Thread: How can I make this decision?

AF showed up last night, a few days early. Yes, I feel disapointed.

So I guess this makes today cd2?

CD8. AF is FINALLY gone...'Bout time that **tch hit the road!

I've been keeping my blog updated, but I've neglected this journal!

My bbs have been sore and tingly all week. Sore is not unusual, other than it's normally only for a day or two. However, tingly is unusual. The bra feels a tad tighter today, but it is freshly-washed so maybe I haven't stretched it yet, lol! Hmmmm.....

I remember this part from when trying to conceive DD...the dreaded wait for either af or bfp. I have over-analyzed every little pain and tingle I feel, convinced it's a sign that I'm pregnant. Geez, I need to relax.

I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant. No BFN yet, but it's still a little early.

I guess my decision is made, huh?

I started my period last night at 10 pm.

I called in to work today. I am devastated. I cannot stop crying. WHY????? I didn't even want to do this a couple months ago!!!! What the hell is wrong with me??? I was soooooo sure. Turns out, it was just the worse PMS I have ever experienced.

I can't do this. I can't.

Here we go again. I'm pretty sure I o'd either yesterday or the day before, so now I'm in the famous 2ww. DH was very concerned that I would be as upset this time if we don't get pg. I explained to him that the reason I was so devastated is because I was so sure. I had never experienced pms to that extent before so I was convinced I was pg. What I didn't think about is that I've been on the pill for the last 7 years, so I've pretty much had no pms at all. This time around, I'll be a little wiser and a little less likely to jump the gun.

We've decided to try for six months, this being month 2. I still wonder if we are doing the right thing.

9DPO according to fertilityfriend.com. It was at this point in my last cycle (day 25) when AF showed. I've been crampy and my bbs hurt. I expect her any time now, but my temp was still up this morning.

Do ya think I should move this journal to TTC? Or am I still in denial?

10DPO and a BFP. I posted a pic on my blog.

Guess I'll have to skip the drinks on New Year's Eve, huh?