Monday April 21st
Yesterday was a good day. We got a lot of yardwork done, and hopefully half of the flowers/plants we planted will survive this year. I am extremely sore after all our work, man it has been a long time since I have done yardwork or exercise at all.
This morning Logan and I went for a walk with some of the other members of the Mom's Club. We walked around 2 laps which is almost 2 miles. I was pretty impressed with it, and now that on top of the exercise/yardwork yesterday I am quite sore (especially my butt)..
Once we finished walking we went to Target, and spent way too much money. Everytime I go there I spend too much money. Tonight will be the first time I have had a girl's night. I am going to a old coworker's house for dinner. That reminds me I need to get in the kitchen and work on the apple crisp for dinner.
I have decided to go ahead and put at the bottom of each post my tracker for food and exercise. I am going to join the next POBLC and I need to get back in the habit of tracking. Now after tracking today's food I see why I need to do this.. Look at that horrible food...
Today's Food & Exercise Journal
breakfast- 2 slices bread (chocolate chip), sprite
snack- small cold white chocolate mocha (Starbuck's)
lunch- chicken nuggets & fries (McDonalds)
snack- string cheese
dinner- dinner at a friends house (poppyseed chicken w rice, salad, apple crisp)
Exercise- 50 min walk (2 miles)
Well dinner last night was good. We went over to L's house, and I met her little boy. He is so small, it is hard to believe that Logan was ever that small. Then we ate dinner, and sat around and talked. It was a nice dinner. I found out that H is pregnant, and is due around the beginning of Dec. I am so excited for her, but also deep down know it is going to be hard when H and R (due in Nov) are both having their babies and again I am not. I am just hoping I will be pregnant by that time so I can at least have that.
Anyway today is going to be a nice day. We have a craft/playgroup scheduled for this morning at a local park. I am not sure how much of the craft Logan will do, but I know he will enjoy playing at the park. Hopefully I can tire him out, so that he takes a good afternoon nap. This afternoon we will probably get outside for a short time to water the yard, etc..
breakfast-apple crisp, soda
lunch- string cheese, lean cuisine panini, orange, chips
snack- ice cream
dinner- 3 tacos, chips, guacamole
Exercise- 30min stroll around neighborhood
Wednesday April 23rd
This morning has been busy. I am finally getting a chance to sit down, but should get up and clean. We started off the morning with our normal Mon/Wed walking group. We decided to meet at 9 am this morning, since we had another mom's club activity at 10:30 this morning. 5 people actually showed up so it looks like our group is getting larger each week. We got in 2 laps in only 45 minutes, which is quicker than normal. Hopefully we can speed it up even more and get some good exercise in.
After our walk, we came home for a short time, changed clothes and packed up for the 2nd mom's club activity today. We went to a brunch which was pretty good. The theme this week was soup, salad, sandwiches. Logan didn't eat anything but bread and goldfish but he really enjoyed playing with the other kids. I enjoyed the conversation with adults..
I work tonight, which I am not really looking forward to. But it is only 1 hour so I can handle it. Anyway I better get off my ever growing butt and start cleaning.
I decided to get on ww again. I redid my points quiz and they are giving me 20 pts a day. I think that is the lowest points I have ever had, but maybe that is what I need to lose the weight. I had thought before about switching to the core plan, but I can see myself cheating on that, so I will count points again. Anyway I am going to work on starting to count this week, but I got to work my way up to 20 pts a day. i can do it.
breakfast- apple crisp, sprite
lunch- bunch of stuff at brunch, diet coke
snack- ice cream (definitely not a ww food)
dinner- taco salad, guacamole & chips
Exercise- 45 min walk (2 laps)
Friday April 24
Well I have been slacking with the journalling. Yesterday was a nice day, but I got incredibily upset with Logan. I was so excited about going to the gym and trying out a water aerobics class. Well I went, paid the money for the class, dropped Logan into the daycare and started the class. About 5 min into the warm up one of the ladies from the childcare came to get me because Logan was hysterical. I got in there and he was so upset. So we ended up leaving and coming home.
I know it was crazy for me to be mad at a baby, but all I wanted was 1 hour for myself. One hour.. Well come to find out I think Logan was teething yesterday, which meant it was a long day for the both of us. Today he is a completely different child. He is happy and in a great mood. As for the water aerobics class, I am going to try it tomorrow morning. My dh is going to stay home with Logan so at least this time I should not have any distractions.
Anyway we had a good day today. We went shopping this morning and then had lunch at McDonalds. After Logan's nap we went over to our neighbor's house for our first swimming event of the season. Logan loved playing in their baby pool, and I could tell that we would be doing that a lot this summer.
This weekend should be nice, we have a lot planned. Off to go do bathtime for Logan, I will check in tomorrow.
Sunday April 27th.
This weekend has been long, and very tiring. The joys of teething :( Poor Logan has been miserable this weekend, which makes mommy and daddy the same. Yesterday, Saturday, we had a pretty busy day. I got up and tried to go do the water aerobics class at the new rec center. When I got there I soon discovered at the pool was closed, due to water temperature problems. So I decided to try out the new wellness center (exercise room) but came to find out that you aren't allowed to wear flipflops in the gy :rolleyes:. So no exercise at the gym for me. We then spent the rest of the morning shopping. We ran to buy presents for a birthday party for some of our friend's kids. After shopping we went to lunch at Baja Fresh (yummy) and then home for nap. Last night we went to the birthday party. It was a nice Saturday.
Today has been pretty much the same. This morning we went out to Panera bread for some bagals for breakfast, then stopped at Target for some shopping. I finished mowing the yard this morning, and during Logan's nap studied for my final exam (thursday). This evening i have to work, and then the weekend is over..
I think I have finally realized that I am having a harder time dealing with everything than I thought. I have said over and over again that I am ok, but I think deep down I am not. I am so tired, and last night it finally all hit me. I finally realized that the fact that my dh was not here during my m/c and d&c, hit me harder than I thought. I felt like he was chosing work over me, and it hurt emotionally. I am also stressed out and feel like I can't do this anymore. I know I am not being the best housewife, mother, spouse, that I should/can be. I know it has a lot to do with hormones from the m/c, the fact that my grandmother passed away, and just the fact of having a 17 month old at home. It is a lot to deal with and it is finally becoming too much. Dh and I had a long talk last night about everything, and hopefully now that it is out in the open things will improve. I hope so..