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Heather's Journal

lol. I have that song in my head right now for like the 5th day in a row. So...This is my journal just to talk about life in general...Ill try and post once a day...I always have stuff going on so it should be easy. lol Well...today I got up and took Ryan to the babysitters which is always so much fun! (right! :roll: ) He was really cranky because he hates being woken up. Then I went to work (I work at Wells Fargo Bank) and found out that all the ladies were going to the bar tonight. I told them I would come with them but I wouldnt be drinking because I am pregnant. It was actually pretty fun. I went around 6:00pm and left at 7:15 pm. So my parents picked me up and we dropped my mom off at home and went to Wal-Mart. I bought my sister a straightner for her hair. $16.00. It works pretty well actually. She wants to get up tomorrow morning and do it so I will probably have to get up around 5:00 am in order to do that for her, take a shower, get Ryan around, and leave for work on time. Fun, fun! I visited my sisters band practice today also...I was in band throughout middle school and high school. It was nice to visit. They are doing the Pirates of the Caribbean show. It is AWESOME so far. Im excited to see it once they get it all together. Oh my goodness..I have been going in to Gerber's grocery store like every day this week to see this guy who works there. He is one of my old friends from high shcool and I love to visit him. Everyone there knows me now because I go in there all the time. lol. too funny. Anyway. My son Ryan is doing much better on talking now. Today I managed to get him to say beads, Misty, pa paw, no no no, drink, and cheese. Nothing is really clear yet but I can understand him. I hope he starts talking before he is 2. He hasnt mastered a single word yet...not even mama or dada...I thought he did once but I guess it was just luck. Anyway. I have rambled enough now. Smile

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I could die...My kitten was outside today like I told my parents not to let her be...and someone f***ing ran over her...Im so pissed and just god damn depressed...she was like my freaking baby... :cry: :cry: :cry: I hate this place...

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We buried Maggie today. Sad It was sad...I got two new games...Mall Tycoon and School Tycoon. School Tycoon is awesome but I dont know about Mall Tycoon. I went to Swiss Days also. It was ok...I got a massage and that was cool. That is about all I have done today.

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Im frustrated with everyone and everything around me...I hate this place and I hate myself. Everything makes me think of Jon and his stupid little "family" and I hate him...No...I love him but I want to hate him so bad. I wish I didnt miss him...Sometimes I wish I would have never met him and I wish he would just leave my life entirely. Im so sick of feeling sad and having no one to talk to about it... *sigh* maybe someday things will be better...here is my song of the day...

PATIENCE-GNR

(1..2...1,2,3,4)
Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but baby the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this ti- me....

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I dont know what is wrong with me but I am just so damn depressed anymore...it seems like everyday I wake up and everything is worse...I dont feel welcome anywhere anymore...it just sucks and I hope it goes away soon...

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I wish someone could just tell me when everything will get better...so I could crawl in bed and wait for the day to come...I wish I could just cheer up for Ryan's sake but I just cant anymore...I miss the way things were when I had someone to love and who loved me back...now Im not even sure if that was real so that just makes life worse. I called in work today because I feel so sad...I took Ryan out...just the two of us and it cheered me up for a little bit..Ill just stop rambling about it now... :cry: