I cant believe my baby boy is already over 2 weeks old, time has flown! I have waited soooo long for this and now its already here i cant believe how quick it really has been after all.
He is such a lovely little baby, very contented and sleeps the majority of the time, he goes for about 4 hours before wanting a feed.
We had trouble to start with as he lost too much weight as he wasnt bf'ing properly. We had to give him a bottle of expressed milk and then top up with formula. He still hasnt got the hang of it so we are still doing both.
Expressing was a long winded chore with my original pump i had bought (only had occasional use in mind when i bought it!!) but since getting my double hosp grade one its been much much better.
He was born at 7lbs 13oz and he is back up to his birth weight now which im very relieved about. He looks so small though!! We even had to buy a load of new clothes as everything else (even newborn size) is waaayyy too big for him, we had to get tiny baby size.
He hates his baths in his little tub, and hates his nappy changes, absolutely cries and cries bless him! He loves a bath with me or daddy though!
Oh and i love it when he does his little startle reflex, soooo cute!!!!
He constantly gets the hiccups - something he always did when i was pg with him lol.
The dogs have been great, i had worries about how they would take to him but they have been fine!
This week seems to have been a week of appointments and arragements. Its been a little annoying having to rush around sticking to times etc. We had the health visitor and midwife on Tuesday, i had doctors on wednesday, we registered his birth thursday, i had arranged to meet my work colleagues today, and my friend is coming over tomo afternoon to take some photos for us which is very kind of her!
There is a part of me that feels sad im not pg anymore, i do miss certain aspects of it. What i dont miss is the constant worry something was wrong with him or something would go wrong whilst he was inside me and i wouldnt know. That part is a relief not to have that anymore. Now its a hole new load of worries!!!
Anyway, im going to leave it here for now, im sooo tired i need a nap!!!
Wow time has flown already. These last few weeks have been a complete blur!!
They havent been an easy few weeks either, i seem to have had problem after problem!! I fnally have a few minutes to be able to mention whats been going on.
First off there was his weight loss i spoke about before, then my episiotomy wound got badly infected and i was left with this open wound which was soooo painful. It kept me virtually bed ridden for 2 weeks. After some hefty doses of antibiotics its finally closed up the last couple of days. There is alot of hardness there still but im sure thats just where the stitches are. The dr has referred me back to the hospital to get it checked out as she thinks i may need further surgery on it. I dont think i will now and if they say i do im going to make sure its 110% absolutel necessary, im not going through that again!!
Then we have had major issues trying to get him bf'ing. To cut a long story short, after 3 and a half weeks of attempting it and much advice from midwives/bf peer supporters/lactation consultants etc we still cant do it. He gets upset when we try, i get upset, so we are staying on the bottle and formula permanently. I dont want to look back on his first few weeks and all i remember is frustraction and tears. I have enough of that already what with all the issues.
He has changed so much in these past 3 weeks already i cant believe it! At his last weigh in he was 8lbs 6oz so on track perfectly! He looks like a proper little boy too! I love him so so much and cant imagine how it was before him really! Its like we have always known him.
I really must try to keep up with this journal......i just dont get the time these days.
Aaron has started laughing and doing real smiles!! They are the best ever, his little face completely lights up!!
He had his weigh in last Tuesday, he is at 9lbs 5oz now!
Bf went back to work on Monday, its hard work doing it all by myself, particularly as he was on night shifts and it meant when he got home in the morning i had to get up so as he could sleep and Aaron didnt keep him awake. Plus, Aaron isnt very settled in the days at the moment, he has to be constantly held which means i get nothing done. He also isnt as settled at night as what he was!
I may not be very long on here at the moment, Aaron is crying on and off!
We had our 6 week post natal check yesterday, all is well - he weighs 10lbs 5oz now! Af finished a couple of days ago, lasted about 8 days and was very heavy! Its going to feel so so odd charting again as im going to use NFP for my contaceptive.
Aaron is developing so well, those smiles and laughs are more frequent, i love him so much! His day times seem to be more settled but he doesnt sleep as long during the night at the moment. He must be going through a growth spurt as wants to feed bang on every 3 hours.
We have his vaccines next week, not looking forward to that
Omg 10 and a half weeks!!!!!! Where has time gone???????????????????????????????
THAT IS SO SCARY!!
Aaron is doing really well!! He is growing so fast, weighs around 13lbs now (according to baby weight on the wii fit plus lol). He is in 0-3month size clothing from about 2 weeks ago but i think he is going to be out of them very quickly.
We seem to have a nice settled routine now, this is roughly how our day goes:
7.30am - Wakes for a feed.
8.30am - Back to sleep.
11am - Wakes up, wash and change and goes in swing.
12pm - Feed then Cuddles/swing/baby tv/playtime then sleep.
4pm - Feed and above
7.45pm - Feed, sleep..
10.30pm - wake up for entertainment so will sleep for bedtime!
11.45pm - Final feed and cuddles in bed with mummy!
12.15am - Down for the night.
When he is in his swing now, he really shows alot of interest in the hanging toys and makes lots of 'baby talk' noises, soooo cute!!
He smiles at nearly everyone he meets too, i cannot get enough of those smiles and laughs......every time i see them its like its for the first time again!
I love him so much, every day is a new treat waking up next to him
We put Aaron in his big cot in his own room the other night! The main reason was because i have the most annoying cough at the mo and that combined with bf's snoring, poor boy was getting disturbed alot. And then when we finally slept, he would disturb us lol!! Plus all my ladies from my antenatal group had done it so it gave me the confidence to try. I watched my video and angelcare monitors all night!! I wouldnt have done it without them though, they are a godsend. Anyway, he went right through from 11.30pm til 7.30am, didnt seem to notice the difference, brilliant!! Its his third night in there tonight and im watching him on the video monitor as i type this. I nearly chickened out on the first night as i missed him even before i put him in his room lol but glad i done it. I must admit, it is nice to have half hour of me time in the evening before bed.
Once he is awake at 7am ish, he has his feed, then we cuddle up together in my bed for a lie in, i love that time falling asleep with him!
I realsied earlier on, i havent mentioned my friend S for a while. She is doing great, so is her baby. Baby is 7 weeks ahead of Aaron and they are just about the same size lol!
Wow these last couple of days Aaron has really started the baby talk!! It is the cutest sound EVER. He mainly does it when in his swing or having his nappy changed, and some of the sounds are soooo enthusiastic lol!
The sleeping in his own room is going brilliantly too, im now giving him his last feed at 11pm.
I have enrolled him in his first term swimming lessons with Waterbabies, which starts in March, apparently they have a nice heated hydropool! Two ladies from my antenatal class are in the same group too which is great!
Oh and im looking into baby massage groups. Whilst i dont miss being at work full time, im wanting to find some things to fill in the days a little more. I am probably going to also do a few keep-in-touch days at work here and there. I dont mind that as its only a very small amount and i wont be away from Aaron for too long.
Aarons latest milestone - he has started intentionally reaching out for things! He first done it at mum and dads yesterday. He was in his bouncer and reached out for one of his hanging toys! Very clumsy and far off from getting at it but he is trying! Oh and he was trying to pick up the large dessert spoon at the dinner table at mum and dads this evening!
Another thing, a couple of days ago i showed him his reflection in the mirror and he started laughing! So cute.
His Bumbo arrived during the week, he cant sit up in it on his own yet, he cannot support himself fully. I dont think it will be long though.
He is still going through the nights really well, seems to get very grumpy around 9pm until feeding time at 9.45-10pm ish. Once he has his bottle he is happy and asleep in bed by 10.15 pm. He doesnt usually wake me until 7-7.30am for a feed and then i take him back to bed in with me until he wakes again usually around 11.30am. Literally, the minute i lay him on my bed he is asleep again!!!
I cannot believe how quickly time has gone these last few months!
Aaron has grown so so much, i love him to bits, he is my life.
He has his first two teeth now, got them about a a week to 3 weeks ago, they are sharp when he bites your finger!! He is virtually sitting on his own, although his balance isnt always great so he does topple over lol. He has a great appetite, so far will eat anything, takes after me then ha ha!
I am still taking him to swimming lessons and he does so well. Im waiting for his underwater photos to arrive that we had done a while back.
My other big thing is im pregnant again! We werent ttc but werent preventing. So im going to go through that rollercoaster of emotions (mainly worry to start with!!) but cant wait! I had my first scare last night, i woke up at 3.20am needing a wee and when i wiped i had some pinky/browny discharge. I didnt harldy sleep for the rest of the night and kept dreaming about it. By the time i was up at 8.30am it was still there. I went straight to the doctors after getting Aaron fed and changed but they werent very helpful. I asked for progesterone given my past history of m/c but she siad 'we dont do that'. She then said its probably implantation bleeding and i just have to wait it out.
As unhelpful as that was, i do aggree that hopefully it was just implantation bleeding as by the time i had got home at 10am it was gone, still is thankfully.
There will be 16 months between this LO and Aaron, im so excited!! I love Aaron so much, to have another baby is such a wonderful thing.
I went back to the doctors this morning. I was actually going for something else but thought it may be worth trying to address the progesterone issue again. After alot of deliberation, I told a little white lie and said i had still been on and off spotting in the hope this will convince the doc to give me the supplements. The doctor said he has never heard of this and progesterone would only 'disrupt' a pregnancy, WTH!?!?! Seriously, i dont understand how these doctors cant realise that progesterone is the most improtant thing in pregnancy!!!!
Anyway, there was a plus side, im going to get an early scan on Monday at 9.30am. Im not sure how much we will see as i will only be 5 weeks 5 days. My initial feelings were i hope i dont jinx myself by fibbing but at the end of the day im doing all i can to give this baby the best chance there is so i feel justified in what i did.
Once i have my scan Monday i will prob book an 8 week or so scan at the private place i used with Aaron. I know the nhs wont give me a second reassurance scan!!!
Anyway, Aaron is having a much needed sleep at the moment. He has been very happy today and thankfully hasnt been fighting the urge to sleep so i will have a contented baby boy once he has woken and had his evening porrige!!