f.u.c.k this year ALREADY! let it be 2009 like, tomorrow. please?
My sister probably has thryoid cancer and will be having either the whole thing removed or just part of it.
I'm not the only one who finds it very ODD that ALOT of my family and people who we lived around in PA, NJ have some form of cancer. This just puts my nerves more on f.u.c.k.i.n.g. edge about the pain i've been getting in my boobs lately.
Jim is in the hosp. His foot is causing a major infection and he's been fighting fevers on and off since Sunday night.
I'm past my freakin limit here. Something has to give....cause i've got nothing left.
They took two toes today. (2nd & 3rd) on the left foot.
Leg bypass surgery will be wednesday of next wk. He expects me to work that day. Surgery will be about 4 - 6 hrs long.
I seriously need a graph or something for how far past my limit i am.
Jim is doing ok. His new nickname (that he came up with) is "Jimmy 3 toes".
I'm frazzled. Which i expected. This is much more frazzled then before though.
It's not helping either of us that his sister is in Vegas till tomorrow. I need that support system from her. He needs her assurance and talking with the Dr's/nurses that she always does asking questions we don't think to ask.
Surgery will be Wend after 2pm.
They are using the artifical veins because his aren't as wide as they would like.
The upside of this? Surgery time will be cut in half. We're talking 2-4 hrs instead of 4-6 hrs. Recovery time will be MUCH quicker. They won't have to cut as much of his leg open as they thought.
The downside? They don't last as long as your own veins. I think he said 5-7 yrs for these and 10 yrs for his own. We'll cross that road when we come to it.
I am planning on working that day. I get out at 2:30pm. So i can just leave work and go right to the hosp. BUT, this (of course) depends on how much sleep i get tomorrow night. I may just take both Wend and Thurs and sleep as much as i can both days before heading up the hosp.
The kids aren't dealing with this too greatly.
as per usual, stuff has to change.
I CAN NOT DEAL WITH CHANGE WELL!!!!
Surgery will now be @ 11am.
I'm taking the day off. I'm going to get the kids on the buses and go back to sleep.
*typing from ICU waiting room*
Surgery was more complicated then orginally thought. We (his sister is here too) haven't seen him yet. They took him into surgery over 2 hrs later then planned.
They had to go from above his hip to below the knee. They may need to take the 2 little toes from that foot (will be another surgery in probably 6 wks) depending on the growth of the infectious stuff they did take from the foot. They know it went into the bones below the toes they took and are worried it's going into the other bones.
He'll be in ICU till at least tomorrow.
He was moved out of ICU late lastnight. Yesterday was not a fun day. He was so out of it because of the pain med's they have him on.
He should be coming home possibly by Monday.
They are going to get him out of bed and walking (or hobbling) today.
Things are not going good.
I fully expect to be a widow by next wkend.
Things are pretty much the same here.
He knows (or we think he does) that they are taking the other little toes and also the big toe plus a good portion of the foot. I'm guessing it's going to be before 6 wks but that all depends on how he is or if he's still alive at that point. God, the sucks to type and read but i know i have to be realistic here. I can't kid myself into thinking everything is ok and that he's going to survive this because thats just so up in the air right now and doing that will NOT help me at all. If he doesn't survive this....it will kill me. I know that.
I went back to work at Macy's over the wknd and on Sunday i just had a meltdown before i came home. I needed it.