It is what it is.
We are not getting along. I am about to up and move out of state. We aren't good together.
This time of yr just sucks for me. I've had 4 residents pass away in the last 2 wks....so work has been pretty hellish.
add about 10 more residents. they are calling our floor "the angels of death"
So ,yeah. It's been 17 yrs for Zachary and it still feels like yesterday, i remember everything. It sucks. You can't compare losing a child to a parent. Jim tries to all the time.
Jim had another heart attack. They places 2 stents, 1 in one of the original bypass's from 08.
So i passed my one yr mark with my job, woot! I happen to be on probation now for missing time, which is completely fine by me. My hrs are reduced to 24 until oct, it gives me time to decide my next steps on this path for nursing or medical assistant. Plus, i get actual time with Jim and the kids. And my stress level is down!
My Aunt in Philly had an accident when she was cooking chicken, she fainted and hit the pan as she was going down....she got 1rst and 2nd degree burns on the left side of her face and neck, she's going to have a home nurse once a wk until oct and they are doing plastic surgery. Of course, this happened th wkend before we were supposed to go down there on vacation, we still wound up going. It was weird ...i haven't been since my Grandmother's funeral 7 yrs ago.
ummm, what to call this mood?
irked? yup, i'd say i'm irked.
It seems that admin here forgot that Oct is preg/child loss month.....just looked, have seen NO annoucements about it. Zilch on the loss board, which i'm gonna guess explains why barely anyone posts there anymore...why post somewhere you're not going to be supported?
And to prove my point.
There are 97 people viewing the loss board right now.
Really? Absolutely NOTHING about loss awareness recently. There is post that has the banners and sig things from 2009
I have an interview with the rehab hosp place from 2 yrs ago. Not going to totally trust being hired till i'm actually doing orientation!
Interview went great!! This would be so awesome!
In other great news:
We're finally getting housing!! *happy dance* We've been on the waiting list for at least 2 yrs. It's a 3 bedroom duplex with an amazing back yard! We're gonna finalize everything this wk and start moving the small stuff first.
Whatever you’re doing right now. Take a deep breath, and another. You are so beautiful. Has anyone told you that lately? And there’s something more important..You’re strong. Sometimes it feels like you’re not. Maybe even most of the time. But please, don’t ever forget. You’re stronger than you know.
Every day, you wake up. No matter what. No matter what you’re gone through, you wake up in the morning.
Take a second and appreciate that. After all these years, you still have hope. Maybe it’s buried inside you. Maybe that sounds ridiculous. But you keep going every day. And that makes you incredible.
But breathe today, breathe right now.
Sometimes things are too much. And I want you to know that’s okay. There will be times when you want to break down and cry, times when you want to fall asleep and never ever wake up again. That doesn’t make you weak. It makes you human. And that’s beautiful too. After all that you’ve been through, you can still feel.
Never underestimate that.
Because you know what that means? There’s hope. It means that you’ll feel love and happiness. It means you’ll feel pride and joy. It means you’re still alive, but more than that, it means you’re still living.
Never stop feeling.
But sometimes, just breathe ♥"