sooo... read that title a few more times.
i swear, most of the time i am happy, i'm energetic, enthusiastic, accomplished, and my life is a brights and shiny pearl.
but other times.... not so much.
and today its not. well. last night. this is the straw that broke the camel's back etc.. blah blah blah
Ellie woke up at 1 am because we still haven't established a good bed routine where she falls asleep on her own or stay asleep all night. i'm fine with her waking to nurse and going back to sleep, but she thinks its playtime for an hour since we got sick 2 weeks ago. so.... its 1 am. i got up with her, my BIL is sitting in the living room with his friend... neither pay rent, my BIL is driving me nuts and i keep finding pop (soda) bottles with his friends chew spit slime in them so i asked BIL if he would watch Ellie, return her to me when she's tired, and i said his friend needed to go home because i was sick of cleaning up after him (and he insists for the last 3 weeks it's not him) and he says "ITS NOT MINE, ITS BILL'S"
Bill is my DH. WTF. since when does he freaking CHEW?!?!?!?
at first i dont want to believe him. then it stats to make sense, and by the timei get back to the bedroom, i'm upset enough to wake him up at 1 am and ask him.
he says "sure" WTF again. WTF. once upon time he smoked. i told him that was a deal breaker when i was IN HIGHSCHOOL, once he had a can of chew in his locker and i took it. so how the freaking hell does he think this is ok with me!
i'm not sure i can write WTF enough times to explain how i felt.