So i saw the consultant yesterday and think im happy with the decision we have made.
She looked through my notes and it turns out DS wasnt a true shoulder dystocia, she asked whether the head had come out and i said no, they had to physically pull all of him out. They had wrote shoulder dystocia on my notes when it wasnt!! A true shoulder dystocia is where the babies head comes out and the neck is extended and the shoulders are left behind stuck at the pelvis. This certainly didnt happen! So although DS was stuck, it was all due to bad positioning - him being back to back.
I explained my fears of my episiotomy tearing and although she said she cannot guarantee i wont tear, there is no reason why i cant have a normal natural birth i so craved the first time. I just need to try and get rid of my fears and anxiousness.
The midwife who was present yesterday also said the same thing, she said with good coaching i may not even tear.
I really really want to try again for a natural birth after speaking to them yesterday but im so scared the same thing will happen again and there wont be time for an epidural should i need forceps. This is the only thought that is making me wonder whether i should have an epidural straight away but then of course this will increase my risk of another back to back labour.
I did everything in my power with DS to prevent this, i think i practically lived on my birth ball in the last feww weeks of his pregnancy!! During the labour (before my probs) i was in the water on all fours and in optimal positions.
But on the other hand, i want to try with just the gas and air and my tens machine, i may hget the birth i feel i was so cheated out of with DS. I feel so jealous when i see these perfect birth videos, such a wonderful experience that i never had.
I have looked into hypnobirthing but the prices here are HORRENDOUS i just cannot afford it now im on maternity pay. I will get myself a CD i think and try that.
On the whole i am relieved not to have a c-secion but, scared of whats to come!!!
I have been getting more things on my to-do list crossed off; sorted through yet more baby clothes (and there are still a few bags to go!!) and im now struggling to find space for it all!! My hospital bag is just about completely packed, and the baby bedding is all washed and the bottles sorted. Just want to organise some storage space in the living room for Aarons millions of toys as its going to be complete chaos with two of them!!
I finished up work last week which was a relief, too much rushing around. Cant believe i only have 25 days til my due date!!
Aaron is 15months in a couple of days! I couldnt believe it when i got home from work on Thursday. He had started walking holding bf's hands!! So far all he has done is walk around the furniture and use his walker but he has suddenly started walking properly! I think it will be a few weeks at least until he tries unaided but he is doing so well, i had him walking round the supermarket with me the other day, he looked so small and cute!! Lol i cant believe he done it on my last day at work!!!
I am so excited for Aaron to meet his little brother, i wonder what his reaction will be! He always looks and takes an interest in other babies/children, and he always smiles so i think he will be really cute with him.
Well i can say one thing is certain, i am alot more patient in waiting for this baby to arrive this time round!! Think where i had so many false alarms/build up with Aaron that thats what made me so impatient waiting for him!
Dont get me wrong, i am just about done being pregnant and certainly ready to meet this little man but im no where near as antsy as last time.
All my jobs are done now, just a few clothes left to sort out but these are the bigger sizes that i wont need for a while so not urgent. All i have to do really is keep on top of the housework as much as possible.
My back is absolutely killing me at the end of the day now, i cant wait for that to stop. And i got the horriblest cold the other night which had me in bed most of yesterday. The coughing has strained all my rib muscles and breathing is hard as i can feel the cold has gone to my chest. Im sure i picked this cold up from Aaron as he came down with one a few days prior.....poor little boy, no wonder he was so miserable with it, if its made me feel this awful i cannot imagine how he felt!!
He is also cutting his molars, some of them have bled and they look really sore so a bit miserable for him at the moment
I went to a nearly new sale the other day with some of my friends from Aarons antenatal group, picked up some real bargains! I got Aaron a winnie the pooh ride on/walker, and a toy wiith instruments/lights with a dancing monkey when aaron stands on the mat attached to it! I also picked up a baby bjorn active carrier, second hand again but great condition and for only a fraction of what it would cost new.
Starting to get worried now about too many visitors outstaying their welcome and holding the baby too much i dont want that. I think this time im going to try and be firmer on this than i was able to with Aaron.
I had midwife appointment a couple of days ago, sh e said baby is now engaed, about 2/5 palpable. I have been losing what i think is mucous plug for about 2 weeks now, so i guess all is heading in the right direction. The midwife didnt do a sweep the other day, she prefers to wait unitl due or overdue. This is probably best as with Aaron the other midwife dont the sweep at 39 weeks or so and said labour would start within 48 hours - it didnt, it started 6 days later. This just added to my impatience.
So, i am booked in for a home visit on Monday, my edd, to to a sweep. Hoping baby will make an appearance in the meantime of course. I am definatey getting impatient now. I think because Aaron was right on his due date, im expecting it to be the same this time. If this LO is late i will be climbing the walls!
Ive still got that horrble cough/cold, they will hate me on the ward all night if i still have it when i go to hosp as i will keep everyone awake!! Aaron still isnt right either poor little man, he is a little off his food too.
Everyhting is done now, i finished off all the baby clothes, even the bigger sizes. I have organised the bedrooms and i even put the new bouncer together. The new swing arrived, thats in its box still as i havent really the room to put it up unitl baby is here and i can move other stuff out the way, plus aaron will probably keep hanging off it lol.
Actually, i have just typed that and thought - its probably better it goes up now, as by the time the baby arrives it will seem a little more 'boring' to Aaron, not such a new thing to play with. Yes, im going to do that this eve once he is in bed!
We had a nice morning this morning, two of my friends from Aarons antenatal group xame over with their little girls for coffee. It was at my house should anything happen and i needed to go hosp i had everything here ready to go. Was lovely to see Aaron playing with the other babies! Or should i say toddlers!!!! Aaron is still a baby to me lol!
I have been so so busy coping with two children i havent had time to get on here much, i fully intended to write here sooner!! I still havent even finished my birth story but wanted to update here now.
I got the birth i missed out on with Aaron!! Yay!! Birth story and full details to follow shortly, but im very very happy how things went!
Life is crazy at the moment, its like we dont get a moment to ourselves between the two of them, going to take a bit of getting used to but so worth the sacrifices!
Ok, i have to go already as Kieran is crying now!! This is what i mean lol!!
I havent been on the boards in such a long time, i have missed them!! Once Kieran arrived i was just so busy, sitting at the computer wasnt a luxury i had lol!
Omg its been so long i dont even know where to start!!
Aaron turns 2 years in 3 weeks, that in itself is almost unbelieveable. We are having a little party for him, his theme is cars as he is absolutely obsessed by them at the moment!! He has grown so much. He says alot of words now, the most common ones are; car (!), gogone (all gone), shoe, juice, muma, dada, oh no, oh dear, sheesh sheesh (brush teeth), byebye, nana (banana), bal. Im sure there are a few others but cant think of them right now.
He isnt ready for potty training yet, but not overly worried on that.
Kieran is 8 months in 3 weeks, he is no longer a baby baby anymore although i must admit his newborn days were extremely hard work. Aaron was such an easy baby in comparison. Kieran cried ALOT, nothing was ever right for him, and i think this is partly because he was a very sicky/refluxy baby. Once we got past that stage he was much happier. He still has his moments but it overall very content. His weaning was alot slower that Aaron but he is there now.
He is already on his knees rocking too so i dont think crawling will be very far away!!
He goes through the nights brilliantly now, goes to bed at 6.30pm through til 7.30am. Aarons nights tend to be a little unsettled, i think he has bad dreams i hate that thought. Luckily they dont seem to disturb each other now they are sharing a room. I didnt put kieran in with Aaron until he was 5 months old and was really good at night, it just wasnt fair to disturb Aaron.
I love being a mummy of two, no matter how much work it is (and the extra work was a shock to the system at first lol). Im at the stage again where i really miss being pregnant too!!
Anyway, me and bf are getting married in July next year and he has aggreed that we can try for our third after the wedding!! Im so excited i cannot wait for another sibling for the boys! This was another reason to come back to pg.org, i have fond memories of being on here through both my ttc and pregnancy journeys!
Thats all for now, will be back again for regular updates now though!!
Aarons birthday went great, we had a lovely family day on his actual birthday, followed by his party the following day! He now has so many toys we are SERIOUSLY running out of space!
He has come out with so may new words in the past couple of weeks too - knee, door, get down, skip (my parents dog), flower, hoover, baa bo (poopoo). Crazy how he is learning soooo fast now.
Kieran started crawling properly a couple of days ago, today he has really come along going all around the living room lol. He has also started clapping 3 or 4 days ago and his first tooth came through (bottom right incisor), then the second tooth came through today!
We went to visit dad in hospital today as he had an op to unblock one of his legs in his arteries. He is doing good and was pleased to see us all! Aaron loved running around the hosp showing off to us whilst we chased him up the corridors haha!
Aaron is 2 yrs 7 mths, Kieran is 15 mths, 1-2 mths til we ttc #3!
Well, thought I'd better check in as it's been a while (again!). We get married in 24 days! Everything is just about organised, so it's just a waiting game now. We are having the whole day in a hotel with a beautiful lake. It's very small for the day time, just family and a few close friends, 22 people and my 2 gorgeous boys. In the evening there should be between 70-100 people so a lot busier! Mum is paying for a chocolate fountain hire for us, can't wait to taste that yummmmmm lol.
We have chosen all our final songs for entrances and first dance. I have got gorgeous little suits for my boys, they are going to look so cute. I'm going to have them walk down the isle with my bridesmaids, wonder if they will go all shy or sho off haha!
then, a week after the wedding me and dh to be will jet off to mexicofor our honeymoon. We aren't taking the boys with us, that is going to break my heart leaving them. they are going to stay with my sister so I'll know they will be looked after, I'm just going to miss them so much! We are going for 10 days, it's our first holiday for about five years I think. Can't wait for the lie ins and just relaxing all day.
And most of all I cant wait until we ttc #3, as soon as the wedding is done its all systems go! I'll be using the clomid again.
Kieran is walking very well, he started early comped to Aaron, think it was about 13-14 months or so. They get on very well together and play nicely, although Aaron does have a few crafty pushes/smacks to give his brother when I'm not looking!
Aaron is 2 years 10 months, Kieran is 18 months, we are ttc #3!
Last month was our first month ttc #3. Clomid 50mg again and it didn't work I had such high hopes after it was successful on the first attempt with Aaron and Kieran. But, I'm pretty sure it was down to our timing, it wasn't great as dh was on a course right before I o'ed.
This cycle I've paid privately for follicle tracking and I've upped my dosage to 75mg. And, our timing is going to be better as its on Dh's wkend off. I had a base scan on cd 6 and all looked good to go ahead, I have another scan on cd 14 (2-3 days before I o) to see how many follicles I have and what my lining is doing. I'm hoping I have more targets this cycle to increase our odds! I'll then have a final scan after o (not sure yet exactly when) to check I ovulated.
So all in all I'm feeling a lot more positive for this cycle but anxious at the same time that it may never happen again for us, that I couldn't cope with. I am so super super broody at the moment it's unbelievable. Also the fact I know this is likely to be our last makes it even more important to me.
Aaron and Kieran are doing great! Aaron has been going to nursery twice a week and loves it, I'm enrolling Kieran to start in march too! They have both grown so much, Kieran is even talking now too a little. He says wufwoo (love you), oo va (Hoover), datdat (our cat), hiya - he is such a fast learner! But reminds me even more he isn't a baby anymore, although Aaron still calls him baby Kiki
My other big news, is my sister is pregnant unfortunately things weren't great with her and her dh so they finally split up in July. It had been on the cards for months before that. She started seeing someone else pretty soon after, I've met him and he is really nice. I do miss her dh as I will always see him as family but things just weren't right between them anymore. Anyway, she rang me at work on weds crying her eyes out saying she was pregnant!! Her cycles have been sawed up for a long time and she hasn't had a period for months and months. Of course she was so worried it was her Dh's as that would have e
Been awful after the split.
We managed to get her a scan today and it turns out she's 5 w 5d so it's definitely R's! They are getting used to the idea now and are pleased but I think she is dreading telling dh and it's so soon after their split.
This makes it even more important for me to get pg this cycle, to share that with my sis would be the best thing in the world
I also have my friend at work, C, who is on her second month of ttc#1 so I hope she falls to and we can all enjoy it together!
It seems like there are so many pregnancies around at the mo, there is S (Dh's stepsister), T at work, I suspect J at work is, my sister, and C's brothers gf! My Dh's sister friend was but I found out today she m/c my heart goes out to her.
Anyway, I must go, I'm still sitting here in my uniform, shower and going to cook a chicken Korea for dinner! The huge pile of washing up can wait til tomorrow!!!!!
Found out today that T had a m/c yesterday i think she must have been around 13 weeks. Im not sure of the details but i feel so sad for her. It seems so unfair that 2 out of the 6 pregnancies i knew of have ended up in m/c's. I dont want to hear of anymore of those!!!!
Im feeling anxious about this cycle today, anxious i may not be able to get dh in the mood for perfect timing, it just seems like such a chore. And i cant tell him its the right time as that will just make things worse. Im assuming im going to o on cd 16 or 17, so ideally want to bd 15, 16, 17 and 18 to cover all bases. Hopefully when i have my follicle scan on Wednesday that will give me a good indication of my o day and i can just get the timing perfect.
C at work got her first pos opk today, so shes on the bd marathon too lol!!!
I did write a long post on here last week but it lost it and I got so annoyed I couldn't write it all again lol!
Well, I had my follicle tracking scan last Thursday (3days ago). My sister also came with me as we managed to book her in for a private early scan as she had been having some brown bleeding. I went first as if hers was bad news she didn't have to wait around for me.
All looked food, my lining was 9mm and had the 'triple stripe' which is good for implantation. I had 2 16mm follicles on my left ovary and 1 15mm follicle on my right ovary. She seemed worried for me I might end up with triplets and kept saying be careful. I am slightly nervous this is the case but after reading a lot, I more than likely won't release all three as I'm not triggering. I'm glad I have three mature as it will give me more targets so do hope I release at least two of them....twins would be ok, but am just hoping for one baby to come of this cycle!!
My sisters scan went great! R came with her too. Baby was measuring between 5w5d and 6w1d, at 2mm. We saw a heartbeat too, I was so relieved! Unfortunately she has been having brown bleeding on and off since fri or sat which is horrible and worrying for her,mi remember when I kept having that with Aaron and Kieran. I'm so hoping she will be fine as I was, it's just the constant worry of it. She has another scan at the hosp Thursday, and then another private one a week or so later.
Me and dh have been bd'ing since thurs night every night, tonight more than likely be our last bd. I was pretty sure I was going to o fri or sat but it's sun and I still haven't!! The o pain on my left is very strong and it's still there, my temp was low this morn too. I didn't get a peak on my monitor yesterday but got a pos on the digi opk, and a peak this morn with blaring positives on the cheapies. Pretty sure o will happen this evening. I hope so as I don't think there would be any chance of me getting dh to bd tomo as well!! I'm going to be so disappointed if i don't get a bfp this cycle, everything has been in my favour this month, a good response from the clomid, a very willing dh for timing, fairly stable temps and good opks. This all gives me hope it will be a bfp cycle, maybe even twins!! The thought of having to do it all again next month makes me feel sick with worry I hate the stress of ttc.
C is in her 2ww, she is about 8dpo today. If she gets her bfp and I do, we will be about 2 weeks apart. I will be about 4w2d between me and my sister. That will be so cool to do this together . I do have a good feeling about this cycle for me. My next scan is tomorrow at 4.30pm, then I'll know for sure how many follicles I did release!!