Paris is doing well and I am so happy about that. She has had a lot of problems at school lately b/c she can not control her self-control. The deal w/ her this week is if she does not get any stickers (which signifies good behavior) then she doesn't get to go camping this week for Girl Scouts.
I am at lost with her. She has soooo much potential and does so well at home but it seems like as soon as mom & dad are not w/ her she is a different child.
I hate these days...the days that nothing goes right, you're over tired and feel like you're going to cry at the drop of a hat. That is my day.
I don't know why I feel like this today but I do. I just want to go back home and crawl into my puked allover bed (yeah, W puked all over my pillow this morning and I didn't have time to change the sheets) and go back to sleep.
I am exhausted. I feel like I am on a train that is never going to stop. I haven't been sleeping well at all. It is so frustrating. Last night W woke up at midnight, I feed him and he feel back to sleep easily the only down fall is that he HAS to sleep w/ me. Well he woke up again at 4 am and when he woke up, I thought for a minute that I hadn't sleept b/c that is what it felt like.
I am frustrated at work. I have no job. I get paid to sit and play on here for 6 hours a day. I knkow...I shouldn't complain, but serioulsy I would like to be producted during the day at some point. I'd rather be home getting things done around there b/c I seriously have NO time what so ever once work is done. Work is so "groundhog's day."
Well it has been awhile. I find that I only really write when I am hurting or upset. WHy is that? I think i need to learn to write when I am also happy. Why try remembering those times in my writing as well as the bad. Sounds like a good choice to me.
Lets see....I am only few days away from getting out of the Navy..ok about 1 1/2 months...but it seems like a lot shorter then that. Which is probably a good thing. I have not found a job yet but am not worried. I am looking for an Executive Administrative job in this area and from what I see on Monster there are a lot of openings. I have been called for an interview once already but was unable to attend or accept the job b/c it was to start in July and I can not start until September.
My neice is visiting us. She has been a wonderful help for Chris & i. I have throughly enjoyed having her here. She is here for about one more month and I am going to miss her when she goes.
I had a falling out with what I thought was a good friend. But as time can tell us, she wasn't. She got upset over a very stupid (at least in my eyes) ordeal (one that really had nothign to do w/ me but she insisted it did) so I stopped talking to her. She really started to treat me differently and I wasn't going to let this thing get in the way but yet, I am not going to let someone treat me like I am five years old either. I tried to extend the olive branch, but she swatted it away. I can only offer it so many times.
I do miss this friend. She was one person who understood some of the things I was going through (so I thought). In hindsight, it is kind of a relief at the sametime that we are not "close" anymore. Since, our fallout, I have had to talk to my husband more about things I am going through and in reality it has brought DH and I closer. So for that thanks.
The kids are doing great. P is attending summerschool for reading and I have seen such an improvement that I am glad I was able to convince DH to letting her attend. W is getting big! I think he has gained about 3 pounds since his last well-baby checkup and that is great! He is about 17 pounds now or so and is almost 9 months and has 5 teeth. It feels like yesterday I was still pregnant with him...time is flying by and I am going to miss the "baby" days when they are gone.
We went to DC for the first time EVER last weekend. For me it was like I was at Disneyland for the first time. I really enjoyed myself it was great!
Ok, Ok, I am awful. There are so many times I want to write and I just can't find the words to say that will truly express what I am feeling.
W won't sleep in his crib and it is really starting to get to me. I am not sleeping at all. last night he slept in his crib from 7:00 to 10:30 pm. I swear he knows when I am going to bed. He slept with C & I until 2:00 am. I finally couldn't do it anymore. I put him down in his crib and turned on his fan for noise and shut the door. He slept there till this am. I don't know if he woke up or not. I had to get some sleep, which I really didn't get. I woke up three or four times b/c I *thought* I heard him cry.
I don't want to get him into the habit of sleeping in our bed.
P is switching classrooms. The school got a new 2nd grade teacher. They sent home a note asking if they our child could be a possibility to switch. I signed it saying ok. Yesterday, the school called me and said Paris was picked. Starting Monday she'll be w/ a new teacher. I think it will be good for her.