A fresh start...

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A fresh start...

I like these new boards. Lastnight I was lost and felt like crying, I had finally gotten used to the old ones and it was a major change for me but I have been playing around on them this morning and I am getting a hang of them.
So lastnight sucked, dh had to go into work for 4 hours, the longest 4 hours of my life. He teased Ethan before he left by asking Ethan if he wanted to go to work with daddy, so when Mike left Ethan was all upset and then proceeded to be a brat while Mike was at work. I am also used to him being gone in the day but not at night. He's so much help when it comes to cleaning up dinner,picking up toys, getting the kids ready for bed and I had to do it all by myself, god, what am I going to do when he goes on a deployment??
So more bad news..... I am going to copy and paste it from a navy baord I go to.

So he was wanting to cross rate. We had to have our orders cancelled to Norfolk since we weren't allowed to be under orders to put in for this MA stuff and it took a month to find out and we finally got the news this morning and he's really upset, he was denied. Things are getting hard for us financially because of him being an ET and the rate is too full and he can't move up so he thought maybe with MA he could and he knows his police stuff, he was on a PD before he joined the Navy.
I'm not looking forward to him coming home from work tonight because he's going to be pissy and take it out on us UGH!!!

So we don't know what our future is now. We were told at the beginning when he cancelled our orders that he would be red flagged to deploy or we would go to a base that noone would want to go to! FRIGGIN GREAT!!! I guess we will see if that's true. I don't think he will deploy now that this war is almost over and 2 carriers are on their way home and a 3rd might be on it's way soon.
Dh is so wishy washy when it comes to staying in the navy, we have cheked out the STA-21 program (officer program), and then he decides he just wants to go back home when he gets out and lately he has thought about going into the ARMY and going officer in there to fly helicopters. We will see, personally I would like to be by my family, but I wouldn't mind him staying in either and if he wants to go officer that's fine and dandy, yummmmyy a hot hubby in an officer uniform yummmmmy!!

Anyways, I have 4 loads of laundry to do today. I feel like crap, my head feels like a damn balloon, I hate being sick!!
I am proud of myself, I told my self friday that I am going to start cleaning once a week, besides your normal pick up, straighten up kind of stuff and I haven't cleaned since friday, lets see if I can make it till this friday. I am finding more relax time, more time with the kids and more time for us to get out and do something :0)
Well I guess I should go for now, Elizabeth wants to watch a Blue's Clue's movie.

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WOW!!! I was at the bottom of page 2!!

So dh called me and told me that his package for MA was kicked back because there were so many packages to go through and basically they were too lazy to look at each and every one of them, so he decided while it was kicked back that he would call the PD he was on and get some recommendations and get his records and he called the college and had them fax over his transcripts and he turned them all in and got a call back the next day to go and meet with the MA Chief and he was sooooo excited!! So he also has her recommendation and has to take a pee pee test to prove he doesn't do anything bad and then we will find out for sure when he leaves to go to school, we are hoping he goes to San Antionio so he can drive home on the weekends.

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Wow Brooke, you're on a roll....from what I saw today you had 2 topics locked LOL jeeesssh :roll: some people take things so seriously!

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OMG people come on!! Not everyone can be made happy. People complain too much about the smallest things. I just got a PM from someone I have never talked to on here and they are offended by my signature because they are against the war!! Oh friggin well!! I'm not changing it!

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Ugh.......I know a lot of you are sick of hearing this out of me and so I decided to have my own lil whine fest in my journal. A friend of mine went in today for her induction to have her lil boy and a friend of mine goes in tomorrow for her c-section and I just got news from another friend about 10 minutes ago that she is pregnant and due at the beginning of December. I so wish I could be pregnant again, have a lil newborn to cuddle with, to nurse again, to give my other lil ones another sibling. Ugh......and the ONLY reason I can't is because military doesn't get paid enough and we would have to buy a new vehicle!! That is the only reason why!!! Oh well.......someday I will be over it, and why it's really bugging me is because I am fertile VERY fertile RIGHT now!! :cry:

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OMG MEN!!!!!!! They get on my nerves SOOOO damn bad sometimes!!

I put a roast in the slow cooker this morning and we had invited a friend of dh's over for dinner, so my dh was talking to me and said his friend will be on his way over, which was cool, so I was like ok! And then dh said if the roast isn't all the way done they are going to work on dh's tat....he has a tat on his arm of a flame and they wanted to shade it in tonight and I said cool, I can talk to him about my new tat.....I want a patriotic butterfly back piece and dh was like oh ok, we will see if he can help draw it out, and so later this evening I mentioned it to his friend and he asked me how big I wanted it etc etc. and I told him pretty much taking up my entire back and my DH flipped, I told dh in front of his friend that we had been discussing this for awhile now and dh said I thought you wanted a butterfly piece and I said I do, I want the back piece, well....apparantly dh thought a back piece was teeny and then he told me no way,so here I am all pissed off and then dh's friend said he wants to do a lady bug on someone, so I said I will do it, and we were talking about where to put it and his friend suggested my ankle and I said no way, me, wanting to be a lawyer some day I don't want a tat where it would be seen like that with panty hose on. I said what about on one of my toes or on my lower back and dh flipped again and said no. On top of that all he won't let me pierce my labret, or my nipples, he hates my tongue piercing and my belly button and he's not too fond of the tat on my lower back that I got when he went to basic training......he thinks since I am a mommy that I don't need things like this but it's ok for him to get a big ass tat on his arm...I don't mind because I love body mods, but why does he think it's alright for him but not me???
So anyways dh went to take the trash out and dh's friend said he will talk to dh about it and then maybe he would cave and let me get it and I said no, he's an asshole, he won't let me, and he said oh yes he will, you are a lil cutie pie, he will cave, and by then I looked like this :oops:

So anyways, why is it so slow here tonight?

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*SIGH* a lil down today......but I'll be alright. Later after dh gets home I am going to go easter shopping...nothing like waiting last minute, oh well, we have all been sick. And after that I am going to go see the new baby Biggrin

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Well today was pretty quiet here at home. After dh got home I went to Toys R Us to get the kids some stuff for their easter baskets and dh his birthday present and then I went to the hospital to see the new baby, and OMG she's soooo adorable!!! And as I was leaving the hospital I was checking the cell phone and it said there was 2 missed calls, and it was my dh so I called back and he said he didn't fix dinner for the kids and Ethan peed in our bed (he took a nap in their) this kid, if he doesn't potty train soon GRR!! So anyways that was at almost 9 pm, I left the house at 6 and the dishwasher hadn't been emptied either. He was bitching at me that all hell breaks loose when I leave the house, and if I plan on leaving again I WILL be taking a kid with me. I would have taken one, but I couldn't since #1 I had to get easter stuff for the kids and #2 because I was going to the hospital, they don't allow lil kids up their in the OB ward and I wouldn't want to take one up there even if they did allow it, kids carry too many germies to be around a new born baby. I had to go to the ATM and pull money out and go to McDonald's, yeah real friggin healthy at a lil after 9 at night!! What the hell is so hard about getting the kids some spaghettios out of the pantry?!?!? MEN!!!
Well I need to go and catch up on more posts and then get the toys r us bag out of my car, he will kill me if he sees that HUGE damn bag LOL oh well!!

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I need to go clean, I have no motivation, but I did make it to my goal, I haven't cleaned in a week :0) I am proud of myself. When dh gets home I have to go to wal-mart, I didn't make it out there lastnight and then I might drop by the hospital and see my friend and the baby again.
Well....I'm off, gotta get the house cleaned.

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My husband's shitty assed attitude has got to go!!! ARRG!!!!! He's on my last damn nerve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Well after I posted my lasy entry dh walked through the door with roses lol
So I have decided to go on a diet one of the Sept. 01 moms is on, I am going to get healthy stuff at the grocery store tomorrow and lots and lots of bottled water and I am also going to get the Windsor Pilates video and do that once a day. Yup, time to get into shape and lose this flab, maybe I can be as skinny as I was before I had Ethan WAHHHOOOOO that would be fun. Watch me lose weight and then get pregnant again lol that would be my luck.

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Good luck testing Rebecca! Dh and I had 3 slip ups while I was ovulating (he had no idea I was ovulating because he's a guy) and I am due for AF on the 7th ACK!!! So we will see. I don't know ahy he slips up like that if he doesn't want to have another lil one.

So anyways, I am feeling SO lazy today, I have 2 comforters I need to get into the wash and I need to go fix the kids their lunches and gets showers and all that fun stuff, we have to go to the grocery store when dh gets home from work.

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Wow....it's been awhile since I have written in my journal, on the bottom of page 2!

Not too much of anything going on around here.
Dh, the kids, a friend of his and his cousin and I went to Applebee's to eat on saturday because it's was dh's birthday and we ALL got so sick! Elizabeth was the last one that got hit but we all had the pukes and the BIG D saturday night and it hit Elizabeth late late lastnight/early this morning. So that makes 2 places I refuse to eat here ever again.

Rebecca,congrats on the pregnancy, I guess. I don't know what you are feeling or what I should say, but a baby is always a blessing :0) Let me know, you know I am here for you girl! I am still waiting to see what happens here by the 7th. I woke up with a lot of boob pain this morning, but I don't know if that could be PMS or what.

ACK!! Elizabeth is a mess, you should see her. She is eating chocolate covered raisins with her lunch hehe. Yes I am a bad mom, she gets chocolate covered raisins lol
So who wants to come here and finish this laundry? Just when I was almost done Elizabeth took her chocolate covered self to their room and jumped all over Ethan's bed, so I had to throw his comforter in the wash.

Well I'm going to run....catch up on other posts anc change over the laundry AGAIN!

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Well back on page 2 lol....
Anyways, after a crazy day yesterday with a pukey 3 year old today is so nice and quiet and the kids are getting along. It amazes how much an almost 4 year old and a 19 month old can fight!! It's NUTS! Now I know how my parents felt when my sister and I were little, we are 26 months apart and my kids are 27 1/2 months apart.

These avatar/siggy fights are about to get on my nerves, I am so glad people are so mature :roll:
I am done with the Sept. board for awhile again. I get upset everytime I go there I think. It might sound stupid to all of you, but I posted an adorable picture of Elizabeth there and I got 2 comments on it and other people posted pics and got 15 and 17 so whatever :roll: Because of something that happened months ago people still have something against me. But that's ok, I know who my friends are. You won't get the priveledge of seeing pics of my babies again and they will. So done, I tell ya!!
Well I am going to go and catch up on some other posts not at the sept. board and then go iron my clothes, after dh gets home from work today him, the kids and I are going to go out and have some fun.

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WOW!! I haven't written in awhile again. I always come in here and think about it, and then get to lazy.
Not too much has been going on. Just cleaning, my parents are coming down in about 3 weeks so I have been trying to get SOME cleaning done.
On the 4th was mine and dh's 5 year anniversary of being together, 5 years ago we started dating and I totally forgot, so he came home from work sunday night with roses and I asked what those were for and he told me I forgot.
I have a new tattoo picked out so hopefully I will be getting that within the next week. I really want to get it before my parents to come, and if I get it I have to wait for 2 weeks to swim, and when my parents come down they are going to want to swim.
Well I'm going to go, I am busy talking to a navy wife friend of mine in Yahoo mess.

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Well I am so pissed at dh (and d doesn't mean dear). I am wondering what his problem is lately. At one moment he's sweet and at the other he has a problem with common since and ignorance!
For Mother's day I got 6 clay pots, for 3 grandma's and each of the kids gets to make their own for them. Well we ran out of white paint saturday night and dh kept sitting on getting more even tho he was out saturday, sun, and he could have picked some up monday while he was at the NEX on his lunch break but no, that's too damn easy. He did pick up some yesterday after I begged and pleaded him to and he STILL didn't bring home soda or laundry detergent like I had asked him to, he didn't want to do a full run, WTF?!?! So anyways he didn't even spray paint the pots until 10 lastnight....and we still need to get the kids handprints on them with acrylic paint and the pots still need touch ups...GRRR!! This stuff is never going to make it to our moms for Mother's day and that really bothers me!
So yesterday I had an awful day with Ethan, his attitude has got to go, so I made him laydown and take a nap. While he was laying down I jumped into the shower and dh comes home, well when I get out of the shower Ethan is no longer laying down, dh decided to take him to the pool. No why would you take the child to the pool after I had told him what kind of day I had with him and cried on the phone because I was so stressed out?!?
So over these things we ended up fighting lastnight and I was called every word in the book, I was also every word in the book last thursday because we were in wal mart too long, after we had gotten into the car Ethan was kicking the back of the driver's seat and Mike turned around, grabbed his foot and called him a lil fucker!! I was appauled! I was so upset!!
But never would I ever call my husband any kind of name, or my children!!!
I honostly don't know how much more I can take!! Today AF is due and she hasn't gotten here yet, there is a big possibiliy of me being pregnant, or maybe it could be stress......hopefully just stress, I can't be pregnant, dh will kill me, he would just lose it!

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Well when dh got home we went to the grocery store to get a few things and I picked up a pregnancy test and took it tonight and it was negative. So why do my boobs feel and look like they are going to burst and why am I pukey and why have I had a headache for 2 days?!?! AAHHHHH!!!! This makes me crazy! If this is PMS then why do I have it so bad, I have never gone through this at PMS time!!

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AF is still a no show, and dh won't let me test again. He swears I'm not pregnant. My boobs still hurt, my headaches keep coming and going, I have been nauseous since lunch time today. UGH this really sux royally. And it would really be our luck that I am now that we have made that HUGE decision to get my tubes tied. Took lots of talking and tears but it's for the best.
So dh called me today (from work) and asked me what I want for Mother's Day, and I told him I am NOT going to give him ideas again this year, I gave him some last year and I got a whole 3 roses that lasted a whole 4 days. So he got mad but I told him he knows me and knows what kind of things I like, everywhere I go I see something I like, I am TOTALLY into Angels, fairies and butterflies. He did take ds with him tonight and got me something and he slipped and said he got me something at Hallmark, so I hope it's one of those angel figurines that I have been dying to have.
Dh fell asleep on the couch even tho he told me he wouldn't so we could watch a movie, oh well, maybe tomorrow night.

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Jennifer Lopez This Is Me...Then Lyrics
I'm Glad

Verse 1
Baby when I think about (about, about)
The day that we first met (the day that we first met)
Wasn't lookin' for what I found
But I found you
And I'm bound to
Find happiness in bein' around you

Chorus
I'm glad
When I'm makin' love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind
Every.. time
I'm glad
When you walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

Verse 2
I dig the way that you get down (you get down thugged out!)
And you still know how to hold me (and you still know how to hold me)
Perfect blend, masculine (can't get enough now)
I think I'm in love
Damn, finally...

Chorus

Bridge
I'm glad
That you
Turned out to be
That certain someone special
Who makes this life
Worth living
I'm glad
You're here,
Just loving me...
So say that you won't leave
'Cause since the day you came
I' been glad

Chorus

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My Mother's Day was AWESOME!! Dh got me a basket from Bath and Body works with a candle,bottle of lotion,bottle of body spray,bottle of shower gel and a loofah scrubby thing in the scent of Sweet Pea OMG it smells so good, When I opened it Elizabeth saw that body spray and she went nuts, my lil girly girl, so I sprayed a lil teeny bit on one of her wrists and rubbed them together and she was all about it.
Dh also got me a lil bowl that is shaped like a rose and it has a fairy on the side of it (I collect angels and fairies)it's gorgeous, I put all of my dried up roses in there that I had in a crystal bowl on my fireplace. He did so awesome this year, now he says he's going to have to top next year off better than he did this years LOL...so I told him next year I want a pair of diamond studs from Kay Jewelers, I have been dying for a pair from there since I borrowed my sisters at my wedding.
So we didn't do anything but chill here today, we wanted to go swimming but the weather kept fluctuating on us.
I wanted to re paint my toe nails so I grabbed a paper towel and my polish and sat on the living room floor and Elizabeth came running up to me and plopped down and put her feet on the paper towel and said "I pretty piggies to" so I painted hers for her LOL....she was soooooo girly today, normally she's a lil tom boy hanging out with Ethan playing trucks and spiderman LOL....today she was all about being pretty and hanging out with mommy, oh well, it made my day even better!!!
Tomorrow we have a lil playgroup/birthday party to go to, a friend of mine has a lil girl turning 2! I can't believe how big these kiddos are getting, it makes me sooooo sad :0( And after that I have to pick dh up from work and then we have to go to the hospital, I have a doctor's appt. because I am still late and I also need to talk to her about some personal things and also get a referral to see my OBGYN about a consult to get my tubes tied. And after that we have a couple errands we have to run.

Well I'm going to go and see some other posts and then off to bed, gotta get up early!

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Well.....I'm still late. I called to make me an appt. for a blood test but the earliest I could get in is the 28th of this month. Ethan also has his 4 year check up on the 28th, his birthday, poor kiddo :0(

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Still late. I am sick of waiting to see what is going on, so I called to see if someone had cancelled an appt. to see if I could get in to do a blood test and stuff and still no appts. opened up, so now I am waiting on the Lt. who is also a nurse to give me a call back to do a walk in. Yeah great, my friggin luck, watch I am going to be pregnant after dh and I have talked about NO more babies and we are fixin to get my tubes tied, I need to make an appt. now with my OBGYN to get that done now that we have our referral, but I guess we need to see what is going on right now!

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So the Lt. called me back yesterday and told me to go in and have the blood taken, I thought they would do it right there in the office since he told me I could come up after 4:30 (that's when the lab closes) so I got there at 5 and was told I needed to go to the lab, and like I said it closes at 4:30, well can't go in today or tomorrow or saturday, so this is going to have to wait until monday. I hate having one car, I can't wait till my husband gets his fixed!!!! GRR!!! He's so irresponsible, I swear, he was supposed to ask a friend to pick him up on his way to work and he "forgot" to ask him, WHATEVER :roll:
So on my way home from the base I stopped at walgreens and picked up a 2 pack of first response (I have seen the TTC boards talk about how good this test is) and I took one lastnight and one this morning and both BFN! And in a way it kind of depressed me.

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Well......AF came this afternoon. In a way I was depressed but relieved at the same time. I got second thoughts about getting my tubes tied, I cancelled my OBGYN appt. and told dh about it and he is pissed off to say the least. He asked why I did it and then he got an ear full.

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I'm here, not in much of a posty mood. Kinda down in the dumps. Hopefully the weather will be nice tomorrow so I can take the kids down to the pool while dh works and then he can join us when he gets home after the Beach to Bay run :roll:

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So dh calls me this morning telling me that they want us to pick orders and here is our choices!

Rota,Spain
Cuba
Naples, Italy
Gaeta, Italy
Iceland
Sasebo, Japan

Or a one year unaccompanied in:
Baharain
Diego Garcia

I'm really *beep* about this because they told dh BEFORE he went MA that we would be able to go anywhere stateside. Now that he is officially an MA, although he hasn't gone through MA school yet, they want us to pick our orders first! And they told him today since he is on shore duty now he has to go sea duty and there aren't any ships available stateside for him so if he goes overseas he can still come home at night like he does now.
I want an one year unaccompanied and he doesn't. We have A LOT of talking to do but I am soooo upset!

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Bumping my journal up.

My parents and lil sister (11) called me lastnight to let me know that they will be here Wed. instead of Friday, my dad got cut at work and so he gets to take his vacation a couple days early Biggrin I am very excited, I have a MILLION and 1 things to do before they get here and it's getting overwhelming and dh is not helping, I went to wal mart at 7 tonight and we still had no dinner, dh HAD to have cooked something so I got home a lil before 9 and COOKED just for him, it took me forever because wal mart was PACKED full of idiots!! So I had a load of darks that needed to go in the dryer after the whites were all done and then 2 loads of towels, I get home and the laundry wasn't touched and he had JUST started the dishwasher :roll: I spent my day from 8:30 till 7 when I left doing laundry, cleaning here and there and I spent 3 hours steamcleaning my damn off white couch that the kids seemed to have TRASHED.
Tomorrow I have to get up early and steam clean the carpets, take Ethan to the doctor at 3 for his 4 year check up and get a hair cut on my way home and do dinner and then pick stuff up and hang laundry that dh just threw over the hamper because he was lazy and then clean on top of the cabinets where I have all my baskets in the kitchen and wipe out cabinets and pull out the stove and fridge and clean under them because it's nasty. And then on Wed. I have to get up super early and clean like a freak as far as scrubbing the bathrooms, and dusting and cleaning the ceiling fans. I like cleaning RIGHT before people come, especially my parents or step MIL and FIL because their houses are imaculant!!

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Well, my family is in town, so you won't be seeing too much of me unless, like tonight I have a chance to sneak on while everyone is asleep.

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You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh i realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But i see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And thats why i love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a Rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When i last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know i'll be there

And i see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And thats why i love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a Rainbow

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SOME PEOPLE :roll: Now get off my @$$ already!

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I can't take ANYMORE!! I am SO done, grr!! Can we say pissed?!?! :cry:

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Wow.......I haven't written in awhile.

I am taking a bit of a break from the boards...I have been lurking here and there because this place is sooooo addicting!!!!!!

Well...the problems I am having are

Dh-
We are moving out of here very soon, we have our packout on the 26th of Aug. and then we will be driving back to St.Louis to stay with my parents while dh is in school in Virginia for 2 months and then when he gets back at the end of Oct. he gets a 30 day leave period and then at the end of Nov. we will be leaving for Iceland for 3 years. And I DON'T want to go. And on top of that my dh is hateful than ever and he's wanting to keep me under his thumb I guess. We ony have 1 car right now and I'm not allowed to use it unless it's completely necessary...he wants to go everywhere with me. I feel like I have no time to myself, you know, during the day I have kids screaming and hollaring and crawling all over me and in the evening I have dh added to the chaos and we have neighbors under us with their music up so loud that our floor vibrates but they turn that down at 10 (when quiet hours start) noone can do anything about their music because before 10 o clock isn't quiet hours. We have the teeny boppers upstairs that make noise all hours of the night, stomping around etc. and then in the night and early in the mornings cars are out there honking constantly. I just never have ANY quiet time. I am losing it!

We got our paperwork yesterday and found out that he didn't read it all like he should have and found out that our car will not be shipped there and he was too damn lazy to call today and find out why and the PSD idiots won't talk to me.
Dh and I have been fighting A LOT here lately and he feels the need to sit and cuss me, ds and dd out. We NEED to get on the same page before we leave here because I have downright refused to leave under these conditions and I got that attitude that I was taking his babies away. I don't want to leave him, I can't imagine my life without him, to even think like that makes me ill UGH :cry: . I just wish he would treat me like gold like he used to, I used to be his one and only. I think a lot of his attitude has to do with work, they are really screwing him over because he's a Petty Officer 3rd class.
I also want to be pregnant again, I have had this feeling for about 6 months now. It has me an emotional wreck. Friends here and friends back at home are either pregnant, getting ready to give birth or have newborns. I love all of my friends to death so it's nothing against them, but it hurts me so bad that dh doesn't want another one. We went from yeah in 3 years when he's out of the Navy we could have another to no more babies at all.

I was crushed about not getting any calls from dh's parents and my mom and stepdad the other day when the "hurricane" hit. My sister called me yesterday and she said she thought about us when she was sitting in the airport waiting for her flight, they were watching the news on one of the airport tv's (her and her fiancee flew to my moms down in Fla.) and she said she was going to call and just didn't feel like it. And she said she and my mom thought about me the night before last and so I asked why they didn't call and she said they were busy eating and shopping (they BOTH have cell phones), so then I asked if I could talk to my mom and she said mom doesn't want to talk to you, she's busy.
My mom and I have had a CRAPPY relationship and it just crushes me that she's so much closer to my little sister who has been trouble from the beginning with attitude, drugs, in the last 9 months she's been engaged 3 times to 3 different men all 28 years old and older and she's 19.

I'm STILL having problems with my mouth, I can hardly eat because the pain is awful!
AF is here :cry: nuff said!

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Our move is getting close!!!!! WoooooHooooo. Can't wait to get out of Corpus!! There is only one person I will miss, and that's my DENISE!!! I love you girly!! And don't go crying ok?!? LOLOL

Today was nuts with the kids. They just don't listen. I expect that from Elizabeth but not Ethan. Grrr!!
We didn't eat dinner until late and after we ate I gave Elizabeth her bath and dh cleaned the kitchen and took out the trash Biggrin what a guy!! My kitchen was TRASHED,I am such a messy cooker!

I talked to Dawn tonight and I am so glad her and the kids are ok after that accident. Her poor lil car Sad Dawn, you are awesome girly! We need to chat more often!!

I am getting my new tattoo on Thurday evening, dh's friend is going to do it for me and I am cooking a roast for him Biggrin My tat is going to be a celtic heart and it stands for a mothers love and protectiveness of her children. I am so excited and I will definately post a pic of it.

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Wild Child Lyrics
Enya
A Day Without Rain

Wild Child

Ever close your eyes
Ever stop and listen
Ever feel alive
And you've nothing missing
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on

Let the rain fall down
Everywhere around you
Give into it now
Let the day surround you
You don't need a reason
Let the rain go on and on

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

Only take the time
From the helter skelter
Every day you find
Everything's in kilter
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on

Every summer sun
Every winter evening
Every spring to come
Every autumn leaving
You don't need a reason
Let it all go on and on

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to

Da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da-da

What a way, what a way to make it through

Da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da-da

What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

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No Goodbyes
for love brightens their eyes.
Don't say Adios, say Adios,
and do you know why
there's a love that won't die?
don't say Adios, say Adios, Goodbye.

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A friend of dh's did this tonight Biggrin


This one is kind of fuzzy, but it shows SOME of the detail.

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"Sweetest Sin"

Can you imagine us,
Making love..
The way you would feel the first time that we touched,
Can you think of it..
The way I dream of it,
I want you to see like im seeing you..
It's a picture of perfection,
The vision of you and me..

Your lips apon my lips,
Can you just picture this..
Your finger tips on my finger tips,
Your skin apon my skin..
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
Would be the Sweetest Sin..

All night I lie awake,
Cause it's to much to take..
Dreamin' about the love that we could make..All day,
I think of scenes..
To get you next to me,
I want you so bad that I can barely breathe..
It's a sign of my obbsession,
That I can't stop thinkin bout'

Your lips apon my lips,
Can you invision this..
Temptation that I could never resist,
Your skin apon my skin..
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
That would be the Sweetest Sin..

It would feel so good,
To be so bad..
You don't know how bad.. I want that,
I would do anything to feel your love..

Your lips apon my lips,
Can you just picture this..
Your finger tips on my finger tips,
Your skin apon my skin..
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
That Would be the Sweetest Sin..

Your lips apon my lips,
Can you invision this..
Temptation that I could never resist,
Your skin apon my skin..
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
Would be the Sweetest Sin..

Your lips apon my lips.. would be the Sweetest Sin

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A whiney post...........sorry guys!

Well next Tuesday our packers come and on Wednesday our movers come to pick up all of our boxes and furniture for our big move. I am scared to death, I am afraid things are going to get broken,lost or stolen!
We will be staying in a hotel until the 1st when we leave early in the am to drive home, we will stop in Oklahoma for the night and we should be home in the late afternoon on the 2nd, hopefully the kids do good on the drive, they are wonderful in the car, so I'm things will be ok. Mike leaves us on Sept. 13 (the day before Elizabeth's birthday) to go to school in virginia, and if all goes well he will graduate on Oct. 27th and then drive back to Illinois. We get on our flight for Iceland on the 23rd of November.
I'm scared, I don't want to go, everything ISN'T alright here. Something needs to happen. I know this might sound silly, but I was watching a Jessica Simpson,Nick Lachey video on MTV and he's so gentle and romantic with her, makes her feel special and needed. I realized by watching that, that I don't have any of that, I haven't for a long time. My husband and I have had problems since I was pregnant with Elizabeth. He cusses me out alot, he's not patient with the kids or myself, I can never do anything right. I sometimes regret having my babies and getting married SO young. I have thought about packing up and leaving, but my kids need their daddy also, I am scared of where would I live, how would I make ends meet, etc. My girls want me to come out clubbin when we go back home, and I want to have fun, but I'm afraid I'm going to have too much fun and do something stupid, self control, I know, I just have these feelings of wanting to see other people and seeeing what's out there.
I dunno, I just needed to get that out!!

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Hello all, as you know we are getting ready for a big move to Iceland, we are going to stay with family from the end of this week until the end of November, and we are getting rid of all of our sbcglobal accounts. My new email address is [email]Ethanandlizzyzmommy@hotmail.com[/email]

We will have our laptop with us and my parents also have cable internet so I will be able to pop in every now and then.

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WOW :shock: It's been a LONG time since I have written in my journal. A lot has happened since my last entry.
I have since gotten divorced, engaged, pregnant and bought a house LOL