I'm movin on

Here.




I know, i've been a little quiet.

One of my mom's good friends that had cancer finally passed away this past wkend. Her funeral is Wed.


*N* (Mike's daughter with Vondalee) turns 22 in a few days. Like where did the time go?? I remember meeting her for the first time and she was only a little over 2 yrs old then.




My "issues" are not resolved. I really don't know how to go about doing this. I have the feeling that to get it "under control" any therapist would want me to do at least 30 days inpatient, which is so NOT feasible.

oh, and Mike has moved to Tenn and left no forwarding address or phone #. Not that we talk much anyways (once a yr) but still...

We got our fuel assist letter this morning! We are approved for over $600.00! Awesome!


Our rent is based on income and since i finally got my unemployment it's gone up, it's gonna be an extra $110/month.

*J*'s prom with "Best Buddies" is tonight. He's so excited! He has stitches between his 3rd-4th toes, he was walking upstairs and slid into the end of the radiator and sliced 1/4" deep.

AF is MIA. This gets so annoying. I need a regular cycle. I really think i'm going to get back on the pill just to regulate this crap, and helping with the cramps would be good too!

AF showed.

We think Jim has cancer.


Yeah, April right around the corner Welcome to my Hell.


And i of course can't say anything on FB till we know for sure, next wk.

Esophageal cancer - MayoClinic.com

Quote:

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Signs and symptoms of esophageal cancer include:

• Difficulty swallowing (dysphagia)
• Weight loss without trying
• Chest pain, pressure or burning
• Fatigue
• Frequent choking while eating
• Indigestion or heartburn
• Coughing or hoarseness

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So, i did some more searching. When it's early it's not noticealbe. By the time most people start having those symptoms it's already advanced and the prognois(sp?) goes down.



Ummm, yeah so. Not doing the best emotionally right now at all. We both start crying at the drop of a hat. We ran into my parents today at the store and told them. I am half tempted to call the church and let them know. I hate Easter. I depise this time of year.

He has acid reflux. He still needs to see a GI specialist just to be sure there isn't anything else gong on.


I got the most awesome message from Vondalee (Mike's ex before me, Mom to his daughter).

Quote:

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You know what? I want you to know that I think about you and your little baby all the time. Thank you for letting me be there and hold him. You know that he is in Heaven waiting for you. I don't think Mike's parents treated you well at all after your baby was born. I thought he was the most precious thing in the world when I held him. Nikki and I still talk about him occasionally and especially this time of year, you are always in my prayers. I've miscarried twice, but they were very early miscarriages and do not even compare to your tragedy.

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Here.


Another angel annvi for Zachary come and gone. We went to cape cod. It was such a beautiful day.


Jim is still puking pretty much daily now. He see's the GI specialist today.

Not much more to update....well, there is.....but i can't (won't) get into it.

wanna take a wild guess to who showed up in my driveway the other night? yup. that would be one and only a$$hole #1.

so pissed.

i'm guessing it's because i don't have my other phone anymore, he never got my new #. even though i;m the one that requested the no contact.