Thread: I need a drink!

I cannot believe how busy we got and we just brought in a temp and now I have LESS time than what I did before. WTF is up with that? I can't get caught up on here to save my life.

ERRR, I had a whole post wrote out and I closed the damn window. Anyways.

I relized last night that I have NO life. Micky has the fire department, golf, softball and whatever else he does when I am not around. You kow what I have? NOTHING. I know I have a baby and all but come on. A dance class here and there or a few tanning sessions wouldn't hurt him. He informs me last night that he has a softball torn. in August with the fire department so he is going to be gone a few nights a week to practice. You know what the practice consists of? BEER! They get drunk and run around like wholligans. As if he is never home now. He then asks if I am going to come down Saturday and Sunday with the baby. ARE YOU NUTS? Do you have any idea how hot it will be for Lexi? Is there anyplace I can warm up bottles? NO! I won't be there. So I told him that I already had plans. Then he got pissed off as if it is forbidden for me to leave the house. Bull-Dingy! I don't think so! I think I will call Angel to see if she wants to do something that weekend and see if my mom will watch her.

CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!

Lexi is doing so well. Except for the spitting. She even ate all of the cereal that I made for her last night and she is starting to relize what to do with a spoon. I am so proud!

Micky's NO HELP AT ALL! I am not even asking anymore. It is more peaceful that way. He did volunteer to pick her up tonight from Deenas since we need to clean out my Jeep so I can trade it in tomorrow.

All he did last night was sleep. Oh Well. I am not going to complain about it anymore all it does is stress me out. BLAH!

I was watching Cupid the other night and had to turn it off. WHAT A BUNCH OF BIATCHES. No wonder she is still single, her friends scare away the men. Esecially the blonde, whats her name? Laura? The hairdresser. I wanted to come through that TV so bad that night and punch her in the face. I won't be watching that show anymore. I am hooked on Big Brother though. That is funny as hell.

UUGGHH, I feel like a damn pig! I have had about 4 Reese's today. Plus a million Goldfish and Blackend Chicken for lunch. At leat I drank water and no soda. Now my stomach is doing flips, I can feel it. This is not going to be pretty.....LOL! Sorry TMI!

Tonight is the start of the State Fair and Micky isn't too thrilled with it anymore. I, on the otherhand, love the fair. It might be the same every year with the headless woman, the largest alligator and the smallest pony but I have been going to the same fair since I was a year old. That is over 20 years. You can't just not go. I think I have him convinced to go tomorrow night. I would go tonight but it is free night and everyone and their mother will be there and I HATE crowds. I am so claustrphobic. (I know I butchered that word)

Guess what? I WENT OUT LAST NIGHT! With no baby or DH. And guess where I went? THE FAIR! YAYAYYAYAY! I didn't have the best of time, I went with SIL but that is a long story and I don't have the time to jot it all down. But who cares? I WENT OUT LAST NIGHT! I couldn't belive that Micky didn't throw a fit. I told him no several times cuz' I thought he was testing me so finally I said, "Screw it! I am going." I got back around midnight. Wanted to be in later but Oh Well.

Trading my Jeep in today! I am going to get screwed I know it!

Have you ever felt so exhausted that you feel like you are drunk and you could sleep forever? That is how I am feeling right now. It might also be b/c I haven't eaten anything really except a few goldfishes and a Reese Cup. I think I am going to get a Tuna Fish sandwich for lunch. I am starved. I could lay my head down on this desk and sleep till 3!

Gotta a baby shower to go to on Sunday. I am excited. Andrea is due in August. I can't wait to show Lexi off either.......hehehehe.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Vanessa, if you read this, STAY STRONG and don't give in to him. Try to move on with your life. You deserve better than that. but I know it is easier said than done!

No time for my journal today! Too busy reading everyone else's.......LOL!

My weekend was uneventful anyways except for the fact that I ran all over hell and creation.

No trading in car either. I knew I would have gotten screwed. Looks like it is going back into the shop. I have an appointment with my lawyer about this next Monday anyway!

Where is the screaming, pulling out my hair emoticon (sp?) I really need that one! Why can't I ever have an easy-going day? Is that too much to ask? Don't I deserve it once in awhile? I feel like a baby! I am going to pout now.

SLOWER DELAWARE TURD HEARSE! That is what I followed all way to work this morning just about! I about died when I read that. I also saw one that said "We're #1 in the #2 business! HAHAHHA!

Not much negative to report today. Surprise Surprise! Took Lexi to the Fair last night with my mom. Micky was supposed to go but he was stuck at work since we had a freak thunderstorm come through and knocked down the 911 center dispatch center. That was crazy. They had to call the fire companies directly. Then lightning hit the fire house and did something to the building. Poor boy, he worked at 37 hours straight! He was tired. Lexi was wonderful. We had her pictures done on a I love Mommy and Daddy wall hanging and Mom did the same thing but with Grandma and also put in on a shirt! It was cute. She did really well though considering how hot she was. Towards the end she got fussy cuz' it was after her bedtime and she didn't have the warm bottle that she was used to. I did have a hard time getting her to sleep. She finally koncked out at 12am. I let her sleep on her tummy since that was the only she was comfortable. I did move her several times but then she would start to cry. I didn't sleep well b/c of it. I kept getting up to check on her. She was fine. Back to our normal routine tonight.

I was listening to Ben and Brain in the morning this morning and they had Russell Johnson on the show. You know, the professor from Gilligans Island. He seems so nice. I could tell who he was right away without knowing his name. That voice is so distinctive.

On a downer, I have a lump in my ear in the area where you would get your ears pierced up up a little more. It keeps growing then shrinking. I guess I need to head to the doctor. Something else to worry about. It never ends does it?

I LOVE MY DAUGHTER AND HUSBAND!

Had a horrible night. I am feeling alot of resentment right now towards Micky. There is something going on in our lives that I do not wish to discuss on here. It has nothing to do with him being unfaithful. He never has been and I know he never will. Has nothing to do with that. Not sure how to cope with this. Zoloft isn't helping either. I need something stronger!

He had almost no contact with Lexi last night with the exception of when he played with her for a few minutes and fed her a bottle. I am the one who bathed her, got her ready for bed, played with her, fed her her cereal and nighttime bottle, made dinner, cleaned up dinner. I did all this while he was taking a NAP! Um, excuse me? I would like a nap too! Yea he did work a long shift the past 2 days but you slept almost all day! God, he pisses me off!

This morning wasn't much better. I woke up almost an hour late! Then I was almost in an accident on the way to work with Lexi in the car. I just cried! Stupid people on the highway. I hate them! I hate to drive now. It petrifies me to no end.

I might get back to this later!