No symptoms except bloating and gassiness and unrelated stress. I am thinking this is a good thing, but looking at last month I didn't get anything until after now anyway! This month I'm hoping no symptoms is a better sign, as I didn't get anywhere with the package of symptoms on the last two!
Please please please let this be it... BD was great. I'm going to start to worry if that doesn't produce anything!
Had a strange below coverline temp drop at 5dpo. Don't really understand why - too early for implantation, surely? Oh well, maybe it was just a fallback rise or whatever you call it!
Well CD 7 and no BDing yet - only just finished AF. So cruel.
I'm on Easter holiday, which means there is just too much time to obsess. I'm getting on with things but it's not the same as working through the day. Still, the birth of little Phoebe is making me even more determined to succeed at this, however long it takes. I'm trying to take advantage of the fact that I'll be very relaxed over the holiday, and hoping that helps with the frequency of BDing, and the ease of conception. I'm avoiding thinking about the possible need to stop TTC after next cycle so it doesn't affect the sixth form, that just makes things worse!
It's so cold in my house at the moment I'm writing this wrapped in a blanket as well as wearing two jumpers! Slightly ridiculous but rather that than waste energy on the heating.
Things have been great! I am on my Easter holiday still so I've been really happy. Although I have tons of marking to do I'm doing it in the comfort of my own home. I've been more productive than I have been in ages and I've managed to get through most of my to-do list.
I've been looking for props for the school production of Oliver Twist (not Oliver!) which has proved difficult, but I have found an amazing TV and film prop hire warehouse just around the corner from work. They're going to supply us with lots of things, including a coffin for Mr Sowerberry's and a copper for the gruel. Ah yes - gruel! I am currently concocting a recipe for it, based on Ready Brek, milk, sugar and black food colouring. Yum. Everything else is slowing coming together. I tend to make things where I can - a gentleman's cane, for example - but I've had to buy a lot this year.
On the TTC front, good news there also - I am 3dpo, have just got my crosshairs and a high rating for BD timing! Looking good so far, but I'm not going to get my hopes up too much. We'll see what happens.
I was really relaxed this cycle, even barely noticed the dpos ticking by. Then suddenly my chart went triphasic, and it all became a bit stressful as I worried about my temps continuing at the height throughout. This morning was awful - as you'll see from the post below - so I had completely ruled myself out, but things didn't work out quite as planned.
At half seven I was trying to post this on the Dec BB...
I am so frustrated! Can't get the temping 'right' at the moment! First issue: woke up at 2:15 to pee - but more than 3 hours before wake up time so just went back to sleep.
Woke without alarm. Bit dazed, didn't temp immediately then realised I was awake, checked time (5:50 - wake up is 6) so took temp. Numbers ran very quickly up to just 97.71/91 (can't remember which, irritatingly, especially as the first is virtually on the coverline) and then suddenly stopped. This is odd. Normally it hurries then slows before the actual temp. So immediately reset and took it again - 98.49. Didn't even put the thermometer down, so didn't even change position.
Last time this happened the girls on here suggested I had to use the first temp, but what do you think? I'd already been half awake for a little while - surely it can't rise 5-7 tenths in the minute or two it took to take the second reading? As I was confused, I took it immediately again for a third time (obsessive, moi?) and it was 98.49 again.
I am sorry to post a long complicated temp related point for the second day in a row. For the moment, I've stuck with 98.49. Always time for it to go down tomorrow. Especially as the cramps are now uncomfortable enough that I couldn't sleep once I'd woken up to temp.
I may well test later today just to break the tension."
I was SO down. Then my connection to the internet crashed and I was really fed up because I couldn't even post. So I went upstairs and thought I would test just so I could stop moping and move on. Used a sensitive IC so it would a) not cost me much to check myself out of December and b) so I could prove to myself I needed to move on. Then all of a sudden, and literally about 2 seconds after I dipped it, there was a shadow in the right place. I think I started shaking, and shot out of the room to grab a CB easy. Fortunately I had not thrown my little cup of pee away yet! That immediately produced a cross hair and I had this pretty picture!
Unbelievable. I am still in shock!
I've had some random symptoms - mainly that my teeth hurt! And I've had AF type cramps that go away when I stand up or move around. Nausea started up a few days ago and is DEFINITELY getting worse. I'm hoping that means it's taken good root down there.
CD26, 13dpo and a BFP. Wow. EDD is Dec 22nd. Come on little bean, you know you want to stay in there...
I am having cramps and I'm a bit worried. I guess I want to have this baby so much I can't quite believe it's going to work!
I have indigestion, bloating, gassiness, what feels like a stretching uterus and am also concerned I might have a UTI. WIth all that going on I'm kind of uncomfortable and worried something's not right. Daft, really, given I've been cramping for five days or so and nothing's happened in that time. My back aches as well though, and that's a worry too.
My first appointment with the doctor is tomorrow, so hopefully he will be able to set my mind at rest and explain whether or not this is normal. I'm also going to ask him to test in case I do have a UTI so we can get that ruled out or kicked out! I'm drinking cranberry juice for the moment just in case.
I'm so emotional at the moment as well though. I can barely concentrate with all these thoughts running through my mind and every so often I just want to go to bed and wait until this baby is safely born. I'm sure half of this is just a reaction to finding out about the baby, and worrying (as I guess we all do with first babies) whether DH is happy or not. But that doesn't make it any easier!
But I do have a set of reports to write, which means I should probably try and put this out of my head and get on with that.
Finished all the reports yesterday! But still have masses and masses of marking to do. Popped over to see my friend and her baby after work so I am a bit behind schedule tonight. It'll be dinner next.
I went to the doctor today, and he reckons my EDD is Christmas Day. I disagree because I think I O'd earlier than most, and I implanted on 7 dpo, from what I can tell, so I think FF is closer with the 22nd. He was cautious about everything (I suppose they have to be) so I now have this sense that almost all pregnancies end in m/c and you are lucky if you get through the first trimester alive. But that may just be my anxiety speaking!
Actually it was very nice to talk about it to someone. He told me to book in with the midwife in four weeks or so (I'd be 8 weeks) but the receptionists laughed and said he always says that and can I go and see her next week please to sort things out! This was very funny, and good, because I get a smaller time frame to work towards and it will help me focus on the diminishing risks week by week. I know I am only 4 weeks 2 days today, BUT I got a strong BFP at only 3 weeks 5 days, which suggests things happened early. I hope that means this is strong and viable, but I guess you can never tell. 4 weeks sound so vulnerable. Five or six sounds a bit better.
The cooking is calling from the kitchen. Better get on.
I've bought some books, and have decided that's the only concession I am making to being pregnant until I have more of a sense that everything will be ok. I'm not being negative, just cautious. Apart from eating what I need to and not what I shouldn't, I'm trying to change nothing else; don't want to get too keen when it's still not 5 weeks yet.
The books I bought were The Pregnancy Bible (very pretty hardback in pink and purple, lots of lovely facts), The Rough Guide to Pregnancy and Birth by Kaz Cooke (entertaining with some info, but a greater sense of personal experience) and From Here to Paternity for DH - which I got addicted to when I picked it up and read it in one sitting!!!
DH has been very cuddly and although he keeps telling me this is 'my fault' ( ) he does so with a massive grin, and this morning he told me I was hot .
I can totally understand people saying that you turn inwards when you're pregnant though - I can't seem to care about anything apart from the pregnancy, DH, me and our house. I have a very stressful job (and not just because it's teaching) so I am trying to protect myself by making sure I relax a lot. But I don't seem to need to try that much because something in me just wants to sit quietly and mull over what's going on in there. I have always cared loads about the kids at school, but it's easier to detach myself now and think about it as just a job; my life and health and the baby's life and health are more important.
I can't wait to be 5 weeks... As I said last time, sounds a little bit more secure every week.