First off....COMMENTS WELCOME on this journal. Feel free to jump in if you actually see something that makes you want to comment (or smack me upside the head....however the spirit moves you. :rolleyes: )
I thought for awhile about where to put this journal. I'm definitely in the TTC category, but I don't ultimately know where I will end up (with TTC or my random ramblings) so I figured I'd put it here where I can talk about anything my strange little mind conjures up. I do tend to ramble on (and on, and on.....)
A little background: I'm Jean, age 40. DH is Bill, age 48. We met about 3 1/2 years ago on eHarmony (yes, we're one of those sappy commercials ) and married in June 2010. First marriage for both of us...I do wish we had met a few years sooner. We worked very hard before we got married to avoid getting pregnant. Really wasn't a whole lot of fun, but I'm a teacher and I just didn't feel right setting that example for my students. Call me old fashioned if you like. We end up with enough pg teens in our district as it is. Turns out we probably could have boffed like bunnies all that time without a care in the world. Who knew?
As of right now, we're on cycle #14. By Friday it'll be #15. In the meantime, we had at least 2 chemical pregnancies this past spring, possibly more before that as I wasn't testing as early when we started this. We're up to the RE stage. At the moment we've found that my hormone levels are awesome for a 40 year old (doesn't guarantee that they are GOOD eggs, but it certainly ups the odds that we might come across a few good ones) DH's swimmers are good (he just loves telling me how "virile" he is now that we know that! He doesn't quite get how I might find it slightly less amusing that the problem is on my end. But, I love him so I'll forgive him for being a little insensitive...and relieved for himself, I'm sure.) I have a possible clotting issue, but it was a borderline test result so it might be a problem and might not. We also found that I'm not immune to Rubella anymore. (Not surprising...I'm kind of OLD! It's been a long time since that vaccination. ) So, I have to get immunized and wait a month to start our next step...IUI.
I'm in a holding pattern now. That's really why I'm starting this journal. Waiting and avoiding just might drive me over the edge. Or maybe a month off will be just what I need to not stress about it. I still think I might get a little crazy...I have to chart in order to prevent, so I'll be very aware of everything. But, maybe I'll indulge in adult beverages and some coffee (oh how I miss my morning cuppa!) for the next few weeks. Regardless, I figure this journal help me blow off a little steam now and then.
I also need to get healthier. I'd like to say I'm fluffy, but the honest truth is I'm FAT! I know it's not healthy, and I know it's....at the very least.... not helping. After all the blood work I just had I know I'm not pre-diabetic, my BP is good, my cholesterol and other blood factors are all good. I should do something now instead of waiting for those things to change. And maybe, just maybe, it'll help me get pg, too. So, I'm committing to it.