Ug, my weight went back up to 146.5. At least I know what it was from! LOL! That entire pizza and order of cinnasticks that I ate a few days ago. Yum Yum, that was a good meal!!!
CD 8. 3 more sleeps until we leave for Canada. YAY!!!!
YAY one more sleep!!!! So how did it go last night? Everything okay?
Ok, back from Canada. We had a blast. I was THE laziest person on the face of the planet while we were up there.
I started my new job. OMG! This is a kick ass job! The benefits are out of this world! I've died and gone to heaven!
Nothing to report on TTC. I didn't really temp while on vacation. My periods are still being weird....like 11-12 days long. I'm going to see the gyno on Sept. 5th. If he blows me off again, I'm changing doctors ASAP. A friend of ours went to another gyno and said he's great.
Ella Catherine. That is what I will name my little girl. Now if I could only get pregnant. LOL!
It's Saturday. I have lessons to do. I'm actually excited to get to work.
DH and I are going to get a dog. We want a big dog like our last one, Sammy. That might be hard to find, but we'll check out the animal shelter every week until we find what we are looking for.
*SIGH* I think I have a yeast infection. Oh joy! I guess this cycle will go bye bye if I ovulate in the next few days. The OPK said the O is no where in sight though, so that's good.
DH has an interview for a substitute teacher position this morning. I'm really proud of him for trying a new career. He'll go back to accounting if he doesn't like teaching, but he'd like to try it because it will give him more time with us.
Well, I have my gyno appt. this morning at 11:55 am. I hope it goes well and he doesn't blow me off again. I'm taking all of my charts and will beg for some progesterone.
I got a blazing +OPK this morning.
Oh please oh please oh please God, let this happen again!
Well, the appt. I should talk about the appt. ARG! The appt.
So it started with a mean nurse telling me that my appt. was ONLY for a pap smear and I couldn't talk to the doctor about INFERTILITY and she needed to make sure I knew the rules about scheduling a pap appt. vs. an INFERTILITY appt. and how the insurance codes are different for a pap and an INFERTILITY appt. OMG! If she said INFERTILITY one more time, I would have slapped that woman. Could she BE any more insensitive. Anyways, I started to cry. Ug. I never do that. I can usually hold things together. I told her that the pap was NOT the reason I was there, that that was only secondary and that I just couldn't waste another month waiting for a different kind of appt. She softened a bit and told me, "Well, what you and the doctor talk about is not my business. I just can't know that you talk about INFERTILITY issues." *SIGH*
So, the doctor walks in and says how are you doing and I say not good and told him that I'm gonna start crying again because the nurse told me that I can't ask him about why I'm not pregnant. He told me to go ahead and that we'll make an official infertility appt. for next time. So anyways, he listened to me tell him about my 2 week long periods, he looked at my BBT charts, agreed that I have a short luteal phase, and wrote me some blood work requests that I have to take to the lab tomorrow. He also wrote a request for DH to have a semen analysis. Ron will just LOVE that. He said no clomid or progesterone just yet until he can take a look at my hormone profile. Then he did the pap and felt around a bit. He said that there are no signs of cysts or endometriosis and my cervix looks good. Then he said, "Hmpf, everything looks healthy in there. I wonder why you're not pregnant." Well HELLO! I wonder that too! Oh, and he said that I'm ovulating today, but I already knew that.
SIGH, this doc is okay, but I wish I liked him more. His nasty old nurse deserves crotch rot.
I ran 4.5 miles today. I feel really good about that.
Okie dokie, 3 DPO and I've been slathering myself with progesterone cream. Mr. Doc said no prescription progesterone until we do some blood work. Fine. Whatever. BAH!
I called back to make another appt. today as per the doctors orders and I got Nasty Nurse on the phone. She was a bit nicer to me.
Why does FF always have to change how many DPO I am? I changed me back a day, so I have to do 3 DPO all over again. It also always tells me that I O'd on the day AFTER I KNOW I O'd. Stupid thing!
I've got to go do some shopping today.
I've been feeling really crampy lately. Weird. I'm nowhere near my period. Maybe its all of the progesterone that I've been slathering on myself.
Ran 4.5 miles tonight. Woohoo! I'm on fire! DH and are are doing a race to Vegas of sorts. We are keeping track of our treadmill miles to see who can get to Vegas first. We are dorks.
I have another OB appt. on Sept. 28th. Hopefully we can get things rolling. I'm sure it'll be another few months until something happens though. Ho hum.
So DH did his business and drove over to the lab to turn it in. The guy who he made the appt. with informed him that he can't do anything with DH's sample unless there is a doctor's order. OMG!!! Nasty Nurse forgot to send over the Dr.'s order!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGG!!!!So, DH was a bit irritated. *SIGH* now I have to call over there and talk to her again.
I think I'll go get my eyebrows waxed first and maybe get a pedicure too. I hate that scratchy rock thing that they always torture the bottom of my feet with IIIIIEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
I have made it to 12DPO with no spotting. This hasn't happend in the past 7 months. It's totally the progesterone. FF says to test tomorrow. I'm scared to do it. BFN's suck donkey balls.
I have been feeling a bit nauseated. I wonder if its the progesterone. We'll see I suppose.
This morning I stared at the biggest, fattest, most awful BFN. I was actually surprised because my temp took a 0.4 degree jump. :dontknow:
Oh well, stab me in the eyeball with a fork.
I just read that P supplements can cause nausea and breast tenderness. I'm happy to know that I'm not psycho and making up pg. symptoms, but sad because I thought that's what they were.
Sept. 28th. I'll go cry to Mr. Doctor and his nasty nurse. LOL!
14 DPO and my temp is still up. :dontknow:
Oh blah. AF like Niagra Falls this morning. Ouch I have cramps. I am sooooooooo proud of myself. I brought my LP up to 14 days!!!! :woohoo: No more stinky 10 day LP's for me! B6 and progesterone are good stuff. Now, if only my Dr's appt. would go well on Thursday. I hope Nasty Nurse doesn't have a coniption because Ron didn't get his "stuff" analyzed. It was her fault for not sending over the doctor's order, but I'm sure she'll yell at me for it :roll: I'm so glad I'm seeing the other Doc on Oct 3rd. I hope I like him better.
I ran 5.55 miles last night. YAY ME! That felt soooo good! I just made like the Energizer Bunny and kept going and going and going. Total runners high!
Our house is coming along. They should be putting in some drywall soon. They got the first layer of stucco up last week. I need to call the lady so we can do the frame walk. :woohoo: We should be in the new house by Christmas. I can't wait to take a bath in my big jacuzzi tub!
I'm scared about evaluation. I have a meeting today to discuss what they will be evaluating me on. I am soooo nervous because I love this job so much and want them to keep me. I'm totally doing my best. I have sooooooooo much grading to do right now, its scary.
I love my kid. I love my DH. They make me so happy. DH just got a new haircut and he looks so adorable. This weekend we need to take the clippers to Nate's hair. He's going to get mad at us, but it must be done.
Ok, off to work.
So I had my appt. today with the Gyno. I get there and get called back to the room. Right away, Mz. Nasty Nurse says, "Are you here for your INFERTILITY appt.?" :roll: So, I just say yes and refrain from clawing her eyes out since I'm not in the mood to go to jail. Then she asks if my DH has had his semen analysis and I said, "Well, he made an appt. and took his sample in, but the lab said that there was no doctor's order, so they couldn't take the sample." She looked at me accusingly and said, "What lab did he go to?" I said, "I don't know, the one on the piece of paper you gave us, maybe UNILAB?" To which she said, "Well, that is the problem, we use QWEST, so maybe he went to the wrong place." I said, "NO, he got directions from the person who he spoke to on the phone and he called the number on the piece of paper you gave me." So then she huffs and puffs and stomps off saying that she is going to call them and get to the bottom of this. I sit there rolling my eyes and she comes back and says, "Well, I guess you need a doctor's order on paper. Nobody told me about this new policy."
Um, ok, why oh why does she have to be such a c.unt about it? It wasn't our fault. She doesn't have to act like DH is so stupid that he would just find any old lab and take his specimen in. Good Grief.
So anyways, I see the doc and he gives me a paper order for DH's semen analysis and says that we need to do a post coital test and an HSG and hopefully we can get it done this cycle. He said to walk out and Nasty Nurse will schedule it for me.
I get out there and I show her the paper which says "HSG and PC" on it and she says, "Ok, call me when you O and need to come in for the post coital and then we'll schedule you for the HSG." I said, "No, doc says HSG first and then poist coital so we can get it all done this cylce. I just finished AF and that would be perfect timing." Nasty Nurse says, "Well, doc does HSG's only 10 days after AF has started and we are already on day 11, so you'll have to wait until next month. I said, "No, he said this cycle and besides, my AF is sometimes 11-12 days, so if we wait until next month and schedule the HSG for 10 days after day 1 of AF then I may still be flowing and that would not be good." She sighs and rolls her eyes and says to me in a snotty tone, "Why don't you just go wait in the waiting area and I'll talk to the doctor about this."
So, I go out and wait. Then NN calls me back and says that we are going to do the post coital this month and that the doctor is too busy to schedule me in for the HSG this month and that I'll have to wait. FINE! WHATEVER! F-U!
I am sooooooooooooo glad I have an appt. to interview a new Gyno next Tuesday. He has been highly recommended by friends of mine and I hope he doesn't have a nasty nurse too. I just can't get over the lack of respect at this place. GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!
Ug! Nasty Nurse strikes again!
I have an appt. to meet a new doc tomorrow, Dr. M. I've been seeing Dr. K and have not been impressed with him and his rude nurse. So anyways, the two docs work in the same medical group, which is huge, so my chart has to be transferred from one office to the other. Well, NN calls me up today and says to me, "Dr. M's office is requesting your chart. Are you seeing him too????" OMG, I just studdered for a moment and said, "Well, yes, I thought I'd get a second opinion since it seems like you guys don't have much time for fertility patients." I could literally HEAR her rolling her eyes. She explained to me that there was specific protcol that they had to follow with the fertility stuff and blah blah blah. I was thinking in my head, "Yeah, but it doesn't take a month to do this and a month to do that and you're wasting lots of time!" but what I actually said to her was, "I start spotting at 9 DPO and the doc seems to think that's ok, but I think its a problem. I'd like to get a 2nd opinion." She then actually got pretty nice to me and said that she was sorry and that it was probably just a hectic day at the office and she knows what it feels like to have fertility issues because a doc once told her that she'll never have kids and now she has 3. Ack! This woman is weird I tell you!
YAY!!!! I saw Dr. M this morning and he was great! I told him that the reason I was there was that Dr. K was farting around and wasting my time and not taking this problem seriously and that NN was so rude to me that I couldn't even face her again.
He looked at my charts and said that for sure my cycles were in need of a bit of tuning up. He said that I'm right in thinking that my LP is short. He also said that the time between the end of my period and when I ovulate is a bit too long and that he wants to see my cycle length down from 32-35 days to around 28. He then wrote me an RX for clomid and estrogen for next cycle and he did a pelvic exam. He did a ferning test and said that my CM looks fabulous and he let me look at it under the microscope. It was actually beautiful. I just had to "forget" what I was looking at LOL. He said that I'm to go "surprise" DH tonight and tomorrow night and to come see him if/when my next period starts. He said he will then schedule a formal post coital and HSG "if I still need it." Wow, this is new, an optimistic doc! He said that if I'm not preg. in the next couple of months that he has no problem referring me to a specialist. OMG! I LOVE him! :woohoo:
The doctor called with DH's SA results. He said the count is good, 48 million, as it just needs to be above 20 million to be normal, but the motility was low. They like to see 40-50% motility and his was only 10-20%.
They set him up for a urologist appt. in November.
How on earth did I get pregnant twice before with all of this crap going on? I mean, we only waited 2.5 year before TTC again. Good grief!
Ok, I searched the internet for motility advice. I guess the major cause is a varicose vein in the scrotum. DH will have to wait to see the urologist to see if that is the problem. In the mean time, he's going to take some vitamins. I went by the healthfood store today and got him Chromium, Selenium, Vit C, Vit E, B Complex, CoEnzyme Q10, L-Arginine, L-Carnitine, Zinc, and Korean Ginseng tea. LMAO! ....those were the suggestions for supplements for low motility. I put them all in one of those old people pill boxes, so he has them all set out for the week. Fun, fun, fun!
I'll go by KMart and get him some cold packs for his "stuff" later on this week.
I feel lonely right now. Really, really lonely. Why is this happening to us? I try so hard to be upbeat and have humor over this situation, but more and more, I'm just becoming embarrassed and slightly angry that its not working. Is this a normal feeling? Somebody let me know.
Just having a bad day. I need a hug.
:comfort: Bobbie....Hope you don't mind me posting here.
I know just how badly it sucks when you go from conceiving so easily to not seeming to be able to conceive at all....It wears on you emotionally and physically. The longer it takes the harder of a toll it takes on you and it gets very hard to try and stay up-beat about it all.
Lots of prayers and positive :vibes: that your BFP comes soon.....As beautiful as lil' Nate is I can't wait to see your and Dh's next lil' Creation, who I'm positive will be just as gorgeous. :bighug:
Dew, I don't mind you posting here! You just totally cheered me up! Thanks for thinking about me! I know you, of all people, understand how I feel. You've been in my shoes, so your thoughts mean a lot to me.
And a great big :bigarmhug: right back at ya!
Now for today's update:
DH and I attended our orientation to be foster parents. It went great. The lady was fabulous and she said she'd call us to set up the rest of our training. They are waiting to do the home study until our house is done being built....which should be soon as all they needed to do the last time we were there was to put in the flooring and paint. I asked if it would take a while to get a pair of sisters under 4 and the social worker said she didn't think it'd be a problem because its hard to find people willing to take sibling sets, so :woohoo:
So, I went and picked up my two drugs today from the pharmacy. On the counter sit Clomid and Estrogen. I'm excited and apprehensive at the same time. What if this doesn't work? What the heck are we going to do?
Hi Bobbie, I'm sorry to hear that things are a little rough around there right now. :bigarmhug: I've missed you guys...we haven't had a good talk in at least a week. Hope things are going a little better and I just know those drugs will do their job for you!!! Will call you later.
Love and hugs
Hey Ms. Beverly! I'd love to have a chat tonight. Maybe we can play a poker game too. I'm soooooooooooo tired right now. Sheesh, long week.
I've been having bizarre dreams for the past 3 days.
So, I went in to see Dr. M today. He told me to call and make an appt. the first day I started AF. That was Friday and BAM, I have an appt. today, Monday. That is soooooooooooooooooo different from Dr. K's office!!!! I'm so thrilled. Anyways, I don't really know why he wanted to see me again except for the fact that we got the ball rolling for the HSG. He sent me to his nurse to set it up and she was SUCH a sweetheart! She said that I'll have to call her Thursday to set up the HSG for next week since the schedules don't come out until then. Okie dokie.
Doc said that 10-20% motility is not good...considered "infertile." So, who knows, maybe its not a problem on my end. DH sees the Urologist in November, so we'll get more info then. He said for motility issues, they'll put the guys on Clomid too. Weird! I hope he doesn't grow boobs or something. LOL!
I just still wonder how we conceived twice in 3 months and now this. *Scratching Head*
First day of Clomid. I have a head ache. I don't know if its related. :dontknow:
I just ran 4.5 miles. Yay me! I feel good!
Day 3 of Clomid. I feel fine. A little bit of abdominal tenderness, but that's it.
UG, please Clomid WORK!!! I'm tired of TTC!
The nurse called from Dr. M's office and said they are having trouble locating my chart. I told wonderful nurse about nasty nurse and what she said to me on the phone and said that NN is probably hiding it over there in her office because she hates me LOL! Wonderful nurse said, "I'm sorry you had to deal with that. I'll call over there and see if I can track it down." I wish her good luck!
My HSG is scheduled for Monday at 8:15. I hope it turns out ok. I don't know if I can deal with more bad news. At least one of my tubes has got to be open. I've been pregnant before!
Day 4 of Clomid. I feel fine.
Wonderful nurse called today to say that the insurance approved my HSG. Woohoo!!!!
Ok, my pelvic region is kinda tender tonight. Ouchie ouch ouch.
HSG this morning. It went well. Tubes are OPEN! Yay, I felt so good about that. I was so sure it would be some more bad news, but nope, a pleasant surprise.
Ug, I've been feeling nauseous today. I think the estrogen is doing that. BLECH!
Still feeling ok on the Clomid.
I had kind of a crap day at work today. I'll explain later.
Well, I guess we may get to move to Oregon sooner than we thought. My dept. chair at work said that the lousey president of the college, who has only been there 6 months, is wanting to hire a Hispanic to fill my position all in the name of diversity. Wow, that just made me feel like shit. I'm the wrong color. I've got the wrong last name. Yay for me.
Affirmative action doesn't hurt people? Bullshit.
hmmmm. The job situation is crap, but I'll get over it.
I still haven't O'd. This is weird. I thought clomid was supposed to make me O earlier. *SIGH*
Hmmm, I guess clomid is working backwards on me. It's making me not ovulate. Day 21. No O. I'm seeing an acupunturist next Friday. I LOL at DH telling me that I'm going to a "witch doctor."
Well, I think I finally ovulated. I went to acupuncture on Friday and I think that glorious woman made it happen. DH says it's just a coincidence :roll:
He had his Urologist appt. He had to go give another sample. I'm wondering what it will look like. Better? Worse?
It's so weird. I'm kinda relaxed about things right now. Hmmmm.
Well, FF finally gave me crosshairs today. I'm apparently 3DPO. It's funny how on every other cycle, FF will tell me that I O'd the day after I know I O'd and this cycle it tells me that I O'd the day before I know it happend. I think it does that just to drive me nuts.
Oh, and my Yoga for fertility DVD and my meditation CD's came in the mail yesterday. :woohoo:
11 DPO. Waiting for DH's Semen analysis. Darn urologist hasn't called us back. DH has left 2 messages.
I went for acupuncture today. AAAAAAAAAAAH!
She gave me some Chinese Herbs. I'll take them when I get my period.....I'm saying that because I don't feel pregnant this month. *SIGH*
The doctor's office finally called back only to say that they can't give results over the phone. If I wasn't so tired, I'd get out my hatchet. How dumb can they be? DH will have to wait until his Dec. 13th appt.
On side note, I've made it to 13 DPO without spotting. That is pretty incredible for me.
I have been sooooooo exhausted. Oh my goodness. We moved into our new house last night. Moving is a PITA. I've also had wicked heartburn and constipation for the last 4 days. I hate when my schedule gets all messed up. My body revolts. DH and his friend Travis are at the old place right now getting the rest of the big stuff. I'm so happy that my treadmill is in place here at the new house. I can't wait to jump on it and get back to regular life again.....well, only to leave to Oregon/Canada for the holidays.
15 DPO. I've never made it this far without spotting since I was preggo. I'm trying not to get excited though, because Clomid makes the LP longer. I've looked on FF and some women have LP's up to 18 days. I'll test Tuesday if AF hasn't shown yet.
This stinky heartburn just won't quit! OUCHIE!!! Ok, slippery elm, here I come!
17 DPO. Nervous about testing doesn't even begin to explain it.
Holy Crap!!! :jawdrop: Is that a BFP I see!?!?!?!?! It's not Tuesday!
:yahoo::woohoo: COngrats!!! I am beyond thrilled for you!!!:woohoo::yahoo:
Holy Crap!!! :jawdrop: Is that a BFP I see!?!?!?!?! It's not Tuesday! :yahoo::woohoo: COngrats!!! I am beyond thrilled for you!!!:woohoo::yahoo:
Amber, It's all your fault hun! LOL! I swore I was going to wait until tomorrow or wednesday morning and then I thought about your PM and said, "Oh, what the hell!"
I am BEYOND nervous right now.
Ok, so I tested this afternoon while on a break from work. I wasn't going to, but I thought it was going to be another BFN and that I should get the disappointment over with. Well, I got home and peed on that thing and BAM, before I was done peeing, the + symbol came up. I couldn't believe it. I sat there for a second thinking no way. Then I showed it to DH and he says, "I don't know how to read these things!" I said, "Honey, look at the box!" He did and said, "So you're pregnant?" I said, "Yep, that's what it looks like!"
I have to go into the doctor tomorrow to confirm. I sure hope this isn't some huge cosmic joke and I got a false BFP. I'm so nervous, I've been shaking all day.
I saw the doc today. We scheduled an u/s for Jan 3rd and an OB appt. for Jan 12th. Sticky baby stick!!!!!