Trey and I are having a really rough time. I think I have finally found the source of his constant grumpiness. Things aren't that great. Just when I think everything is wonderful, something has to screw it all up.
Things are a bit better. We have a lot to work on. Lots of trust to try and build back up. *sigh* It could be worse, but the ungrateful part of me can't help but to think that they could be so much better.
We'll move on and forge ahead like always. It's what we do.
Trey went last Monday to get a physical for the bone marrow donation he was planning on doing. Everything looked great.
Let me back track for those of you that don't know. Trey signed up in January for the bone marrow donation program. They told him he would probably never get a call. About two months ago he got a call! There was a 42 year-old man with leukemia that was a possible match, there was still only a 1 in 200 chance that he would actually be compatible. He went in for blood work to determine if he is a match and amazingly enough he was! He was really excited, but a little nervous.
Ok, fast forward back to Monday. He went in to get a physical to make sure that donating wouldn't hurt him. Well, it turns out that the man weighs almost twice as much as Trey, so bone marrow donation would be difficult. They would need a lot. Trey's doctor told him about a new (?) procedure where they give him a shot, hook him up to a dialysis-type machine and somehow get stem cells from him. Then they can grow the stem cells. It is less invasive and Trey would need less recovery time.
So everything is a go! He goes in September 12-14 for donation.
I don't even have to say how proud of him I am. I just really hope it works for this man.
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I have been thinking a lot lately. Things are so different this time around. Trey is far more enthusiastic. He always has his hand on my belly or is kissing it. He even sneaks up and wraps his arm around me in the middle of the night just to make Daniel kick him. It is truly endearing.
But, like almost everything, it makes me sad too. I can't help but to compare my pregnancies. I think it is human nature.
Another thing that keeps bothering me is when people ask if this is my first child. I do something I never thought I would do. I say yes. It is horrible. I hate myself for it, but what else am I going to say? I have tried to tell the truth and it was so hard and sometimes it is an inappropriate time. People don't know how to react and I get flustered.
When they people ask if this one is my first I can hear the word "yes" pop out of my mouth, but every other part of me screams, "NO!"
My eyes scream,"No, we saw her grow and looked at every sweet part of her after she was born."
My arms cry, "No, we held her and rocked her and touched her."
My lips yell, "No, we kissed her as much as we could in our short time with her."
My heart says, "No, I broke when she left us and I'll never be quite the same again, but she still lives on within me and always will."
Trey is home and doing well. In fact, he is out mowing the grass right now. Other than soreness in his arms where the needles were, he is back to normal.
The man received his stem cells either Friday or Saturday. I can't help but to think of him and his family right now. I really want everything to work out. As far as we know, we aren't allowed any information about him until one year passes. I wish we could know something sooner. I guess if they call Trey again we know that it didn't work.
Trey was really impressed with how smoothly things ran and how well they took care of him. They even gave him a present. It is a t-shirt that says, "I am a donor!" and a picture frame for when he finally gets to meet the man that he (hopefully) helped to save. It made me tear up.
Daniel is such a kicker! He woke me up last night he was moving so much. He flips around a lot and
I keep marveling at how different my two pregnancies have been. I feel so much healthier and I have so much joy. There is always a little sadness, but I think that there always will be.
I put a picture of Keiran, Trey and me in Daniel's room. I can't wait to tell him all about his big sister. My oldest niece can say her name and can point her out in pictures. It makes me so happy, it is just another way that she lives on.
Everything is going so well. It feels like it is too good to be true.
I went to the doc Thursday. BP was great, did the GD test and some other tests to check on my lupus. He said that he would call if there were problems. No calls!
I get a sono next Thursday (10-19) to check everything out. My doctor is just being cautious and he wants to check the placenta, his growth and flow through the cord. These can all potentially be problematic when you have lupus. I am not worried in the least! He is just erring on the conservative side. This is why we like him.
So lately, much to my alarm, I cannot stop thinking about what would happen should Daniel die. It is awful. I saw a car accident yesterday and keep envisioning that I am in one and yet another child is taken from me. I can't stop. I think my mind is preparing me for the worst. It has happened once, why couldn't it happen again? It is terrible though and I wish that I could stop these horrific daydreams.
We had an u/s on the 19th and he was measuring big at 5lbs 4oz. I have long suspected that my dates were off, so I have decided to switch to the Dec 4th due date the peri gave me initially. Everything looked great. We even saw his hair! He was breech, but when I went to the doc on Wednesday he felt like he was head down. I am going for weekly NSTs and check-ups. Everything has been perfect so far.
I have really started dropping this week. It feels odd. Now instead of being short of breath, I am having to pee all the time.
The Blood and Tissue Center called Trey and apparently his recipient is doing well! He is out of the hospital and the stem cells seem to be working and his body is making healthy cells now. He is going in for check-ups frequently, but I assume that is standard procedure. We could not be more excited. Trey is going to call next month some time and see if he can get another update. I really hope things continue to go well for him. What a wonderful holiday season his family will have if he continues to get better.