Okay, so I really don't have time to think of anything creative for a journal title! Maybe one day I will, and then I'll change it. But until then, this is Cassie's Journal!
For those of you reading...I'm Cassie! I've never been able to keep a journal longer than, ohhh, 2 days...so we'll see how well this works out!
I'm a SAHM of 2, as well as an online student in graphic/web design, and a playgroup coordinator. Obviously, I'm a very busy person. But not as busy as I'll be come spring, when I'll be adding community college to my life! I'm very excited, but at the same time, scared to death. Not about college itself...I can't wait to get my web design certificate...but about not spending 24/7 with my kids. It's going to be a huge change, and it'll be very hard on all of us I think. But I'm sure with time, we'll all adjust to it.
So I mentioned that I have 2 kids. Jasmine was born on 12/14/01. She's a dream child, and I don't know what I'd do without her. She's so smart and fun, and such a great helper! Not to mention adorable! Everyone says she looks like Shirly Temple, lol! It's because she has curly red hair! I can't believe she'll be turning 2 in a few months though. Time really flies! Anyways, my other child is Nicholas. He was born on 5/27/03, 6 weeks early. He's proven to be the exact opposite of Jasmine. First he gave us all kinds of scares in the beginning...namely hospitalization from 10-24 days old...and ever since then he's been very high maintenence. I'm not complaining, but it can be very frustrating sometimes. He sometimes cries for hours, despite my despirate attempts to make him content. My best guess is that his discomfort is from the reflux. Fortunately I have Jasmine here to help me with him! Even in his worst of moods, Jas can make him laugh. She's such a great big sister!
I guess it would be wise to say a little about my husband, lol! Well, he's the father of both children. His name's Sean, and we were married on 9/7/02. We met in October 1998 at work (Domino's Pizza), and started dating in November 1999. He's now a manager at Domino's, and makes a pretty good living for us. He's gone a lot though, which is upsetting for me. But his job is what puts a roof over my head, so I guess I can't complain too much. He's been looking into other job opportunities lately though, so I guess that's a good thing. Though it might mean we have to move to South Carolina (we're in Maryland now). But right about now, we'll do anything for more money.
Well, I guess that's it for now. Nick's stating to cry and I don't want him to wake Jasmine up from her nap! Hopefully I'll remember to write again soon!
It's so nice to have PO back! The last few days were so horrible! Serious withdrawl! Many thanks to Mollee and the rest for getting the site back up!
Anyways, so my 20th birthday was a few days ago (the 4th). I'm no longer a teenager. Though I really haven't been a teenager for 2 years. When you have a child at 18, you really grow up fast! It was actually a pretty crappy birthday. Sean worked, Nick cried, and Jas threw fits. Not to mention that our checking account was somehow overdrawn AGAIN and I had to use all my birthday money to bring the balance back up over 0. The good thing is that I got some new photo albums, so all my photos are now nicely placed into pretty pages, rather than getting all dusty and crinkly in that box in the closet.
It's been a very exciting day so far. I had a lot of phone calls to make, and actually made them! First I called about getting my MA# for the family planning clinic. I was so happy to hear that the card was still active. Now I can finally get my IUD! Then I had to call Gold's Gym to make an appt to check out the place. Hopefully Sean will say we have the money to join, cause I really need to get rid of this weight. I have 50 pounds to lose...yuck! Finally, I called the doctor. She said it was okay to take Nick off of Zantac, which is good news. Though I just gave him another dose to see if it helps any today. I also asked about what to do about Jas and her pain that she keeps complaining about. It's probably nothing, but I want to be on the safe side. Especially with the way she hit her head 2 days in a row. I'm still waiting on a call back about that. I do have another call to make though. It's time to schedule my placement tests for college. I can't believe it's that time already! But first I need to fill out the application...I'm such a procrastinator! I also have to head back to my high school to get my transcript. It'll be nice to visit my yearbook teacher again though. I completely forgot to send her a thank you note when she sent me a gift after Nick was born!
Speaking of Nick, he lifted his head today! It's nice to know he's getting back and neck strength. Sean said he tried to roll over twice last night too. It'll probably be any day now! Now if I could just get him to stop crying all day!
I guess that's about it. Gonna go make lunch for Jas now!
Ugh, my stomach hurts! It's lunchtime, and I haven't even had breakfast yet. Do I have cereal or a sandwich?!? Some decisions are so hard to make!
Seriously though, today has started off terribly. Sean and I have been fighting about the third child issue. It seems that there will never be a third child...especially since I can't even stand to be in the same room as him anymore. He can be so cruel when he wants to be.
Jasmine's on the floor throwing a fit right now. She wants more milk, but her cup is still half full! She's so difficult. Oh, and still no call back from the dr. After lunch I guess I'll call them. That's the problem with having a great dr, they're way too busy!
Nick has been sleeping most of the day so far. Tonight's my night to get up with him, so I guess I should try to keep him awake when he wakes up next time. Or maybe I'll just make Sean get up with him...after what he said to me last night, he owes me! And he still hasn't done anything for my birthday which was almost a week ago...not even say "Happy Birthday." He not only owes me, he owes me BIG time!
5 of noon, I guess that means it's time to go make lunch. I wonder what I'll make?!?
I can't believe Jas is still sleeping. This is probably why she's stayed up till midnight the last 2 nights. She fights her nap for like 2 hours till she finally goes to sleep. Then she sleeps for 3 hours, which is a good nap, but it takes her right up till dinnertime. I don't know what I'm going to do with her.
She's starting to be mean to Nick, which she's never done before. She's been hitting him, sitting on him, and teasing him with his bottle. I thought her throwing fits was bad...this is so much worse. Fortunately Nick is taking it all very well. He thinks it's funny when she sits on him. That kid has so much to learn!
My stomach still hurts, and my head has joined it. I guess it's cause I never got lunch. Those darn ants have invaded my kitchen, and I spent 20 minutes spraying them with Fantastic. I don't get it. We spent most of Tuesday cleaning our kitchen from top to bottom. We even pulled out the fridge and oven and cleaned behind and under them. Yet the ants are still here. Meanwhile, there's spilled dogfood all over my pantry floor and not an ant in sight.
I'm so disappointed. My playgroup was going to go to the zoo in DC this weekend, but now it's going to rain so we had to cancel. I was really looking forward to seeing Cathy again, but she has something more important going on that day anyways, so I guess it all works out. Cathy, I know you're reading...we're going to get together again sometime soon...I'm not giving you a choice! I worked long and hard teaching Jas to say "Zack" and I'm not letting it go to waste, lol! I love Cathy...she's so funny. "*****fest 2003"...LMAO!!! Speaking of which, I have a picture to scan in and show Cathy...I'm sure she'll love it! Okay, enough of that.
I hear someone sucking his fingers, so that means it's ba-ba time!
I can't believe it. Sean got home at 7:45. This NEVER happens! And he's going to make us a late-night steak dinner! That is, after he gets back from an errand I sent him out on.
Both kids are awake. Looks like it'll be another late night with Jas. Nick will probably be back asleep within the next hour. I'm amazed though. After Jas spent all day yelling and beating up Nick, she's standing next to him showing him his reflection in his toy mirror and playing with the toys on it for him. He's just smiling away! Maybe I'll get my old Jas back after all?!?
I talked to Cathy some tonight...YIPPEE! Completely forgot to show her the picture I was talking about in my last entry. Oh well, I'll catch her another day. I know she'll love it though
I hear Sean pulling in the driveway. He thinks I'm so funny on the computer. Talking away with people I don't even know. Getting all riled up about things like...well, the recent happenings on here. But that's all I'll say about that, cause the issue really doesn't concern me. Though I am connected in different ways with several of the people involved.
Anyways, I guess that's all for tonight. Tomorrow I meet with the lady from Infants and Toddlers again. We're FINALLY doing Nick's evaluation to see just how delayed he really is. I'm starting to think that he's not really all that delayed...he's picked up a lot in the last week. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow.
So I lied...that wasn't the last for today. Nick's kicking away in his bouncer and Sean has Jas upstairs trying to put her to sleep. Now I'm just waiting for the timer to go off on the oven.
I just realized that I've been obsessing about Cathy today, lol! I guess it's cause I was going through my photo album today and saw the pics of our first get together. It's hard to believe that was over a year ago. Time really flies. She's a good friend though, even though we don't talk that often. We're hardly alike really...I by no means have the life experience or maturity she has. But she's the kind of person I look up to. Highly responsible and trustworthy, easy going and fun, and I wish I had her dedication to weight loss. (Are you blushing yet Cathy?!?) I don't know if she considers me as much of a friend as I consider her, but I feel priviledged to have met her, and greatly enjoy our conversations and meetings.
There's the buzzer. I meant to write more about tomorrow and this weekend, but I guess it'll just have to wait till morning.
I wanna go back to sleep. Despite the fact that my husband owes me, I still ended up getting up with Nick last night. And he would NOT go back to sleep. He's still awake now. And I helped Sean clean last night.
I have 3 hours until the I&T lady gets here. Jas has already torn out all of her toys, so I have to pick those up again. Fortunately Noggin will occupy her for a long time, leaving me with the opportunity to clean.
I have tons of other boards to check, so I guess I'll go. Be back later!
I can't believe the lady showed up an hour early! So there I stand, in my pajamas, wearing no bra, and my hair flying all over the place. Talk about embarassing. Not to mention that I still hadn't cleaned and there were toys everywhere. Both kids needed diaper changes too. I was so unprepared for her!
The good news is, Nick isn't too delayed. She said his gross motor skills are a tad behind, but it's most likely because he's uncomfortable from the reflux. She really wants to see him spend more time on his tummy, so I guess that's what we'll be working on over the next month.
Jas was playing with the toys she brought. I was happy that she stayed quiet during the meeting. Though she did throw a few fits. Stupid terrible twos.
So I have been going without health insurance for so long. It's so impossible for me to keep up with payments for my Zyrtec and Wellbutrin. And right when I find insurance that will accept me...my printer runs out of ink and I can't print out the application!
But the nice lady from I&T was kind enough to run off 2 copies at her office and deliver them to me (since she was in the area anyway). So I've filled it out, except for a few things that I have to ask Sean, and I will mail it off tomorrow! Hopefully they'll get it by the 15th, and then I'll have insurance beginning the 1st of November!! WOO HOO! Very exciting!
Now I have to fill out my college application. Hmmm...print design or web design??? I don't know which I enjoy more! I should probably call the college and ask about combined certificates...and just do both! I know other schools do them, I don't see why this one wouldn't. After all, I'd only have to take 4 extra classes and I'll have taken all the required classes. It's a bit late to call now, so I'll do that on Monday I guess. And I might as well schedule my placement tests as well. Jeez I wish I was exempt from them. I mean, I'm not taking any english or math classes...what does it really matter! The idea of taking a reading test, writing test, and math test just scares me! Especially the math test cause I haven't done math in sooo long! AH, quick...what's 2+2?!? I'm SO going to blow it on these tests.