem to phase or bother them, or am I the one that needs to check and see what is wrong with me?!??! Confussed as usual, but what is new.
So today I am going to attempt to be a happier person and be so grateful for what I have and not be upset at what I don't have!!! Let's see how that works!!!
V, girl, sorry the weekend was so hard. I just can't imagine the world without my mom. You are such a strong person and we love ya girl!!!
Tammy, I am glad you are ok with this break. I think you should do what you want to do for these months off. Live life and deal with this mess later. hang in there sis, love ya
Got to fly
Love and peace out!!!!

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Ok one day down, 4 more to go. Yesterday wasn't all that bad. I listened to the Memorial service most of the day. Had quite the productive day. Really hard to think of yourself when all those names are being read off. I also watched that movie that was on Sun and last night. I cried all the way through it. Wasn't that it was so sad, but very scarey and there is an entire other world out there where people don't care who or what we are, they just hate us because we are American. How twisted it that?!?!? I mean even with what the Taliban did, I don't hate all of their people, hate what they did, but I don't hate them personally. What is wrong with some people, I guess if they would have grown up in my world they would not feel that way, or I had grown in their, I would feel the way they feel. That is just still so screwed up!!!!
Nothing else really going on. I did frame the picture of Little Bit. Keep wondering why I didn't insist on pictures of my other babies. Guess when it all came down, pictures were the last thing on my mind. Just to think that she would have been 3 years old this Christmas. Wow, I should have a 3 year old, how amazing is that?!?!? As much as I wanted each and every one of them, I still have a hard time wondering what my life would be like. I guess I will never know, but that is life, or mine anyway. Sometimes I feel that I wasn't given a chance because I wouldn't have done very well. I mean get real, I love to sleep, I love TV, I love to have $$ to do what I want and when I want, or most of the time anyway. I keep wondering how you ladies do it, I can never seem to not spend every dime every month. What if I were a mom, I had a child to raise, the $$ wasn't there that use to be, insurance was doubled. How do you all do it and not go broke and/or totally insane. If I can't pay my bills off every month, I am a nervous wreck. I just don't know how you all do it. You have all my admiration and respect!!!! :bowing:
Well better stop now, could just keep rambling all day.
Hope you all have a great day
Love and peace out!!!

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Ah, hear that, well me either. That wonderful sound of nothing and no one. I love an empty office. Seems everyone is late today, and that is just perfect.
I am working out, but this weight thing is really getting to me. Just can't seem to get under that 120 mark. Everyday, I go to the scale, sure that this is the day and no deal. I am eating less, exercising, what does a girl have to do?!?!? I refuse to starve myself, and I am hateful when I do that anyway. Who needs me anymore hateful that I already am, he he.
I guess what they say about getting older is so true, it is twice as hard to get off the weight, but I am thinking more like three times harder, that is with me being the drama queen that I am. I will make it though, I want to get down to 115, that way I don't have to worry so much when I over eat. Ok enough of that.
Survivor comes on tomorrow night, I am so excited. For those of you that don't know, I am one of the biggest fans of Survivor. Have never and will never miss it. I even tape it so if I miss anything, I can go back and watch. I could never do what those people do, that is probably why I love the show so much. Chris said he could. But he would last long. He is a person that know alot of stuff and doesn't care to tell you what you are doing wrong and jump in and show you how to do it, even if you don't want him too. those are the people that go home early, and he would probably go on the first day. the tribe has spoken, sorry honey.
Other than than, that is my exciting life right now. I know it is not so exciting, but I do love my life, just had to add that!!!
Love and peace out girls, keep on keepin on!!!!!

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Wha Hoo, it is almost Friday, and Survivor begins tonight. I am so excited!!!!

I read one of the girls je from the ttcing jes. she went in expecting to hear that they still couldn't find a hb, and at 9 weeks they did!!!! I am so excited for her. Brings back so many memories though. I still wish I had gone and made sure that Little Bit didn't have a hb. I mean the dr said that her messurements were too big for her not to show a hb when he did the us. I just wish I hadn't let them take her, that will always stay with me. I wish to this day that I hadn't let them take her and Loulou. I knew that there were problems with the Feb and Charm, but I just wish I had stayed with my guns, but when you are so beat down emotionally, you just let things happen. That is why I wish they would give us some time to think about what is happening and let us decide and not decide for us or push us scaring us to death about what could happen if we don't. Like I said just brought back way too many memories!!!

Well, didn't get on the scale but I am almost for sure that I am under 120, I put on some pants this morning and I have way more room than I have had in them before!!! And even my shoes. Isn't it weird that you even gain weight in your feet?!?!? My shoes are even more comfy. So I don't know if I will get back on that scale for a couple of days, see if maybe it is just water loss or what. Wha hoo, closer to my goal!!!!

TN plays FL this weekend. Oh my gosh, I am going to have to really cheer, so if you can hear me from where you are, don't think anything about it. Chris is going to be gone all weekend. Going to get out in my front yard and do some major yard work. I mean major!!!! I am sure he will be aggrevated at me but hey, I have asked that it be done for a year now and with the families coming over at the end of the mo, I want everything to look good, I mean really good!!!!

Well better get to work
Have a great one. love and peace out!!!

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Friday, finally!!!! Got home last night and I had been smelling anifreeze all the way home. I thought, great, a busted radiator. Opened the hood and it was just a hose. That was really good, but I just had all my hoses replaced not 2 mo ago. And while Chris replaced the hose we found that they had not bolted my fan casing, I guess that is what you could call it, and it was about to fall on my fan, and that would have been a mess, and to top it off it looks as though they tried to close the hood with the thingie (can you tell I have no idea what the name of it is) that holds the hood up still connected, it was bent all to h--- and had left a place under the hood where it had been rubbing. I know all of this stuff is small, but I am just so tired of taking my car in and the people just not giving a crap. Other than taking classes on how to fix my car myself, I don't know what else to do. I guess I will march my happy butt down there tomorrow and tell them what is happening and what they have done. Like they will care anyway?!?!? BUT!!!!
Other than that crap, Looking forward to the weekend. Have my bro's dog show to go to tomorrow, Game tomorrow night, Church Sunday morning, and yard work Sunday afternoon.
Oh yeah, got some terrible news too. My best friend growing up, found out her dad has liver cancer. I have to call her this weekend. They are doing a biopsy (spelling??) Monday. What do you say to someone that is going through this. All I know is to ask you all for prayers that I don't make anything worse and that by some miracle it is not as bad as they think. I guess I will just let her know that I am here and I am a very good listener!!!!
WEll, got to get to work
Oh yeah, V, girl set back and give it some time. I mean if you have had a calling, either it will come back or God will show you a new way. I have never had a calling in my life, I always thought that would be great, to know exactly what I wanted to do. Hang in there girl!!!
Have a great weekend and go VOLS!!!!

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Oh well, Monday, Monday. Not hating life too much this morning, not like usual for a Monday morning. I have 1/2 day off tomorrow, mamo time for the ol 40 year old woman, I think that sucks, then, one of the bosses are off all week and the other is off Thursday and Friday. So the week is sizing up pretty good. I have had a headache all weekend. So when I woke up this morning without one, I was a very happy camper. Even though had a bad headache, was very productive!!!! Hey me!!! Sat, washed both cars and waxed them, getting them ready for the winter, mowed the yard, weeded and cleaned my carpets, oh and did the laundry. Sunday laid around alot, then went to the inlaws for dinner. Vols lost this weekend, oh well, the life of being a fan. Can't be too upset, they really played well, just made a couple of errors. Like I stated, all in the way of being a fan. Oh and I also went to the dog show. My bro did really well, I am so proud of him, he really seems to be doing really well with this!!!! It is really cool to go and see all the dogs, man, it is amazing how many different kinds of dogs there are.
Well, that is pretty much it for me. OH yeah, found a new work out think I may try. It is called the Turbo Jam. Little on the pricey side, but they split it into payments so, that doesn't seem so bad. I am going to give it a couple days to see if I am still interested. I am so weird. If I really want something, I will still want it a couple days later, but if it is just an impulse, I will forget all about it. Isn't that ADD or something along those lines?!?!?!? Oh well, we shall see. I need something, I am stuck at 120, can't figure out why, I am still working out, still watching what I eat, but just like I have hit a brick wall. I watched Celebrity Fit Club this weekend too, one of the celebrities on there was 130 and 5'6" and I though, oh my gosh, I am 3 inches shorter and only 10 less, and she looked good in her cloths, but she still had rolls, so oh my gosh, what do I look like?!?!?
OH well, life!!!
Better fly, get some work done.
Love to you all and peace!!!!

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Not a good morning. First went to bed and woke up with headache. the storms are suppose to be over so I am hoping that my headaches are gone too. Then I received a call from my Dr. office. They said they want me back in 6 mo for a recheck. I asked why and she said really nothing that they found some A typical cells. I asked what that meant and she said, oh it is nothing to worry about and it was just too broad of a subject to elaborate (spelling??)on. Well, what the crap does that mean?!?!? I mean really if they didn't want to scare someone then they needed to call me back in 5 months and schedule an appt and then tell me, instead no they have to let us be scared for 6 months!!!! I think because I am so tired, it just is hitting me harder. I think Nicky went through something like this and turned out to be nothing. We shall see I guess. IN 6 MONTHS!!!!!
I go today for my mamogram (spelling?), not thrilled with that either. If they tell me something, I am liable to fall apart. This was suppose to be a good day. Have 1/2 day off, going shopping, but oh no. This is not what I call a good day.
Maybe if I just felt better all of this wouldn't be getting to me.
Well, better stop whinning before I really get myself worried.
V, so glad you are feeling better!!!!!
Got to fly, later chicks, love ya

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Happy Hump day everyone!!!! So far anyway.
Had my mamogram yesterday. I guess it was fine, the dr looked at it and said nice to meet you and that was all she wrote. No news is good news I guess, but that is what I thought about my pap too. I feel alot better today, still have that feeling that something bad is going to happen. I hate when I get that!!!!
Let me explain something, when I was 18 I had a guy pursue me and I gave in and went out with him. He was very good looking, outgoing and rich. We quickly fell in love, but after 3 years things started not adding up. He would lie to me for stupid reasons, almost like he couldn't tell the truth. I started finding things in his appartment that he said was his cousins (drug stuff), and letters that he said didn't mean anything. By that time he had me so beat down that I didn't put alot of stock in myself. Then my best friend stepped in and and showed me that there was a life outside my little town that I grew up in and I feel in love with it. I finally got the nerve to break up with him, which was not easy. He had me followed, he knew when and at what time I went to work and got home, where I went after that, when I was alone, so on and so forth. After we broke up people started coming to me telling me that he was sleeping with this person and that, doing drugs and the whole shabang. I was devistated. Even though I broke up with him, I believed that he loved me, but even if he did, it was very twisted. I started being afraid for my health. At that time is when AIDs was really crazy and way out of control. I was tested and never got a positive. I went on to go to college, meet the true love of my life and get married. I was always so afraid that he had given me something. Now that this HPV is in the forefront, it scares me. They say you can have it and never know it, and with this pap coming back it brings all the scarey and bad memories back. I am going to try not to let it get to me. All I know to do it pray!!!
Sorry so long, I had to get that out, not like I can talk to anyone about it.
Better get to work
Love and peace out!!!

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On the down slide!!! And the office is empty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy, no one to stand over my shoulder, no one to say Dayna can you come here, can you do this take care of that!!!! How exciting it that?!??!
No big plans for the weekend, yard work, house work, yata yata yata. Getting ready for the big party next week. THis morning it was 47 degrees, can you say Freezing my butt off?!?!? I hope it is not too cold for the party to be outside next week. Where am I going to put all those people if we have to be inside?? Will cross that bridge when I come to it.
Other than that, pretty much boring, ballgame isn't even on tv this week. Have to listen to the radio, just not the same.
I haven't weighed in a couple of days, but I think I have lost some more. I ordered that Turbo Jam. Looking forward to getting it, and starting a new routine. I love my treadmill, but just gets kinda old after 5 days a week. If it weren't for me being able to watch my soaps I would be crazy. We have a bookshelf full of books that I also look at the whole time I am on the treadmill. books that don't match, that are in the wrong place or are not the right size. they drive me crazy while I am on it, but after I get off, I never go and fix them. Isn't that just crazy.
Ok I am rambling, got to fly.
Love and peace out!!!

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Friday, Friday and no one is here but me and I have zip motivation. I really need to do something today. Filing mainly, just can't get into it. My job is so boring and is the same day after day, but it is a good job and good pay. I know I fuss alot about the men I work with, but over all they aren't so bad, believe me, I have worked with worse!!! I just need to get motivated, I need to have something to look forward too. I think this weather has got me in the blahs. I love summer, and everything about it, even the heat and when it is over, I just get depressed. I know wha wha. Maybe if I had some wine to go with that!!!!!
Got on the scales last night and nothing, not a bit of movement. I am so frustrated. I was just so sure I had lost under 120. I just can't figure it out. I know that looking at me I have lost, I can't pinch all that fat and skin that I could just last week. I don't understand, unless it is muscle. I have alot of muscle and it is very easy for me to put muscle on. I probably would have made a good male. Muscle and all, I even have more muscle than my bro. My legs can really get big if I let them. I even have to watch because in the winter I have a hard time getting my knee high boots on because of my calves. Oh well, who knows, I will just keep working on it. Looking forward to my turbo jam coming!!!
Did anyone watch Survivor last night. Any of you that know me, knows that I am a TVaholic. I had to tape My name is earl, and grey's last night because of other shows. Guess I will watch them sometime this weekend. Survivor is getting interesting. I am really thinking that this race thing was a good idea. It shows people that people are people and if they are your race or not, they can still be irritating and you don't want to be around them. I mean get real people, people are people the color is just a plus, don't you all think?!?!?
ER was a killer too!!!! I can't believe she killed him!!!! but good for her!!!!
Can you tell I have no one to talk to, he he.
Better see what I can get into!!!
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!!!
Later and peace out!!!

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Monday, again already!!!! So far so good though, not too bad this morning. I finally got a good night sleep last night. Don't know what has been up with me, but Fri and Sat, didn't sleep worth a hoot. Pretty quite around here this morning, knock on wood. Hope it stays that way.
Have a big weekend planned. Having the big 2 day bday blash this weekend. Pray for good weather, would hate to mash all the family into the house. Have so much to do. Chris gets off to such a good start, but the finish just isn't there. He stayed at home yesterday instead of going to my parents. I was looking forward to coming home and so much being done, but no dice, nothing!!!! His office was a little bit less cluddered, but that was all. I guess he just needed some alone time, which kinda pisses me off for he has alot of alone time in his office every night!!! Sorry, just had to get that out!!! So tonight, I am going home and getting what I want to be done done. I am tired of waiting for things to get done, I am going to do them myself. I think this is what I am so afraid of starting our new house, seems that everything gets to a good start then it just stops. I am tired of that, if we are going to do stuff ourself then we need to make sure it is done!!!! I am going to start making sure this is reality at our house, this half ass stuff is over!!!!
Well, that is enough of my mouth for a monday.
Hope you all have a great Monday!!!
Love and peace out!!!

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not sure but I think I have different personalities???! I was coming into work and I was feel amazingly good, got to work went to put the back up tape in and broke almost all the nails on one hand, I went heywire. And now I just don't want to be here. How can someone change just like that?!?? Oh well,I am calming down now. I think too, I have always had long nails, for the last few years I have kept them short. I decided to grow them back out and enjoying having them again, and in one instance, they are gone. I just hate when crap like that happens!!!!
Oh well, it is over and it will only take me a couple weeks to grow them back. Been thinking about starting a je out on the net. I just don't feel comfortable just putting everything out there. I feel comfortable here, but at the same time I feel like I am the older person hanging out at the school. That is what I wrote to Nicky. Maybe I should just take the chance and do it?!?!? Who knows about me, liable to just do nothing.
Well, work to be done and not getting done typing here.
Later girls!!!!