have you ever felt so alone and sad that you just cry for no reason. Why do I worry about the damn public? they don't mean a thing to me, I just don't like people going around judging me when they don't even know me. And I hate hate hate hate people who are not honest with you and then turn around behind your back and have a field day with how weird you are and how many and much medications you ahve to take. I'm so tired of it and from this day on.....I am only trying to please myself and those that I know love and care about me. I think your a stupid person for not doing that in the first place....so for many many years I have been stpid I guess bc I sure try to please people who really do not make a difference at all and could care less about me.....so from this day once again, I'm only gonna worry about my family and real friends. I don't know why it took me so long to open my eyes.
So **** abunch a predjudice people and people who think they are better than me or those that only think they know the real me. that's right **** em all!!!!!!
I have friends I really do and I have real friends too. Like Patrice, Brooke, Stacy, Dre, Regenia, etc. I don't know if Sarah and I are cool anymore since my son scratched her son's face up, but that was not his fault he was just taking up for himself....bless his bones.
I need money I'm tired of shopping online, I want to go to the mall...and I want to feel good and take my kids to the park and for ice cream. I will just have to keep on wishing I guess. I feel like an 80 yo in a 28 yo body.
Oh another thing screw those stupid idiots who just know they are predjudice and act like oh your kids are so cute....shut the hell up before you tounge falls off.
I'm back for the last time today. I'm so happy Kendyl won his ballgame 13-4. I'm so proud of him. He has brought home nothing but 100's since school strated three weeks ago. I miss Muny, but he doesn't call me and Idon't have a calling card right now. When I write to him, he dosen't write back. Korbyn is running thangs around the house today and it is a mess. But I'll clean it tomorrow, I'm going to be early.
I'm ready for the holidays....although we don't celbrate Christmas like most people we still exchange gifts and the whole family gets together and I love it. And I have to figure out what costumes the boys are gonna wear. I love Kwanzaa too. African heritage is so rich and special.
I may start doing voluteer work for Kendyl's school which wil be cool....gives me something to do.
we had two games to day and won one of them but just barely. I am so sunburn from three and a half hours in the sun. TX is too damn hott. I'm ready to move with Stacy to VC Island Canada, Where there are no dumb butt people and everyone gets along....and the air is glee Brooke your a nutt and that is why I accept your phone calls....thanks for making my day :P