Stil not feeling great, but I am much much better than I was last week. So I am not going to bother going back to the Dr just yet. I think really it just has to run it's course.
I start the clomid tonight along with the predisone. But to combat any side effects I am exercising every day and some times twice aday. I am walking and doing streches( an hours worth most days). I have a walking partner as well.
I will see how this has changed my weight loss each week. I am starting to see the difference in the mirror as well. I just have to get DH to take another pic. (sorry it will not be displayed in here) I might wait until the week I reach my 10% goal. i am wondering if I than set another 10% goal aftr that, i think that may be the best way to go in the long run. I really want to work on shifting all of this horrid weight, hopefully it will go a long way to getting me pregnant.
For some reason it has been a tough day all ready. I have had several outbreaks of tears. It started after my nan called.
She rang to ask me to keep an eye on my pop while she goes on a short holiday to fiji. Than at the end of the phone call she is like BTW your cousin is pregnant and due in March. To be honest like I give a crap. (I am not at all close to my cousin & to be honest I have not even met her husband.) I just can't beleive that my grandmother knowing what I have been through and what I am going through could be so heartless, Oh well that is my family. Yet what amazes me is that I am just expected to drop everything and look after pop.
Did I ever mention in the past that I hate clomid, but becuase it is the only thing that allows me to even get close to ovulating, i continue to take it. i have had the usual hot flushes and headaches as well as fatique. I am finding it hard to get up in the morning and I am easily sleeping 10hrs each night. I really need to get out of that habbit.
i checked my Diary earlier, it seems I have a busy couple of weeks ahead of me. Really I so do not need this right now. But some of it involves working so I should be happy about it.
I know I have said before but I really hate my body. FF is telling me that I have ovulated. And I know that I have not, well I am about 80% certain I have not. But if I did ovulate on Thursday than it makes sense. just from what follicle I am not sure, no one could find it on the scans. but that means sweet FA when you have two small cysts that are covering the vast majority of the ovary. What crakes me up is that they say the ovary is normal in appearance. how is two cysts looking like bug eyes normal?? I have been having a large amount of Right sided pain, but what else is new. I am so not voting for another morphine injection with out being in hospital. That was very crazy.
Just when I thought i knew my body, it goes and proves me wrong. It seems I may have double ovulated off my right ovary. Yes that is right I was very wrong and FF may have been right ....... the only thing we have to watch is the free fluid in the pouch of douglas. (this is the pocket between the uterus and rectum.) So I will have the scan on wednesday and a blood test next week. I will also start progesterone when I get to the Fertility Care Peak +4 day. I will use them until peak +12. So it is all very exciting. And the BDing was pretty much textbook infertility schedule. (abstain until peak mucas than every other day.) So I will be testing on Fathers day. DH will be away until midday so I will be home and heading up there. If I get a positive in the morning I will buy a winter wonder suit and surprise him.
Well the free fluid is gone!! I don't have a UTI & I have a nice corpus luteium or two. So all in all my ultrosound went well. So I am offically in the two week wait. I start the progesterone tonight. Some may see this as a little late becuase of my chart. but it is becuase I still believe that saturday was O day and not Friday. Also becuase of how Napro does it's charting. I had to wait until the fourth day past peak type mucus. It can get very confusing. I will have my 7day past peak progesterone and oestrogen blood test. I have so much hope this cycle. I know that I gave my body the best chance of ovulation, and it did not let me down! So I not let my self down and stay positive and hopefull about this cyle!
Still hanging in there. Nuasea and tiredness is kicking my butt at the moment.
I have been kept majourly busy by work, which is fantastic. I just wish I would not be nausously hungry all day. And extremly tired all the time. Yet i can't help but watch my normal TV programes. I am currantly watching house. it sucks me in every single week & now they tell me it is the season faneilly.
For all my chart stalkers, I tested today and it was negative. very disappointed right now, but I am willing to move forward. I am not taking clomid next cycle. I really want to have this surgery and give my self a better chance of natural ovulation with out the cysts. seriously this is getting to painful, both mentally and physically.
not to sure how many of you follow my story or stalk my chart. But many of thoose who have been mods for a while know that TTC has not come very easy to John and I. Currantly I am awaiting an appointment on Wednesday next week to disscuss surgery (ovarian drilling). Becuase I want this done asap we are taking a sanity break this cycle. I will temp each morning as this helps me keep track of where I am at in my cycle. So chart stalking will still be happening. The sanity break also includes taking time out from the boards for aleast the next week or two. I will try and put updates in my journal as they occur. So if you are intrested you can keep tabs on me this way. If you already have my email or IM details feel free to contact me. I have been able to recieve PM's so I also can be contacted that way as well. I am sure to miss you all, I hope to be back soon a very refreshed woman with renewed hope and strength to get me to the baby that John and I have been longing for.