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I'm slim shady the other slim shady......

Welcome

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I like Brooke and like Rhonda what to do??? Brooke who's the truth and Rhonda knows the truth......and I'm out of it. Love you both!!!!

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I met my Romeo.....He is awesome and it was like he was sent to me .... I'm falling fast, but I'm having to pulll childish stuff to get to see him. I don't

bbl

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I'm so freakin mad and sad at the same time. I don't know if I should punch the wall or cry myself to sleep. I hope my Angel will make me feel better soon :cry:

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9/2/03
have you ever felt so alone and sad that you just cry for no reason. Why do I worry about the damn public? they don't mean a thing to me, I just don't like people going around judging me when they don't even know me. And I hate hate hate hate people who are not honest with you and then turn around behind your back and have a field day with how weird you are and how many and much medications you ahve to take. I'm so tired of it and from this day on.....I am only trying to please myself and those that I know love and care about me. I think your a stupid person for not doing that in the first place....so for many many years I have been stpid I guess bc I sure try to please people who really do not make a difference at all and could care less about me.....so from this day once again, I'm only gonna worry about my family and real friends. I don't know why it took me so long to open my eyes.

So fuck abunch a predjudice people and people who think they are better than me or those that only think they know the real me. that's right fuck em all!!!!!!

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9/4/03

I have friends I really do and I have real friends too. Like Patrice, Brooke, Stacy, Dre, Regenia, etc. I don't know if Sarah and I are cool anymore since my son scratched her son's face up, but that was not his fault he was just taking up for himself....bless his bones.

I need money I'm tired of shopping online, I want to go to the mall...and I want to feel good and take my kids to the park and for ice cream. I will just have to keep on wishing I guess. I feel like an 80 yo in a 28 yo body.

Oh another thing screw those stupid idiots who just know they are predjudice and act like oh your kids are so cute....shut the hell up before you tounge falls off.

****kisses and hugs to me****

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I have more to say, but I'm going to take a nap Blum 3

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9/4/03

I'm back for the last time today. I'm so happy Kendyl won his ballgame 13-4. I'm so proud of him. He has brought home nothing but 100's since school strated three weeks ago. I miss Muny, but he doesn't call me and Idon't have a calling card right now. When I write to him, he dosen't write back. Korbyn is running thangs around the house today and it is a mess. But I'll clean it tomorrow, I'm going to be early.

I'm ready for the holidays....although we don't celbrate Christmas like most people we still exchange gifts and the whole family gets together and I love it. And I have to figure out what costumes the boys are gonna wear. I love Kwanzaa too. African heritage is so rich and special.

I may start doing voluteer work for Kendyl's school which wil be cool....gives me something to do.

gone for today

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"kokemuma" wrote:

I met my Romeo.....He is awesome and it was like he was sent to me .... I'm falling fast, but I'm having to pulll childish stuff to get to see him. I don't

bbl

nevermind.....I'll just be married for the rest of my life.

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9/6/03

we had two games to day and won one of them but just barely. I am so sunburn from three and a half hours in the sun. TX is too damn hott. I'm ready to move with Stacy to VC Island Canada, Where there are no dumb butt people and everyone gets along....and the air is glee Lol Brooke your a nutt and that is why I accept your phone calls....thanks for making my day Blum 3 :thumbsup:

till tomorrow :happybday: to my mom!!!! :hippy2: :clinkingbeer:

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EMINEM LYRICS

"Cleanin Out My Closet"

Where's my snare, I have no snare in my headphones, there ya' go, yeah, yo', yo'...

Have you ever been hated or discriminated against, I have, i've been protested and demonstrated
against, picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times, sick is the mind of the
motherfuckin' kid that's behind, all this commotion, emotions run deep as ocean's explodin',
tempers flaring from parents, just blow 'em off and keep goin', not takin' nothin' from no one,
give 'em hell long as i'm breathin', keep kickin' ass in the mornin', an' takin' names in the
evening, leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth, see they can trigger me but
they'll never figure me out, look at me now, I bet ya' probably sick of me now, ain't you mama,
i'ma make you look so ridiculous now...

[CHORUS]

I'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you, I never meant to make you cry, but tonight i'm
cleanin' out my closet, {one more time}, I said i'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you, I
never meant to make you cry, but tonight i'm cleanin' out my closet...

I got some skeletons in my closet and I don't know if no one knows it, so before they thrown me
inside my coffin and close it, i'ma expose it, i'll take you back to '73, before I ever had a
multi-platinum sellin' Cd, I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple of months, my faggot father
must have had his pantie's up in a bunch, cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye,
no I don't on second thought, I just fuckin' wished he would die, I look at Hailie and I
couldn't picture leavin' her side, even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I'd try, to make it
work with her at least for Hailie's sake, I maybe made some mistakes but i'm only human, but i'm
man enough to face them today, what I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb, but the smartest
shit I did was take them bullets out of that gun, cause id'a killed 'em, shit I would have shot
Kim and him both, it's my life, i'd like to welcome y'all to the Eminem show...

[CHORUS]

Now I would never diss my own mama just to get recognition, take a second to listen for you
think this record is dissin', but put yourself in my position, just try to envision witnessin'
your Mama poppin' prescription pills in the kitchen, bitchin' that someone's always goin'
through her purse and shits missin', going through public housing systems, victim of
Munchausen's syndrome, my whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't 'til I grew
up, now I blew up, it makes you sick to ya' stomach, doesn't it, wasn't it the reason you made
that Cd for me, ma, so you could try to justify the way you treated me, ma, but guess what, your
gettin' older now and it's cold when your lonely, and Nathan's growing up so quick, he's gonna
know that your phoney, and Hailie's getting so big now, you should see her, she's beautiful, but
you'll never see her, she won't even be at your funeral, see what hurts me the most is you won't
admit you was wrong, bitch, do your song, keep tellin' yourself that you was a mom, but how dare
you try to take what you didn't help me to get, you selfish bitch, I hope you fuckin' burn in
hell for this shit, remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me, well guess
what, I am dead, dead to you as can be...

[CHORUS]

[Thanks to [email]blueprint_n9ne@hotmail.com[/email] for these lyrics]

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Eminem~~White America........fuc# tha free world

America, hahaha, we love you, how many people are proud to be citizens of this beautiful
country of our's, the stripes and the stars for the rights that men have died for to protect,
the women and men who have broke their neck's for the freedom of speech the United States
government has sworn to uphold, or so we're told...

Yo', I want everybody to listen to the words of this song, I never would've dreamed in a
million years i'd see, so many motherfuckin' people who feel like me, who share the same views
and the same exact beliefs, it's like a fuckin' army marchin' in back of me, so many lives I
touch, so much anger aimed, in no particular direction, just sprays and sprays, and straight
through your radio waves it plays and plays,
'till it stays stuck in your head for days and
days, who would of thought, standing in this mirror bleachin' my hair, with some peroxide,
reachin for a t-shirt to wear, that I would catapult to the forefront of rap like this, how
could I predict my words would have an impact like this, I must've struck a chord, with somebody
up in the office, cause congress keeps telling me I ain't causin' nuthin' but problems, and now
they're sayin' i'm in trouble with the government, i'm lovin' it, I shoveled shit all my life,
and now I'm dumping it on...

[CHORUS]

White America, I could be one of your kids, white America, little Eric looks just like this,
white America, Erica loves my shit, I go to TRL, look how many hugs I get, white America, I
could be one of your kids, white America, little Eric looks just like this, white America, Erica
loves my shit, I go to TRL, look how many hugs I get...

Look at these eyes, baby blue, baby just like yourself, if they were brown, Shady lose, Shady
sits on the shelf, but Shady's cute, Shady knew, Shady's dimple's would help, make ladies swoon
baby, {ooh baby}, look at my sales, let's do the math, if I was black, I would've sold half, I
ain't have to graduate from Lincoln high school to know that, but I could rap, so fuck school,
i'm too cool to go back, gimme the mic, show me where the fuckin' studio's at, when I was
underground, no one gave a fuck I was white, no labels wanted to sign me, almost gave up, I was
like, fuck it, until I met Dre, the only one to look past, gave me a chance, and I lit a fire up
under his ass, helped him get back to the top, every fan black that I got, was probably his in
exchange for every white fan that he's got, like damn, we just swapped, sittin' back lookin' at
shit, wow, i'm like my skin is it starting to work to my benefit now, it's...

[CHORUS]

See the problem is, I speak to suburban kids, who otherwise would of never knew these words
exist, whose mom's probably would of never gave two squirts of piss, 'till I created so much
motherfuckin' turbulence, straight out the tube, right into your living room I came, and kids
flipped when they knew I was produced by Dre, that's all it took, and they were instantly hooked
right in, and they connected with me too because I looked like them, that's why they put my
lyric's up under this microscope, searchin' with a fine tooth comb, its like this rope, waitin'
to choke, tightening around my throat, watching me while I write this, like I don't like this,
nope, all I hear is, lyrics, lyrics, constant controversy, sponsors working 'round the clock, to
try to stop my concerts early, surely hip-hop was never a problem in Harlem, only in Boston,
after it bothered the fathers of daughters starting to blossom, so now i'm catchin' the flack
from these activists when they raggin', actin' like i'm the first rapper to smack a bitch, or
say faggot, shit, just look at me like i'm your closest pal, the posterchild, the motherfuckin'
spokesman now for...

So to the parents of America, I am the derringer aimed at little Erica, to attack her
character, the ringleader of this circus of worthless pawns, sent to lead the march right up to
the steps of congress, and piss on the lawns of the White House, to burn the casket and replace
it with a parental advisory sticker, to spit liquor in the faces of in this democracy of
hypocrisy, fuck you Ms. Cheney, fuck you Tipper Gore, fuck you with the freest of speech this
divided states of embarassment will allow me to have, fuck you, [vocal melody],
he, hahaha, i'm just playin' America, you know I love you...

[Thanks to [email]blueprint_n9ne@hotmail.com[/email] for these lyrics]

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Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't give up that
Is he? No
He won't have it , he knows his whole back city's ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so stacked that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's
Back to the lab again yo
This whole rap shit
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

[Hook:]
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

The soul's escaping, through this hole that it's gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is borin, but superstardom's close to post mortar
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows us all over these hoes is all on him
Coast to coast shows, he's know as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He's grown farther from home, he's no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cuz here goes the cold water
His hoes don't want him no mo, he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds
I suppose it's old potna, but the beat goes on
Da da dum da dum da da

[Hook]

No more games, I'ma change what you call rage
Tear this mothafuckin roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playin in the beginnin, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin and stepwritin the next cypher
Best believe somebody's payin the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I can't get by with my 9 to 5
And I can't provide the right type of life for my family
Cuz man, these goddam food stamps don't buy diapers
And it's no movie, there's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard and it's getting even harder
Tryin to feed and water my seed, plus
See dishonor caught up bein a father and a prima donna
Baby mama drama's screamin on and
Too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another jam or not
Has gotten me to the point, I'm like a snail
I've got to formulate a plot fore I end up in jail or shot
Success is my only mothafuckin option, failure's not
Mom, I love you, but this trail has got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem's lot
So here I go is my shot.
Feet fail me not cuz maybe the only opportunity that I got

[Hook]

You can do anything you set your mind to, man

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9/7/03

"kokemuma" wrote:

Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

So many missed opporturnities .....so many chances slipped away.....I listen to this while my children watch Barney in the other room. What the hell is this world coming to????? They play a tha park that is right next to the federal prision what are you suppose to feel like when your children are playing next to drug addicts and murderes I just cry for my children and wish that things twill get better for them as their lives go on .....I want grand children and I swear on this day that the supreme being gave me I will always be there for them and their children as long as I live.

You can do anything you set your mind to, man

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BELIEVE THADT!!

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Ladi Dadu this damn key board is pissing me off. It's too slow so if this don't make ssense, it's because I can't read what I am typing.....damn worms....the worms crawl in the worms crawl out the worms crawl in and out ya mouf

forget it .....I'll be back later

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9/8/03

Dang I got a bad headache like a big ole boom box playing on my brain. Today was boring did nothing really cept go to the doc and get $200. worth of damn scripts. I'm so dang tired......maybe I should become a meth head.....ROFL only kidding I hate them.

IF your life is caving in.....bet your gonna need a friend.....say tha word!!

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OH BOY OH BOY i GOT TWO PAGES

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9/10/03

:evil: Right down the street from where my children play three people are murdered. One pregnanat lady and two men. Their heads blown from their shoulders. They caught the guilty, but it's just not enough for me, I'm ready to move to a safer place but I don't know where that would be??? :?: :cry: I'm watching the television on the eve of one of the worst terriorists acts ever and thinking to my self what is this world coming to :?: :!: :?: :!: I'm so sad :cry:

Brooke or Patrice, call me when you see this, if you read it.

I love you all!!!!!
Brightest Blessings to all!

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"Remember and hold on to the memories and the lost, but let go of the day.....or else you won't be able to go on........"

a very good friend told me this on the day after 9/11. I had three very good friends in NYC the day this happened and I thank the Supreme Being for sparing their lives.

Blessings on America :!:

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Brooke quotes

my husband is going to be so pleased with me when he gets home. last week car shopping we agreed on buying a mini van, apparently he felt he could be sneaky and buy the little car instead, but he unlike most men, did not marry a dumb woman, i caught him, just got off the phone with the dealership, got my van getting ready for me, and that little car he wanted is being sold to someone else

bwahhahahahahaha

fucker, dont mess with me, i warned him i told him no about that car from the get go. and when he whines and says yeah what brooke wants brooke has to get right, im going to smile and say you bet your ass she does.

like i said that van will be in my drive way saturday.

You go girl , you bet you deserve that van :!: :!: D@MN SKIPPY :!: :!: Dirol

IF I COULD POO, I'D BUY YOU A NAVIGATOR OR A HUMMER SO YOU COULD RUN OVER ALL THE BAD PEOPLE :twisted:

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9/11/03

~~SILENCE~~ :cry:

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9-14-03

I'M BACK!!!!!tEE HEE HEE HEE :twisted: i HAVE BEEN MEDITATING ALOT FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS. i HAVE SO MUCH CONFUSION IN MY LIFE IT'S NOT EVEN REAL. i WONDER WHO IN MY LIFE CAN i GET RID OF TO CUT DOWN ON THE CONFUSION??? DUNNO??? :!: mY HAND IS NUMB i THINK i HAD ANOTHER MINI STROKE. i'M HAVING A HARD TIME TYPING AND WRITING. :banghead: but I'm not going back to the er till I'm almost dead I guess. Ewww DH AND i WATCHED THIS MOOVIE WITH MASTER p IN IT AND IT WAS TOTALLY DISGUSTING....BIG WASTE OF HOLLYWOOD MONEY. dON'T REALLY HAVE MUCH ELSE TO TALK ABOUT EXCEPT I'M SO TOTALLY THANK FUL FOR MY CHILDREN IT'S UNREAL.

wHERE THE HECK IS bROOKE?? i NEED TO TALK :-?

tILL tOMORROW...............

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9/16/03

:? Today I get to see the wacko doctor. Maybe he will give me something new to help me sleep. Other than that today is a plain ole day.

NOTE:......I am tired of peole jumping Brooke bc they don't understand her honesty and sarcasm. I love her and I think she is one of the sweetest people I know. Anyway....people have a right to their own opinions :roll:

The weather feels so good It makes you want to take your bed outside and sleep out there.....LOL

Tootle Loo

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9/17/03
Today is fair day....yipee!....It is so much fun to see my children have so much fun. I don't ride the rides but the kids do and it;s so exciting seeing them smile with delight. Havn't been on the boards yet today....fixin to go check them out...I'll be back later, if not then tomorrow.

just a bragging note for today .....kendyl made two more 100's today in school.....YOU GO BOY!!!Dang i love my children so so so much!!!! Biggrin

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9/18/03

Dirol We won our baseball game tonight horay!!!! I've been at therapy today with Korbyn. It was his second sesson and they already see improment. He has fun at therapy....it's like a big playland for him. I just hate the reason that he has to go in the first place....but he's gonna be just fine I know it....he'll probably be making all A honor roll like his big brother someday Smile I just love them so much, it's hard to believe anything is wrong with him at all. Wel taht is my breifing for today....not much else going on...so I'll see ya tomorrow Wink

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9/22/03

$hit Damn Fu(k I'm mad at my stupid ass huband.....He treats me like I'm his daughter not his wife, stupid MF!!!!!

Brooke If you read this I'm sorry I made you mad....please call me.

I had to come to the damn library to type this in my journal....sux huh???? :x

9/20/03 Saturday~We won our baseball game 15-12 YIPEE SKIPEE!!!! Dirol

9/21/03 Sunday~stayed in the bed all day....bummer I broke out in the hives because of my nerves :roll:

That is all for now...I'll be back soon :?

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9/23/03

I'm at the stupid library again today :roll: :roll: :roll: :roll:

not doing much just fixin to go to the park.....I'll write longer later...hopefully dumbass will give me my cord back tonight Blum 3 :?

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What are you looking at
:?:

9/27/03
He he he just kidding. I'm back on my own puter now .....YIPEE....We won our ballgame again today 9-3....it was a great game. My 2yo will start his therapy next week for ocupational therapy and speech. He was def. the first year of his life so we need to check his hearing again first before he can start speech. I think he can hear pretty well now. I haven't heard from Muny :cry: Katie and I was very sick this week with a virus that makes you puke and have the diarreah......it was awful, I felt so bad and so did Kate. It's 3:25 in the am and I can't sleep so I came to write in my jhournal and see what other trouble I can get into....LOL :twisted:

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Blum 3

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On Wed Sept. 22 '04 we(me, dh, and sons) went to the four states fair. We had a blast. My Auntie and her dh and kiddo's followed us out there so that was double the fun. I bungeed for the third time. I love it, it makes you feel so free. I rode almost every ride their...except the kiddy ones... but the best was seeing my sons riding rides, looking at the animals, riding the horses, and monster truck...it's such a blessing to see my children have so much fun. I thnk I must of had a permanent smile on my face the whole night. My eight yo won a giant stuffed dog and a medium one. My three you one a small stuffed dog and a medium sized nemo, and a little red stuffed fish. Their was a booth all the way from Southern Louisiana and I finally got to eat some gator, which I love, and it's so hard to find here. The kids were so tired that when we got hom I had to run the bath water fill it full of dishwashing soap and let them soak before they feel asleep. I thank Allah so much for these days I have to see my children grow up and be so happy and healthy. I'm truly blessed.

Allahu Akbar!

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Questions a dear friend wrote to me in an email that I decided to anwer here..... will finish later

Now for my questions--lots, sorry. There is not disrespect intended, only clarity.

How are the boys??
Muindria still with Grandma??
What's going on with Korbyn--is he really autistic and what's going on as far as treatment?
Any new awards for Kendyl?

Deshun: What's going on?? Your relationship was always kind of complicated to me, have y'all broken up for good, or are y'all open or what??

GF: Is she still in the picture?? What's the story behind her?

Brooke: Is she still your buddy? I know she left Preg.org and she was divorcing Mal. That was the end of that.

Baby: What??? Congrats--do you have a bf, or did Deshun's fixin's not take? LOL!(sorry, that sounded funny to me)

Cancer: What did they tell you? How did you find out?

Religion: What happened that made you go on this search? It seemed that you were happy as a Christian when I first "met" you, then was it Scientology and Paganism, now Islam. How did this journey come about? Do you cover your head?

Texas: Are you still planning on leaving? Are you planning on working, or have you gone back to work?

Health: How is your epilepsy, lupus and other problems? I was worried that you hit a bad depression. What meds are you on now?? I'm always curious. How are they working for you?

Men: Who, what when, where, how?? LOL

Friends: How is your support system?

Family: Are they helping?

God Daughter: How is she? How is her Mom doing? Does she live with y'all?

Adoption: Is that still on the horizon?

IM-I took YIM off of my computer. I never used it and it was taking up space. Do you have AOL or MSN on your computer as well right now?? I miss chatting.

Anyway, I hope you don't take any offense to my questions, it's just been a long time since we have talked and I'm one that has ALWAYS asked tons of questions, so I still need to get caught up and clarity.

((HUGS))

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conversation with my buddie Biggrin

Kelly R: hiya...how are ya?
Marya W: fine and you
Kelly R: doing good, about to hit the shower
Marya W: up kind of late....are you having insomnia too
Kelly R: no, i stay up until dh gets home...which is 3am
Marya W: what time is it where you are
Kelly R: 2
Marya W: my dh is working overnight tonight
Marya W: yeah were in the same timezone
Marya W: central
Kelly R: Stevon (my dh) works 2nd shift mon-thurs
Kelly R: yep
Kelly R: I don't see u online much during the day
Marya W: no I'm mostly on at night
Marya W: do you see my son
Kelly R: oh..yes, I see him
Kelly R: he's a cutie
Marya W: thank you
Marya W: he brought home his report card today and made nothing less than a 96
Marya W: all A's in conduct too
Kelly R: w2g
Marya W: yes I'm very proud of him
Kelly R: u should be my kids dont get their report card til early next mth
Marya W: there are my other two boys
Marya W: kind of blurry
Kelly R: is that your oldest in the jersey?
Marya W: yes
Marya W: he's a big boy
Kelly R: how old is he?
Marya W: 14
Marya W: he was 13 in the pict
Kelly R: wow, he looks older than that
Marya W: yes he's big
Kelly R: your children are adorable
Marya W: and acts older too
Marya W: thank you, I love to get compliments on my children
Kelly R: and how's the little baby bean doing?
Marya W: he is fine
Marya W: he's a rough boy
Marya W: there is my god-daughter
Kelly R: awwe
Kelly R: she's pretty
Marya W: she is only 10 and looks about 14
Marya W: geez I have to beat the boys away
Marya W: thank you
Marya W: she knows she is too
Marya W: LOL
Marya W: I would love to see your other children
Marya W: I saw your baby
Kelly R: sorry, i stepped away for a min
Kelly R: i posted a pic of them on the drama pic thread
Marya W: ok I will look I need to go there....that board moves so quick
Kelly R: its on the 2nd page
Kelly R: of the pic thread
Marya W: alright
Kelly R: thats a pretty pic of u
Marya W: I have my pict on the second page also
Kelly R: i know, i saw....very pretty
Marya W: thank you, that was our real wedding picture
Kelly R: were planning our wedding...we didn't get to have one when we got married
Marya W: we got married at the JOP in 93 so on our 10th anniversary we had a real wedding
Kelly R: we went to the courhouse
Kelly R: awww
Marya W: it was huge
Marya W: really nice
Kelly R: were renewing our vows in march
Marya W: that's so nice
Kelly R:
Marya W: what day
Marya W: ours is April 22
Kelly R: those are the 3 older kids from march
Kelly R: at dh's graduation
Marya W: very nice looking
Kelly R: thank you...they really haven't changed much
Marya W: I bet you are a great step mom
Kelly R: well, I really try
Kelly R: sometimes its not easy
Kelly R: you look pretty for 2am in the mornin
Kelly R: i saw that
Marya W: yea my step mom loves me alot but she was not always fair, but I'm not dare saying your like that
Kelly R: i know
Marya W: it's just my sister is real successful with a brand new house, new car and two white kids..no offense...and they are girls so they are kind of partial to them
Marya W: since I have boys and they are half black
Marya W: but oh well
Kelly R: thats me and dh 6wks after katy was born
Marya W: nice picture, wow he is tall
Kelly R: well, even though I dont know your family...i think ur great and have a wonderful family
Marya W: so your daughter is Katy too, my dgd is Katie
Kelly R: thanks..he is 6'1
Kelly R: i am barely 5'
Marya W: LOL shortie
Kelly R:
Marya W: big difference
Kelly R: lol yep
Marya W: my sons are so tall and their dads are not that tall
Marya W: my dh is like 5'11"
Kelly R: wow
Kelly R: both my parents are short
Marya W: and Muny;s dad is about 6'2"
Kelly R: all our kids are going to be tall
Marya W: my mom is 4'11"
Kelly R: Katy is already almost 30"
Marya W: wow
Kelly R: hmmm...thats about like me
Marya W: so is her name Katy or is that short for something else
Kelly R: its Kaitlyn, but we call her Katy and Katybug
Marya W: wanna here my accent
Kelly R: thats us at my babyshower last yr
Kelly R: I was 7 mths pg
Kelly R: sure, hang on a sex
Kelly R: sec
Kelly R: oops
Marya W: lol
Kelly R: ok
Kelly R: had to turn the volume up
Marya W: can you here me
Kelly R: nope
Kelly R: I miss being pg
Marya W: still can't here me
Kelly R: no, sorry
Marya W: alright that's ok
Kelly R:
Marya W: I think it's neat to hear other's accents
Kelly R: i don't have voice chat
Kelly R: yea
Marya W: you look really good preggo
Kelly R: awww, thank you
Kelly R: i miss it
Marya W: you look happy
Kelly R: thats as big as i got too
Kelly R: thats at our apartmen
Kelly R: t
Marya W: I got huge with #3
Marya W: so where exactly do you live
Kelly R: in the nashville tn area
Marya W: what is the population
Kelly R: omg, too many
Marya W: I have a super duper friend there
Marya W: oh you know Patrice
Kelly R: its the major city in tn
Marya W: I live in a little city that is in two states
Kelly R: she's on my birth board, but i dont know, know her
Marya W: it is Texarkana TX/AR
Kelly R: cool
Kelly R: lol...that would confuse me LOL
Marya W: we have a street that you can stand in two states at one time
Kelly R: wow
Kelly R: that would be neat
Marya W: if your would like I can send you a picture on a postcard if you don't mind giving your address
Marya W: I love to recieve postcards too
Marya W: from all over
Marya W: I have a good friend in British Columbia Canada that send me postcards all the time it's beautiful there
Kelly R: lol
Kelly R: ur silly
Kelly R: wow
Kelly R: what was that
Marya W: can you see that scar
Marya W: above my eye
Kelly R: Katy went to sleep...yay!
Kelly R: a little
Kelly R: aww
Marya W: I had a fight with an 18 wheeler when I was 18, had just finished boot camp
Kelly R: someone's awake
Marya W: guess who's up
Marya W: brb
Kelly R: ok
Kelly R: such a loving mommy
Kelly R: Hi little one
Marya W: he woke up wanting his paci
Marya W: can't brake him from that thing
Marya W: he only wants it at night though
Kelly R: awwe, he's a cutie
Marya W: thank you
Marya W: he's a handful
Marya W: for sure
Kelly R: lol ive only got 1 boy and I can relate LOL
Marya W: I have three
Marya W: I'm hoping this is a girl
Kelly R: we are gonna ttc next aug
Marya W: but my dh told me he can only produce boys so we'll have to see
Kelly R: lol
Kelly R: my dh thinks he can only produce girls
Marya W: that will be good ....let me know and I'll send you lots of babydust
Marya W: LOL
Marya W: they don't have a clue
Kelly R: thanks..we'll need it
Marya W: I lost a little girl in 98
Kelly R: and I'll send ya lots of girl dust
Kelly R:
Marya W: ok that would be great
Marya W: she was 19 weeks
Marya W: her name is Korionna Jolie
Kelly R: so pretty
Kelly R: you guys like the letter K huh?
Kelly R:
Marya W: but everything happens for a reason and I greived over it for so long till my third boy came along
Marya W: yes my dh does
Marya W: if this is a boy he will prob be Kenyon
Marya W: if a girl Kathryn
Kelly R: my dh's name is Stevon, his ex-wife is Susan and their kids are Sara, Sean & Savannah
Kelly R: I had to break the S thing
Marya W: LOL my sister has Ashlee and Alyssa
Kelly R: so we went to K.....(kelly & Kaitlyn)
Marya W: that is cute
Marya W: my dgd is also Kaitlin
Kelly R: if we have another girl, she'll be Allison..boy, probably matthew
Marya W: but she is Katie to me
Kelly R: kaitlyn is a pretty name
Marya W: I like both of those names
Kelly R: ty
Kelly R: do u talk to anyone else from PO on here?
Kelly R:
Marya W: I couldn't think of any M names for a girl or boy
Marya W: well a girl named Chanita but she barely goes there anymore
Marya W: and a girl named Stacy the host of The Anxiety Board
Marya W: I use to talk to Patrice but she took yahoo off
Kelly R: ahhh
Kelly R: not trying to be nosey, just wondering
Marya W: no problem..ur not being nosey
Kelly R: I talk to adriana a little bit, but other than you thats it
Marya W: what is her screen name
Kelly R: who?
Kelly R: adriana?
Marya W: yes
Kelly R: on here or PO?
Marya W: PO
Kelly R: Ilovemyminime
Marya W: oh I like here...she's funny
Kelly R: yea, she's a great lady
Kelly R: her dd is soooo cute
Marya W: you should ask her to IM me sometime..give her my IM ID
Marya W: oh yes she is...big pretty eyes
Marya W: now I usually put my conversations in my journal is that ok
Marya W: if you don't want me too I won't
Kelly R: sorry, went to the kitchen
Kelly R: no, thats fine with me...i have nothing to hide from anyone
Marya W: me either...that is what I am trying to show everyone...I'm clean now
Marya W: a changed woman
Kelly R: me too
Marya W: I use to be a real b!tch to some of those ladies
Marya W: when Brooke and I were tight
Kelly R: i never thought of u as a bitch
Kelly R: ahhh
Kelly R: i c
Marya W: well I was and I feel bad but I think they forgive me....I hope
Marya W: esp Dawn
Marya W: and Anna
Marya W: but she's not as bad as she use to be
Marya W: did you wanna exchange addresses....I won't put that part in my journal
Kelly R: i try not to get into any of that
Kelly R: email addy's or home?
Marya W: home
Marya W: or both
Kelly R: sure, i dont see why not
Marya W: my email is
Kelly R: my oldest dd is up doing her homework
Marya W: OMG she's gonna fall asleep in class
Marya W: did you get my email
Kelly R: lol yea, i know
Kelly R: yep
Marya W: ok ready for my home
Kelly R: mine is
Marya W: I will sure add you
Marya W: My address is
Kelly R: mine is
Marya W:
Kelly R:
Kelly R: i can tell ur writing it down
Marya W: yes I'm a bit slow
Marya W: I got it though
Marya W: I mostly send postcards
Marya W: I also send holiday cards
Kelly R: cool, me too
Marya W: like Kwanzaa
Kelly R: i love getting mail
Marya W: we do the tree thing and presents bc we do believe Jesus was a great Prophet, but we don't get into it that much
Marya W: I love getting mail too
Marya W: at Kwanzaa I will send pictures
Kelly R: yay
Marya W: girl we have been talking for an hour...LOL
Marya W: it's 3:00
Kelly R: i think we are doing photo cards this yr
Kelly R: OMG
Kelly R: it sooo doesnt seem like it
Marya W: do you celebrate Christmas
Kelly R: my dh just got home
Kelly R: yeah
Kelly R: brb
Marya W: ok
Kelly R: sorry...had to make him something to eat real quick
Marya W: that was fast
Marya W: it takes me forever to cook
Kelly R: i just cooked some cheeseburgers
Kelly R: with bbq sauce....mmmm
Marya W: we had Burger King
Kelly R: might have to cook me one :
Marya W: LOL...I don't eat meat...but I love fish
Marya W: any kind of seafood
Marya W: or cajun...like aligator or snake
Marya W: crabs
Marya W: lobster
Kelly R: i love seafood, but not fish LOL
Kelly R: ooooh, i love crab, shrimp, losbster
Kelly R: u name it but fish
Marya W: I would never eat an animal, but I don't put anyone down for eating it
Marya W: yuck I was watching this program and these people were eating rats..yuck
Kelly R: i have all my life...so i dont think i could be a veggie
Kelly R: ewwww
Kelly R: now that is nasty
Marya W: yes very
Marya W: are you computer savvy
Kelly R: ?
Marya W: can you tell me how to get my snapshots I took on my webcame to my pictures so I can send them in an email
Kelly R: savvy?
Marya W: smartie
Kelly R: i just save mine as a jpg and then go into MY DOCUMENTS and upload them from there
Marya W: Oh ok I will try that...hold on a sec
Kelly R: k
Marya W: hey gurly I;m gonna try to figure this out and then I'm gonna hit the sack...nice chatting with you...expect a postcard soon
Kelly R: ok...good luck and I will be checking my mail
Kelly R: have a good night
Marya W: alrighty then
Marya W: ignore that
Kelly R: see ya tomarrow
Marya W: talk to ya soon
Kelly R: night
Marya W: g

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Posts: 47

My eternal friend sent me this and I thought it was beautiful....

As most know Allah is God!

"Dancing with God"

When I meditated on the word GUIDANCE, I kept seeing "dance" at the
end of the word. I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing.

When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn't
flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to
flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back
or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body,
moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and
attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the
other.

My eyes drew back to the word GUIDANCE. When I saw "G," I thought of
God, followed by "u" and "i." "God, "u" and "i" dance."
God, you, and I dance.

As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance
about my life. Once again, I became willing to let God lead.

My prayer for you today is that God's blessings and mercies be upon you
and your family on this day and everyday. May you abide in Him as He
abides in you. Dance together with God, trusting Him to lead and
to guide you through each season of your life.

This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached. If God has done
anything for you in your life, please share this message with someone else,
for prayer is one of the best gifts we can receive.

There is no cost but a lot of rewards; so let's continue to pray for one another.
I HOPE YOU DANCE !!!!!!!!!!!!

~ I may not be what I should be, but by the grace of God I am not what I used to be.

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Posts: 47

10-09-04

Today was not so good, my mid-wife cannot find a heartbeat when she had already found fone before. This is just like what happened with Korionna except with her I was 19 weeks along, now I'm onlly 10. I don't know what to think....I have no bleeding, but I've had a really bad headache all day. Without her/him at least we caught it sooner. Maybe I'm worrying for nothing. Maybe the baby was just moved a certain way that she couldn't find it. I'm hoping. Please say a blessing for me. :cry:

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Posts: 47

Patrice I will answer your questions tomorrow Smile

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Posts: 47

Marya W: so where the hell are you
Brooke Sweet: here
Brooke Sweet: waiting for charles
Brooke Sweet: why
Marya W: what's your email now
Brooke Sweet: ***********
Marya W: I wanna send you a neat o card
Marya W: duhhh you've told me that a thousand times
Brooke Sweet: yea
Marya W: so is it dial up or phone jack stuff
Marya W: *******
Brooke Sweet: dsl
Marya W: duh what is dsl
Brooke Sweet: its a fast internet connection
Marya W: oh so it cost a lot huh
Brooke Sweet: not really
Marya W: mne's only 995 a month
Brooke Sweet: 30 a month
Marya W: my dh is cheap
Marya W: but at least he agreed to get me internet
Marya W: so guess I can't complain too much
Brooke Sweet: yea
Marya W: I like that sonf
Marya W: song
Marya W: the Em lover of the world likes a song by Madonna
Marya W: LMAO
Brooke Sweet: lol
Marya W: hey you aren't to come to my new site...it's inter-racial but so what...and stirr up some shit with me in the girl dept..their little wanna be's
Marya W: ewww I can't stand most of them
Brooke Sweet: lol
Marya W: wanna come
Brooke Sweet: ok
Marya W: ***********
Marya W: let me know when you get through
Marya W: I'm gonna send your card
Brooke Sweet: ok
Brooke Sweet: brb
Marya W: k
Marya W: are you coming back?????????????
Marya W: well that's not very nice
Marya W: ya nerd
Marya W: come back come back I'm more important than him

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Posts: 47

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Posts: 47

On October 15 2004 I lost another daughter, I didnt have to name her or bury her this time but I named her anyway... Kathryn Devine

Your brothers and I love you and we will see you again someday in the afterlife. I hope you and your sister meet and play together till we get there....my precious Kathryn

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On December 27 2004, in a Little Rock AR hospital, my grandfather, whom was like a father, died at the age of 74. I miss you soo sooo soo much my dear Pa.Paw.. At least Allah let me share my life with you for 29 years, I know you will visit me, but it won't be the same as getting a real big ole hug. I love you so very much may you RIP.

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Posts: 47

My 8 year old is an all around sportsman. He loves all sports, but his favorite is basketball. Jan 8 was his first game of the season, and out of 36 points over 32 points on the other team, Kendyl made 26 points....now tell me he's the next Michael Jordan?! Biggrin

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Posts: 47

Fri Jan. 7 05, we had to take my three year old to the ER....his temp was 105.6, They took off all his clothes, froze us out of the room and gave him a whole bottle of antibiotics through his IV. It was soom type of infection, but they didn't know what kind or where it was. :?: As we waited,his fever really went down. They gave him a dose of Ibuprofin, and sent us home with an antibiotic, ibuprofin and tylenol. He's doing much better now, so that is a very good thing.

written 1-10-05

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Just a warning flytrap, While your all up in my businss, and want to be me so bad, soon you will not be able to do that.....you big wanna be.

she and her secret buddie know who I'm talking about....wanches!!!!