Well I survived tonight! I ate a good dinner, didn't go over board, avoided the carmel cinnamon rolls & all in all it was great!
Although, as usual with my family there was a bit of family drama & I ended up in the ER with my sister b/c my mom wouldn't go with her, the poor girl was in SO much pain b/c of the cysts & needed something more than just tylenol & ibuprofin. Thankfully dh & his boss understood but still, argh.
My other piece of good news is that I stepped on the scale tonight & weighed in at 210.5 that's normally where I'm at in the mornings! I did see 209.8 once but went back up, HOWEVER seeing that tonight really does excite me, I can't wait to see what Tuesday mornings weigh in shows.
I was also thinking tonight "wow I am REALLY doing this!!" So many times while ttc Seamus I told myself "Okay, lets lose weight before we have the baby" & most times I never stuck to it more than a week or two, right twoards the end I lost around 15lbs but obviously that didn't last b/c we got pg lol So I told myself that this time I WILL be losing the weight & I WILL stick to it, well 3.5 months later I'm just a few lbs shy of having lost my first 30lbs. It feels SO GOOD to say that, it almost feels unreal sometimes.
I'm the same this morning as I was last night, I was really excited to see a loss & fully expected one but oh well, it's gotta come off eventually. I know my body is really holding onto the weight because I'm nursing & possibly other reason but at least it's coming off.
This morning is not a very good one though, dh and I got into a huge fight it's been YEARS since we actually had a fight, I mean we have small tiff's but no one would be the wiser if they saw us b/c it's just not obvious, this mornings was & ugh, I feel like **** all you have to do is look at me sideways & I'd fall apart again, I know he does, the kids are being quiet it just sucks. really really sucks.
Thanks hun, today turned out much better, we both got a chance to talk during lunch while my sister watched the kids. Somedays it's just hard to hold it all together, between a stressful job that works him almost 24/7, me homeschooling & trying to hold down the fort, & sharing 1 car between the two chaoses there are days we wanna scream & run away LOL
Thankfully we are a good team & we have a strong relationship, but I guess sometimes ya just gotta blow steam.
I don't think I will see a loss this week, I have been good though so I am okay with that I know I will see one next week.