Jesus, Mary, and f.u.c.k.i.n.g. Joesph. Give the s.h.i.t to someone else. I have more then enough on my plate already. God flippin owes me after this year.
My brother just got laided off today. He has a brand NEW baby. How the hell is this a good thing? I'm going to talk to him about working for the company because he already has experience working with the population it's in and they will pay more based on that.
(of course, subject to change at a moments notice)
He should be home on Friday. I have to get my butt in gear and finish cleaning our room. He's gonna need space for the walker and all his gadgets they are sending him home with. He should be getting a PT person coming out several times a wk.
He's home. He's healing good. He see's the surgeon tomorrow. Hopefully we'll get a def answer about the other toes.
I am done. This has been a long time coming and i know it's going to be awhile before (or if) i am ever back. I just can't deal with barely any support from here. I know that journaling helps my sanity but right now it's not the most important thing.
I broke my right thumb the wk before thanksgiving at work. We were putting the kids on the bus and one of the girls opened the back door and like an idiot i put my thumb IN the door frame. She closed the door on my thumb. It was a complete break right above the first knuckle. I had a cast up to my elbow for 4 long a$$ wks. I've been in a splint for 3 or 4 wks and have another 4 wks of it (as of today). I've been on "light-duty". I can't work with the kids in the classroom at all. I can go in and see them once a day. I miss working with them so much.
My sister's surgery went good. They took the whole thyroid out and it was cancerous and has/had spread. She just finished a radioation(sp?) thing. Hopefully it worked.
A few days after my thumb incident my Aunt (in Philly) got robbed and attacked in the house. Some guy broke in and she went into the kitchen (she thought the noise was her cat) and he grabbed her around the neck and held a screwdriver to her throat. Her saving grace? The 13 girl in the row house behind hers was awake (at 1am) and saw everything. She woke her mother up and they called 911. If that girl hadn't been awake god only knows what would have happened.
2 days after that. BIL (Rob, sis's hubby) was playing football and tore/twisted his ACL. He should be having surgery soon.
The kids are good.
Jim is good. I honestly don't know how i got through everything that happened last yr. I really think when so much crap happens we go on autopilot and just process it later......yeah, which i still need to do. I'm really nervous about the end of this month.
*M* had lyme disease. That abcess he had on his head awhile ago? More then likely where the tick bit him and thats why we never saw the rash thats supposed to go with it. His knee's were getting really swollen and they finally did x-rays and saw fluid and then did blood tests and found his lyme #'s were high.
*J* is good.
Jim is doing awesome. The foot is completely healed. He still has dizzy spells sometimes when he's been on his feet for too long.
I'm good. I had a crappy Easter sunday. I got really upset (yeah, had been drinking) and wanted to drive. Jim wouldn't let me and told me to just come upstairs and relax. I talked to Mike for almost an hour that night. I think we both really needed it. I know it helped.
I just know the rest of this wk and wkend are going to be difficult on me mentally. It's hard to wrap my head around the concept that it's been 14 yrs. I think we will always wonder what he would look like today. We did both agree that in some ways it was better then him being born alive and then dying shortly later. I know neither of us would be here today had that happened.
Forgive my sarcasm. I feel like crap. I spent pretty much the whole wkend in bed. I'm getting (or trying to fight) whatever this damn cold/sinus thing is again.
I really didn't do anything to honor Zachary's memory this yr. I feel guilty about it now but at the time i felt too much like crap to give a damn. I listened to a few of the songs i have dedicated to him.
Ok, can we get like the next decade here already or what?
Jim's foot. Now, it's the right foot. The damn orginal foot. He has a ulcer (infected too) on the tip of his big toe. They already checked and the bone is NOT infected.
My Aunt (the one from philly who got attacked and robbed) was crossing the street on Tax Day. She was going to file her taxes and it was raining. She slipped and broke her right wrist in two places. They did surgery this wk.
Newest nephew (bro's baby) had a dislocated elbow. Yeah, i can see CPS getting involved within the next few months if they aren't already investigating them.
Jim is having another MRA done tomorrow night. Hopefully, good results!
One of the little girls in my classroom is having a hard time. If people could spare some prayers it would be helpful. Between her mom having breast cancer and her having seizures all the time she just isn't doing too good lately. It would be so horrible if anything happens to her. She is just so loved by everyone.
The MRA shows blood is getting to the foot......but ... it is restricted up around his thigh (like in the other leg, but not completely blocked). They want to do a stent. We are going to try to wait till July to have that done. We need to really watch the foot/toes and make sure they aren't going dead and the big toe heals completely.