Here I am on Cd 22, I am feeling much better than what I have been in recent times, but soon as I started feeling good again I got the beloved yeast infection/thrush. I am so annoyed by it. But today the tip of the iceburg hit!!
Oh well if Dh gets it, he will just get a good does of canasten along side of me.
First things first. We DTD both Thrsday and friday nights so hopefully we caught that eggy. DH did not seem to get the itches so it is probably safe to say I was over the worst of it. It seems to be gone now on me. I seem to also be having an incrediable flare in my back hips and thighs. It is making me very tired as well, but I am not giving into it.
Last night we had our first session with our new Fertility Care Dr. It was a definately intresting information session. They also chart very differently. So it is going to be hard to get into the swing of it all. I have also been ordered a progestrone level every other day until the end of the cycle, inwhich he is also doing a HCG by the 11 DPO. This is going to be very intresting to see what happens to my progestrone levels over the course of my LP. We also have a cycle of no gential intercourse if I do not fall pregnant. This is so that we/I can get the hang of doing the charting and they can assess my natural cycle much clearer. (like what my mucus really does with out sprem interferring with the readings) I am ok with this as we have been down the road of abstance before. I am sure we can do this much easier now. DH also made the comment that he got a lot of information out of it. We also have a booklet to read. It has some great information about the importance of making love with out having intercourse. It also stresses that not sexaul love should be achieved often and that is can be just as satifactory as having intercourse.
I do have to say this, this method of family planning takes a lot of faith and communication between the husband and wife. It seems definately a marriage building method as it requires love and trust between each other. We both walked out thinking we wish we had started this as part of our pre marital councelling. Instead of the uncomfortable situation we were put in. (We were not told we did not have to do a councelling sessions, but ended up having several of them when we went into to go over and plan our ceronmony.) The minister asked some very personal questions that made both DH & I feel uncomfortable. It was rather shocking to us both and I am a very open minded person.
Getting through the information booklet is tough work. I am going to try and get a copy of it put on to Audio CD so that DH can listen to it as he is finding the book hard to read. In the mean time I will continue to read to him each night before we sleep. I am not a great out lod reader. I think I spent way to long sitting quietly enjoying books. I also get a studder up some times. I think some times it has to do with the mild dislexia I have. Opps there you are I let out one big secret there.
I have slowly been getting the hang of this new way of charting and observing my mucus. And even remembering to do it each time. Althogh the one thing I have to work on is the pre shower check & bedtime routine. I went shopping last night and pt on laybuy and heap of cotton knickers. Most of my older cotton knickers are too big for me now that I have lost 16kgs. I also brought cotton body shapers (gotta love Bonds undies ) As part of the rules is not synthetic knickers and I am not quiet ready to part with my stepping's just yet. (Big secret number 2 out of the bag, I have been wearing them since I was in my late teens.)
I also found my self a really nice Black Dress. But the biggest kick, it is 2 sizes smaller than I would have normally worn and it still I have to have it taken in at the boobs. Not very surprised there, after all I am only a B-C cup and I was shopping in a plus sized store!!
Well I know I have not written in here for a few days. But I have been trying not to obess to much, Yeah Right. I have been having blood tests every other day, which has been fine. Today's involved a HCG Beta. So am I getting nervous about the results, of course, I am I letting it control my thoughts, I am certainly trying for it not too. I mean as if looking at my chart a billion times aday is going to change it's otcome. I am going to keep temping until I either get a BFP or AF arrives to annoy the me for easter. I guess I am going to have to stock up on supplies before easter gets here.
Speaking of Easter, we are going to DH parents as per normal. It is Angela's Birthday on good Friday. I will have to just give her a call. I might drop a card into her letter box on Thursday Morning on my way to get the car serviced.
I am missing bowling on a Tuesday Morning but today I went for a walk to have my blood test & get a few things from the shops. I have also done a heap of washing, folding and putting things away. I am on my way to being a better house wife, one day at a time.
Well we are now on a cycle of abstinace. This is going to be hard but I think we will survive. I am finding it hard that we will not have our 2007 baby, but we will get a baby by 2008 (It goes with family lines of a baby being born every two years). That would make my sister happy at least seeing she started the trend.
Easter was good, DH & I went for a walk every day, I think I have worked it out to be about 10 - 12 km's each day. Plus lots of chasing and playing with Millie in the back yard as well as feeding the chooks. We also went to the local Catholic church for good friday and the easter vigial on saturday night. It felt right to be there. Even though I could not do comunion it was still a good feeling afterwards. We did this as a family and DH & talked about converting me to Catholic. But I am not too sure about it yet.
I seem to have a heat/thrush rash in my groin. Ouchies it hurts. I am hoping now that I am home I can get the right cream up to it and it will start to get better. Well one can hope.
I am now starting to get confsed about the special charting rules for mense at the moment. I am noticing some stretch but I am not too sure about it. I guess the good thing is I have finally stopped passing largish clots. I have been quiet happy about how I have behaved this cycle. I have had no major blow ups, but once again I have notice DH has been cranky and grumpy though. Is it possible that our husbands suffer PMS as well.
Well I think I am finally getting the hang of this new charting. I have been forgetting some of the rules, but I have to start making a better mentle note of them. I was thinking of typing up the rules so that I could put it in the bathroom so that I will remember them all. I am glad though we are doing this.
Ok for my day yesterday, well three interviews in one day!! 2 face to face and 1 phone interview. I really want the last one I interviewed for. And it was a very unexpected interview, but it is excatly what I have been looking for!! It is only a temperary assignment, but that could be fantastic. It would be even better pay. I think I would be able to do the things that I have been missing like having my hair and nails done, buying nice clothes and being able to have dinner out with DH that is not fast food!! We have a couple of favourite restruants that are in our local area now so it would be fantastic to be able to go to dinner again. I also would be able to catch the train to and from work, so that is even a bigger bonus. (we are not far from a trainstation & I beleive parking in that area is very limited) It's even bigger bonus is that it is a department that deals with Disabilities, so I do not think having an employee with a Disability is going to be a big deal to them. So far it has ticks in all the right boxes But I am still waiting for the phone call. So cross fingers.
Hmmm it has been a few days. I am not even counting my cycle days anymore. I have been so distracted by my week. I have managed to get my self some Temping work. My first assignment is with a goverment department and is full time hours. A bit crazy of me to return to work doing full time hours but these first few won't be too bad as there are some public holidays in the first few weeks.
It is our Wedding anniversary today, it is a bit strange to be going through a period of abstinance even though it is our aniversary. DH is sick anyway and has been home from work for the last two days as he has been feeling unwell, fatiuged and drained. I took him to see Dr Sweetie. He seems to think he has a virus. Oh goodie another bug for me to catch when I least can afford too. Grrr...
My Temp job only lasted the week. Still not to sure why, so I am back looking for a job. Grrrr...
But we have had a "slip up" so much so for abstaining for a whole cycle. I was so strssed and angry as was DH on Friday night. By the time I went to bed my head was so tensed up I could barely raise my eyebrows. So we started just mucking around and it just did not stop and neither of us wanted it to stop! It was definately magical though. I know I have said it before and I will keep saying it. Making love as aposed to Baby Dancing is much more deeper and profound. I think this method encourages love making as aposed to just having intercourse becuase you are ovulating. I think I would like to start taking a step back and stop trying to force nature. This way we will be happy and if I fall pregnant well it happens, if I don't I will just keep moving on with life. I think this is where I want to be right now. Whilst it is fun to be actively trying it is way too stressful. I like making love and enjoying my husbands company. I hate going I know your not in the mood and neither am I but we have to BD becuase the OPK said so. It definately takes the romance and strong bond out of the bedroom, where it really belongs.
Well things seem to be looking up again. I am getting used to being at home all day. I am trying really hard not to let things get the better of me.
My exciting news of the week was that I got given a sewing machine. All I have to do is have it serviced. No biggy given that it is a very old machine. It also came with a propper sewing centre cabinate. I have already gone and gotten some fabric and a pattern so that I can start making some skirts and blouses. Hopefully this will help out in a big way. As I have trouble finding clothes to fit, as they are often tight in some areas and too big in others. I will be able to adjust the pattern or even use strechy fabrics in those areas, like sleeves for my BIG arms and elastic wiasts so that my skirts and trouses fit me in the wiast not just over the hips as I have a narrow waist in my back.