He was ambulanced up @ 4:30am yesterday. He puked, almost passed out and used 3 nitro's with no help. He was having pressure in his back (how the heart attack in may presented) and felt like the back of his head was going to explode. He has pnemunia(sp?). He could be home today. He was having TONS of pvc's (irregular heart beats) 10-12 is normal for him, he was having over 70 at a time. The heart #'s showed a little difference at first, but they have remained low. They think the infection was putting alot of pressure on his heart thats why the #'s were elevated.
To say i'm exhausted is an understatement. I haven't had more then an hr or two of solid sleep in over 24 hrs now.
lastnight/this morning was hellish. he slept downstairs (so i could get some sleep) and woke me up around 2am because his sugar was low (57) ....we dealt with that. Then around 4-8am he was coughing like crazy, having chills, and lungs killing him. I took him to his primary care Dr, they did chest x-rays.
He is doing so much better! Thank God! He was awesome about letting me catch up on my missed sleep, i really needed it. It does no good to have me out of comission and sick.
We are going to the fuel assistance appli shortly.
I finally got my W2, taxes are submitted.....stupid IRS isn't going to "accept" and start processing till Jan 30. We're getting back around the same amount as last yr (little over 8K). It's going mostly to bills and stuff for the house (new table, new computer desk, curtains for the rest of the house).
We got our refunds back. woohoo! Bills are all current. *happy dance*
The new desk came today. The new table doesn't come till Monday. We're going to have one of Jim's friends put them together. We finally got the curtains for the kitchen and kids rooms. I'm totally taking pics after everything is put together.
We're going to Foxwoods Casino to celebrate my birthday. His sister used one of her room comps for us. My parents are taking the kids to my sister's that whole wk of vacation. I can't WAIT!
Things are good here. I still haven't told him yet.
Something interesting though? his email address. I was watching a movie and realized it came from there, and the guy in the movie is a complete player.
I'm not even sure i wanna put this out there. The past few mornings i've been waking up with "marks" on me. No, jim is not abusive. I'm wondering if it's the med's? I woke up the other day and had a burn mark on my hand. The past 2 days i've had little bruises on my knee. Could i be sleep walking? or even sleep cooking? The burn does freak me out.
Like i really don't want or need to be freaked out right now but wtf?!?!
I've knowningly blacked out ONCE in my life. I had literally just broken up with "tricky rick" (oddly enough, saw recently) and it was my sister's wedding (june of 96) . I know i was drinking, i know i smoked. I remember going to sleep on a couch in the hotel. The next thing i remember i'm walking down the hall of the hotel, a) ALONE and b) with bruises on my inner thighs (yes, rough sex type bruises).
Now, I'm reading all this crap on the net (worst thing to do ever!) and really wondering what the hell my next step is. Cause, if what i've been reading is right? I'm screwed. Completely.
And i get to tell Jim this how? Oh, yes btw my loving husband who has medical issues up. the. freakin. ***. and can't handle the kids/house by himself that i could potentially have something that could put me in the hospital with no warning. Or maybe thats what this is? Maybe this is the warning that something has to be done.
I went to my unemployment appeal last wend and since they had the burden of proof and didn't show, it's been overturned! woot! I got a good porton of retro on friday and the rest yesterday. I got a new laptop (chromebook) and i spent less then $200.00 on it. This way Jim can have the desktop to himself, and Jimmy has his computer upstairs.
I guess i should get into "other" crap. *sigh*
I think i've pretty much known this for awhile but my mental health issues are more serious then depression and being bi-polar. I'm still trying to gauge my next step on this one. I know what it is and it honestly scares the living crap out of me. I'm scared of how to deal with it. I know that i'm going to have to quit drinking and smoking. They seem to make it much worse. But, i really don't want to. And that really sucks to feel that way. I know my health and well-being have to be the most important thing right now.