24 weeks 2 days
Good news on my MIL's test results. The heart cath showed her bypass from 6 yrs ago looks good and she didn't need a stent today. They do have concerns because of the general weakness of her heart and the cardiologist recommended she get a defibrillator (sp?) put in. My MIL has multiple concerns about that so is going to get a 2nd opinion and will also be having another test done tomorrow while at the hospital thru her primary care doctor to see something about why her blood pressure has been so high---I'm not really sure what kind of test that will be.
I'm still very low about our $$ situation and am not sure I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I know I should trust that it will be OK but I'm such a logical person I have a hard time seeing where something will come of nothing.
In other great news, we made the decision to join the church we have been visiting for the past 3 years and did so this past Sunday. Because DH grew up Presbyterian and has never been baptized by immersion he will be getting baptized in the next few weeks and his mom, her best friend, and my parents will all be coming to be a part of that wonderful experience. I'm also thinking of signing Josh up for Awana's this year. So sad that I'm not sure we will find the $30 for enrollment.
Yesterday was Josh's first day of Kindergarten! It was only from 9-10:30AM and the parents also attended, so today was the "real" first day, from 8AM-3PM. Let me tell you that it was difficult, despite me having made up my mind that it would not be. There was a literal stack of forms for parents to fill out that they handed out on Monday (well, 11, which constitutes a stack to me), lunch to pack, snack to pack, clothes to lay out, etc etc. Then there was the morning madness of learning about the car drop off lanes. My brother picked Josh up from school for me since DH is out of town and by the time he brought Josh to my house after I got home from work you could tell my brother was SPENT and had had enough between Josh and his 8 yr old step son. DH won't be back in town in time to pick Josh up from school tomorrow and I just couldn't ask my brother to do it again tomorrow after the day he'd had. I was going to ask another close friend of mine in the neighborhood but when I talked to her she said she is really sick and she sounded awful. SO, my only option will be to take my lunch to work and eat it at my desk, then take my 45 minute lunch break at 2:30PM to leave and go get Josh from school, then bring him to my work and hope that my new boss won't be too upset. If she says he can't stay, then I'll just have to take whatever consequences there are and go home for the evening without completing my shift until 6PM.
Dear Lord, if there is any way possible I would love it if my husband could be a provider for this family and I could quit my horrible job.
24 weeks 4 days
I have the day off work today since I had to work last Saturday all day! Whoo hoo! I got Josh taken to Kindy this morning and this will be my first day in WHO KNOWS HOW LONG to have ever had a whole day by myself with no work or kiddo. If he was still in daycare I would have kept him home with me all day so this is a very unusual feeling.
There is tentative good news on the financial front for us. My DH is currently at a job "interview" as I type this to see about going on board with a local fortune 500 company. It would not be a salaried position, but commission sales. However, he would be required to have butt-in-chair from 9-6 Monday-Friday and they will provide him with luke-warm leads. The projected income is nice if he can produce moderately (which I suspect he can since he's great at sales) and it's nice that he could start immediately and not have any weekend hours. The not-so-great part of it is that we had planned on DH picking up Josh from school every day so now we'll have to fork over money we don't have for after school care and (more importantly) instead of a grueling 8-3 day with no nap, Josh would have to endure an 8-5 day with no nap. That's the part I feel the worst about. Instead of me dropping off in the mornings I guess I'd be picking up since I get off work at 4:30 and DH would be working until 6 every night.
That is also stressful because he doesn't help at all with making dinner of any kind or really with even feeding Josh unless I'm working late or am out of town. So with me soon to be picking up TWO kids from school after a long day at work, I'll be needing to get them fed and will have no help because DH won't be home until 6:30-ish at night and will come in and want to change clothes and sit in front of the TV to wind down from a long and stressful day at work instead of doing anything (because my long and stressful day at work is not important). I hope I'm wrong but I've been married for 9 years so I think I have an idea of what to expect.
When Josh was born and I was on maternity leave it was a difficult time. Josh was super-colicky and could not be soothed. DH was working a regular job at that time and would come home after work and not help me. He would not do feedings or stay up at night. He said that since I was off of work and he'd worked all day he didn't need to work all night too because he had to be at work in the morning and I did not. That was such a hard time and I remember it well right about now. This time around he has talked like he plans to help but that was all before he was thinking of taking a regular job.
As you can see I have mixed feelings about this potential job. We NEED him to have it so I hope he gets it and can start work ASAP. But I also would like a partner that is my PARTNER and does things 50/50 with me, not 92/8, around the house.
25 weeks, 4 days
Forget everything in my last log entry. At the last minute (literally, on Monday afternoon---the day before he was supposed to start his new job) the guy DH was GOING to work with in the start-up company that cannot pay him a salary called him and talked him into not taking the other job. Mind you, this was not by promising him the salary he needs, but by offering him more money overall. Still full commission so of NO HELP as far as I'm concerned. A larger promise is of no use when the total amount of money coming in is zero dollars. So I'm quite low. My phone is blowing up with collection calls and I just have to turn it off because there is not a thing in the world I can do about it. So I'm still very low. Have I mentioned I'm low? Ugh.
This morning I got a call from DH that the school had just called him----Josh threw up in his classroom. That's just pretty typical of what to expect right now I guess. I felt SO horrible for the little guy having to throw up in his new class in front of his new friends. He had told me his tummy wasn't feeling well but he had NO fever and, to be honest, he tells me that on numerous occasions because he just wants to stay home from ___insert destination here____. I'm still having guilt pangs from not knowing the real from the fantasy tummy complaints.
I had JUST told DH on the phone from my work that I couldn't put my finger on it but just felt "off" this morning. When I heard DS was throwing up, I just took off for the day from work because I figured I would be right behind him any minute. Fortunately that didn't happen.
And TBH I can't find a thing wrong with DS. He has no fever, he's all bright-eyed and bouncy and has been tremendously hungry all day long. At first I hesitantly started him out with an ice pop, some crackers, some watered-down juice....and then he wanted the sandwich I had packed in his school lunch...then the fruit & tomatoes.... For supper he had TWO frito chili pies on a tortilla with lettuce and tomato. Not the appetite of someone that is under the weather IMO.
On the job front, DH is searching avidly for something that will provide for our needs and is attending some sort of presentation with a company that he badly wants to work for this coming Wednesday. Still full commission, but they schedule pre-set appointments for you and you don't have to find your own leads. Earning potential is what it needs to be but let's see if they like DH, if DH likes the opportunity, and if they offer him the job. I know if it's what the Lord wants him to do then it will be done.
26 weeks 4 days
DH liked the job opportunity on Wednesday afternoon. They guy leading the presentation/group "interview" told everyone that he'd be reviewing the resume's with his boss and would be in touch with who he wanted to see further for a 1 on 1 interview. However, he did not give a time frame on how long that might be. So Wednesday night (last night) I drafted what I felt was a lovely "thank you for the interview" e-mail (since that was the preferred method of contact) and DH e-mailed it about 10:30PM. Today he sent a similarly-worded "thank you" e-mail to the other recruiter he had spoken to at the same company and then he left a VM for the guy that had lead the presentation thanking him for the opportunity and saying that he hopes to hear from them, etc. Basically at this point the ball is in their court and we are just waiting to hear from them (or not hear from them). Too bad the guy couldn't have just said that they will be calling prospects by "X" day so that the people would know if they don't have a call by that day then they need to give up on this job.
DH applied for a couple other jobs online today as well but really wants the one from Wednesday.
I taught another class today at work and it was actually quite refreshing, so it was a good day. My bump is starting to finally look like a pregnant lady bump and the shirt I wore today made it totally obvious that I'm pg. That was kinda nice for a change. I mean, I'm 6 months pg so I'd be nice to start looking pg!
A bit of good news on DH's job ordeal. He did get a call back on that job he wants and has a 1 on 1 interview set for this Wednesday morning. Who knows how many other people are being interviewed but at least he will have his chance to see if he can land this job. We are hopeful that it will work out as we continue to spiral into a horrible financial position. Our auto insurance is set to cancel Wednesday of this week and I have no idea how we'll get past that one since I don't get paid for 2 more weeks. But I know that somehow we will.
DS is doing well in Kindergarten and we've pretty much gotten adjusted to the new routine, except the part about having no nap all day. He still comes home exhausted in the afternoons but I can actually tell he seemed less tired today than last week so I think over time he'll do better with it. Plus he had plenty of rest yesterday as I'm still letting/having him nap on the weekends.
On the pg front, my back has really been hurting me for a while now and today I did something to tweak my neck so that's really pinching me too. Somehow my knee is also out of whack, although I think I just slept on it weirdly because I can't pinpoint any knee injury recently that would be surfacing now. I think a portion of the problem might be our mattress because I have noticed when I sleep in our guest room or my son's room for various reasons that I have a great nights' sleep and don't wake up all ailing and aching like I do on our regular mattress. Thing is it was an expensive temperpedic knock-off that is supposed to be oh-so-comfortable and I never had back pain on a regular spring-filled mattress. Blah, that's just how it goes I guess! Everything will be better really soon---I just know it!
I'll be praying for your DH's job!!!
Ryan and Rachael
Parents to Chase, Abby, Hunter, Rachel, Caleb, Hannah & Nate
~Remembering sweet baby Oliver, born to Heaven October 20, 2009, & keeping Carole in our prayers~
Hey Elicia! I am back on pg.org!! Just wanted to stop in and say hi. I'm so sorry about your back! Have you tried a maternity belt? I got one for $15 at my birth center, and it really helps. I've heard that bella bands are pretty supportive, too. I hope you feel better soon!
Just got back from the 'ol GD test at the OB's office and am glad that's done! I should have the results back in a few days and am hoping all is well.
Unofficial good news on DH's job! They loved him and offered him the job contingent upon him passing a background check, which includes a motor vehicle report, credit check, criminal and I think civil background and they have been calling all of his personal and job references today as well. Seems like a lot if you ask me but I guess they want to make sure they're not hiring an axe murderer. Even though I'm sure it will be OK it still nerve-wracking, esp. since I know our credit has taken a bit hit recently. If everything pans out, he will be on a plane to California a week from today where he will be in training for a week. Once he comes back he will start going on appointments and then we could see a pay check in 3 weeks. So even though our $ issues will be ongoing until he is up and running, at least there is some sort of resolution in the near future. We are so thankful, thankful, thankful!
Joshie is now doing great in kindy and is just the most fun to be around. The other morning when I went to wake him up for school instead of the usual sleepy "good morning, Mommy", he said "Aloha"! LOL! He said he'd been dreaming of playing beach ball on the beach in Hawaii. He's always saying and doing something funny like that.
Last Tuesday we went to the hospital where this baby will be born and had a tour of the facility and got a cool bag with goodies inside. It was phenomenal and they even have a special sibling class I'm thinking of taking Josh to as I think he'd love it. They make a craft, watch a video, get their own tour, see the nursery, and eat a snack. He is going to be such a great big brother!